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"Jimin, don't be in there too long. Who would know if you faint. Have you not skipped your breakfast? As your teacher, I am worried." I knocked on the door. "I will leave this house! I tell you! Come out now!"
He sighed and lazily unlatched the door. I could see the whiteness of his face through his empty stomach and brimming worries.
"Don't be ridiculous."
"Then help me." he retorted. "Go and say-say something to him to make it all go away-his miseries. I have tried, don't think of me, I am spilling it all on you alone. I tried but he would use his older brother tone and would sit back helplessly." his lip quivered. "I don't possess best cure through words. However when I first saw you, my soul said you'll be his cure."
"Do you wish me to marry him?! You don't right?" I asked in slurpy tone, an attempt to sound uncaring, ending with a very awful chuckle. He wiped his running nose and stared at me like I was very unclean man. He started crying in his palms again.
"Hey, I wasn't serious about that." I held his folded shivering shoulders.
"That's where everything falls. You aren't being serious. Go away-leave this house, it is what you wished before. I can feel you, nobody wants to stay in this gloomy house that emitts the haunted mansion aura echoing the past melodious laughs of family. Go! These paintings, art has anyways lost my fancy. All empty." he cried.
I leaned and patted his hairs uncombed and rough. "After all the stories of past melodious laughs, lovely gardens of newly married couple that you've told me-I have a part of my soul to this house that is no less than home to me. I have eaten and slept here so I owe it. I can't leave. I won't be surely sure to put perfect help in it but I can try."
He sniffed and blinked his eyes at me. "You will?" I nodded smiling softly.
"Now dry those tears and stop starving. Let's get you breakfast." I wound my arm around his shoulder and leaned on my side as if a patient.
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"But tell me first about the story. Between Taehyung and his lover." I watched Jimin gobbling up the biscuits. Few minutes earlier he almost swore to fast for week, look at him now. "You said half. What about after the Soobin that piano teacher arrived here?"
"I have said you whole." he wiped the corners of mouth.
"No I am sure, you didn't." I shook my head. "What led to the decline of their relations and end of Kim Seokjin is left to be said. That is where Taehyung sir's fall began."
"Rubble began per se when we a ignited a suspicion in our heart on Jin who was adhered to Soobin's side." he rejected eating breakfast as past bitter stirred in him again.
"Did you or your brother saw any act of them that was questionable?"
"Uhm, well if I remember the time, my brother was commencing a new business in a far end of a village, starting up a motel and wind mills there. So he happened to stay out for long time sometimes days. But, I..." he breathed out. "I was here, doomed to see it all. I saw them, Namjoon hyung saw them, maids saw them!"
"I want to know what did you see?" I asked him cautiously as I could see the wreck I saw in Taehyung had a tiniest reflection in Jimin too.
"You know, I despise those dark times, and recalling them might hurt me severely but, I'll tell you." he leaned forward busying the space between us. His eyes around all kitchen.
"Don't worry, there's no maid or butler here." I whispered down.
"Ah, they know it all, it was a free melodious drama to them that turned into a fun gossips in their gatherings after mansion fell asleep." he rolled his eyes. "I was being alarmed for my brother. I fear, he won't like the past graves being dug up all now."
He drank up the craneberry juice and filled his glass again. "Suddenly, one day after few weeks spent here, Soobin met with a sort of mental breakdown-very uncanny because that wasn't something we had an idea he would have. He was too calm to have choas in him, however he indeed was knocked down by sudden pitiful cry. I never cared to ask what troubled Soobin to have such a mental wreck-I left him alone. However Seokjin's empathy activated for his teacher. He ran for him, stood in front of his door for an hour, begging him to open it and let him see the situation until Soobin gave up and had Seokjin in."
"Hm and then?"
"I saw them hugging! Very tightly. No space between them!" he cried in most hushed tone.
I wheezed. "And you clapped a label of 'cheater' on his back! Come on you, this hugging would be forgiven even by god."
"Hey, I wasn't jumping on conclusions yet. I kept silence on it till it all gradually turned to worse."
"Please tell me more clearly. No way you just peeked in and saw them- doing whatsoever."
Jimin told me every small thing he saw.
'"Soobin-ssi!"
I heard a cry of Seokjin. Hysterically I ran to the source of voice coming from piano practise hall, leading to the rare Soobin on the floor who was a man of posture- below him, the pool of tears and Seokjin seizing on Soobin's shoulders and panicking.
"What is the matter?" I asked. Seokjin looked at me swiftly, a light of help in him. "He came from somewhere out I don't know about and collapsed right on the floor. Do something! Jimin-ah." Before I could run out for fetching any doctor, Soobin stood up and dashed away upstairs like a wind.
"Why is he being strange?" Seokjin questioned me and I was clueless. "Go, you were about for doctor right? Why stopped? Go and bring one."
"Didn't you see Soobin-si walking in his room on his own. I believe he is fine. Seokjin, his tears are asking for a privacy, give him one. He just needs to be alone. Don't you tail behind him, leave him be." my words fell on careless ears, Seokjin did run behind Soobin and stood in front of the raged slammed door, knocking on it worriedly.
"Soobin-ssi for God's sake let the door open. Tell me where did something go wrong with you? What made you cry? You are scaring me." His voice was tender, any man with heart could melt into and crawl to it for comfort.
"I believe it hurt you, but sharing it might lessen the pain caused." the lock was unlatched finally. The door opened in very small crack where petite Seokjin slipped inside. I showed myself uncaring but needed to see what caused a callous man to hiccup such poorly. I with light steps walked up to hear what let the stoic posture of Soobin to be miserable. My ears flew and stuck to the crack of hardly opened door.
"You were very calm from the beginning Soobin-ssi. Like deep woods where winds howl more ghastly. I was waiting and sure you would break from this forced image of stoicness and would show-"
"Stop reading me Seokjin." His voice was rough and tremored. "I let you in for you were too harsh and loud on the door, letting all know I'm here in tears being pathetic. Go out if you are trying to know me."
"I apologize for what I said. Besides I don't need to know you more. The days we've spent, I believe, I know you quite well."
"The days we've spent!" Soobin scoffed. That sentence was unpleasant for me to listen.
"Don't raise your surety there. I am quite sure you don't know me at all. Sometimes it is never what it seems." his eyes darkened.
Seokjin's smile fell. He knealt beside Soobin and held the handkerchief out from his pocket reaching out to wipe tears of teacher.
"Don't!" Soobin growled. Seokjin was this way always, pushing around to be helpful no matter if someone asked for it or not. He would do this job as a kind human should. He was made to touch a hopeless and let them find calm in his skin.
"Seokjin I am afraid you should rather slap me now or regret this kindness very later." he slapped the hand away, his eyes boring into beauty ready for wiping tears. He must've felt his heart thundering there if he isn't purely stoic.
"You said, you were out to meet someone. Did that person give you this distress?-Was it Namjoon sir?"
A long silence revovled around here and suddenly something sounded rustled, so I peeped in to see more, quietly pushing the door and to my surprise, I saw them hugging! with no space left between them, adhered like two sides of coin! As if they any 'lovers' to be apart for ones duty at the war.
Soobin clunged to him like he would fell into cruel abyss if not holding onto something, so he clung on someone. His large long hands I came to despise, wounding around Seokjin's waist with so much strength, it troubled me.
But, I-I kept quite. Acted as if I unsaw that or never saw it at all. For me or any of us, this would be just a desperate hug to soothe the inner pain. Soobin was damaged, Jin provided him warmth nothing to point out with disgusted eyes.
But if Seokjin that time was aware of things that have cautious demlimits and should have known better or I should have taken that hug like any taboo and warned him lest it goes to extreme and known by his sensitive husband. Only then we weren't be now living such doom.
"You kept quite on the hug but do think it all began from there? Do you suspect that Seokjin crossed his line hugging his teacher?" I asked. After listening to it, my mind couldn't let me judge on any of them. I still have very little knowledge of two people here once writing their illegitimate love story, now gone.
"Beauty of painting is ruined if it's painted out of lines, Jungkook. Seokjin, he either was too immature to color inside the lines or he thought his beauty would remain demure, shimmering even if he goes out of his lines. Whatever it was, lest figuring it out, he had done more far from where there was no chance of undoing it."
"Was he having chance of undoing it if he had realization onown his actions of degrading committed?"
"My brother loved him like there's no world outside if Seokjin isn't in it. He would have forgave Seokjin even if a blade was deliberately stabbed in him. He almost turned blind eye to all going behind his wounded back. My brother now is callous, reserved, locked away from emotions, but once was sweetly ready to take it all from his other half no matter how putrid, vengeful, tormenting or hateful was to be received. He would let it all go as long as Seokjin no matter however impure he turned in whole day was found in his arms at the time moon shined."
If I judge the love of Taehyung who has tormented himself in yearn for love from his spouse then I better should not. He has left no effort to be a lover, one dreams.
"Why did Soobin say 'Slap me now or rather regret it later?' what did he mean by that? It's catching my attention the most."
"Aah, I thought of it too. I put it as Soobin was sure of his deleterious love rising for his student who is happily married and was holding himself back but it all to vain when Seokjin couldn't maintain the distance needed to keep the things decent and fell in wrong way. Soobin knew it would ruin them all and his broken conscience might not save him to the best. In the end it happened what Soobin feared." He chuckled.
No, I don't find me agreeing in this. I think it was something else, the reason on why he put the caveat in it.
'Often it is never what it seems.' Soobin who was said to be stoic told this and I believe that no stoic man speaks of themselves. Stoic person never discloses his mystery nor has a breakdown where people could find them. They're their own supporters and confides within. I do think it's really not what it seems.
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A/n:- This is slow burn story so I hope people are patient with it.
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