EDWARD CULLEN
It's been two weeks since I've seen her. Aurora...mi amore and it was all my fault. I hurt her and instead of trying to make it up to her I fled...I left her.

Silently I was in a room that I called mine yet didn't feel like it. While my family was closer to Forks, I was locked away in a small remote house in Italy...alone.

I sat there with a picture of Aurora in my hands as she was smiling. She looked...happy. I wonder if she was happier now...without me. She probably was because let's be honest, she could do better and she would. I promised myself to never go back...that way I could never hurt her...

I smiled for the first time in forever as I saw a picture of us on my couch in my room cuddling as she was asleep with her arms wrapped around my neck and her legs intertwined with mine. She looked...peaceful.

As I was looking through the photos I heard my phone ring and while my phone was ringing there was a hard and quick knock on the door. I tried to ignore it but it came more persistent throughout every passing second.

"Edward! Open up! It's, Alice! Let me in!" she spoke worriedly as I let out a groan of annoyance. All I wanted was to be left alone.

Tiredly and shakily I got up and opened the door. "What is it, Alice?" I asked with a blank look because I admit, I'm not in the best shape at the moment...my hairs messed up, my skin paler than usual, I look dead. More dead. And I knew that but I didn't really care. The fact that I left Aurora kills me...but I did it...for her.

"Edward, we have to go back" she spoken quickly as I raised a brow.

"Alice, I told you. I hurt her. I can't see her ever again. I want her to live a long happy life whether or not that is with me or someone else" I spoke blankly as she let out a frustrated noise.

"You aren't listening to me you ass!" she snapped making me only more confused.

"Alice. I don't want to see her. I hurt her and she's better off without me anyway. Just drop it because she needs to move on" I spoke with a shrug as she growled and hit the wall making an indent.

"Edward! She loves YOU! She wants YOU! She wants to be with YOU!" she screamed in my face as my expression didn't change. At all.

"The whole family is worried about you! Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, Carlisle, Esme, ME! We're all worried about you because you can't live without her and we're losing you in the process!" she screamed as I was still silent as ever. My face stone blank and my expression never changing.

"You know what? I don't see the point in this. Why are you so stubborn and why did you even leave?! You haven't told anyone and all you did was say we had to leave and we left. What happened" she spat as I sighed lightly.

"Alice. We had sex. I hurt her. Twice. The first time I was too hard on her and I made her cry. The second time I left bruises all over her body. She seemed happy and seemed to have enjoyed it but I hurt her. I left bruises all over her body, Alice. I told myself I would never ever hurt her and I did" I spoke softly as I finally felt a rush of sadness come over me. Another emotion that I've felt and haven't felt in a long time. But, this wave of sadness didn't really faze me. The only thing that happened was a small shift in my face. A small frown.

"Oh" was all she replied with as I nodded. Then all the sudden that small frown went away as all my emotions did too. I was once again blank.

"I know you're hurting" she spoke gently as I didn't respond. I just walked back inside the house as she sighed.

"Edward answer me. I know somethings wrong and you need to fix this. We need to go back!" she spoke as suddenly she was in a rush again.

"Edward!" she snapped as I didn't respond. I just sat back down looking at the pictures in front of me hoping for something.

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen!" she snapped as I again didn't respond. All I did was mind my business and look at the pictures as I tried to remember what was really happening. Why this was why it was. Why she would be with me. A monster.

As I kept looking at the photos holding our memories I swore Alice was speaking but all I did was ignore her. I didn't really care. Whatever she was talking about I didn't care about. All I wanted was to be left alone.

That's when all of a sudden Alice whispered the unthinkable. The one thing that I never wanted. The one thing I never wanted or thought I would hear. The one thing that finally broke me.

"She's dead" she whispered as I broke away from my trance and looked over at her. Sadness filling my eyes. Anger filling my eyes...everything filling my eyes as I felt...devistated...

"W-What?" my voice quivered as she sighed softly and wouldn't look away from me. She just kept eye contact. Like...like she was...serious...but all I could think was that this was a joke. A sick sick joke.

"What do you mean she's d-dead?" I whimpered as she was silent. It was like she didn't know what to say.

"ALICE! WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE'S DEAD?!" I screamed as she gave me a sad look.

"I can't see her future anymore. I've been looking and watching her for the past two weeks but I couldn't see anything anymore. It was...just...gone" she spoke gently as I felt everything just shatter.

"S-Since when?" I whispered as she sighed.

"A few days after we left..." she spoke gently as I felt myself shatter even more. This was all my fault...

"W-What? W-What do you mean?" I whispered not wanting to believe it.

"After we left I kept an eye on her. I watched her every move and uh...after a while it just...stopped...one moment I was watching her and then in the middle of it, it just stopped..." she spoke softly as I gave her a broken look.

"A-And you didn't want to tell me sooner?!" I snapped as she gave me an annoyed look.

"I thought something was wrong with me Edward! I thought that it was a one-time thing! Then after a while it went from being able to see her to stopping mid vision then it just fully and completely just stopped!" she snapped as I felt my whole body shake feeling everything break even more. Everything...shattering.

"W-When. W-When did everything stop completely?" I shook out as she sighed lightly.

"A few days ago. But-" she started but I cut her off when my knees gave out and I collapsed down onto the ground. My body shaking and tears threatening to spill from my eyes when finally, they did.

"Edward" she spoke gently as I stayed there sobbing. All that I could feel was pain. It was like someone hit me till I realized what was going on and that's when I got up thrashing and throwing things around making a mess that I did not care for cleaning nor did I care for how chaotic the mess what.

"Edward" she repeated in the same tone as I continued to freak out. Shaking, sobbing, breaking. Everything turning to shit.

"Edward" she repeated once more as thoughts began racing my mind. This was all my fault. Mine...

"Edward!" she snapped as I suddenly looked at her feeling myself pull away from my...disaster.

"Look, I shouldn't have said anything and I-" she started and I again cut her off.

"I need to see her. I need to find her. I need to make sure she's alive" I rambled getting up and with that, I was gone. I left my small isolated house to find the one woman I wanted. Needed. I needed to make sure she was alive...I needed to fix this.

Once I left Italy with Alice I stood there on Aurora's porch completely and utterly silent. From here I could hear small arguments and sounds of worry from voices inside the house. It...worried me...

"You need to calm down. She'll be alright. She has people she trusts and she's being watched" a voice spoke that belonged to no other than Jacob Black. Plus I could smell him still.

"How can I calm down, Jacob?! She's dying!" another voice yelled but was filled with sadness and brokenness. "This is all his fault. She should've never been with him. Without Edward in her life, she could've had a normal human life. Not one filled with destruction and a rapist bastard still on the loose!" the voice yelled again and suddenly the person that the voice belonged to sniffled in despair.

"My Caramel is dying" the voice whimpered as now I knew who it was. James.

"James. She'll be okay. She'll make it" Jacob reassured as I could hear the scoff and hate laced in James' voice and tone.

"Sure she will. Sure she will" he muttered angrily. "And if she doesn't then-" he growled but before he could finish I knocked on the door making it'll go silent.

As I stood there I could hear soft mutters as they were deciding what to do or if they should answer so again, I knocked. And if I had to stand here so be it as it was for the woman I love.

It seemed like hours passed when the door finally opened and once James saw my face he pulled me inside and slammed me against the wall punching me in anger. Me? I did nothing. I deserved it.

"Hey! Stop it!" Alice snapped pushing him off a bit as she looked annoyed and all I did was stand there stupidly.

"Why! He caused this! Because of him, she could die! I could lose her because of him!" James yelled as Alice rolled her eyes.

"Is she here or not" she spoke getting annoyed by the smell and the action and tone of James.

"She's upstairs. But, he can't see her. I don't want him to see her and I don't want her to see him" he seethed and as Alice was about to blow up I couldn't help but be grateful that she was still alive.

And all I could do was stand there with a stupid grin on my face as James and Alice were going at it like an old married couple but did I care? No. All I wanted was to see her. Mi amore.

"I need to see her" I interrupted and started to walk upstairs. Happy. For once, happy.

"I said no!" James snapped grabbing my wrist tightly making me stop where I stood.

"I need to see her" I spoke again calmly. I was weak and if he wanted he could take me down.

"I said. No" he continued to growl as his voice and tone was laced with anger. But, it was also laced in fear...

"James I-" I started but quickly he cut me off.

"NO! YOU CAN'T SEE HER!" he spat in my face making me almost just lose it.

"I need to see her, James! I need to make sure she's alright!" I yelled with a plead as he only looked at me in disgust.

"No! You can't see her! She doesn't want to see you!" he snapped and that's when I went silent. Dead silent. Maybe...maybe he was right...maybe I should leave...she doesn't want me...she doesn't...and I don't blame her...

"James...I need to see her...please...she's all I have and I can't go on knowing she's in pain" I whispered as I realized I was right in front of her bedroom door.

I felt myself breaking as I stood there waiting for James' response but it never came. So, I continued on.

"Please. I need to see her" I pleaded with a small sniffle. "If she's hurt I need to apologize to her. To tell her how sorry I am...and if she wants me to leave...I'll leave but please, I love her"

Silence filled the room as I stood there with James staring at me. As if he was thinking and pretty soon Alice and Jacob were up here too. Waiting. As if they both wanted to see her too. To make sure she was okay...meaning...something was terribly wrong.

As we stood there in silence I could hear soft voices speaking in the room I stood outside of as I heard her voice. Thank God. She was alive.

"Let him in" I heard a soft dry voice spoke. It belonged to Aurora but something seemed...off.

The next thing I knew the door was opened as James instantly pushed me aside getting a look from Renesmee. A part of me still hated her.

"James. Let him in. She wants to see him. Plus, he has some explaining" she spoke glaring at me as I brushed it aside and walked in knowing everyone's eyes were now on me. All except the ones I wanted to see most...Aurora.

"Aurora?" I spoke in a soft dry voice as me myself was slipping away and everyone knew that. Even me.

"I know I left without any words and I know I left at the worst time possible but there are too many words to describe how horrible I feel for it. I don't expect you to forgive me but I'm asking you for it and in fact begging for it because I love you" I spoke in a soft and weak tone as I already had doubts this wasn't going to work. Why would it? Why would she ever take me back? After everything I've done?

"You have every right to be angry with me" I continued. "You have every right to hate me and want to throw me out and kill me because I deserve it but let me show you I'm sorry. Let me apologize" I spoke hoping she would turn around to face me. I needed to see her baby blue eyes once more. The baby blue eyes that I fell in love with.

"M-Mi amore?" I whimpered as that made her turn around. Her movements were slow and looked in pain. She seemed...dead. And once she turned around I saw it. Everything. Or...well...her face...

Her skin was white pale while her eyes were red and puffy. Her nose looked inflamed as she wore a frown on her face. Her hair was a mess and her lovely warm welcoming baby blue eyes were now light grey as they were filled with tears and pain...they were filled with so much emotion yet her face was blank. The only thing that seemed to have any emotion was her eyes which I could read like a book, but her mind...it was closed off...completely...and it pained me. It killed me...it destroyed me to see her like this and to make it worse...I was the cause...this was my fault. I destroyed and broke the woman I fell so deeply in love with...and I couldn't do anything about it...

Silence filled the air as I was examining her features and emotions searching for something to grasp onto as she was doing the same. She looked at me and my body as if to see my expression. As if to notice and take note of all the broken and damaged parts of me. As my golden eyes were now black filled with thirst. My skin ice-cold pale. Paler than before and my hair...it was a mess and in ruins like hers. Both of us looking completely and utterly ruined...but it was never her fault because I caused this. I caused this disaster for both of us...

As we continued to stare I heard about whispers from outside the door as it was closed. They wanted to give us privacy but they didn't know what to do. Laila, Ilsa, and Renesmee were trying to prevent anyone from barging in as I could hear the concern in Alice's thoughts. She seemed...scared but in this moment was completely blind. Meanwhile, James was angry. At me, at Alice, at my family, at everyone and I didn't blame him. As for Jacob, he didn't really like us or the idea of vampires but he did genuinely care about Winter since she's human and it's kinda their job...he was thinking, and I couldn't help but listen, about how I'm a danger to her...how I could destroy her more.

Then, that's when finally I decided to speak and start off with something that I only hoped would cause a part of her to un-freeze.

"I'm sorry mi a-" I started in a gentle tone but before I could even finish I was cut off by Aurora who now was full of anger.

"Don't call me that" she snapped bitterly as I watched her fists clench. "You don't get do call me that or even think about wanting to just apologize because it's not fair" she spoke in an angry tone as all I could do was nod. After all, there was so little that I could do to interfere that wouldn't upset her more...

"I-It's not fair!" her voice broke as I watched her fists tighten watching her nails dig into her palms tightly as I watched her hands grow pale. Paler than they already were.

"Stop" I whispered softly undoing her small fists feeling the ice-cold feeling of her skin which made me wince at it. It killed me. So much.

When she pulled away she gave me an evil stare as I could only give her a look of sadness and regret. A look that destroyed me as I saw it in her own face killing me more.

"M-Aurora" I corrected myself. "What's wrong? Tell me. Please. I want to help" I spoke gently as she rolled away from me as she let out a small painful noise as I heard her wince and whimper in pain as her breathing quickened like she was covering up something...

That's when the door opened and Ilsa walked in with a styrofoam cup in her hands. She gently took a seat in front of her with the cup giving Aurora a gentle soft smile.

"Hey, Sweetheart" she spoke in a calm voice as she gently ran her fingers through Aurora's hair as if it were for comfort. "Take a drink" she smiled bringing it to her lips as she took a small drink wincing a bit.

I raised a brow confused as suddenly I smelt it. Blood. It was human blood. I was completely and utterly confused about where the smell was coming from as I watched Aurora take another sip wincing once more.

"How do you feel?" Ilsa spoke as she just shrugged.

"Dead" she muttered incoherently but I still caught it. It was silent where no human could hear.

"What?" she asked as Aurora just shook her head taking another sip as she just winced once more. What the hell was she drinking and why did it smell like human blood?!

"What is wrong, Aurora?!" I blurted as it was much harsher than intended as I watched her wince and take another sip. The room had a faint blood smell and it started to anger me as I was hungry...after all, I haven't eaten in forever...I was starving myself.

Quickly I pushed down my hunger and watched her drink out of the cup till I heard it was finished and once it was Ilsa looked at Aurora then at me as if she were saying something to her without saying anything.

I watched the hidden looks between the two as I really couldn't see Aurora's face but I did know she turned her head to talk to Ilsa and all I could feel was sadness. That's all I could see.

Suddenly Ilsa nodded and walked out leaving me alone and confused about their entire conversation. I just felt...lost.

"Aurora...please. Tell me what's wrong" I pleaded as she mumbled a bit sitting up as her back was facing me and she was facing the wall. She pushed off the blanket off her as I watched her gently shifting her weight and then that's when I realized the effect of me leaving did to her...she was extremely thin and she looked so...fragile.

"Aurora I-" I started but she let out an annoying noise.

"For once Edward can you not think this is all about you!" she snapped angerly. "I am not like this because of you or well, I am but I am like this because I choose to be. Me. These two weeks I've been choosing for myself and what to do so for once can you just shut up!" she yelled as then she cried in pain making me instantly rush towards her catching her so she wouldn't fall to the ground.

Gently I placed her carefully onto the bed as when suddenly my gaze went to her hands which went to her stomach and that is when I really had a good look at her. To see what she's been hiding...this whole time...and that blood I smelled...she was drinking because...she's pregnant...with, my kids...

"Aurora I-" I started and again she cut me off with a small light scoff.

"Edward. Stop" she spoke and laid down carefully with her hands rested gently onto her stomach as I watched her wince in complete pain. "I want these babies so before you say anything just leave it alone. I don't care because if I have to die so be it" she snapped as I felt my heart break. The one that never existed yet it broke.

"Aurora y-you can't. Y-You can't have this...kid" I stammered out when I remembered she said babies...more than one. "A-And what do you mean b-babies. A-As in more than one?!" I spoke in shock and fear as she nodded.

"Twins. Renesmee said I looked bigger and was in more pain than Bella was so she was guessing I was carrying more than one" she spoke with a straight look as I felt my knees tremble.

"Aurora...you have to get rid of them. Aurora...I can't lose you" I whispered as she rolled her eyes gently rubbing her stomach.

"You can't tell me what to do Edward. You of all people should know how much having these babies mean to me. Whether or not you want to be in their lives that's your choice but you cannot decide for me. You lost that right the day you left" she spoke calmly yet her voice was filled with venom.

"A-And when were you going to tell me this? That you were pregnant. With my babies?" I spoke with anger now laced in between my words.

"A few days before I'm expected. I would've called Alice or had Renesmee look for you to tell you the news or I could've found Bella. After all, she's your wife and you love her. I know the truth, Edward. I know what happened. The fact you never gave up. The fact you still loved her even when we were together. So get out" she spoke as I felt a pain in my throat. Like someone was stabbing me...and I could feel it.

"Mi amore...I do love you" I whispered as she scoffed.

"Don't call me that. And you don't love me. You've proven it time and time again" she snapped as gently I placed a hand onto her stomach as she tensed. I could feel the kicks of them as I felt two strong ones. I could tell the difference...she was right. Twins...and that's all I could tell...

"Aurora...it's true. I love you" I spoke in a gentle voice as she pushed off my hand annoyed by my presence.

"I love you and never stopped loving you. I love you so much. You have to understand that. No one could make me as happy as you make me. No one could hurt me as much as you could because I love you too much to lose you so, please. Please let me help you and Carlisle can come get them out of you" I spoke as she turned to me with hate in her eyes.

"You don't get it, do you? If you loved me you never would have left" she spoke angerly. "If you loved me you would've stayed instead of fled so tell me, Edward. How could you have loved me if you left me?" she spoke as when she finished silence filled the air. I couldn't tell her the truth...the unbearable truth.

"And now you have no words. So, I'm right. You don't love me" she shrugged as if it didn't bother her. "I'm not surprised. You never did"

"I do love you" I whispered as it was bearly audible but she heard. And she laughed. Laughed...

"How can you love me when you left me, Edward. You left when I needed you the most and you didn't even care to check on me or care to call!" she snapped as I felt a rush of disappointment in myself wash over. And now, now that I'm back here...with her near me...all my emotions are just...rushing back...

"Tell me, Edward! Why say you love me when you left me because THAT is NOT LOVE!" she yelled as I felt a small pain in my chest and I finally just...blew up.

"I LEFT BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!" I screamed and when it came out I finally realized what I said...

"You love me. You left because you LOVE ME?! How could you love me when you left me right after you USED me!" she screamed at me as I felt my heart shatter into even more pieces. It felt like I couldn't talk. Like someone stabbed me in the throat and ripped out my heart squishing it till it drained of whatever blood it may have left...crushing it...

"You hurt me" she continued as I watched her suck in a sharp breath knowing they cracked her ribs again...but...for some reason...I froze.

"Did you not hear me?" she whimpered as her voice broke in between each word. She seemed as if she were falling apart...and finally, when she knew I maybe would never respond back she took a deep breath letting it all out...the truth on how she felt...and I couldn't blame her.

"See. How can you claim to love someone so much when you can't even talk to them. Explain something. Do something. It's been two weeks Edward! Two weeks! AND I'm carrying your children that you don't want. So what do YOU know about love"

"There is no love here. Never has never was. I now know that. So you can go back to wherever you hid because I don't want to see you. I don't want to be or see someone who I've loved even throughout this whole time you've been away. In the two weeks you were gone I still thought about you. Loved you. Wondered about you. I thought that maybe I would survive giving birth to my babies and we could live together finally and maybe, maybe I could become like you but, that was it. Just imaginary. Isn't it" she scoffed as I watched her lay down once again pulling the sheets over her and turn away from me...she no longer cared...she stopped loving me...but...I never stopped loving her.

"Edward. Get out" she spoke with now hate and bitterness laced into her voice as everything was just quiet. Nothing could be heard besides her breathing and my constantly shaking.

Silently I finally felt myself able to move when I couldn't help but realize my hands were subconsciously in my pocket touching the small velvet black box that I had kept for so long hoping I would fix this...but...I seemed to have broken it...beyond repair.

Quickly snapping out of my trance I pulled out the small box and gently placed it by her bedside and without another word I willingly left her room and walked out that door not caring anymore. She no longer loved me so maybe...maybe I could learn to no longer love her...even though I knew that wasn't going to happen...she was and is forever going to be the best thing that happened to me...forever and always.

Now, as I found myself leaving her house I looked up to see her by her window with tears in her eyes and the box in her hand with the other gently on her stomach. She looked frozen as she looked down at me as if her eyes were begging me to come back. To apologize. But, I couldn't. She needed to live without me because I would go back and tell Carlilse and he would save her. He would turn her and she would live forever with our babies in complete happiness...without me.

I sent her a small smile as if to tell her it would be okay and with that, I closed my eyes tightly pushing down all of the memories I had with her and when I opened them I still smiled thinking of all the good times we had.

I watched her break and shake as she looked like she was breaking even more and it pained me to see her like this but she deserved better.

"I love you, Aurora Frost. My Auri, my darling, my love, my all, mi amore" I spoke smiling and with that, I turned around and ran off into the morning sky as the sun was coming up letting everything go with only the memory of her on my mind.
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5128 words. Wow. Anyway, I ended up not editing this for tome purposes and I was procrastinating anyway lmao. Anyway, hoped you lovelies liked this chapter because I diddddd.