EDWARD CULLEN
I sat there with her blood on my clothes as my mind and thoughts were racing. I wanted her and only her but I was with Bella...I am with Bella like she is with Evan...

"Edward" Carlisle spoke as I looked at him with tears in my eyes. "She's okay but you need to come look at something..." he spoke softly and I nodded getting up and went to his office where Aurora was lying there in one of Rosalie's shirts. I walked closer seeing the deep multiple scars on her arms making me sigh softly.

"Mi amore, what did you do..." I whispered kissing her arm as tears streamed down my face. That's when suddenly her arm was jerked from me and I looked up seeing she was awake and had fright and fear in her eyes. She was vulnerable and I could read her thoughts. She was scared...of me. Scared I might hurt her...yell at her...kill her...

"Auri" I spoke softly as she looked at me shakily. I sniffled as more tears fell and I unwrapped my arm showing her the healing cuts going up and down my arm. Her breathing quickened as I saw tears streaming down her face. She shook slightly as her breathing got worse. I cupped her cheek gently stroking it as she brought her arm up to meet mine. Both of us just staring at the marks we made on each other. That's when all of a sudden she smashed her lips onto mine as mine collided with her needingly. Gently I pulled her closer to me as I wrapped my arms underneath her picking her up as her legs wrapped around my torso and her arms around my neck. I pulled her closer to me as all I wanted was her. To be by her. To love her. Suddenly she kissed down my neck as I sighed pulling away. Gently I held her with one arm as I moved the other one so I could cup her cheek.

"Auri, no" I whispered as she nodded cuddling into me. I sighed wanting her when I realized I was with Bella...I sniffled setting her down onto the table as I kissed her arms.

"Stop" I spoke softly and she nodded but I knew she was lying as I read her mind but slowly it started to cease once she was building her walls back up blocking me out in the process.

"Auri, mi amore, I love you. I. Love. You. So, please. Don't do this anymore. Please Auri, I'm begging you" I spoke softly pecking her lips as only again she nodded. I didn't have to read her mind anymore to know she was lying...

As I was about to say something else Bella walked in pulling me to her and kissed me. I suddenly kissed back as I heard Aurora get up walking to the door with a sniffle. I pulled away and looked at her.

"Aurora?" I spoke softly and that's when I saw a smile go across Bella's lips.

"Aurora? What a pretty name! I'm Bella. Edward's wife" she spoke while exaggerating the word 'wife'

That's when I saw her breath hitched and just walked away not saying a word. I sighed and followed as Bella only rolled her eyes following too. What have I done...

AURORA FROST
Wife. Those words hit me like bricks as I just walked out. I felt gross and I felt dirty. I felt like the stupid whore Evan said I was...he was right. I sighed walking home as I walked through the woods remembering everything possible with what little time I had with Edward...

[When you walk past that park near your apartment now
Do you think about me?
Do you think about me?]

I remembered the first encounter I had in school with him. How odd he was around me and I couldn't help but smile. I thought he was weird but I also thought he was cute. Mysterious...in his own little way.

[Do you drive fast?
When you realize you're on my street
Do you drive slowly?
Do you think about me?]

That's when suddenly I thought about what he thought. Did he care about me? Did he kiss me just to kiss me? Did he mean it when he said he loved me? But then again, how could he possibly love me when he's married, to...that girl. Bella.

[Thought I could pack up my suitcase and just walk away, walk away]

To think...this was all because of me...but...do you blame me? It was me or my brother and with him...I would do anything. Without him, I wouldn't be here. He's the first person who helped me with Mum passing while my dad was in his own wreck...

[Leave you with all the shit I didn't want to take, my mistake]

Maybe I left for a different reason. Maybe I left because I didn't want to burden him. I mean, who could ever love...me. I'm just me. There's nothing special about it.

[I'm missing you, I'm missing you
What the hell did I do? Did I do?]

I continued to think about it as I realized I was back home. Looking back at the big house made me realize what I did wrong. I mean, what the hell did I do? I've grown distant with my dad, my mum is gone, my brother is dying, and I'm pushing everyone away...

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

I walked into the house as I went to my room. The house was empty because my dad was out at the school for a district thing. That meant I was alone...I walked into my room seeing a couple of papers on my vanity. I looked at them seeing they were drawings...of Edward. I looked at them wondering when I drew them. It was something I didn't remember...but that's when I looked at them did I realize how much I truly missed him...

[I'm missing you, I'm missing you
What the hell did I do? Did I do?]

I continued to look through as my mind and my heart was racing. What did I do?! What did I do?!

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

I inhaled sharply as I spun around looking at my room as everything I saw had something to do with Edward. It was horrifyingly scary.

[Don't want new, I want you]

I felt as my breathing got heavy and then it felt like I could no longer breathe. I screamed in frustration as I started thrashing and throwing things around. Yelling and screaming and crying.

[Don't want new, I want you]

I sobbed as I trashed my room endlessly not wanting to be here. I didn't want to be alive. I just want to be dead! I didn't want Evan I wanted Edward! I loved him! I loved him! Not Evan!

I continued to sob as I laid on the floor sobbing letting the time pass by...soon enough my door opened as someone picked me up in their arms. How much I wanted it to be Edward it wasn't. It was Evan...

[I'm in his bed, right next to him
But he don't know
I'm just thinking 'bout you
I'm thinking 'bout you]

Soon he brought me to his place laying me on the bed while whispering things into my ear.

"I'm sorry for what I did cupcake. Please forgive me. It was only a game" he whispered and all I could do was nod. At the moment I wasn't thinking about what he did to me...only Edward.

I sighed as I laid there letting the time pass. Letting the days pass when I just became this frozen statue like thing...days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months.

[When it's 3 AM, and I'm at the diner with his friends
I ain't thinking them
I'm just thinking 'bout you]

"Cupcake?" Evan spoke as now, a month later from my whole...breakdown was I at a diner with Evan and the football team. We would soon be graduating within the month and I guess this was just a celebration.

"Yes, Evan" I spoke softly as I felt his hand lace into mine.

"Are you okay cupcake?" he asked and I nodded but if only he knew, a month later I would still be thinking about Edward...the guy I fell madly in love with without even knowing it.

[Thought I could pack up my suitcase and just walk away, walk away]

Suddenly my mind went back to that day as I realized it was truly my fault...if only I didn't think leaving him would be that easy...I guess in the past month I realized something. How madly in love with Edward I was and how much I hated Evan.

[Leave you with all the shit I didn't want to take, want to take]

Then I started to think about Daniel. My brother. He was still in his coma and it's been a month...there's no doubt I didn't miss him and I didn't visit him despite the fact I wanted to but couldn't...I couldn't because it would only break me more than I already was...all I wanted was my life back...

[I'm missing you, I'm missing you
What the hell did I do? Did I do?]

Maybe it was my fault. Maybe it was Evan's. Maybe even Edward's. Hell, maybe it was Daniel but even if I thought that I knew whose fault it would be. Mine...

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

"Cupcake?" Evan spoke again as I felt myself shatter. I didn't was him. I wanted Edward...

[I'm missing you, I'm missing you
What the hell did I do? Did I do?]

What did I do? What did I do? Why did I go with Evan? Edward would've fought! What did I do! What did I do?! Slowly I was freaking out and when one of the football players touched my arm I shot up off the booth running out and back to my house as fast as I could. I needed to escape. I needed to die.

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

I sobbed collapsing onto the floor of my room as I shakily started wrecking the place. Throwing things, breaking things, and God knows what else. I was a mess and I needed a way out of this shit hole I call life...I didn't want to live anymore...there was no point...

[Don't want new, I want you]

That's when I suddenly paused as I shakily breathed in and out. I stood up walking to the bathroom grabbing a blade.

[Don't want new, I want you]

I harshly took the blade cutting at my arms. My legs. My stomach. Everywhere. I no longer cared for anything. I just wanted to die as I sat there bleeding out when the only thing I could think of is Edward...him and I. Us. Him. Me. Our past. How much I needed him.

[Thought I'd be better without you
I can't stop thinking about you
Now I'm with someone new
I want you]

To think. I thought I would be better off without him. Well, he would be better off without me. He doesn't need me like I needed him. You know, how come he could move on...how come I couldn't?

[Thought I'd be better without you
I can't stop thinking about you
Now I'm with someone new
I want you]

I wanted him. I wanted him. Fuck. How could I be so stupid?

I sat there bleeding out as everything got blurry. Everything became just...dots. Purple and black dots. I laughed shaking my head knowing I would soon be gone. Then there was something telling me to stay but I didn't want to stay. I no longer cared...

[I'm missing you, I'm missing you
What the hell did I do? Did I do?]

I sobbed softly knowing I would no longer see Edward again and did I care...yes. I did but...seeing him happy with someone else killed me more...I needed to go...

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

I want him. Not Evan and you know, maybe someday I will get him...

[Messing with someone new
Thinking I wanted to
Turns out I don't want new, I want you]

I closed my eyes ready as all I wanted was to leave but then the door opened and I sobbed even more knowing I wouldn't get my wish...

"Caramel, what did you do..."
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Well, I probably won't be on later so this is gonna be a cliffy. Oops. Hoped you liked it though!
Lynn🥀