There's a voice that lives in my head. There name is Madison. They may share the same name as me but are the reason for all my self hate. All the shame I believed I had on my shoulders.

When I looked at my friends, family, or even peers at school they made the voice say all bad things.

'You'll never be as pretty as them.'
'Look how skinny they all are, you fat, ugly piece of garbage.'
'Why can't you be normal like them. They all like the opposite gender. You gay freak!'
'You try to make them smile. Well it works, your face and body is a great joke!'

Each insult cut like a knife through every part of my body.

I told others how I feel. They all told me I'm skinny and beautiful, but I could not help but not believe them. They all looked like gods compared to me. So when I told them I am joking they believed me. Not knowing I'm not kidding, I truly believed that I was ugly and fat. So secretly I let the voice get to me. Secretly I cried myself to sleep from all the hate I brought upon myself.

But than she appeared. No not my 'true love' or the light in the darkness or the shield to bloke the hate or the fighter that defeated the voice for me. No this girl became my best friend in a matter of seconds. She never met me in real life. No she's a girl that only knows me through screen. Calling and text message as our ways of communication. But yet she was able to help me to my feet and gave me a flashlight. With that flashlight and with her behind me, encouraging me, I was able to slowly find the switch that brightened my mind and turned off the voice.

With her help, that she didn't even realize she was giving, I was able to stop the voice and make myself a better person. I became happier, smiled more, and had more confidence in everything I did.

And to think, all this started with one simple message.
"Hello, I'm Lolo."

Now I'm happy with myself, how I look, and how I feel.

And it was all 'because of her.'

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This was my entry for the #MindOverMatterContest
Hope you enjoyed!
Also I would like to say thank you to MadameMiint because she actually did help me mentally and I don't think she realizes how much she helped me!
So thank you boo! You're my world and I don't know what would be of me without you!