EDWARD CULLEN

A week has passed and there I sat in Carlisle's office away from everyone as the twins were asleep on my lap cuddled closely into me. They both grew up so fast and maybe even a bit faster than Renesmee did.

I smiled a bit kissing their heads as I looked over to see Aurora lying there on the table with her eyes closed. Still. Quiet. Frozen...no one knew if she was alive or not because her heart had stopped beating...or maybe it didn't...I didn't know since it felt like too much...and I hated it.

As I was getting lost in my own subconscious I felt a small shift in my arms as I looked down seeing Briar looking up at me with a small smile on her face. Looking at her broke my heart and really shattered it even though it did not exist.

I smiled back at her even though everything in my body hurt seeing her as she looked exactly like Aurora but I loved it because it made me feel she was still with me in a way. Gently I kissed her head as she let out a soft giggle cuddling into me making me smile even more.

"You look just like your mother" I whispered softly to her even though since she was still only a baby she could not speak but she was smart and did understand. Exactly like Aurora. Smart.

In response to me she giggled again and looked up at me as I kissed her head once more feeling another shift on my other arm seeing Arrow had woke up but still lazily cuddled into me not wanting to be awake making me let out a soft chuckle. In a way he reminded me of Aurora too even though I was told he looked exactly like me.

"Wanna see your mommy?" I spoke gently as they both now looked up at me with bright happy smiles on their faces as if saying yes. I never left this room but I never looked at Aurora directly...it broke my heart to even think about it...imagine seeing her...how and would it be? Would I go crazy? Would I flip out? Would I care? Or maybe would I be empty?

"You know you haven't moved from that seat or even looked at her. You need to do something Edward. You either leave this room and move on like she wanted you to or maybe you should look at her. She loves you with all her heart and I told you what she said to you. How could you deny her and yourself that? To look at her maybe one last time where you're both at a calm state? I mean, the twins haven't even seen their mother. All they see is a body that is said to be their mother but when they look over she does not answer or breathe. You of all people should know what's going on in their heads. You should know how much they want to see their mother wondering why she hasn't held them because they're smart. They know nor Rosalie, Alice, Esme, and I are not their mother" Ilsa spoke seriously as I couldn't help but do and say nothing. It hurt to think that I may never hear her voice but I couldn't help but think back to our past. The past where we were once together...and happy.

We were sitting there cuddling together completely and utterly happy. It seemed as nothing could get in our way as we were deeply in love. Me and Aurora together. It seemed as if we would be forever. Us. For as long as time allowed it.

[Loving and fighting]

"I love you" she whispered into my ear making me grin from ear to ear as I held her closely to me wrapping my arms around her waist keeping a firm and possessive grip. It was as if I were to let go she would slip away from me and I never ever wanted to let her go. Never ever.

"I love you, mi amore" I responded back to her placing gentle and loving kisses all over her shoulder and back pushing her shirt over a bit so she could feel my lips on her skin as everything was so innocent and loving watching her giggle with each kiss feeling her hands hold onto mine rubbing them with her thumbs as I couldn't help but smile even more at how lucky I was to have such a beautiful girl in my possession.

"Edward" she hummed softly as I pulled away just a bit so I could look up at her to meet her baby blue gorgeous eyes that would pull me in making me love her even more than I already did.

"What is it, mi amore?" I questioned as I stroked her cheek with my thumb making her smile softly.

"Do you ever think about having kids? Or a future with me? A family?" she spoke with a small hint of hope in her voice as the thought sorta angered me and I didn't really know why. Or well, I did but just...I didn't know...

"No. I never want kids and I have you for a family and I do want a future with you but just you and me. No one else" I spoke but saw her expression sour.

[Accusing, uniting]

She got up and instantly ran out not saying another word fleeing off to somewhere where she thought I wouldn't know but I always know. I find out. But, before I could see her thoughts she seemed to have blocked me and all I could see was...randomness...I couldn't explain it but what I saw was just...a toy room...full of...junk...it as truly weird but I loved it. Yet, never have I ever experienced this...not with her or anyone I've known in my hundred years of soon to be forever eternity.

Instantly from her randomness I knew where she would be so I rushed towards the lake to only see her slightly sobbing as she looked up at me not saying a thing. She had tears lightly rolling down her face as I took a seat next to her placing a hand on her thigh but she only pulled away.

"Mi am-" I started but she shook her head.

"Don't call me that. Please" she whispered as I nodded pulling her closely into me placing soft gently kisses onto her skin. I wanted her to know I love her without saying the words. I wanted to show her she means everything to me.

"I love you, mi amore" I spoke softly to her as I didn't care that she told me not to call her that. I didn't care because I did love her and I meant it. I do.

"I know..." she whispered with her voice small, light, and shaky.

"And I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you" I spoke into her ear as she nodded and buried her face into my neck not caring anymore either.

"I love you" she whispered back to me as I smiled feeling her hot breath on my skin as I fell in love with it. In love with her.

"If you really want a kid then maybe. I just don't want you to die because of it..." I spoke softly as I smelled the sweet smell of her strawberry shampoo.

"I wouldn't die. I'm not that weak" she laughed as I smiled kissing her head and peppered kisses all over her face and everything.

"You're so beautiful" I grinned with a slight chuckle in her ear as she shivered a bit from my tone making me chuckle more.

"Adorable" I hummed as she giggled straddling my lap so she faced me. She then laced her fingers into my hair smiling. Smirking. Grinning.

"Mmm. Not as much as you" she giggled and then started to grind on my lap making me grumble and push her off.

"You're so meannnnn" I pouted making her giggle as she cuddled closely into me.

And that was one of the best days I had with her...where for once our arguing and disagreement turned into something so...happy. It made me think about how much I love her. And I still do.

There was once a time where I remembered where I laid with her under the stars with her cuddling up close to me. It was where she loved me and I loved her and even now we still do...or well...I hoped she loved me as much as I love her.

[I can't imagine a world with you gone]

Suddenly I felt a tug onto my shirt seeing Briar had a small sad look on her face. She sniffled a bit making me pout too. I hated to see her upset.

"Awe, baby, what's wrong?" I spoke gently as she pouted and I smiled softly thinking a bit.

"Hungry?" I asked as she then smiled. Knew it.

"Rosalie!" I called out as she poked her head in.

"What is it?" she asked a little bitterly.

"Can you feed Briar. She's hungry" I asked as she instantly smiled and walked in gladly stealing her from me. She ran out with a slight giggle. Seeing her with a baby made her happy. It was...odd but a good thing.

I heard a soft coo seeing Arrow was cuddled into me making me smile. I kissed his head too and then suddenly spaced out to the thought of her. Aurora. Everything just went blank as I thought back to that night...the night I lost her...

I stood there holding our tiny newborn daughter in my arms smiling as she looked up at me with a neutral look since she didn't have enough strength for any movement. She couldn't even wiggle. And as for her name, I haven't named her yet. I wanted Aurora to since she probably already picked a bunch out for the two of them and I never or wanted to take that from her.

[The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of I'd be so lost if you left me alone]

I smiled getting lost in the features of the little girl in my arms as she looked just like Aurora. It was crazy but I couldn't help but fall in love with the little girl in my arms as suddenly I was broken away from my thoughts with the sudden quietness in the room...something was up...

I looked around seeing Jasper, Alice, Emmett, and Esme were no longer in the room leaving me here with Ilsa, Carlilse, and Rosalie. Then again, there was also Aurora and the twins.

"Aurora, love. What did you name them?" I asked with a happy smile but when I looked over that smile faded as I saw Ilsa standing there frozen like a statue with a strangely quiet little boy in her arms...our son...and as for Aurora...she was still...terrifyingly still...

"Aurora?" I spoke gently as I stepped over to her but I heard no response from her and heard her heart slowing.

"AURORA!"

Snapping back to reality I noticed the house was empty and silent. Rosalie ran outside with Aurora and the rest of my family probably either joined her or went hunting...that left me here alone...alone with our son and the body of my...girlfriend...or do I even get to call her that? Is she my girlfriend or did she die being the girl I fell deeply in love with.

I felt a small movement making me turn my attention to Arrow who smiled up at me clueless to what he was doing or what was happening.

Gently I placed a kiss upon his head smiling trying to look happy but a tear suddenly fell down my cheek gently hitting his hand as he blinked a bit scared from it.

"I'm sorry, Arrow" I spoke gently as I held him closely making him whine a bit.

"I couldn't save your mommy so she could see how amazing you and your sister are. I think she would've been completely and utterly happy. She would've loved you two" I spoke gently to him as he looked confused.

[You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I break through]

"Mommy?" he spoke breaking my heart...it was his first word...and Aurora could never experience it...his first word...or Briar's...

"Yes. Mommy" I spoke silently as he smiled giggling happily and cuddled into me not comprehending why I was sad but I let it slide and let myself drift back into the past...

[I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"]

Quickly I felt Rosalie take our daughter from me as I rushed over to Aurora pulling her body closely into me.

[Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you]

"No! Aurora! Please don't leave me!" I cried trying to feel for a pulse or even hear a stronger heartbeat than the one I was feeling now.

[Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life]

Everything was just falling apart as I heard Rosalie walk over and pull Ilsa away and out of the room. Neither wanting to see this as they both left me here with Carlisle...if he was still here too...or maybe...no...they're all giving up on her...no. No! I'm not giving up! Not now not ever!

[Hold on, I still need you]

Immediately without any hesitation I started to perform CPR on her as I cracked her chest hoping she would just gasp in air and breathe!

[A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from]

"Breathe, baby! Breathe!" I pleaded as I kept performing CPR on her hoping for a goddam miracle.

[Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin'
Hiding in the shock and the chill in my bones]

"Please. Please please please" I whimpered feeling myself fall apart even more as everything around me just melted away. It was where I couldn't even tell what was happening anymore. It was as if all sound canceled out and all that mattered was Aurora.

[They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still]

"Please. Please. Stay with me. Please. Please stay with me. Aurora stay with me stay with me stay with m-me" I whimpered as I felt myself go weak. My arms going limp as I felt as if all the strength in my body was sucked out of me...

[I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming, "please don't leave me"]

"No. No no no no no. You're not dead. No. You're not d-dead!" I screamed with my voice filling with frustration.

Quickly I fumbled over to the drawer rummaging through everything as I found what I was looking for. The big syringe filled with a whiteish grey liquid. My venom.

[Hold on, I still want you]

Quickly I moved her hair away as it was still soft to the touch making me freeze a bit. It made me feel as if she was still alive...but I knew the longer I waited...she could die...

[Come back, I still need you]

Quickly pushing everything away I stabbed the syringe into her letting the fluid run through her veins hoping for the best. Quickly I pulled it out and discarded the syringe on the floor not caring about my surroundings as stood there watching her. Waiting.

[Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life]

"Please baby please. Please" I whimpered again seeiming to repeat myself. It was as if I felt as if I kept repeating the word 'please' she would hear me and wake up...and come back to me...

Suddenly when I knew the venom would've reached her by now she was still. She was deathly still and it scared me...

[Hold on, I still need you]

"No! No! Aurora!" I screamed with tears now streaming down my cheeks and my whole body radiating with despair and pain.

"No. No no no no! Don't leave me!" I sobbed as I started to perform CPR even though I knew it wouldn't help...but...there was nothing else I could do...no...goddamn it!

Quickly I started to throw away any sense or humanity I had left and started to bite her neck hoping if I would just sink my teeth into her more venom would fix her...maybe she would come back.

As I was rushing against the time of death I peppered bite marks into her skin all around her arms and legs and all around her body. It seemed as of I lost full control and only wanted her to come back to me...which I did...and nothing happened...

[I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong]

I started to mumble incoherently as even I didn't understand what was coming from my mouth. It was as if nothing was registering in my head...as if I was...nothing...then, that's when disaster struck...I lashed out...

"FUCK!" I screamed in anger. Pain radiating throughout my body when I realized she wasn't coming back.

In pure anger I started to throw things...ripping things from the wall, punching holes, and making a mess throughout the room as the only thing untouched was Aurora. Violently I was screaming my heart out as I couldn't take it. I needed her. I needed her. I needed her.

"I NEED YOU AURORA! I NEED YOU! COME BACK TO ME! WHY WON'T YOU COME BACK TO ME?!" I screamed at her lifeless body as I was consumed with pain...with grief...with...fright...maybe the truth is I didn't want to live a life without her.

"Edward" I heard a soft calm voice speak as I turned to see Carlisle standing there as a mess terrorized the entire room...it was a disaster...

I turned around seeing the full damage I made...it was...despicable...

[I just wanna hear you
Saying baby, let's go home]

"Aurora" I muttered incoherently seeing her lying there...dead...gone...she was gone...

[Let's go home]

"You need to calm d-" he suddenly spoke as before he could finish I felt my knees buckle and collapse down to the ground sobbing as I sat there with my head in my hands. I didn't want this to be real...No...this couldn't be real...no. No no no no...it couldn't. Please. Don't let it be real...don't let it be real...don't let it be real...

I found myself sobbing as Arrow was squirming in my arms not liking the wetness of my tears on him. Sadly I looked down at him finally seeing the resemblance between him and I...how we looked exactly alike...a spitting image...and when I saw him I saw the same exact look in his eyes as mine once were when I saw Aurora slipping away from me...worry...sadness...pain...scaredness...how everything looked so...terrifyingly scary in only a matter of a few moments of time...

[Yeah, I just wanna take you home]

"I-I'm so sorry Arrow...if only you knew the truth" I whispered sadly hearing the door open and Rosalie walking in with Briar in her arms. The small smile on Briar's face made mine light up a bit as it looked just like Aurora's...just like her...everything about her...it was just. Like. Her...Aurora...mi amore...

[Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you]

Gently I took Briar in my arms holding both of them happily. Them together made me feel this rush of happiness. Seeing a replica of Aurora made me have this undying amount of happiness and seeing Arrow reminded me it would be alright. It would be alright. It would be alright. I knew I would. I could feel it. It felt as now everything would just get better...and let me tell you, it did.

"Mommy?"