EDWARD CULLEN
It's been forever since I've heard anything. Her voice, her smile, her hugs, her touch, her. It's to the point where I missed her so much I lost track of time. It's felt like years...years and years but in reality... it's probably been what? A few days...

"It's been a month you know since the well...incident" Alice spoke breaking me out of my thoughts.

"A month?" I whispered out as she nodded.

"It's also been a month since you've eaten. It's been a month since you went outside, since you ran, since you've done anything. You need to do something Edward. Plus it's your birthday. You should let the guys take you somewhere. You need to go out. If not for us then for Aurora." she spoke as that made me angry. How dare she pull something like that. How dare she even speak about her like that.

"Edward?" Alice spoke as suddenly I lashed out. I was angry.

"YOU DONT HAVE A SAY IN THIS! SHE'S MINE AND ALL I WANT TO KNOW IF MY BELLA'S OKAY!" I screamed but realized what I said. That's what made me freeze right where I stood.

"You don't care about her, do you? I can't believe you, Edward. Do you have any idea how wrong that is?" she snapped as I felt myself just become small. I felt as if I fucked up...and I did.

"And you're not even listening. You haven't even seen her. Do you even know what's going on in her head right now?! You're the one that reads minds. Not me. So you of all people should know" she snapped as I just looked down. Embarrassed and hurt.

"She loves you. She even said it. She said she loves you yet you don't. Do you even know how lucky you should feel to have even gotten the words 'I love you' from her?" she spoke as I nodded biting the inside of my cheek. I wanted to see her. I did. I really did but I couldn't...I caused this.

"You're such a fool. A fool. If only you knew the truth, Edward. If only you knew you would see for what this shit hole situation truly is. Aurora loves you. Bella doesn't. She never did" she spoke again as I felt myself snap.

"She does love me! Bella does! It's Renesmee who made her leave!" I snapped as she just scoffed.

"Aurora lost her mom, her brother, and her two children. She got pregnant...twice. Each time Evan took them from her. You don't know how that feels. She feels trapped and it's too much for her. It's too much. She thinks dying is better than living and do you want to know something? You were the last thought in her mind before she passed out from the cuts she inflicted on herself. You saw her. You saw the blood spilling out of her. You saw the deep gashes running down her arms, legs, sides, thighs, hands. She even cut her stomach. She cut her stomach right where a baby would be. You saw that. You saw it as we all knew you wanted to change her. You wanted to but didn't. You couldn't. Maybe you did it so she wouldn't have to be a monster like us or maybe you didn't want to make her hate herself more. I know how you think. I may not read minds but I'm not stupid. She felt special with you. She loves you. She died because she thinks so low of herself. She thinks the world of you and nothing about her. But you know what, she doesn't deserve you. She deserves better. Someone who isn't hung over some whore who left you seven years ago. Also, happy fucking birthday" she snapped as I felt a tightness in my chest.

"How do you know she was thinking about me?" I whispered out. It was the first thing I said in a while.

"I'm not stupid. Plus she left something for you. She left something before she did what she did. I found it and it confessed every little thing she was thinking. You know, what I read broke me, Jasper, Emmett, Esme, Carlisle, and even Rosalie. It was sad what she had said but she meant it. She meant it and said she hoped you wouldn't find it and do something stupid. She said that because she thought you truly loved her. She thought if she was gone you would be in pain. She wrote in that letter to tell you to move on. To tell you that you mean the world to her and that she loves you. She was happy she had the small time with you because to her, that what? Few days felt like forever" she spoke as I felt myself shaking a bit. I ran up to the bathroom locking myself in there. I grabbed the razor she used and started cutting at my wrists wanting to die with her but it was no use. I knew it wouldn't work but I wanted to try. Fuck.

"Please. Just take me. Just let me die" I muttered wishing that the razor would make me bleed even though I knew I had no blood.

I felt a tear hit my hand as I stopped. I stopped and sank onto the ground. I needed to die and the only way that would happen is with the volturi...and I was going to get just that. But first...I needed to see her. I needed to see her one last time. One last time. I needed to hold her. One last time.
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This one was a short one I know but it was effectiveeee. Anyway, I won't be on much today but expect a lot of updates soon! This bitch is on summer break! But anyway, I may be back in a few hours.
Lynn🥀