My Dating Life #Rant

I'm supposed to be fucking updating but I'm lazy and this just randomly popped in my head so why not?

I know SOME of you have never dated but believe it or not, I was quite a fuckgirl back in my day.

No really.

Shocking I know.

Imagine me, sweet innocent Lay being a fuckgirl.

Doesn't sound true ik ik but IT IS!

I might even do a lil exposing hehehehehehehehhehe because I'm in a bad bitch mood :p

Let's start from ze beginning. Just a reminder that all of these relationships were online-

1. ABU [Both of us were 13 when we starting dating]

First of all I'd like to state how much I hate his name, no offense but ew.

Lemme just call him monkey for now cause he's literally from Aladdin, I also use to tease him with that line.

Okay so ze monkey and I met through my best friend, who dating this guy called Kai at the time. This was in 7th grade and relationships were a big fucking trend. We met when Eryn (ex bff) gave him my number and we started chatting.

We instantly started flirting and he joked about us dating. I was surprised and was like "are you actually serious?" And he was like "I was just kidding....but if you wanna date then that's fine with me."

So yes, in the first 24 hours of knowing eachother, we started dating. When my best friend found out, she was heartbroken because she developed feelings for him and didnt say anything abt it cause she was with Kai.

But yeah she eventually accepted us and tbh ze monkey and I were fucking cute.

We dated for about a month before I broke up with him because I started getting feelings for Kai.

Yes Kai, my best friends BOYFRIEND. So technically Kai and I would flirt behind our lovers backs while we were still dating them and....yeah.

Everyone said monkey and I acted more like best friends than a couple and maybe that's why I felt like I needed to find a better "boyfriend" not a best friend. Idk what was going through my head.

Kai broke up with Eryn to be with me and I broke up with monkey to be with Kai. Eryn found out and was fucking ready to kill me, as she should. The guilt got to me and before Kai could even ask me out, I told him I didn't wanna do this anymore.

I felt terrible because I betrayed my best friend and hurt monkey in the process, who was super sweet and totally supported me as a boyfriend.

Still regret it up to this day but I was young and fucking stupid so

2. Jaden [A month after monkey and I broke up, both of us 13]

So after monkey, I was still feeling like shit and so so so guilty and just started messing around and becoming a fuckgirl.

Jaden was cute and I instantly texted him from a groupchat we were both added into. We started dating after a day or so of talking.

And then broke up a week later.

We both agreed the relationship was dead, we never talked and the wasnt a spark at all. We just found eachother attractive and that was it.

End of.

3. BEN [Literally 2 days after Jaden and I broke up, I was 13 he was 16 I think]

So Ben and I started talking from, you guessed it, a groupchat.

He was an athlete, fucking RAGING muscles and shit. He went to wrestling competitions across the city and all that jazz.

You'd think he'd be a fun guy. Wrong.

He was decent looking but his personality was utter shit. His conversations were dry as fuckkkkk and he was a little obsessed with me.

Always tryna phone, texting 24/7 and just being weird. One time he phoned when I was in a family gathering and my aunt sees the caller ID as "Ben❤" and lets just say he caused hell for me that night.

Super religious family sees a boy calling you at 7pm and you're only 13? Bitch you just asked for a straight up death sentence.

We dated for 2 months, my longest relationship till date. I wanted to break up with him the moment we started dating but I also didnt wanna have another relationship cut short.

I wanted this one to last a bit.

Anygay he cheated lol.

With my best friend.

Ironic innit.

My best friend at the time, Hannah, came up to me and said "your boyfriend is hitting on me and asking if I wanna be his girlfriend in secret"

I was grateful she told me.

I wasn't really hurt since I never ever loved him in the first place, but it kinda stung. I deserved it though, karma is a fucking bitch.

We broke up and the next day he started dating one of my other friends.

So yay.

4. Rachel [A few weeks after Ben, I was turning 14 and she was 15 I believe]

Rachel was the first girl I ever dated.

We met when my friend and her had some beef and I asked for her number to defend my friend. It went well actually and she and my friend were good again.

But then Rachel and I got close.

At the time I was so confused about my sexuality, she had already come out as bi a while ago.

She admitted she wanted to date me but every time I kept declining because I was scared of what others would have thought of me.

I posted on my status, asking if I dated a girl, would they see me any different.

They were all fine with it.

I asked Rachel to be my girlfriend and she said yes.

But I broke up with her the very next day.

I felt so fucking bad, she had been waiting for me for so long and then I get her hopes up before crushing them. I told her I wasn't ready and dating a girl made me feel uncomfortable.

She was sad but accepted it and told me to take care of myself.

5. Tye, real name was Matthew but everyone called him Tye. [I was almost 14 and he was 17. It was 7 months after Rachel.]

Yes yes, the age difference was BIG, especially when I was a literal baby and he was close to being an adult.

Can I just say he was a fucking model.

So fucking hot bro I swear.

Anygay.

He and I went way back, I somehow happened to have his number on my phone and texted him even tho I had no clue who he was.

He had a girlfriend at the time and we would just chat randomly. He would ask for relationship advice and I didnt act my age, I was wild and sexual and a whole bunch of other shit when I was younger and maybe he liked that.

They broke up and we started getting a bit too close, sexting and tons more.

He wasnt into the whole relationship thing, just wanted a no strings attached sorta deal but I insisted we try dating.

We agreed to keep our relationship open, because of how flirty we were with others.

We dated for over a week before we both ended it. We only saw eachother as friends really, it was just lust and nothing else.

He also said he was only interested because of my 18+ shit and I said I was only interested cause he was a hot badboy. We laughed about it later.

He used to call me his queen, I remember fucking dying of a blush attack when he first called me that.

Moving on,

6. Jack [I was 15 and he was 20. This was a year and a half after Tye]

Yeah I had a thing for older guys back in the dayyyyyy.

We met on discord, a server with over 100 people. His best friend liked me but I wasn't interested.

At the time I was completely done with the idea of relationships, I would flirt and keep it casual, just like I do now.

Cough.

But I eventually gave in when he wouldn't stop pestering me.

I think we dated for 3 weeks because his friend was fucking jealous and kept trying to sabotage the relationship. Plus, Jack was depressed and I didnt like dealing with all his shit.

He did it for attention and if you know me by now, you'd know how much I despise attention seekers.

I used to be depressed so I understand where you're coming from mate but suck it up dude and stop trying to make ppl pity you. Maybe he was also triggering me and I hated it.

We broke up but still remained friends. After some drama I cut ties with my old friend group, only keeping the most important person and that was Nick.

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Yeah so that was my dating life shortened as best I could.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask. It could be about a relationship I had or something else, go for it.

Those were the official relationships, here are some of the people I ALMOST dated or just fucked around with.

.Kai [self explanatory]

.Keanu [Some guy that wanted to date but he had a bad name in our school so dating him would have been bad for my reputation]

.Shriyan [Guy I met at a chess tournament, super kinky and shit. We sexted, he taught me the art of seduction and some other stuff lmao. I think hes the one that made me such a freaky hoe]

.Cullum [He was Rachels ex and had a thing for me. I was even gonna suggest a poly relationship but decided not to, way too much drama]

.Amira [first girl crush. That's it]

.Kevin [Some dude I knew that was super submissive. We had daily phone calls and thats when I tried phone smex and yeah it was fun. Especially since he sounded so good-]

.Felan [A guy I was literally obsessed with, we flirted and shit but he was a jerk. Lead me on the whole time]

.Zahra [My childhood best friend that I grew feelings for but quickly got rid of them when she said she didnt feel the same. Sometimes she still teases me about it and purposely moans on our weekly calls just to hear my reaction, that is normally me going "fuck"]

.Shane [Best friends brother, first kiss, first cuddle, lots of firsts. We went as far as making out shirtless but that was it.]

Nick [Tbh the only one in this entire chapter that I actually FELL in love with. Our story is complicated but in conclusion, we're soulmates. Hes my best friend, my caretaker, my dom, my everything really.]

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I'm sure there were WAYYYYY more but there's only so much this brain can remember.

I haven't started The Mistress Series yet since I've been so fucking busy but I'll try some time later this week.

Its 12am and I gotta wake up at 3am cause I'm fasting for this entire month and then probably have to work on top of that, not to mention family shit.

Then school might be getting sorted.

I'm just stressed and tired at this point.

I better try and sleep.

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Peace✌︎
~Lay

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