Chapter one

Part 1 ( cuz it was too long )

" My demons are begging me to open up my mouth "

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She walked throughout her high school's corridors, smiling and greeting everyone that did, giggling to some of the persons that came and made some small funny talks with her, some of them inviting her for lunch, to hang out, or asking her for tutoring sessions. She somehow quite liked the attention, and always needed more, yet she was so humble and nice. She was so sweet and careful, and her smile could charm anyone. Who wouldn't like her ? Why wouldn't they ? She was the nicest. To everyone.

— Hey, are you still up for Wednesday gala ? Her bestfriend, Taehyung, asked. You know, the gala my parents are organizing for charity. We still need some volunteer thought.

— Yes, of course i am. My parents will be coming too, and my brother. She smiled at him. I can help you find other volunteers, how many people are needed ?

— I don't know, i really shouldn't have asked my parents to let me organize it, it's so much work. He sighed, as they trolled to their next class. We need five more people. The Gala is for tomorrow and i still have a so much to do. He pouted, giving Meira his puppy eyes.

— Don't count on me for the organization, i am sure you can do it alone, i believe in you Tae. She started, as her friend's pout deepened. But i can get you five people for tomorrow, it will not be hard, i guess. She smiled as her friend's pout disappeared, letting place to an excited face.

He thanked her, hugging her tightly as they got into separated way, getting to their different classes.

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Jeongguk was at home, locked up in his room as he was skipping school. As usual. His room was messy, the smell of weed and nicotine spred all over the place, he was wasted. But what's new ?

His mind was too high to focus on anything, not even the screaming and shouting that came from downstairs, but did he really want to listen to it ? Knowing damn much who was arguing and why.

His parents were, again, fighting because of him.

— I gave you everything ! You had only one thing to do and you did it wrong ! Screamed Jeongguk's father, angry and upset, again. I wanted a good son ! BUT YOU RAISED A FUCK UP !

— Don't call him that ! He still is your son, Jungmin ! Retorted back his wife, crying, feeling bad for Jeongguk.

— A fucked up son ! He should be at school, not getting high in his room !

— AND DID YOU FORGET THAT YOU WERE DOING THE SAME THING AT HIS AGE ? DID YOU FORGET HOW IRRESPONSIBLE AND FUCKED UP YOU WERE ? WE BOTH WERE BUT WE ENDED UP FINE, DIDN'T WE ? WE ARE HAPPY, AREN'T WE ? WITH YOU TRYING TO BE ACCEPTED LIKE A BUSINESS MAN AND ME BEING-

She was stopped in her rant by a loud sigh, which took her and her husband's attention to the source of the exasperated sound.

— Aren't you two tired ? Asked Jeongguk, going to the kitchen wanting a cup of water, not waiting for an answer.

The parents looked at each other then at their son who was now facing them, sitting on the kitchen's counter.

He looked awful, his appearance was so messy, a total opposite of his parents where his mother was all freshened up wearing an expensive looking dress and high heels, and his father wearing a suit that surely costed a lot. Jeongguk's appearance didn't also get in the decor, their mansion was so luxurious, beautifully marbled, with fancy furnitures and gold details everywhere, he was in the middle of so much lux, wearing a loose sweatpants and an old tank top.

— Jeongguk. His father called, sternly, as the boy looked at him, uninterested. I am having an important meeting this evening, you are coming with me and your mother.

— No, i'm not.

— Yes, you are. And if you keep this disrespectful attitude, I'm sending you to military school. He threatened, making the boy roll his eyes. Go freshen up, you are going to school, right now.

The boy, too tired to argue, did as he was told, not forgetting to crash a chair or two and slam the door forcefully to show his discontent.

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Meira's day at school was hectic, she kept going from class to class, helping every teacher that needed her, and didn't forget to find volunteer's for Taehyung's gala.

Feeling proud of herself, she made her way to the last period of the day, sociology and psychology. This class was her favorite one, she loved getting to know people's opinion and point of view on the world, understanding their minds and ways of thinking. She smiled just at it's thought, as she made her way into the classroom, smiling to everyone.

Waiting for the teacher, she took out her phone, messaging her friend, as to tell him that she found him volunteers.

Min Meira :
Tae !
Good news, I've found
five people for tomorrow's
gala. I'm sending you their
infos right away.

Kim Taehyung :
Thanks ! You really are
the best. I'll contact them
telling them the details.

Min Meira :
Anytime Chubs.
Good Luck, will talk to
you later, i have class.

Kim Taehyung :
Um.. actually..

Min Meira :
Yeah? Anything else?

Kim Taehyung :
I might need more
than just five people..

Min Meira :
Ugh Tae, you must be
kidding, it took me a
whole day to get those
five people... How many
people do you need ?

Kim Taehyung :
Only two more, i swear..

Min Meira :
Fine ! I'll see what
i can do. I'm such a nice
person tbh..

Kim Taehyung :
You are, Bub, you really
are. Thanks, i'll let you
focus in class now.
Talk to you later.

She sighed and hid her phone as the teacher came in, smiling as his usual. Kim Namjoon was his name, he was their homeroom teacher and was so nice that no one could hate on him, he was Meira's favorite professor and she looked up to him, he got her into liking litterrature and it became one of her favorite things, she would stay after class talking to him about a book she found interesting and he would give her his whole attention, he sometimes ask for her help at the library and she would agree right away. Taehyung sometimes teased her, asking her if she had a crush on the older man but she knew it wasn't that, she didn't like him that way, she could picture him as an older brother, more than a lover.

A lover.. Everytime she would think about this word, a sadness would fill her heart up, an non understandable feeling would church at her stomach and the feeling of emptiness would choke her as she was breathless, sometimes even choking some sobs, she felt lonely at the thought of a lover, and she hated feeling lonely.

— Meira? She heard her name being called. Is Min Meira absent?

And her head snapped to that, looking around her as everyone was eyeing her, worried or confused.

— Mr.Kim have been calling your name for the last three minutes. The student behind her whispered, as she looked up at the teacher who was slightly amused by the situation.

— P-Present! She finally outed, with her bubbly voice, making some of her classmates coo at her, and other chuckling, which made her blush and hide her face in her palms. Yet there was another thing that made her slightly unconformable, she felt someone staring, hard. But she didn't dare to look up at it.

— Jeon Jeongguk ? The teacher continued, yet knowing the said student wouldn't be there, he went to check him absent, but was stopped with a deep and lazy " Here " coming from the back of the class. Jeon Jeongguk. What a surprise, we finally have the pleasure to meet you, Mr.Jeon.

And curious, Meira looked behind her to the boy and was met by the most ethereal face she has ever seen, a sharp jawline, pretty pinkish lips, soft looking black hair, cutest nose ever and big, dark doe eyes looking right back at her. So captivating, she felt as if she could drown in them. She went out of her daze as she saw the said boy smirking, winking at her.

The feeling of embarassment started creeping up her cheeks as she felt them getting hotter, she just got caught staring.

— So, before starting the lesson, we will play a game, the two winners will get to skip this last period, as the two last ones will have to spend the next two weeks helping at the nursing house. Stated the teacher, as the students started getting excited at the idea of leaving early. The game will be in pairs, please choose your partner.

Some students got paired with their friends and others approached Meira but her eyes found their way to the brown haired boy at the back of the class and could only focus on his gaze as he lifted a brow, slightly amused by Meira's staring contest, and stood up, making his way to the girl.

— Hey. He smiled sweetly at her, and the blush on her cheeks only darkened. Want to be partners ? He asked, winking again as Meira was having a crisis, not knowing what was up with her.

— Y-yes, of course. She stuttered as his smile only got larger, taking a seat besides her.

— You know.. staring is rude. He whispered close to her ear as she felt chills running down her spine, before the boy moved away.

— I-I'm sorry.. i didn't mean to. She said in a small voice.

He only chuckled before the teacher started explaining the game, while both of them couldn't focus on what Mr.Kim was saying, Jeongguk was too busy checking out Meira, and the said girl was too busy hiding her blushing cheeks, avoiding eye contact with the boy.

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They weren't surprised when they lost, no one was to be honest, they spent the whole game stealing glances at each other, Jeongguk staring shamelessly as Meira was trying to understand what the game was about but couldn't, not with Jeongguk sitting close beside her, trying to make her laugh and teasing her and waiting for her reaction while smiling, looking like a bunny.

— Meira, is everything okay? You seemed quite off for this lesson.

— Yes, Mr.Kim, i'm okay, just a little tired, i have had a long day.

It was the end of the period, Meira and Jeongguk were at the now empty classroom waiting for the teacher to give them the instructions for the next two weeks.

— Can we get the instructions so we can leave? Asked Jeongguk, wanting to spend more time alone with Meira.

He got really interested in her, in which way ? He didn't know yet. Maybe he just wanted her in his bed, or maybe just messing with her for some times, but he found her interesting and extremely cute, so why not?

— Oh, right. So, you'll be there from 9am to 7pm, helping the staff and the old people there, not much instructions to give actually. Said Mr.Kim, smiling, before turning his attention to the girl. Want to help me at the librar-

And before he could end his sentence, Jeongguk had dragged Meira out of the classroom, taking her wrist in his hand and going for the school's exit.

— J-Jeongguk?

— Yes, Doll ?

“ Doll ” ... She didn't know she liked pet names until now. Until he said it. She fzlt weird, fuzzy, as if butterflies were trying to fly out of her insides, she liked that feeling way too much.

— I have a m-meeting with the rest of the c-cheerleaders i can't leave y-yet.

And Jeongguk frowned.

— O-Oh.. of course. I just wanted to spend some time with you since we will practically spend the spring break together and i thought it would be a good idea to bond a little, but i guess you have your priorities, i'll leav-

— No! I-I mean.. it's just a simple meeting, nothing really important, you wanted to spend time w-with me ?

— Are you sure ? I don't want to steal you from your responsibilities.

— Of course, i'm sure. She smiled at him, and with that his hidden smirk switched to a childlike smile, a smile that got Meira hooked.

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— So.. where are we going ? She asked as they made they path to the High school's parking lot.

— Wherever you want, Doll. We can go around town or to a park, or maybe eat ice cream?

— I heard that you do graffiti, c-can i see it ?

— You want to see my drawings ?

— I-if it's okay with you. She said in a small voice.

Everyone knew about Jeon Jeongguk, about his parents story, about his mental issues and how much time he got to the police station, and everyone made sure to stay away from him, but Meira couldn't, when she locked gazes with him in class, she was hooked, she really wanted to be friends with him, she found him interesting, out of the lot.

She was so used to everyone being nice and goody two shoes, she just wanted something more. She didn't know exactly what, but something in Jeongguk attracted her.

— I would love to, but.. you know that that's actually illegal, right ?

She froze a little at the word « illegal » yet she felt something in her tickling, as if pushing her to it, and she couldn't go against it. She just nodded and smiled.

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Looking at her left side she crooked her neck trying to get a better view of the main road, whilst also doing her best to stay hidden in the narrow alley they were in.

— You know, I brought you here to show you my graffiti not to teach you how to spy on people. Joked Jeongguk, trying to ease the anxious girl beside him.

— O-oh yeah I was just... She looked around aimlessly, playing with her hands then cleared her throat awkwardly. I was just looking around.

Upon seeing her pinkish cheeks, he smirked somehow proud of himself as he seemed to enjoy the effect he had on her.

Her blush only deepened as she saw him eying her and she averted her attention to his drawing, appreciating how the colors were paradoxically married and how it seemed to tell stories only him could decipher behind a couple of words tauntingly clever.

She reached out to the wall but hastily took her hand back as if afraid it would somehow ruin it. Amused, the young gentlemam took it upon himself to reassure her by taking one of her dainty hands in his rugged one and slowly approaching them to the wall.

Amazed, Meira's gaze was locked in their hands, the drawing long forgotten, as she was trying hard to fight back the blush, she had no idea, that was already adorning her cheeks. Their hands weirdly fitted, hers were small and delicate asgis were huge compared the girl's, huge and veiny. Her stomach had the same weird feeling that had her both awestruck and terrified but her amazement always seemed to overpower the other feelings, leaving her genuinely happy. She just love how opposite yet right both of them were. Or so she thought.

Unfortunately, her joy didn't seem to last as Jeongguk took his hand away as fast as he could as if she burned him.

Offended, she looked at her hands than at him only to find him mentioning to her to keep quiet.

Puzzled, she sent a confused look to which he answered by gesturing to the main road. It only took her a few seconds to start panicking and before she could say a word, a deep rocky voice boomed :

— HEY ! What are you two doing here !? it's a restricted area !! The policeman yelled at the top of his lungs before waving at his colleagues.

Not waiting for any other confirmation, jeon took her hand again without having the intention of letting go, speeding down the narrow alley then stopped when a wall came in view.

Meira felt both excitement and dread but she couldn't shake off her smile not matter how hard she tried, simply enjoying the way their hands were tangled up and the rush of adrenaline in her blood. However her smile vanished as soon as he intertwined both his hands and nodding his head toward them then toward the wall in front of him.

She shook her head, incredulous, as uncertainty creeped up on her for the umpteenth time this evening and she finally started doubting her not so appealing anymore choices. She felt silly following a delinquent around, she wanted a change and wanted to feel more free but she didn't want her family's and her's reputation to be tainted by the process of having what she wanted, she wasn't selfish and maybe the problem is there. So looking at his pleading eyes, she asked herself if he was worth it, footsteps becoming louder each second that passes.

To answer herself, she swung her left leg to put it in his joined hands then lifted her weight up in the air with his help then sate on top of the wall looking down at Jeongguk to find him smiling widely at her, he winked then reached out for the wall but before he could do anything a hand grabbed him from behind and he turned around to face a person he knew way too well from the look in his face, amusement.

He smiled and Meira's heart skipped a beat whilst seeing that, torn apart between drooling over his face becoming even more beautiful seen from above or feeling terrified for what's going to happen to him.

— Well, if it's not our favorite Jeon. The contrary would have shocked me, don't know why we bothered following you hoping it would be another person. The old man sighed exasperatedly, massaging his temples as his colleague tried to catch his breathes.

— Oh come on Seokjin ! Don't look too happy about seeing me. Jeongguk exclaimed with a goofy, heartwarming smile, clapping his hand on the policeman's shoulder.

Meira exhaled sharply upon seeing their exchange, not understanding what's happening but at the same time relieved that they wouldn't be in trouble.

Come to think about it, Meira has had a lot of mixed feelings from the moment she met Jeongguk. As a tornado, he came and turned her life upside down which is pretty ironic seeing as she had always lived a peaceful and stable life for years yet everything changed from the moment she met him which is few hours ago.

She smiled to herself at her thoughts loving how they always seemed to find a way to involve the brunette boy in front of her.

— well you can come down, Doll.

— I-I think I like it better here. She answered dumbly, trying to gesture to the officer discreetly.

Key word : trying.

Jeongguk chuckled softly at how silly she sounded but he did find her adorable and made a mental note to get to know her better.

— Come on, don't be silly, Meira. Nothing is going to happen, I'm here to protect you.

— The air is really pure up here, you should try it sometime. She answered nervously, looking at the sky as if she just witnessed how blue it was.

— Meira, don't be a baby.

— The temperature is slowly dwindling too, which also has it perks. She continued, still not wanting to get down.

— Okay, you've left me no other choices. I'm coming for you. He called out before reaching out for the wall.

Without thinking she abruptly jumped in the emptiness, feeling the eyes of a lot of people on her and not liking the pressure she felt.

Before her body could reach the floor, she felt a pair of strong arms circling her waist and opening her eyes she saw two brown ones staring back at her. She was taking aback by the way his eyes were lighted up, the way his smile was brighter and more alive than she's ever saw.

— That was ... Amazing ! He laughed out loud somehow looking psychotic, his voice like sweet yet dangerous melody.

Meira frowned, wasn't he supposed to scold her ? Her parents would reprimand her if they ever happen to witness such a scenery. She took a step back and saw his smile turn into a scowl within a second.

— WHAT WERE YOU THINKING ABOUT ? How can you be that dumb ? What if I wasn't there to catch you ? What if you fell ? He yelled, his eyes glaring hard at her as he took a menacing step towards her.

She took another step back, watching in amazement as his eyes lost all trace of hostility and became softer within a fraction of second. His features became smoother as his scowl was suddenly replaced by a defeated expression and without warning, she saw his eyes glistening with unshed tears.

Puzzled, she tried to understand his mood swings but couldn't so she opened her mouth but closed as soon as she saw that he was preparing himself to talk.

— I-I didn't want for this to happen. I just saw you jumping and felt like I would never forgive myself if anything happened to you. I mean I- I just couldn't imagine losing you because of a mundane and irresponsible demeanor from my account. So I panicked. He whispered, his voice barely audible as his eyes became red. I don't want you to be scared of me, Doll.

Meira's heart broke at the same time his voice did and without really thinking, she threw herself at him and held him tightly against her. She felt guilty at the sight of his sad expression and knew that she didn't ever want to ever be the reason why he feels sad. She or anyone for that matter.

Scary how she felt protective of him.

— I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Don't cry, I didn't mean to look afraid of you. You don't scare me.

— I don't ?

— You would never.

— Good. He smirked then hide his head in the crook of her neck.

A feeling of uneasiness settled in the pit of her stomach but she shrugged it off as she tried to erase from her memory the flicker of smugness that crossed his features.

I sold my soul to a three-piece
And he told me I was holy
He's got me down on both knees
But it's the devil that's tryna
Hold Me Down

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Mr. Min :
Meira! Where are you?
You're late.

Min Meira :
I'm on my way, Dad.
Something came up.

Mr. Min :
Be quick, i told you we
were meeting one of my
important friends and his
family.

Min Meira :
Yes, dad. I'll be there
shortly. I'm sorry.

The old man put his phone down, giving his attention to his partner.

— My daughter will be here soon, I guess she had an unexpected meeting that made her late. Started Gangdoo, sipping on his tea. What about your son, Jungmin ?

— I guess he will come some times later. He said he was on a date. He sighed. I shouldn't have told him to come, you don't want our kids to meet, right?

— i don't want Jeongguk near my daughter. He said, not leaving place for discussion.

Some times passed before the two business men heard the door open.

— We are here ! Announced a male's voice.

— Jeongguk?

— We?

The two fathers asked simultaneously, as they saw Jeongguk entering the living room. Behind him, as if hiding, Meira stood small and head low.

She just got home, with a boy, a tattooed boy, who was know to be a delinquant. A boy whom her dad instructed her not to hang around. A boy that just took her on some illegal escapade, a boy she just got chased by the police with. A boy that had her hooked from a simple pet name, a simple glance. A boy she met only few hours before yet was ready to risk everything to stay friends with him.

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Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Word count : 4074

First chapter — Part : 1

Enjoy - M