Okay so my friend was like wHeN aRe yOu gOnNa uPdAtE tHiS bOoK.

So this is me doing that.

So recently I deleted all my socials except Wattpad cause gurl the amount of fucking messages I get is insane.

The reason I haven't been on Wattpad for so long is cause I'm to busy chatting to ppl. I honestly hate people, I would much rather write the whole day rather than talk about friendshipey things.

Yes Friendshipey is now a new word I invented.

I really need to Update my stories and edit but being lazy is sooooooooo fucking annoying. Your head is saying one thing but your mind is saying another.

Piece of advice for ya: Never fall in love.

Love is fucked up.

I know everyone says that but its TRUE. This is why I'm only getting married when I'm like 32, after I get a house, car, job, money etc.

Men are fucking IDIOTS.

Another reason why I'm Bi.

Oh, speaking of sexualities. My friend just told me she's les. She first came out as Bi, now she's full lesbian. Honestly I'm very proud of her but that got me thinking.

Am I actually happy with my sexuality?

I mean I know I like GIRLS and GUYS but I'm starting to think I'm Pansexual. Hell, I wouldn't mind dating a non binary person or even trans.

But then again I wanna be gender fluid.....

Which means one day U can be a guy, a girl or just they/them. I've always loved wearing guy clothes and have quite a dominant side with girls........being a boy would make me happy.

Don't get me wrong, I love being a girl and dressing up etc but I would also LOVE to have guy days. Or maybe both.

My family is incredibly religious so I'm probably only gonna fully come out when I'm old enough to make decisions for myself. For now imma just stick to being Bi, plain and simple.

I'll work out the complications later.

At a point in my life I thought I was Asexual cause I absolutely hate relationships.

But then I realized I just hated online ones. Recently EVERYONE has been dating ppl online and I fucking hate it. Online partners are so fucking needy.

"When are u coming online?"

"Wanna sleep on a call?"

"Why aren't you texting me enough!"

CHILE CALM TF DOWN.

I would much rather be cuddling, kissing, holding, spending time with my partner NOT keep on facetiming and texting. That shit is so boring.

I've been asked out multiple times online and I keep rejecting. I've dated about 7 ppl online, and I absolutely hated it.

My relationships never lasted more than 3 months cause I always broke up with them, aka cause I was bored as hell. It feels like you're trapped in the relationship.

My best guy friend even had a crush on me and i felt the same but he lives fucking miles away. I can't do that.

Wassup Nick, I know you're reading this.

Is it bad to date someone 5 years older than u? Like 15 and 20? Yeah I guess that's fucked up isn't it. Imagine having your first kiss at 15 with a 19 year old.....couldn't be me hehehehe.

Imagine fooling around with your best friends brother.....also couldn't be me...

Anygay moving on.

(Why the hell am I exposing myself)

Let's talk about my types.

I'm a switch on both genders so get ready for some tea.

Type 1 (Girl Sub) - Shorter than me, shy, cute, preferably glasses, good sense of humor, kind, loving, basically an uwu gf.

(Girl Dom)- Taller than me, fucking dominant, protective, tough etc etc.

Basically both opposites you get it?

My boy types are exactly the same. Sub boy needs to be uwu and dom needs to be...well dom.

Did I just say sub boy?

Yes I did bish, you can call me mistress babyboy.

LMAO NAH I'M PLAYING.

But fr, I can dominate a submissive male but we won't go there.

Kinks? Why not

Dom Boys:
- I don't mind calling them daddy, master, sir etc
-Getting choked
-Edging
-Getting Praised
-Degrading (depending on my mood)

Sub males:
-BDSM (me tying them up etc)
-Orgasm denial
-Calling me Sir (dont ask why)
-Toys
-Gags

As you can see I don't like BDSM on myself but wouldn't mind doing it on someone else.

Everything's the same with the girls except the Submissive females.

I'd like to be very vanilla with my subs and OCCASIONALLY rough. I love praising more than degrading.

Anyways

I think I'm high cause I would never publish this if I was in the right headspace.

....idk how to end this so.....

ADIOS