hi guys <3

I know it's been a while. And I'm sorry. And I owe you an explanation. 

First of all, I think it's important to address what I'm sure has been on all of your minds lately-- I don't think I have to say it and I know you all probably come to Watty to escape from it all. Needless to say, I sincerely hope that you and your families are all staying safe, healthy, and indoors. This is hard for everyone and my heart goes out to each and every one of my readers. Please DM me if you need to talk about anything or just to chat. I hope you know I'm here for you. 

Now, for everything else. As some of you know, I've struggled with mental health issues for a large portion of my life. A falling out with one of my best friends in the fall left me feeling hopeless and alone, and gradually, those issues began to become more and more prevalent in my daily life. My depression and ED have been the worst they've ever been, and it's been difficult for me to handle them, especially during this past month due to quarantine. 

Beat Drop and Wattpad, in general, are so important to me, and I have this platform to thank for shaping me as a person and helping me realize my true passion for writing. Because of this, however, I am very hard on myself when it comes to my writing. I want everything to be perfect for you because you deserve that after all the love and support you've given me. It's become very hard for me to write anything in the past few months because I hate everything I write and can't bring myself to publish any of the chapters I've written. They are there, in my drafts, and they have been waiting for me as I try to work through this. 

I'm trying to find the bright sides to this quarantine, and I've realized that not only has it given me a lot of time to think, but also a lot of time to write. 

I'm going to get back on my feet. 

I'm getting better. 

You can expect a new chapter within this week, I promise. Thank you for being patient and understanding, I know it must be frustrating. 

And again, I'm sorry. I miss you all very much. I love you always <3

-Cal