I'm empty

I told myself I would get better but I find myself starving myself. I care about my weight and I still want to be in control. I still eat more than I used to but sometimes I feel as if I have to force myself to get the food down. My mind says I need to feel empty, but my body begs for food. I feed it to silence to moans for food. Then I go through the day feeling empty till the moans for food return.

a.b.