Stacks of worksheets piled up on my desk
Countless lectures and lessons missed
I don't care, I don't care, I don't care.

Strangers greeting me with wide smiles
"What's your name?"
"Sorry, I forgot your name."
"Wait, who are you?"
I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.

So many dreams, tried to make them reality
"It's too much work." "I don't have time."
Maybe it was a bad idea, anyway
I'm not good enough
And I never will be. But
I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.

She accepted who I am.
And stole my heart
Then left me without
I had been high and I had fallen hard
But this time, I crashed down to hell.

My insecurities locked onto my mind
while I clawed at my skin, flaying myself alive
I wondered if you were doing well at all
Were you really alright without me?
All this time, I watched myself die
as I kept on thinking, "Are you alive?" Because

I care and I care and I care

a/n: feeling horrible right now - emotionally and mentally - but wow, here I am