let's be honest: a slam poem

Let's be honest with each other,
I don't see myself in a clear crisp light.
I look at that dark side of things and cover it up with my dark humor.
You see me as an antidote but I just see myself as the poison that slips down your throat as you swallow me.
People say great things about me but at the same time, others don't.
I'm annoying to some and I honestly agree.
I mean, look at me.
I'm just some girl in the crowd that tries to scream but can't.
I'm just some girl that walks the halls of a community college, that I will be soon leaving after one more semester.
I'm just some girl.
I'm nothing special.
So, let's be honest.
When you say I'm beautiful, I know you mean it.
When you say I'm a good friend, I know you mean it.
When you say I'm such a caring person, I know you mean it.
When you say I'm annoying, I'll agree with you.
When you say I'm such a bitch, I'll agree with you.
Whatever you say to me, I won't deny it if it's true.
Beauty is something we created though.
It is what society made.
It is what we label people as.
Beauty doesn't truly exist.
I am neither beautiful or ugly.
I'm just me.
I'm that girl who is an annoying bitch.
I'm that girl who is intelligent enough to deceive people into thinking I'm not smart.
And let's be honest,
You know it is true.

a.b.