broken promise

I'm sorry that I have failed to not keep the promise that I have made for you. I have failed to sleep, even though for the past 2 almost 3 days now I haven't gone to bed until 5:00 am in the morning. In all honesty, I don't feel tired nor drained anymore. I just feel as if I have little time to do more writing that will help me to become more eloquent. Therefore I stay up more late listening to quiet music such as Eden and piano music. I know you will say that I need my rest but I really don't care about it anymore. I nap when I need to, and sleep when I have to, but even if I told you I was fine, you wouldn't believe me.

You know me well enough by now that I don't like to sleep anymore because I rarely dream, all I have are nightmares and complete darkness. I rather choose to be awake at night than sleeping most of the time.

I'm sorry though that I have broken your promise.

a.b.