When Dan woke up he didn't understand where he was, he lay back down looking around trying to remember everything that happened last night.

Phil

Dan sit up going to find a bathroom. He was so use to walk around without any sound so when he was passing Phil's room he stopped for a moment to look at sleeping beauty.

Dan didn't understand why such a boy wanted to help him and was so nice to him.

But Dan needed to admit that Phil looked sexy, all these tattoos and piercings, Dan wanted to know more about each one of them, understand their stories and reasons. Dan wanted to know Phil better.

And maybe they could become friends...

Maybe...

Dan shake his head walking into bathroom, he really needed to pee.

When Dan was almost done, the door opened and sleepy Phil stepped inside. Dan screamed trying to pull his boxers back on. His scream scared Phil making him jump back.

They both fell down on their bums, looking at each other for a moment before Phil start to laugh confusing Dan even more.

- Shit, man, you scared me with that scream. But I guess, it was my fault. I'm sorry, I didn't want to scare you, I thought that you were still sleeping. Sorry, - Phil smiled making Dan to calm down and slowly get up adjusting his boxers.

Dan felt Phil's eyes slid over his body, stopping a bit longer around Dan's bum but than sliding back up to his eyes.

Dan took a deep breath and strech out his hand to help Phil get up.

Phil smiled taking Dan's cold hand in his warm one and stood up.

Dan pulled his hand away putting them around his body.

- You can go to my room and get some jeans or sweatpants to wear, I don't want you to be cold. I will pee and than go make us some breakfast, okay? - Phil was still smiling making Dan's stomach to turn warm.

Dan nod sliping out of the batroom running away.

He stopped in Phil's bedroom, looking around.

He didn't know where to look for clothes and what clothes he could take and what he couldn't so he just walk toward Phil's messy bed and start to make it.

- What are you doing? - Phil's confused voice made Dan jump back from the bed. - You didn't need to do that. - Phil smiled walking to his walk in clothet.

Dan just stayed there watching him without knowing what to do now.

- Here, take these, they should fit. - Phil give Dan black skinny jeans starting to put on some clothes himself.

Dan watched Phil for a moment before starting to put on the given jeans. They fit almost perfect.

- You look cute. - Phil smiled checking Dan out.

Dan couldn't help but blush, looking down.

- Let's go get some breakfast. - Phil smiled walking to the kitchen with Dan following him like a lost puppy.

Dan sit down watching every Phil's move while Phil made them coffee and some waffles.

- Eat how much you want. I hope you do drink coffee. Shit, I should have asked you that before I made you one. Sorry. - Phil murmured sitting down.

Dan took his cup and took a sip from it calming Phil down.

- Good, - Phil smiled. - We will need to think something about this communication. Hmm... - Phil start to eat.

Dan start to eat too slipping deep in his mind thinking.

It would be only fair if Dan would at least try to answer Phil, but to be honest, Dan really had no idea how to speak anymore, he didn't need to do that in years.

- Do you have a phone? - Phil all of sudden asked.

Dan shake his head "no".

A phone? His parents didn't even want to buy him a clothes to wear so there was no talking about getting a phone.

- Really? Okay. I have an idea. Do you have any plans for today? - Phil asked looking straight at Dan.

Dan got lost in Phil's eyes, how beautiful they were.

Phil looked at him waiting for answer so Dan shake his head "no" again.

- Would you like to spend a day with me? I would love to get to know you better and become friends. - Phil said with pure honesty making Dan's heart warm.

Dan nod with a small blush tinting his cheeks.

- That's great! - Phil smiled in pure joy finishing his breakfast.

Dan stand up ready to do the dishes but Phil's on his stomach stopped him.

- You are my guest, no houseworks for you. - Phil smiled taking his hand away.

Dan felt somehow different feeling Phil's touch, it wasn't alarming, more like calming. It confuse Dan a lot, he couldn't understand why Phil's touch felt so good while he couldn't stand anyone else to touch him even a bit.

Dan sit down watching how Phil did the dishes still deep in his mind.

He needed to admit that with Phil he felt a lot calmer, more in control over his body. Heck, he felt more in control over himself than he have ever been in all these years.

Something about Phil just pulled Dan closer, his every nerve and mind cell. For some reason he wanted to spend his time with Phil without looking back.

When Phil finished and turned around Dan was sitting there, watching him with head tilt to one side, looking all cute and deep in his own mind.

It made Phil smile.

Dan was so soft and Phil loved it about this boy.

And he couldn't deny that he find Dan attractive too, a bit more than just friend level.

It worried Phil a bit but Phil pushed it to the side, he's grown up enough to control his needs.

Phil smiled leaning against sink watching Dan.

All of sudden Dan's mind finally register that Phil was watching him and that made Dan jump up feeling awkward and shy.

Phil laugh shaking his head.

- Lets go. - Phil smiled walking to the door putting on shoes and his leather jacket. - You can borrow some shoes too, if they fit.-

Dan nood putting on one of Phil's shoes standing back up.

Dan felt safe being wrapped all in Phil's scent that come from his clothes.

Phil opened doors for him and locked them behind Dan.

Dan looked around without knowing where he actually was, he didn't remember a street like this anywhere close to his house or school. But this was really beautiful place where to live in. It was a bit noisy since it was city centre but still really beautiful. Dan spot a big park near the appartment building Phil lived in. He could picture midnight and early morning walks he could spend there shaking his head in sudden wave of sadness.

- Dan? - Phil's soft voice made Dan turn around and see that Phil was holding a car door open for him.

Dan couldn't help his mouth open in shock.

Was that really Phil's car?

Dan walked closer, still in shock making Phil laugh.

- Yeah, it is really my car. Now hop in. - Phil smiled watching how amazed Dan was by shiny black Porshe 911 turbo.

Dan slip in slowly looking around in awe.

He knew that he must look like a baby in toy store but hell, this car was worth the amazement.

Phil hop in too starting the car, looking over at Dan, still smiling.

Dan felt exited for some weird reason.

- Seat belt on. - Phil murmured leaning closer to Dan.

Dan leaned back as far as he could letting Phil pull seat belt around Dan's skinny body.

Oh...

Dan let out soft breath.

A big part of him knew that Phil won't hurt him but other part still screamed at him to watch out, to hide and get as far away as possible.

When Phil start to drive Dan let out part scream, part gasp of how fast the car was going right away.

- Too fast? - Phil asked with a smirk.

Dan shake his head "no" with excitment filling his body.

Phil glanced at Dan enjoying to see Dan so excited so he drive extra block around just to make Dan happy before they stopped in front of an Apple shop.

Phil hop out opening doors for Dan. Dan looked up at Phil with joy in his eyes and hop out feeling amazing.

Phil smirk and led Dan inside the shop. Dan looked around feeling a bit scared all of sudden, all this stuff was a way too expensive, one wrong move and Dan will be in big trouble.

He stopped close next to Phil who was talking with a cute girl who worked there.

Dan didn't hear a word Phil or the girl was saying, he was too deep in his mind, listening all the voices wake up and scream at him. Dan felt a bit dizzy so he grab Phil's hand without even thinking.

Feeling warmth seeping through the cold made Dan close his eyes and feel calm with every second even more and more till he didn't hear the voices anymore, and was fully calm.

- Let's go. - Phil whisper in his ear leading him out back to the car, still holding Dan's hand in his.

Phil opened doors for Dan and wait for him to get in before closing them behind him.

Dan didn't need long till Phil was into car next to him again, with that cute, exited smirk on his lips.

- I have a gift for you. - Phil couldn't help his exitment.

He give Dan a small box, watching Dan's reaction.

Dan couldn't believe it, Phil was giving him the newest iPhone. Dan looked at Phil in pure shock ansking with his eyes if it's for real.

Phil just smiled noding his head waiting for Dan to get the phone out of the box.

Dan's hands was shaking a bit when he took the phone out.

It's so shiny... Fuck, he's crazy.

Dan looked over at Phil trying to understand what Phil was thinking.

- Here, let me show how to use it. It's easy. You will learn fast. - Phil was smiling showing Dan all the things about new phone.

Dan let their fingers brush together sending warmth all over Dan's body.

Soon Dan was understanding and loving the new phone.

- So, you can type whatever you want to say to me and it will read it out a loud. A easy way for us to talk. - Phil smiled looking at Dan who seem just as happy, just without a smile on his face.

- Thank you, Phil. - Dan type down and phone speak it out.

- My pleasure. Now, lets go to my tattoo salon. You will like it there. It's like second home for me. - Phil smiled starting to drive.

Exitment filled Dan's body.

Hell, how he liked driving around in this car!

Soon they stopped to cool looking tattoo salon.

Dan followed Phil inside trying to take everything in what he saw.

It was in black and red tones with neon lights around. It looked really cool but somehow it felt like home too.

Phil pulled off his jacket and sit down to computer.

- Feel like home, - Phil smiled starting to type something on key board.

Dan sit down on one couch not too far from Phil, looking around. He have never been in a tattoo salon so everything here was new to him.

- First customer will be only after hour so we have some time for our self. - Phil smiled turning to Dan. - So, Dan, tell me something about yourself. -

Dan sit there looking at him, without knowing what to say or about what to start.

- Let's start with how old are you and so on. - Phil smiled.

- I'm 17 - Dan type down looking back up at Phil.

Oh shit. - Phil tought in his head.

- But I'm turning 18 next month. - Dan added seeing Phil's look.

- Nice. - Phil felt calmer right away. - I'm 22, so I'm just 4 years older than you. That's cool. -

- You have amazing tattoo salon. - Dan type down looking up to see Phil's reaction.

- Thank you, I design it myself. When I bought this place, it was so fucking trashy, but with a lot of work and effort I manage to turn it into this beautiful place. - Phil said with a proud smile sitting down next to Dan on the couch.

They kept talking till the customer come making Phil to stand up.

Dan watched Phil work with amazment in his eyes.

Seeing how careful he let the small needles pump tint into skin making a beautiful drawing made Dan almost hypnoties.

Soon there start to come more and more people making Dan a bit uneasy.

Slowly Dan tried to look smaller and smaller and slowly fade away into black walls.

Phil come to Dan kneeling in front of him.

- Just one more customer and than that's it for today, okay? - Phil waited till Dan nod and than got back up going back to his work.

Last person didn't take long leaving Dan with only Phil.

Phil cleaned everything up turning back to Dan.

- That's it for today. Let's go get something to eat. What do you say about pizza? - Phil asked putting on his jacket.

- Pizza sound good. - Dan type down standing up.

- Hey, buddy, don't worry, okay? With me, you are safe. I won't let anyone hurt you. - Phil looked deep in Dan's brown eyes.

Dan nod feeling calmer right away.

They step out on the street, Phil locked the shop and turned back to Dan.

They started walking without saying a word and Dan didn't mind it, he looked around enjoying the view till something catch his full attention.

Phil was lighting up a cigarette between his lips.

Dan stopped looking at him unbelieving.

Without thinking he reach up and pulled the cigarette out of Phil's lips and touch dropping it on the ground and stomping on it.

Phil watched Dan in surprise.

- Smoking can kill you. - Dan pulled out his phone and type down looking at Phil with angry bitch face that surprise Phil even more.

- Fuck, can I just marry you? - Phil murmured without knowing how to react, confusing Dan.

- What? - Dan felt so confuse.

They just stare at each other for a bit before both shake their heads and start to walk again.

When they sit down in the pizza place Phil looked up with a smile.

- Order everything you want. I'm paying. - Phil looked down to his menu choosing what he want.

Dan showed him the cheapest pizza slice they served earning a bitch face from Phil.

- You don't need to look at the price. Now tell me what you really would enjoy eating. - Phil looked deep in Dan's eyes making Dan nod and show. - Great! See? It wasn't that hard. You will need to learn how to feel a bit more free around me because I am planning on spending a lot of time with you. - Phil smied before ordering their food and drinks.

- Now tell me more about yourself. - Phil turned his full attention to Dan.

- I already told you... - Dan felt a bit confuse.

- Yeah, but I want to know more. I want to get to know the real you. - Phil said pointing at Dan's chest.

Dan took a deep breath making quick decision in his mind.

And so he told Phil all about that he is bipolar with manic, depression and mixed affective episodes. He told that he don't even remember how to speak because he haven't said a damn word in years, he didn't even remember when was the last time when he spoke. He told about how he ruined his parents life by popping up right when they wanted to break up, how they hate him since then and are treating him that way too. He told him how actually everyone in school treated him the same because he is weird and like pastel boy. He told him that he is about to finish high school and that his parents are forcing him to get into uni to get good degree so he could pay them back for all these years they have wasted on him. He told him how he actually didn't want to go to uni.

Phil had a lot of questions and Dan answered them all.

Dan told him small positive bits too, like how he is actually really pastel like boy, who love plants and taking photos, what music he likes.

Phil told him all about himself, how he have always been a bad boy / punk, that most of his tattoos are made and tattooed by himself, how he did buy a tattoo shop, that he have actually finished university of art.

Dan was amazed by Phil and everything he told him.

They talked for hours without noticing the sun going down and pizza place getting ready to close.

They just talked and talked for hours.

- I'm sorry, but we are closing. - one of workers come to them bringing them back to reality.

- Oh, we're sorry. We lost track of time. - Phil laugh standing up.

Dan blush a bit following Phil out to his car.

- Do you want to stay over tonight too? It's saturday so it shouldn't be big problem. Plus I can help you get ready to your exam too, if you want. - Phil smiled starting car.

- I don't want to bother you any longer... - Dan looked down to his hands.

- You are not bothering me. I love spending time with you. Really, Dan, I enjoyed every second that I spend with you. - Phil glanced at Dan.

- Okay, I will stay. - Dan nod. - Thank you, Phil, really, thank you. -

- For what? - Phil asked a bit confused.

- For helping me, for saving me. - Dan looked out the window so he wouldn't need to face Phil.

- Always. - Phil said making Dan turn soft once again.

When they got to Phil's appartment it was already midnight.

- Can I, please, take a shower? - Dan typed down looking up at Phil.

- Of course. Go ahead. - Phil smiled walking into kitchen.

Dan walked to the nice looking bathroom closing door behind him. He slowly undress himself feeling cold right away. Phil's clothes was so comfy.

Dan slipped into shower washing his body as fast as he could.

When he got out he look into mirror, scanning himself over.

Bones was sticking out, dark circles under eyes.

Dan sighed wrapping towel around his waist.

He will need to ask Phil for clean boxers again.

Dan shake his head taking couple deep breath before walking out the bathroom to search for Phil.

Phil was in his bedroom, undressing himself right when Dan walked into it.

Dan's eyes wide open, watching Phil almost naked in front of him.

Again.

Phil turned around wanting to say something but his mouth stayed open with no words coming out. His eyes scanned Dan's naked body.

Don't get hard! - Phil screamed at himself in his mind before swallowing hard.

- Do you... Do you need clean boxers? - Phil asked wanting to kick himself of how stupid he was reacting.

Dan nod with his eyes still on Phil's body.

Phil nod too watching Dan for a bit more before searching for boxers.

- Here. - Phil give Dan boxers standing just a couple centimetrs away from Dan.

They locked their eyes getting lost in them.

Phil couldn't help himself, he was leaning closer to Dan without even noticing it.

Dan felt nervous all of sudden.

Phil was about to kiss him.

No

Wrong

Can't happen

You can never being touched like that

You don't deserve love

No

No

No!

His mind was screaming at him making him start to panic.

Dan grab the boxers turning around on his heal and he ran leaving Phil standing there alone.

- You fucking idiot! You scared him! - Phil murmured to himself wanting to slap himself for how stupid he was.

A little bit latter Dan was laying in the big bed under soft blanket, still not understanding what actually did happen.

They were looking at each other, they were almost naked, and then his mind start to scream at him.

Dan pulled his hair in frustration.

Phil couldn't sleep too, he felt so damn bad for scaring Dan like that.

He knew that it was really hard for Dan to even allow him this close but no, he try to kiss him.

Phil was angry at himself.

He got up and went to the room Dan was staying and knocked before walking in to see Dan still awake with eyes big and watery.

- Dan, I am so sorry. I didn't want to scare you like that. I... I... - Phil sigh walking closer to Dan sitting down on the side of the bed. - I just find you really attractive and I don't really know what happened. I am so sorry. It won't happen again, I promise. I don't want you to be scared of me. I want to be your friend. I'm sorry, Dan. Please forgive me. -

Dan listen to every Phil's word feeling a bit better.

- I forgive you. - He type down on his phone noding to Phil.

- Thank you. - Phil stand up but didn't want to leave just yet. - Have sweet dreams, Dan. -

- You too, Phil. - Dan looked up at Phil.

Phil nod walking away to his room.

They both felt uneasy for some reason but they was too tired to think about that right now, so they let sleep take over them, leaving it all to tomorrow.