Zeke

The Blood Star Pack. I'll admit, I thought I would never hear from that pack. However, my past has came to bite me in the ass. The Blood Star Pack is the pack that I was born into. My sister and I ran from our abusive father and Alpha. They were monsters that took joy in hurting my older sister.

Eventually, my sister had found her mate. Since then, we have lived in her mate's pack as she is the pack's Luna. Long story short; we went to war with our old pack. During that war, my sister's mate, Caleb, had killed our father. Our old Alpha had also died; his blood however is not on Caleb's hands. It's on mine.

I was 12 during that war. But that wasn't the first time I had killed. Once before, I had I shed the blood of another man. I didn't shift until after the war with my old pack. My first kill occurred before I had shifted.

For this reason, my wolf is different. I'm unable to control any of my actions when I shift. In wolf form, I crave blood. I crave to kill. I avoid that version of myself by not shifting. During battles, I fight in human form. I always train in human form also.

However, no matter how I try to avoid it, I'm still a monster. Nick, the new Alpha of the Blood Star Pack, had tried to keep my secret. He didn't want anyone knowing that I was the one who killed his father. Nick wasn't displeased by my actions against his father. Everyone felt like the man had it coming for him.

But I'm still the monster. Word got out that I killed the Alpha. Rumors had spread- some true, others not. Like the rumor about me slaughtering another pack in cold blood. That one isn't true. I never killed a whole pack; nor have I ever killed in cold blood. I always feel guilty. I might not show it, but the remorse is always present.

Now, back to present time. "You've heard about the incident at the Blood Star Pack, right?" Caleb asked. He is my Alpha and my sister's mate.

I nodded my head in confirmation. A group of hunters and rogues had went into the territory of the Blood Star Pack. They managed to kill the Beta, Theo. That was last week. The funeral was a few days ago, but I didn't attend. That pack was already on edge from the attack; they didn't need the monster to scare them even more.

"Theo never had a kid. There's no one to take over as Beta. No one else is strong enough" Caleb informed me. Betas have to be strong. And strength comes naturally for werewolves. However, high-ranking wolves must be stronger than normal wolves.

The Blood Star Pack only had a Beta and an Alpha; never have they ever had a third in command. Theo wasn't born a Beta, but he was strong enough to take over the position. My bloodline is pure Betas. But neither Piper nor I took over as Beta. Piper became Luna and I stayed with her pack. It worked out nicely since Nick already had Theo lined up for the Beta position.

I wonder how they will find a new Beta. "They need you" Caleb stated, snapping me out of my thoughts. My head whipped to look at him as I raised an eyebrow. "You're the true Beta. Nick wants you to take over the position" he announced.

Me as Beta? I know for a fact that it won't work out. I'm the monster. I would do more bad than good. I would just frighten the whole pack. And their allies would also want to destroy treaties because of me. "I don't think so, Caleb" I said quietly.

He let out a heavy sigh. "The pack needs you. It can't run with only an Alpha" he stated.

It was then my turn to sigh. "Man, this isn't a good idea' I informed him while turning to face the wall and running a hand through my hair. Instead of helping the pack, my reputation will ruin the pack.

"Too bad. You're going whether or not it's a good idea" he said sternly. He sounded like a parent scolding their kids. I resisted the urge to roll my eyes at him. "Nick is picking you up at 6 p.m. tonight" Caleb stated.

Tonight? I looked back at him with narrowed eyes. "How long have you known?" I questioned.

He took a step towards me. "The day after Theo died" he answered quietly. "Look. You're the only one that can help them. If you don't, that pack will no longer exist" he patted my back before walking out his office.

Clenching my fists, I marched out of the room and to the living room- where I knew Piper would be. And my thoughts were correct when I spotted her sitting on the couch with other pack members. "Why the fuck didn't you tell me?!" I roared out in anger.

Piper flinched at my tone as I was slapped at the back of my head. "Language!" Grams scolded me. I couldn't help the growl that escaped my lips as I spun around to face her. I felt my eyes darkening as the monster fought to take control. Grams' eyes widened in fear as she stepped away from me.

I felt my claws digging into my skin as I struggled to compose myself. Before I could do any damage, I removed myself from the presence of other people. Control has always been a hard concept for me- especially if I get angry. "I'm sorry" Piper said softly from behind me. I took deep breaths, but didn't make any move to face her. "I knew you would be against it, but they need you. They need you to be the Beta that was meant to lead the pack" she informed me.

"Pipes. They don't need me" I said honestly. "I would only make matters worse for that pack" I voiced my thoughts.

Piper sighed as she walked closer to me. She wrapped one arm around my waist as she rested her head on my shoulder. "Don't believe what everyone says. You're not a killer; you're a savior- my savior. Now you have the chance to save this pack from collapsing" she mumbled.

I let out a long breath. "I hate it when you're right" I admitted. Piper squealed as she wrapped both arms around me. "Okay. Okay. I have to pack my things" I stated while pulling away from my sister. She smiled as she ruffled my hair, a habit that she never grew out of. Rolling my eyes, I walked past her and back into the pack house. I immediately spotted Grams and hugged her. "I'm sorry for my language and scaring you" I apologized.

Grams grabbed my face to kiss my cheek before pinching it. "It's alright, darlin'. Now go pack. We both know you take forever" she stated before releasing my cheeks of her killer thumb and index finger.

Her pinches really hurt. I rubbed my sore face while marching up the stairs. I got to my room and sighed. "Yay. Packing" I muttered sarcastically.

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After getting help from Grams and Piper, I finished packing all of my things. We made Sam go to the store to get me boxes, and convincing him to do that took half an hour. In that half hour, we could've just drove to the store to get the boxes ourselves; but we didn't want to go out in the pouring rain. Now all of my things were in four large boxes, a duffle bag, and a backpack- except the furniture of course.

Unfortunately, not everything will fit in Nick's car. Caleb said that they will visit later in the week to see how I'm 'adjusting', and he'll bring the rest of my stuff with him. I told him to just keep the furniture and I'll buy new ones. I have some money from winning bets. People here have really bad luck.

"Nick just got here" Piper said softly. Nodding my head, I looked around at my bare room. There was only a stack of boxes in the corner and the plain furniture. "He said he'll stay for half an hour so you have time to say goodbye" she informed me.

I turned to see my sister with tears in her eyes. A frown made its way onto my face as I wrapped may arms around her. "I'll see you in a few days, right?" I asked while gently rubbing her back. Piper mutely nodded as I pushed back my own tears. She practically raised me- with help of course. But ever since our mother died, she took over that role. "You're still the awesomest sister in the whole universe" I said softly.

Piper chuckled as she pulled away and wiped her tear-stained face. "Mom would be really proud of you" she whispered. At the mention of our mother, I got choked up. Piper gave me a small smile as she grabbed one on my hands in both of hers. "I'm really gonna miss you" she mumbled.

I gave her a small smiled while pulling her back into a short hug. "You can always call me" I reminded her. She quickly agreed before ushering me out the room to say bye to everyone else.

We almost bumped into Nick on the way out. "I'm gonna start loading up your things while you say bye" he stated. I thanked him as he slipped into my old room. With my millionth sigh of the day, Piper and I made our way downstairs. I started to say goodbye to everyone, but saved those who I'm closest to for last.

Luckily, there is no one in this pack that thinks of me as a monster. They have all seen me as a young teen, and they all know the truth about the bloodshed. They have never judged me nor have they ever been frightened of me. I made sure to thank all of them for their courtesy.

Finally, I got to my closest friends- people who I would consider as family. Mason, Liam, Sam, Grams, Kat, Amanda, Tyler, Toby, Mandy, Caleb, and Piper. I'm the youngest in our little family. Everyone else is 23 or older. I'm considered their 'baby bro'.

Reluctantly, I started with Toby and Mandy. They are mates, ones that have helped Piper raise me. Toby is the father that I wish I had. Mandy took over the motherly role, giving Piper a chance to actually be my sister. "I know you don't want to do this" Toby started. "But I'm proud that you're fulfilling your duty as Beta" he informed me. I gave him a nod as he pulled me into a small hug, patting my back.

Shortly after, I turned to say goodbye to Mandy. Ignoring her tears, the woman mustered up a smile. "We all love you very much- even the guys who are too macho to admit it" she said with a laugh. A smile tugged at the corners of my lips. "You always have a home with us" she reminded me softly. Nodding, I pulled her into a gently hug as she quietly cried on my shoulder.

Toby eventually peeled his mate off of me to let me speak to everyone else. Mason, their son, was next. "I'll see you in another life, Mase" I mused.

He rolled his eyes at me and shoved my shoulder. "You're going to Nick's pack, not World War III" he stated. Well, in my defense; I might cause World War III over there. "Be good, kid" he said sternly. I nodded my head and didn't comment on the fact that he called me a kid, when I'm 19 years old.

Liam was next. I'm surprised the bastard is still alive- not that I want him dead. He's just had a lot of close calls these past few years. But he is still standing tall in the flesh. "Instead of getting all emotional and shit, I'm just gonna give you advice. Beta isn't an easy role. And you can't just go along with whatever the Alpha says- I mean, Mason was an idiot" that got him a punch in the gut, but Liam didn't even wince. "Challenge the Alpha- not for his position, but for the right choices" he stated.

I nodded in agreement. I would never even think of challenging Nick for the Alpha position. First of all, that's a lot of responsibility. Second of all, that would make others even more frightened of me. I would further destroy the pack. "See you in my dreams, sweet cheeks" I told Amanda.

She rolled her eyes at me. Amanda is Caleb's younger sister. She's the one closest to my age, so of course I hit on her a lot. But its only a few comments; we never take it seriously. She hadn't met her mate yet, so I'm still free to flirt and such. "I'll definitely see you in my dreams. Getting your dick ripped off by a shitload of rabbits" she said cheekily. Grams quietly scolded her for her language. Amanda has this obsession with rabbits apparently being evil. After watching that minion movie- where the rabbit turns purple and stuff- she's convinced that rabbits would kill off everyone on the earth.

It's stupid, but whatever. "Take me with you!" Tyler exclaimed as he clung onto my arm. This is Caleb's younger brother. But he's older than Amanda. And obviously, that weird characteristic runs in their family. "Who will I play pranks with? Who's gonna back me up when I blame everything on Sam?" he cried out dramatically.

"I knew it was you guys!"Sam exclaimed. Tyler immediately let go of me and ran off. "You still owe me Oreos" that was Sam's goodbye. Then he ran after Tyler.

I shook my head in amusement. Most of the guys still act like their five or something; but a most of them are in their late twenties, early thirties. "I'm gonna miss you, Zeke" Kat said. She's Sam's twin. "You were the brother I always wanted. That one is..." she trailed off. I laughed and nodded in understanding. Sam can be a handful sometimes- most of the time actually. "You better call me at least once every two months" she demanded.

Laughing, I nodded my head in agreement. I will probably call every month to be honest. "I love you, Munchkin" Grams said with tears filling her eyes. I quickly wrapped my arms around her as she cried on my shoulder. It was rare to see Grams cry. She's usually slapping the back of people's heads when they curse. It has become a reflex to cover our heads after we swear.

After a while, we pulled away. She wiped away her tears, and it was like she was never sad in the first place. The old woman was grinning excitedly at me. "You're gonna find your mate" she sang. My breathing faltered for a moment. That's one of the only things that I'm afraid of. I don't want to find my mate.

Its not that I don't want a mate. I would love to have someone to be mine for the rest of my life. There's just the whole thing with me being a monster. She could be one of those people scared of me, and she could reject me. I'm afraid that I would find her, just for her to leave my life.

"You better call once you find her" Grams said sternly. I nodded my head, even though I didn't plan on it. "Now say goodbye to your sister" she gently pushed me in Piper's direction.

Piper was already sobbing in Caleb's chest. "I-I'm gonna m-miss you" she stuttered. I took a deep breath and pulled her away from Caleb and towards me. "I love you Zeke" she whispered.

I rubbed her back. "I love you too, Pipes" I muttered. She pulled away from me and Caleb pulled her back into his chest. I looked at the two of them. They were the perfect pair of mates. They were both strong. They would do anything for each other and their pack.

It sucked that they couldn't have a kid. They wanted a little girl to- it shouldn't be possible since Alphas are always male. But you never know with Piper being a full Beta. I'm sure that they can have children. But after five years, Piper still hasn't got pregnant. And we all know that they have been trying. I shuddered at the thought, but looked at Caleb. "It'll happen" I said confidently. He knew what I was talking about.

He gave me a nod and patted my shoulder. That was the most he could do, since my sister was a sobbing mess. "I'll see you in a few days" he reminded me. I nodded before turning to face the whole pack. Everyone had solemn expressions on their faces. I glanced outside, where Nick was sitting patiently in the car.

Giving the Crimson Night Pack another wave, I slipped out the door. I pushed out the sadness of leaving as I got into Nick's car. He silently started the vehicle and we pulled away from the house. I saw Piper in the doorway. She was watching us leave- watching me leave.

It was unnatural to leave her. We've been stuck together our whole lives. We were always looking after each other, before we even met everyone else. It was always Piper and I. And I never thought that we would say goodbye. But here we are. I'm leaving and that's the only thing we can do. I slowly lifted my hand to wave for the last time.

Goodbye.

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Omg. Tears.

Merry Christmas people!!!

Hope you guys like this book!!! It's gonna be weird writing from a guy's POV but I'm really excited. So yeah.

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~A.J.