I JUST WANNA SAY thank you so freaking much for the comments and stuff. I didn't get a lot before(Other than Philophobia and Unconditionally) so this is quite exciting because more might come! Here's Chapter 13.







"Niall leave, I don't need you to see this." Zayn muttered.

"Why are you doing this Zayn?" Niall asked, "Why do you find the need to kill yourself when so many people love you?"

"No one loves me Niall, not even you! I'm a monster!" Zayn shouted.

"I don't care who you are, no matter what you'll always be amazing to me..." Niall said to his trembling friend.

"Oh please Niall stop with all the garbage! No one will ever accept me for who I am so why am I even alive?!" Zayn asked stepping closer to the cliff.

"Zayn you don't know what you're talking about!" Niall pleaded, "Please come here!"

"Why so I can get tormented even more than before?!" Zayn said tears falling from his eyes.

Zayn didn't understand that Niall was the one loving him for years. Everything about Zayn fascinated Niall. It was this little thing that Niall liked to call love.

"Zayn don't you get it?! I love you! I always have! Since we were clueless teenagers in love! You don't know how happy I am that I was with you!"

Zayn stopped looking at the ground below him and stared at Niall as he fell on his knees and began to cry.

"I'm sorry Niall," Zayn said, "But I'm doing this for the both of us."

Zayn stepped even closer to the cliff, with one foot hanging, and Niall let out a choked sob.

"Please don't leave me baby," Niall cried.

Zayn closed his eyes and tried to tune Niall out. He had to do this for their protection he had to.

"You don't need to do this..." he heard Niall's coarse voice choking out words and winced. This was all too much.

"Don't you see that I love you?"






FLASHBACK

Zayn sat in the locker room, waiting for his next fight to begin. It was a strange feeling at first, but he soon began to get used to the beating he gave and took. The homesickness he felt soon disappeared along with the fear.

But his love for Niall stayed engraved in his heart.

He missed Niall greatly. He always wondered if he was doing the wrong thing. If he should go back to his best friend and hold him in his arms.

Zayn's thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the locker room door.

"Enter."

The security guard came in, a piece of paper in his hand.

"We found a piece of paper with your name in front of your house. It seems to be a letter."

"You read it?" Zayn said snatching it away.

"Orders sir," the guard said, "You have five minutes to read it."

He slammed the door and Zayn slipped his fingers between the envelope and opened the top.

He pulled the letter out of the envelope and traced his fingers over the letter. Who would leave a note I front of his house? Addressed to him?

He began to read the letter, and after the first two words he dropped it out of his hand.

Niall.

Niall fucking wrote to him. Not directly, but he was still writing to him.

He picked up the letter and began to read the rest of it.


Zayn,

Hey it's Niall, I know you ran away, and you weren't kidnapped. It's so obvious that you wanted to run away. But you never told me why, did you?

I'm your best friend Zayn. You could've at least told me you were leaving. Hugged me goodbye, something?

Maybe a kiss?

But that's not the point of this letter. I just wanted to tell you that I love you, so please come back.

X



Zayn stared at the letter with a huge smile on his face. It was nice to hear from Niall again, even though it wasn't directly.

Anything about Niall would've improved his mood right then.




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Zayn's heart flourished at that memory. That was when he had confirmed to himself that he was in love.

That was something Zayn never wanted to forget.

He slowly backed away from the cliff, and Niall's sobbing slowly subsided to quiet sniffles.

"Zaynie?" Niall whispered as Zayn came closer to him.

"Nialler," Zayn choked on his own words as he fell in front of Niall and wrapped himself around him, "I love you too."

Niall laughed through his tears and hugged Zayn back, who was cradling Niall in his arms.

"I love you so so much. Don't even do this again you idiot," Niall cried pulling away and kissing Zayn on his mouth, "You fucking idiot..."

They sat there at the edge of the cliff, holding each other, praying they could pick up the broken pieces of their relationship.







-LATER








Zayn dried himself off with a towel and ran the cloth over his face. He sniffed and looked in the mirror. His eyes were bloodshot red and had circles around them. He had been crying for hours, unable to stop his head from pounding on the inside.

When he had arrived, arms wrapped around Niall, the entire Payne family was in tears. They were so relieved to find Zayn alive and healthy, other than the slashes across his arm, which they had only just noticed.

Niall called Louis and Harry and confirmed that Zayn was okay. They soon went over to the Payne household to talk to him, and scold him at the same time. All the love Zayn was receiving made him feel a little better about not killing himself.

He walked out of the bathroom, only a towel wrapped loosely around his privates. He smiled at the voices downstairs and the sight of Niall in his footie pajamas.

"I know I look stupid in these Z," Niall chuckled, "but stop staring."

"I'm only staring because I can't believe you're still, not giving up on me."

"Z I'm never going to give up on you," Niall said taking his hand, "Yknow, there was something my dad would always tell me."

"Before or after you came out to your family?" he said siting down next to Niall.

"Always," Niall whispered, "he would say...that if I ever found something or someone worth fighting for, never give up on them. Because in the end, it would all be worth it."

"Is it?" Zayn mumbled.

"I dunno," Niall grinned, "Our little trip to the cliff messed up quite a magical day for us."

"What?"

"Just hold on." Niall said, getting up from his spot on the bed and walking out of their room. Zayn looked around the room and sighed. What could Niall possibly mean?

Minutes later Niall came in wearing a huge grin on his face.

"Hey," he said going over to Zayn and leaning down to kiss him.

"Can you tell me what's going on?" Zayn grinned.

"Well," Niall said pulling something out of his pocket and turning around. Zayn tried to see behind him but was unsuccessful.

"You have to promise me that you'll let me talk first."

Niall spun around and dropped down on one knee. Zayn's eyes widened on the spot and fresh tears streamed down his face.

"Look um, today I was planning to propose to you. When I got your note earlier, I wondered if I was making the right decision. You know, does he really love me? Or is he not sure? But when I saw you back away from the cliff, I knew I was making the right choice. I knew you loved me, but I love you more. From the moment I saw you when you moved in across the street back when we were little, I...I felt something special with you. I knew we'd come far, and I was definitely right. Zayn Javvad Malik, I love you. I love you so much and I know that we're young and that I may be taking this too fast but I can't take it anymore Zayn, I'm in love with you and I need to know if you'll marry me?"

The silver band shone against the light in the room and the tears kept falling down Zayn's cheeks.

"Yes! Yes I will marry you!" he was choking on his own tears when he responded and Niall got up off of his knee and kissed him deeply.

"I love you so much and I hope this will help you remember that if something like tonight ever happens again." Niall whispered before cupping Zayn's cheeks in his hands and kissing him again.

"Now let's go show you off," He grinned taking Zayn's hand and running out of the room to the group downstairs.

Everyone looked up at them as the crashed down the stairs, fingers entwined together.

"Well?" Liam's mum asked.

Niall held up their hands to show the two silver bands.

"My son's engaged!" she cried.

"Son?" Zayn whispered.

"Oh...oh Zayn," she got up from her seat and cupped his cheeks in her hands, "You've always been a son to me. Since the day you came into our lives I've always loved you."

Zayn smiled and hugged his mother.

"I love you," she said.

"I...I love you too," Zayn whispered before hugging her tight.

And that was when Zayn realised he was wrong the whole time. He had no reason to kill himself. He had no reason at all. He had a loving family, great friends, and a boyfriend he could never repay. Niall had shown him the light. He had shown him he was beautiful. That he was worth something, and that he always would be.

He smiled as he let go of his mother and took Niall's hand.

"We're going out," Niall grinned, "Probably for the night!"

"Don't have too much fun!" Harry said, his hand linked into Louis'.

"No promises!" Niall grinned running out the door, Zayn following.

"Hey Niall where we going?" Zayn asked.

"To my mum's house." Niall said.

"What?" Zayn said, "but--"

"I know what she said, and I know what she did but we're going to do this together and we're going to get out of there together, you got it?" Niall said, grabbing Zayn's hands before looking up at him.

"I love it when you're in control," Zayn whispered before kissing Niall for the millionth time that day.

He's really been blind the whole time.