She was pregnant with his child once more and she was with Seth , some where she didn't know , somewhere he couldn't imagine her to be .

He tried everything . Every meditation , every trick in the damn Jedi and Sith books .

"Daddy?" Stella asked walking into the room he was in , her long brown hair in a messy of a bun and her pink nightgown trailing behind her.

"Hi sweetheart" he said sadly. She crawled up into his lap and looked at him.

"Daddy? Does mamma not love me anymore ?" She asked "is that why she left? To be with a little girl who she loves ?"

"What ? Stella -"

"I'm a bad girl... I fight with mamma and I get in trouble a lot daddy... Mamma left so she could be another little girl's mamma"

"Stella , your mother loves you very much ... She had to go away" he tried to explain it in the simplest way and made it that this wasn't her fault.

"Mamma is with the babies right now" she said playing with the ears of her teddy bear.

"What do you mean ?"

"Mamma ... I felt her... She has two little babies in her belly... Two little girls I think... Little girls who she'll love more than me" she huffed.

"Do you ... You can talk to mamma ?" Ben asked .

"No" she shook her head "I can feel her ..."

"What's mamma doing right now ? What do you feel?" He asked his daughter.

"She's with that scary man ... He's yelling at mamma ... Mamma doesn't like him... He doesn't know that mamma is gonna have babies...
Mamma is worried that he'll find out and be mad... Because the babies are your babies daddy ... Not his"

"What do you mean Stella?" Ben asked his daughter , moving some of her hair out of her face.

"The mean man... He wants mamma to be having his babies... But ... But she is having your babies "

Ben gulped "did the man hurt mamma?"

"No... He's been feeding her and stuff ... He doesn't touch mamma..."

"How come ?"

"Mamma's force ... With the babies it means that if he comes close he gets shocked ."

"Damn" Ben sighed "can you tell what planet mamma is on?"

"Mamma is on a planet... There's sand ... And ... There's a AT-AT that mamma visits"

"An AT-AT? What does the AT-AT have on the inside ?" He asked hoping for some information.

"There's marks ... Like little lines all over ... On a wall... And mamma has a doll... It's made out of orange stuff ... And there's a stick ... And the stick is two sided" Stella described to him.

"What else ?"

"There's a helmet ... Like the one uncle Poe has ! And there's a dead flower ... With a pair of goggles "

Ben nodded then picked her up "sweetie ... I'm gonna put you to bed and I'm gonna make some calls okay?"

"Mamma is sacred" she said "she's scared that you'll be angry... That she didn't tell you about the babies"

"How long has mamma known about the babies?"

"Since ... Since before you left for your mission..."

"Fuck" he mumbled .

"Daddy!" She scolded him.

"I'm sorry sweetie .." He kissed her then tucked into bed . "I love you" he said to her sleeping form who was holding onto the blanket that Rey had made years ago.

*

Ben was trying to figure out where the hell Rey could be ...

He remembers talking to her about AT-AT's how they make a good home for the desert...

Her AT-AT had marks on the wall like the one Stella talked about. And had a doll she made out of orange fabric scraps and a staff.

She used to have a x-wing pilot helmet and a flower she used to water.

Ben pulled at his hair and tried to feel his wife through the force , their force bond had always been strong and yet he couldn't feel her.

He just wanted to feel her and tell her he's not mad at her for not talking about the babies .

Babies ... The two little girls who she was having... He would have two sons and three daughters....

It also disgusted him that Seth tried to lay a hand on her , trying to bed her in ways that only he could , should and ever will.

He felt sick thinking of him trying to force her down and prying her legs open, against her pleas and begs .

"Please don't rape me"

He remembers her telling him that very same thing a good six years , back when he was controlled by Snoke and the dark side of the force .

Now he wasn't like that, he was neither light or dark but a grey Jedi ; much like his wife.

He tried to think of all the times they were together and talked of her childhood , how he wished he could get her off they god damn liter box.

His eyes widened and he gasped ... She was on Jakku .

-A.N.-
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