The next time I see you you're standing with your friends, all confidence and smiles. Remember when that smile used to be for me? I do. I spend a while fighting with myself. Do I go up and say hello? Or do I stay hidden, as if I were a part of the shadows themselves. Eventually my heart gets the best of me, and I find myself heading over to you. I say hello and just jump right in, even though I feel a little out of place.

I think I say hi to your friends, but I don't really remember. I try to sit next to you at first, but there really isn't room, so I sit next to a girl who kind of reminds me of one of those porcelain dolls. She tells me her name when I ask, and I tell her mine. I think we become good friends in the few short minutes we've spent talking, and she seems like a great girl.

Soon everyone is getting up, including you. I'm not sure what to do, so I just follow suit. I hear a few people say they're heading to one place, a few more say they're heading somewhere else. I try to catch your eye, to see where you will be going, but instead one of your friends says you all will be heading to the store. I ask if they'd mind if I tagged along, and of course they say they wouldn't. So we all venture into the cold.

On the way there I keep talking to the girl who reminds me of a porcelain doll, mostly because you're talking with your friends. But that's okay, I don't really mind, as long as I'm with you I couldn't care less what we were doing. Do you remember when we would talk for hours? Once we stayed up until 5am. You told me you would be so happy to lose sleep with me. Do you still mean that?

Because I would be more than happy to give up all my sleep if it meant we could go back to the way things were.