my emotions

My sadness is an overbearing emotion that swallows me whole and doesn't allow the emotions to grow.
My happiness a dwindling light of hope that minimalisticly sparkles hoping that it reaches me in time.
My fear is a cannibalistic carnivore that roams around my heart and attacks it at any moment.
My love is a forbidden place that not even I can access it at times, it is as if I am fighting with my own mind to allow myself to love.
I am my own chaotic catastrophe with conflicts inside my withering bones.
I am my worst nightmare.
I am the beast that everyone cowards away from.
I'm a damaged human, dragged down by others who inflicted me into pain and suffering,
I am the thing that everyone thinks that I'm worth something.
In the end I'll drown them, I'll drag them down to the depths of my own hell if they let me.
My emotions are dangerous, even to me.

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