Only took me 2 years because it's massive so I rarely draw in it since I can't properly fill a page

I'm on the last page but I'm about to draw on it sooooooo

I hate this sketchbook because like I said it's too big?? And I can't draw proportionately or do derail well when also drawing large

What sucks is that I'm fairly sure I have another if the same sketchbook my mom got me a while back and I had this slow build of regret when I first saw it XD