Him

Fuck. I can't be turned on to that woman. 

I shut my eyes tight but all I could remember was her eyes earlier, checking my body out. I groaned and punched the lamp on my bedside table. The way her eyes trailed down my body, fuck it, what is wrong with me?

"Adam! Akala ko ba makikita ko na si Papa!" And the source of my insanity is here.

"Maghintay ka, Arabelle!" Galit kong sigaw, iritado na sa iniaasal ng katawan ko.

Ang dali niya naman yatang maligo? What exactly is she doing in the shower? Fuck it, why are you imagining it, Adam? I feel like I need a cold shower, I already felt the pain down there. This is her fucking fault.

Hindi ko pinansin ang malakas na pagkalabog ni Arabelle sa pinto ko. I took the shower to tame the beast inside of me. I've been wanting to do something ever since yesterday night and this isn't good. 

I fucking need Evelyn right now. My hands isn't enough.

Matapos kong makalabas ay kaagad kong kinuha ang cellphone ko para matawagan ang babae. As expected, one ring and she immediately answered.

"Finally! You're needing me!" She chuckled.

"Come." That's all I said and I ended the call. 

I heaved a sigh and massaged my forehead. Nanatili ang katok ni Arabelle sa labas kaya binuksan ko na ang pinto dahil baka gibain niya pa ito.

"Naligo ka, ah! Bakit ka naligo ulit? Tsaka bakit ang bagal-bagal mong maligo? Mas mabili pa yata ako sa 'yo!" Irita niyang sabi.

Your fault, Beauty.

"Ano? Magbabago nanaman ang isip mo? Umiral naman 'yang kademonyohan mo at ayaw mong makita ko si Papa?"

She chirped like an angry chicken but my eyes went down to what she was wearing right now. It's a yellow floral dress, I assume she likes yellow, it was Cara's yellow dress when she was 15 years old, it was already short but she still chose to wear it, now it's showing her thighs. I bet she's also wearing yellow undies underneath.

"Ano? Nakikinig ka ba?!" Bulyaw niya.

I sighed heavily and shook my head in disappointed for myself. Humakbang na ako paalis at iniwan siyang patuloy na pumuputak ng mga salita. Hands on the pocket of my shorts, I went downstairs and towards the basement. I still hear her murmurs but I choose to avoid it, I'm wanting to avoid my thing straining once more against my shorts. It's making me hard whenever I see her mad, I don't know why. It's fucking painful.

Kinuha ko ang susi sa bulsa ng shorts ko at binuksan na ang pinto. Natigil din siya sa kakaputak at bumaling na sa madilim na hagdan pababa ng basement. It doesn't have any lights. Tanging sulo lang ang nagbibigay ng liwanag pababa. Wala ring bintana para malaman kung umaga na ba o gabi. Arabelle gasped, suddenly remembering how viscous I am towards her father. I prefer that feeling than any other weird feelings.

I suddenly wanted to take back my words when she looked at me with those mad eyes. 

"Takot si Papa sa dilim!" Galit niyang sigaw sa akin.

"I know." I said indifferently even though I really didn't know he was afraid of dark. I just said, for her to hate me more.

Tinulak niya ako at galit na nagmartsa pababa, kinuha niya ang isa sa mga sulo na nakasabit sa dingding pagkatapos ay tinawag na ang Ama. I turned my back on them and walked away. I don't want to hear dramas, it's infuriating. I hate it when I see him care for Arabelle that much and yet leaving Cara here alone in the dark as if he doesn't love her. 

"Master!" Napatayo si Lumiere sa pagkakatulog sa upuan ng makita ko.

"Arabelle is on the basement." I informed, nagulat siya dahil iniwan ko ito ngunit hindi na nagsalita. Tinalikuran ko siya at naglakad na pabalik sa kuwarto ko.

Napaupo ako sa upuan at malalim na bumuntong-hininga. Natulala ako sa kawalan, inaalala ang galit na mga mata ni Arabelle sa akin. It felt . . . something painful. Maybe because I hate it when I see my Cara being mad at me. After few minutes, my phone rang, I grabbed it from my pocket and when I saw Evelyn's number, I already knew she's here. Thank the devils.

I huffed and leaned my back against the chair where I was sitting. I closed my eyes and let the darkness rule over me.

You failed me, Adam. I will forever hate you!

"Adam?" 

Napadilat ako at kaagad na nagtama ang mata namin ni Evelyn. I closed my eyes and tried to pick my breathing. I dreamt about her once again. Where the hell would Cara go? And why am I sitting in here as if she's not missing? You should find her, Adam! Damn it!

"Wait! Where are you going?" Evelyn shouted nang makita niyang tumayo ako at nagmartsa papunta sa pinto.

Nilingon ko siya, it was only then when I realize she was already naked in front of me, ready to serve me. She blushed and walked towards me with confidence, I eyed her indifferently. 

"You need release. Gosh." She rubbed my arm, my eyes drifted to her arms, suddenly remembering the way Arabelle rubbed her arms on my arms yesterday night.

I felt the pain when I remember her sweet whispering voice and it feels illegal, I shouldn't crave for Cara's twin sister! For Pete's sake, she's my little sister! 

Sinunggaban ko ng halik si Evelyn, wanting to take Arabelle off my mind. She moaned and held my hands tight so she could guide it towards her big tits. I became aggressive, I pushed her with my mouth, she gasped but I know she liked it. Evelyn's hands became needy, she crumpled my shirt and moaned loud. I pushed her more towards my bed, her back accidently hit one of my vases, I stopped.

"I'm sorry." Hinihingal niyang saad at umabang hahalik pabalik sa akin ngunit nanatili ang tingin ko sa nahulog na paso.

"That's fucking important, Evelyn." Galit kong sabi, it was my mom's favorite vase.

Napatingin si Evelyn sa nasirang paso, she blinked and looked back at me. "Come on, I can buy another one." She stepped forward and tried to caress my face, I stopped her hand.

"I told you not to touch my face, Evelyn." 

She scoffed. "Come on, Adam! Don't kill the joy and let's enjoy this . . ." Her voice softens. 

"Clean it." I turned my back on her and walked towards the door, I heard her disapproval but I'm fucking disappointed she ruined one of my mom's favorite vase.

Binuksan ko ang pinto and the person I least expected was in front of me, trying to eavesdrop. Arabelle's eyes widened, she stepped back and the panic in her eyes started to come. Her eyes landed on my back, her lips parted and she looked traumatized by the naked woman behind me, I gently pushed her back and went out so I could close the door.

"What are you doing?" I asked and dragged her out of my room, she was too appalled to answer. "Arabelle." I called.

Natigil siya nang makabawi. Kaagad niyang binawi ang kamay niya sa akin at nag-iwas ng tingin. "I just want to check." She didn't look at my eyes.

My brows met. "Check what?"

"Kung totoo ba." She swallowed, she looked like she wanted to be eaten alive.

"Totoong ano?" Hindi ko pa rin siya maintindihan.

"Na soundproof." It was barely a whisper one wouldn't hear it but I definitely heard it loud and clear.

Nagtaas ako ng kilay, napakurap-kurap siya at tatalikuran na sana ako ngunit hinawakan ko ang pulso niya.

"Did you confirm it then?" I asked.

She shook her head and removed her hands off my hold. "I was relief. I don't want to be traumatized by the sounds." Aniya at tinalikuran na ako. Hinayaan ko siya, aalis na sana siya nang biglang bumukas ang pinto ng kuwarto ko at nagpakita si Evelyn na suot-suot ang maikling itim na damit. Her eyes landed on Arabelle.

"Oh, if it isn't the temporary girl. Hi!" She smiled wide, it was an obvious mocking smile.

"Hello, the best friend." She mocked, a smile formed into my lips. Fierce. 

The smile on Evelyn's face poofed out. Iniwan siya ni Arabelle at naglakad na patungo sa kuwarto. Evelyn looked at me as if she wants me to take her side.

"Shut up, Evelyn, and just clean your mess." I said and turned my back on her to walk downstairs. 

"UGH! I won't answer your calls!" 

I just shook my head and ignored her. Nakasalubong ko si Potty na naglilinis ng sala, nagtaas siya ng kilay sa akin ngunit hindi niya ako pinansin, that made me confuse. She always greets me with her usual good morning smile. If I was not mistaken, I saw her glare towards me. It looked like she's mad, I don't know why, I ignored it though. Derobe who was humming a song while dusting suddenly went silent when I passed by her, usually, she would greet me as well but she didn't. She pretended to see a dust from the other side and ran towards it, completey ignoring me. I wasn't affected but it was weird. Pumunta ako sa labas para mangabayo, to excercise, nandoon na sa labas si Lumiere, he looked at me but immediately avoided my eyes. Iniwan niya kaagad ako nang makita papalapit ako sa kulungan ng kabayo. What is wrong with them? Why are they mad?

Lumapit ako sa kabayo ko. He's name is Philip, he's the one I always use whenever I do an equestrian race. He's a belgian horse, brown as well, his hair kind of remind me Arabelle's hair color.

"Lumiere." Tawag ko nang umamba siyang iiwan ako.

"Yes, Master?" His voice was indifferent, I ignored.

"Is Cog's vacation enough?" I asked and grabbed Philip's hair brush. I brushed his hair and he whined pleasantly. 

"Yes, tomorrow, he will immediately serve you, Master."

I nodded. "Good. I'm thinking of replacing my new right hand man." 

His eyes widened. "I'm sorry, Master!" Umayos siya ng pagkakatayo at hinarap ako ng tuluyan.

"Tell me, why are you all acting that way?"

"Ha? Na ano?" He acted dumb.

"What's wrong? Is it Arabelle?" Kumunot and noo ko.

"Arabelle? No!" Tanggi niya pagkatapos ay tumingin sa likod ko, bumaling ako sa likod ko at nakita si Evelyn na kumakaway sa akin. 

"You were all used to her attitude. What changed?" Bumaling ako pabalik sa kaniya.

"Adam! I'm done! We can go back na!" It was her voice, I didn't turn though. I'm sensing something happened while I was napping.

"She . . . offended our Arabelle!" Pabulong niyang sabi, mas lalong nagsalubong ang kilay ko.

"How?"

"She called her whore and a duplicate!" He glared behind me. "Kung hindi lang talaga ako lalake, baka nasampal ko na." 

"What? She said what? To Arabelle?" Kumuyom ang kamao ko.

"Yes!" Tumango-tango pa ito.

"Adam! Narinig mo ba ang si—"

"You called Arabelle a whore? And a what? A duplicate?" Putol ko sa kaniya, nanlaki ang mata niya.

"I-I didn't . . ." She denied and glared at Lumiere.

"You did. You know she is Cara's sister, right?" Iritado kong tanong. It fucking pisses me off that Cara considered her her best friend yet she can't even respect her sister.

I heard Lumiere's sigh of disappointment but I ignored her, my eyes are all on Evelyn who's eyes widened as if it wasn't obvious enough that they're twins.

"She is?"

"You know what. Just get out of here, Evelyn." Iling ko.

"What? No! You were the one who called me to come and now you're shooing me away?!" Galit niyang sigaw.

"Lumiere." Bumaling ako sa lalake, nahuli kong masama ang tingin niya sa akin, nanlaki ang mata niya at nag-iwas ng tingin.

"Yes, Master?"

"Accompany Evelyn back to their house." Sabi ko at sumampa na sa kabayo. I felt someone watching me from the windows, bumaling ako roon at nahuli kong nakatingin sa akin si Arabelle, nanlaki ang mata niya at kaagad niyang sinarado ang kurtina. 

She's watching me.

"Adam!" Reklamo ng babae.

I glared at nothingness, my grip on the horse's lead rope tightened. As much as possible, I want to get rid of this feelings and I want her to hate me. As if she doesn't hate me enough.

"Hop in."

"Ano?!" Reklamo ni Lumiere sabay sulyap sa bintana kung saan ko nahuling nakatingin si Arabelle.

I ignored Lumiere, my eyes went to the shock Evelyn. "Don't let me repeat myself, Evelyn."

"Okay! Okay!" Dali-dali siyang sumampa sa likuran ko, because her dress was so short, I could almost see her flesh, nag-iwas ng tingin si Lumiere. Evelyn on the other hand hugged me tight from behind as if she's going to fall, she better be, I would make this ride fast so I could get rid of her at instant.

"Hiya!"

Evelyn screeched and she giggled but I ignored her. I glanced at the window and I saw Arabelle's frown. She was looking at Evelyn as if she's judging her existence. Maybe she is, thinking that Cara was my Fiancée and yet someone's riding with me. 

She didn't know though, it was all just pretend. That's good enough. I should also avoid her.

Ginamit ni Evelyn ang saskyan niya ngunit hindi niya ito sinabi nang bumaba siya. I bet that would be her excuse to visit my castle. Hindi ko na siya hinayaan pang magpaalam, kaagad ko siyang iniwan sa tapat ng bahay niya. She has a wide house and also has a horse, her father is in politics and she's an actress, it was obvious that she lived a lavish life. I wouldn't be shock if she called a lot of girls whore,  not just Arabelle.

Nang makabalik sa bahay ay nadatnan kong nasa sala si Arabelle, nakaupo sa isa sa mga couch habang nagsusulat ng kung ano sa notebook ni Cara. She was too lost in her own little world she didn't even notice me. I slowly walked behind the couch so I could see what she was writing all along.

Red flags:

He's a cheater to his Fiancée.

Handsome yet bastard.

A Beast with mask, he must look ugly behind the mask.

And so on, the list of red flags she noted kept on going, she even scribbled a scenario where the guy choose to ride the horse with his mistress instead of his Fiancée.

"The scenario seems familiar." I said, she jolted from her seat and looked at me with wide eyes.

"Ano'ng ginagawa mo rito?!" Bulyaw niya.

I chuckled, "this is my house, Beauty."

"Stop calling me Beauty! My name is Arabelle, don't you dare create an endearment! It's disgusting!" She's mad. I wonder why.

I do have an idea but I refuse to acknowledge it.

"So that's your male lead's character? I think a lot of readers would hate him." I changed the subject.

"That's the goal." She glared at me.

"You want your reader to hate your character?" I asked, shock.

"I want them to hate him." She said.

"What about the girl?" I asked curiously.

"They'd be on her side. They will loath the guy as much as the girl loathed him."

I nodded, convinced that I was the inspiration with her hatred towards the guy. 

"What if she fell in love with him?" I asked, I don't know why I already assumed she's the romance author who fed her readers' fantasies in a relationship.

"Then she'll kill him. Only then, she'll have her revenge." She shrugged.

"Oh! That's mean!" I chuckled.

"It's tragic." She said quietly and sat back on the sofa.

Tragic. I wonder if her life would end up as tragic as well especially now that she's with me. With the Beast.

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