- Phil... - Dan breathed out, hovering over Phil, one hand on each side of his head.

- Danny, fuck... - Phil moaned.

They both moved at the same time, Phil gripping Dan's hips even more tighter and Dan gripping the bed sheets under Phil, both moaning in pleasure.

Just a bit more.

Just a bit more.

And a little bit more.

And, and, and...

Just right there...

Bum!

Phil moaned out in pleasure, pulling Dan down into a kiss but not being able to feel Dan's lips against his.

Phil slowly opened his eyes, still out of breath, to see that there was no Dan hovering over him.

Phil looked around, slowly understanding that he'd just had another fucking wet dream about Dan.

Fuck, that fucking almost-kiss! For fucks sake, Phil! You need to calm the fuck down! You are like some horny teenager who can't keep it in pants! Hold yourself together, for fucks sake!

Phil was yelling at himself in his mind while slipping into the shower to wash away any shameful traces of what had just happened, again.

Dan woke up to the sound of a running shower.

He slowly sat up, looking down at his hand, which he remembered holding Phil's hand but was now empty.

Dan shook his head to try and clear his mind a bit before standing up, only to fall back down onto the bed.

His head was spinning like crazy.

Dan closed his eyes, putting one arm over his face.

He tried his best to calm down but everything just kept getting worse with every passing second.

He felt the familiar burning taste travel up his throat, warning him what's coming.

Dan stood up and ranto the bathroom, ignoring the fact that he almost didn't see the way at all.

He leaned over the toilet just in time, pouring out everything that was left inside him.

Cramps started to come in painful waves, washing over Dan, making him crash down onto the floor.

Feeling the cold seep into his skin made him feel a bit better but the cramps didn't give up, trying to crush him down.

Phil rushed out of the shower upon hearing Dan throwing up.

He froze seeing Dan on the floor, trembling and gasping for breath.

Phil kneeled down next to him, not really knowing what to do.

If I will try to touch him, he will freak out even more... what should I do...?

In that moment Dan turned his head, facing a worried Phil.

And just seeing those beautifully deep, blue eyes, made all the cramps and pains go away, freeing Dan, letting him breathe.

They kept staring at each other, getting lost in one another's eyes.

Dan's breathing went back to normal, allowing his mind to clear and his body to begin relaxing.

After around ten minutes of non-stop eye contact, Dan's eyes started to travel lower to see that Phil was stood only with a towel around his waist and with little water droplets still covering his smooth skin.

Dan's breath hitched in his throat making him start to cough.

Phil reached out his hand to help Dan, being pulled out of his trance, but Dan just waved his hand away, slowly sitting up and calming down.

- Are you okay...? What happened? - Phil stayed where he was, still watching Dan.

Dan just shook his head, sucking in a couple of deep breaths before turning to face Phil.

Their eyes met again, sucking them back into the sweet feeling that they can't recognise.

Dan shook his head one more time, looking away and slowly standing up.

Phil jumped up too, ready to catch Dan if he fall.

Dan looked back just to catch Phil's muscles stretch as he stood up.

All the outlines...

Muscles stretching...

Hip bones pushing out of the towell...

Little droplets shining over his body...

Dan felt his mouth start to water.

It was a really strange feeling.

He shook his head once more and looked away.

Phil cocked his head to one side a bit, watching Dan's eyes traveling down his body.

How his eyes softly travel all around his body, hugging every curve and muscle...

How his eyes start to widen...

How his mouth opens a bit and his bottom lip is sucked in between his teeth right away...

Shit, Phil, calm down before you get another boner!

Phil shook his head to try and clear his mind a bit.

Dan felt Phil's eyes on him but he chose to ignore them, slowly walking back to his room.

Phil couldn't stop a small smirk appear on his lips but he quickly made it go away.

Phil put on some clothes and walked into Dan's room, stopping in the doorway.

- Do you want to stay home today? I have to do three tattoos... - Phil spoke up even though he didn't want to leave Dan all alone, he just wanted to spend more time with him and he was still worried.

- I will go with you. I don't want to stay alone. - Dan typed down, standing up, ready to go.

- I promise that it won't take long. After that we can do whatever you will want to do. Okay? - Phil looked Dan in the eyes to make sure that he was okay.

- Of course. - Dan nodded.

Phil still felt a bit uneasy about the dark circles under Dan's eyes, and blue lips didn't help either.

Phil checked the time to see that he could spare at least fifteen minutes to drive Dan around the city just for fun before he really would need to start getting ready at his tattoo salon.

Phil made sure that Dan had his seatbelt on right before he sped off, earning a joyful and surprised squeak from Dan.

Dan gripped onto the seat tighter, feeling excitment spread all over his body.

And just fifteen minutes of speeding around the city made all the demons go away, it made Dan's whole soul feel lighter.

He felt like he could breathe freely in that moment, with no darkness choking him.

When they stopped at the tattoo salon parking lot, a big smile was spreading over Phil's face.

He looked over at Dan to see that colour was making its way back into his face, his lips starting to paint in soft baby pink color, his eyes shining with happiness and joy.

Phil's heart felt so warm just by seeing how such a little thing made Dan bloom in joy.

- You are so beautiful... - Phil murmured under his breath.

Dan looked over at him with his eyes sparkling.

The brown of his eyes was now like whole little universe, not just the pitch blackness of doomed black holes.

Dan's face had regained its colour, it was no longer in the greyish paleness it had been in almost all the time.

Dan couldn't look away from seeing how colourful happiness was painted on Phil's face, it looked like he was shining even brighter than all the possible stars in the sky.

And in that moment Dan felt the sudden warmth seeping through his bones again, just like in the morning when he was facing an almost naked Phil.

Dan still had no idea what that feeling meant, but he sure understand that it was a good feeling.

They both got lost again, simply staring into each other eyes.

Exploring universes living and swirling in them.

Phil let out a small laugh, feeling a big urge to kiss Dan once again.

The joyful sound made Dan feel even warmer inside.

- We probably should get inside... - Dan typed down without taking his eyes off of Phil.

- Emm, yeah... - Phil smiled even wider. - Pink suits you. - He blurted out without thinking.

Dan cocked his head to one side, making Phil blush.

Phil got out first, opening all the doors for Dan.

Dan sat down on Phil's chair right in front of his big work desk.

Phil started to get ready for his first client whilst telling Dan all about how to prepare the place so it would be ready for someone to get a tattoo.

Dan listened carefully, catching every small detail.

Soon, the first customer came but it didn't stop Phil from explaining all the details for Dan.

Dan felt so important, for once someone was paying attention to him regardless of there being someone else in the room.

The last customer was one of the the usual clients who come to Phil from time from time.

- Is that your new helper? I won't mind allowing him to train on me. - He laughed, making Phil laugh too.

- Well, that wasn't a plan but, Dan, if you ever consider becoming a tattoo artist, you are more than welcome to work with me. - Phil flashed a big smile to Dan, making Dan's cheeks turn a bit rosy.

When the final client was gone, Phil stopped next to Dan, typing down on his pc the needed papers.

- But about that tattoo thing, I am serious. I wouldn't mind helping you to try. - Phil said smiling at Dan.

- Thank you, but for now I'd better just listen and watch how you do it. - Dan looked up at Phil with still-joyful eyes.

- That is good too. I love telling you all about the tattoos and all the techniques. So, what would you like to do right now? Are you hungry? - Phil couldn't stop smiling.

Dan was about to type down his answer when his phone started to ring.

University - read the title flashing on the screen.

Dan started to panic, all the colour rushing away from his face.

- Give it to me, I will handle it. Breathe. - Phil said, taking Dan's phone out of his hands and answering the call.

- Hello. Yes, yes. I am sorry to inform you that Daniel has changed his mind, he won't be attending the university this year. Yeah, I understand, what a loss. Yeah. If anything changes, we will inform you. Thank you for your time. Good bye. - Phil put the phone down.

Dan felt a bit shocked at how well and easily Phil handled one of the hardest and most bothersome things in his mind.

- So, what would you like to do now? And please breathe, you don't need to worry about university anymore. You are staying with me and I will help you in any way possible. - Phil smiled, calming Dan down with just that.

- Well, maybe we could visit that pizza place you really like? - Dan looked up.

- I would love to! Do you like it there? - Phil asked with a cute fire in his eyes.

- Yes! That was one of the tastiest pizzas i have ever tried! - Dan's eyes lit up too.

Phil laughed, giving Dan his jacket.

They both hopped into Phil's car, feeling excited for yet another car ride.

And just catching small glimpses of the now-growing excitement on Dan's face made Phil chose to drive an extra round around the city before pulling up by the pizza place.

Dan couldn't explain how driving around so fast made him feel this good, it was just like every metre the car sped away, his worries and demons were being washed away too.

It was like he could drive away from his darkness, from his demons.

And to be honest, Dan fucking loved that feeling, so he chose to enjoy every second of it.