Ria's POV

I managed to get through the rest of the day without anyone noticing but had a hard time to sleep. My eyes were tired and my stomach ached for food. I went out of my room and poured myself some water.

I went back to bed and tried to sleep, when I heard a knock. I left it unlock so the person can easily get it. I turned my back on the door and pretended to sleep. I hear the door creak open followed by a heavy sigh then footsteps getting closer. I felt my bed dip down then a hand rubbing my arm. My hair was swept from my forehead and lips were placed on them.

"I miss being able to bond with the kids," I hear my mom's voice beside me.

"Same here, Hailey. Our work is what's holding us back but the holidays are coming up so, let's make sure we're free then." My dad replies as then slowly walked out the room.

"I hope the kids don't have hard feeling on us. I feel like a bad mother."

"Don't say that, you're wonderful and so are our children. But our children did get genes from a hot dad," I could just imagine the smirk on my dad's face. So this is where my brother got his player ways? The door clicked close and I fell asleep to the sound of fading mumbles as my parents kept talking.

-•-*-•-

"Sis! Wake up, let's go to the amusement park!" Randy shouts and jumps onto me. I wince at the current pain I feel on my arm. I shove him off and pampered my arm, glaring at him.

"I'm sorry" he grins. "But it's afternoon and past lunch! You haven't even ate yet!"

I groaned as I zombie-walked to the bathroom, taking a quick shower and doing my morning routine then combing my hair up to a messy bun. With a yawn I went downstairs and plopped onto a seat, resting my chin on my hand.

My brother slides a plate to me and I look at it in disgust. No, not because he sucks at cooking- didn't even know he could cook, but because of how much weight I could gain. My brother stared at me in concern.

"Are you okay?" He asks.

"Yeah, why'd you ask?"

"Because you've been off since yesterday. Does this have anything to do with the incident last Friday?"

Yes

"Nah, I just feel like my period is coming up," I reasoned, hoping that it convinces him.

"Right," he replies awkwardly and he sat down and ate. He look at me again and waited for me to eat. "Does it look unappetizing?"

"No, it's just I ate early in the morning," I lied.

"That was this morning. That's more that 7 hours, I would know because I woke up early." he narrowed his eyes at me suspiciously.

"Is it really that bad to just not be in the mood to eat?" I roll my eyes.

"Period or not, you'd still eat so much eitherway." That's exactly why. "It's unnatural to witness this, are you sure nothing's bugging you?"

"Well right now, you're the nothing that's bugging me."

"Just eat and quit being a drama-queen. We're going to an amusement park and Cole's picking us up," I waited for Randy to finish eating before putting my food in the fridge. Not a waste of food, but preservation. I drank some water and went to my room.

I rummaged in my closet for a good outfit. I stare into my storage and suddenly realize that none of it looks good on me. I settle with a floral long sleeve and button up top paired with denim shorts and my black converse.

I stared at my thighs and tried to reconsider the outfit but I was too late when I heard a beep. Outside was a black Maserati Ghibli and the guys were inside. Randy and I went out, him jumping on the passenger seat before me. I shrugged and sat at the back, plugging my earphones and shutting them out.

-•-*-•-

We all went into several rides and rollercoasters, making me feel dizzy. Good thing I didn't eat before this. We all went to take a break and eat before going to the horror house.

"Do you guys want to go to the Ferris wheel?" Julian asks.

"Nope, count me out" I say. They stare at me oddly. "What? I'm scared of heights"

"So she speaks," Brian blinked.

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Well that was the only thing you said the whole day. You replied to us with nods and stuff," Cole states 'as-a-matter-a-factly'

I shrugged and sat down on a wooden table waiting for them to sit too.

"What do you guys want to eat? My treat," Cole grins.

"I think I'll pass," I curtly reply.

"Why?" They all ask simultaneously.

"Why not?"

"Don't use that tone on us, young lady. Randy told us that he found YOUR food in the fridge. You didn't eat lunch and I doubt you ate breakfast too." Julian scolds. I kept quiet.

"You need to eat. Please, just take care of yourself," Cole rubs my back. Brian stands up and walks away.

After a few minutes, he comes back with a burger then hands it to me. "Eat. Take a bite." He ordered.

I took a bite and felt my stomach clenched. After a few more bites, I placed it down and smiled nervously. I felt nauseous. 

"There, happy?"

"You didn't finish it," he points out.

"I'm full," I reply.

It took a long argument until I gave up and just finished it off. The boys left for the horror house while Brian and I were left, because I was too scared and Brian was keeping me company. I excused myself to the bathroom and ran. I finished up with my business after feeling nauseous and washed my hands and face before heading back to Brian.

"Cut the shit, Ria. What the hell is going on with you?" Brian snaps at me. "I was keeping my temper because the other would get mad at me if I suddenly snapped at you. Now tell me what's going on, and don't even think about keeping secrets and telling lies, I can see through you" I jump at his sudden outburst.

I stared at him before sighing and answering him. "Please don't tell my brother."

"Depends."

I sigh in defeat and began to explain myself. "I just want to be beautiful. I thought about what the girls said and realized that maybe they're right. If I was beautiful, no one would believe the rumor. I just want to be perfect. Slim figure, small thighs, well-rounded hips, slim arms and a pretty face."

"Why would you say all that? And since when did you care about what others thought about you? You don't need those stupid features to prove yourself. Nobody can be perfect but if I had to think about who's near perfect, it would be you. A person with a kind heart like yours would already be beautiful inside and out." he sat next to me and held my shoulders. "I may be mean and cold, but I'm not a jerk, Ria. Believe me when I say that you are beautiful. Julian told me what happened and it surprised me when he told us you cried." I start to cry at his words.

"Why would you still want something you already have? People tend to bring you down when you're clearly above them. Just love yourself. You won't need the acceptance of others, as long as you accept yourself, it's all okay." he hugs me which surprises me. It takes me a few seconds to understand what's happening and hug back. That when I felt it. Light taps on my blouse and light sounds of sniffling by my ear. He was crying.

"So please, don't let yourself suffer because of all this. Eat and keep healthy. I know that you might be confused as to why I'm saying all this but I'm just looking out for you. I realized that, you showed the similar symptoms as her. She had anorexia and she's recovering. I saw her pain and I don't want to see the same on you. She goes on these extreme diets and workouts that her body could barely handle. She had seizures and was severely underweight 5 years ago. She- She went through a tough cycle in her life."

"Who's she?" I ask cautiously.

"My adoptive mother. My biological parents died when I was 7 and my aunt and her husband took me in and coped with me. She's getting better and she asks uncle to bring her treats everyday from work." He laughs, pulling away from me.

"I'm sorry," I apologize.

"Apology accepted. Just eat okay? Promise me to love yourself, you deserve more than you think." He smiles and I couldn't help but smile back.

The others made their way back to as and by the time they were back, I was already pigging out on another burger. I hesitated at first but remembered what Brian told me.
The thought of hating myself slowly disappeared and I was able to deal with it faster that I thought I could. I didn't forget to thank Brian before we went home and slept soundly. I kept repeating what Bria said.

You won't need the acceptance of others, as long as you accept yourself, it's all okay. Love yourself

And then, I gained my will to live. To live in a life where I loved myself.

Did he mean I was going to be a cat lady?

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A/n

Hai~!

I decided to try and update a lot because I can't keep promises on updates once school starts. So yeah!

Who do you ship? ;3

Bai~

~Scarlet