I would say the past few months I tried to avoid Bear a much as possible but in reality.... That would be a humongous big fat fib. At first I tried to stay in the space I was originally. The acquaintance type of space. But, so in the weeks following our trip to the diner; we somehow moved to the friends stage in life. And that stage terrifies the hell out of me. I don't know if it's the fact that in this stage where he could disappear willingly. As in just get tired of my presence and being that we can't be friends. I can't hang with you. You know just end the friendship. Kaiser and McKenzie have bonded and to have him disappear would be Kaiser would be out of her life. And I don't think I can handle neither one if they vanished. Or if it's the part where the friendship stage to go into something more. And with my track recorded with Vice Presidents, that's a risk I can't chance again with my heart. So, as you can tell... I'm in a pickle.

Over the time I've been here, I've noticed unlike some people who cheat or the ones without a significant other who mess with anyone with a hole... Bear hasn't messed with a single female. Which is quite shocking. But than again, he was raised by amazing parents.

Maybe he is gay?

Maybe Kaiser's mother turned him gay.

Maybe he could be my gay best friend. Because gay people make the perfect company.

I shake my head at my crazy thoughts as I watch Bear in the middle of his parents main room. He sitting in the floor playing with my daughter. She likes to stand up and try to take wobbly steps. But her chunky legs wobble and she falls onto her diaper covered butt. I've watched for weeks as this man has tried to get her to take a step. It started out as him letting her grab ahold of his fingers as she would 'walk' with him. He cheered her on as loud as I would while one or both of his parents were filming her. I happened to take the perfect picture that day. His smile was bright as she took her 'first' step forwards with the help of his fingers. I walk to the kitchen to grab a drink as I come back through; I hear Bear's excited voice.

"Come to me my Princess." His voice cooed.

"That's it! You can do it baby girl." His voice has more excitement in it. As I make it to the threshold of the entranceway. I spot Bear crouched down, leveled with McKenzie. She's standing on her two little chunkers we call legs. I watch in shock as she takes a shaky step towards Bear as he calls out to her and praises her.

"Come to me Princess. I won't let you fall." He call out again. I watch as she finds her footing and takes another step towards him. After her third step, she's found her barring.

"That's it! You got it Mac. Come to me baby." He coos at her. And it's like walking clicked and we watch as she's walking faster with each step trying to make it to Bear.

"I got you Princess. A few more steps. I won't let you get hurt baby. You got it." He cheers her on. Like a proud father would any of his children. It's like his cheers have clicked again in her little head because she moved forwards with even quicker steps. As she makes it to Bear; she's instantly in his hands. He pushes her above his head and gives her kisses all over her face. This causes her to erupt like a volcano into a fit of laughter. As he places her back onto the floor while still sitting on his knees to make him as small; as he could for a man over 6 feet tall. Mac, who's on her feet and climbs into his lap. She wraps her chubby fingers around his face and says the one word she's never spoken before. Her word is clear as day and is caught on camera by Lilith.

"Dadda!"

The place grows silent as Bear stares at Mac in shock. She's never called him Dadda and now I don't even know how to cross this bridge with an 11 month old. It's not like she can understand us if any of us tell her 'he's not your father' type of shit. I watch in a shocked state as Bear's face goes from stunned or shocked to what a proud father would say. He lifts Mac into an arms and kisses her again on her small little nose. She giggles and grabs ahold of his beard and tugs.

"Dadda! Dadda! Dadda!" She screeches out. Kaiser bounces around to see what the squeals are about.

"Daddd. Whychu gotz sissy in the air?" He questions. I watch as an almost two year old Kaiser studies his dad and Mac.

Did he just say sissy?

I glance and see Bear with a grin a father would do as he stares at Kaiser. Lilith's jaw drops open as Older Mac stares at his grandson in amusement.

"What did you say?" Bear questions his son with a smile.

"Put my sistur down!" Kaiser screams his lungs out.

"Buddy. She's okay. See." Bear tries to reason with a stubborn little boy.

"Down now." Is all Kaiser says as he stomps over to his father. He didn't make it far before a wail rings out.

"Dadda. Dadda!" Mac yanks on his beard again. Causing his attention back on her.

"But." Kaiser says with tears in his eyes. Kaiser's voice gets her attention again and my daughter spoke again shocking all of us.

"Bub. Ba! Bub. Ba!" She says with excitement as she spots Kaiser with her grab me hands. I watch as Kaiser's face lights up and he immediately gets his feet moving. Kaiser sits next to Bear as Bear places Mac into his lap. Bear keeps his arms secure around Mac as Kaiser holder her.

"Bub. Ba!" Mac yells out as she snuggles into Kaiser.

"Well, I've been replaced with my own son." Bear grumbles out as we all laugh at his expression.

"Dadda?" Mac says as she looks up at Bear. Before she could call him anything else. His voice rings out.

"I wish I was your Dadda Princess but that isn't up to me. That's up to your mommy." Bear whispers to her as he bores his eyes into my own. Bear lifts Mac off of Kaiser much to his protest. As he's about to place her back down, Kaiser lets her grab his fingers. Bear is behind the both of them as Kaiser guides her to me and his words stop everyone in their tracks.

"Mommy. I can callzu mommy can't I?" He asks. When the rooms stays silent yet again because of our children.

"Mommy. Hirz baby sistur."

It's like his last sentence causes all of us to break out trance. Lilith is still recording as all of this goes on.

"Uh. That's a decision you and your father have to make buddy." I say as I ruffle his hair.

"Daddy likezo in ne wayz. He talkz bot chu a wot." Kaiser declares which cause Bear to scratch the back of his neck as his face reddens.

Is Bryant embarrassed?

Since when!?

My heart squeezes at Kaiser's declaration. And I open my mouth to finally speak again.

"Is that true?" I question in shock.

"That's a conversation we'd have to have without prying ears." Bear says with a small chuckle.

And just like that wall I built around me has crumbled. It was cracking for months now but watching Bear with Mac today caused holes to form in the structure. Hearing Kaiser's words caused a layer to fall. A layer fell when he called me mom. And slowly that wall was barely even holding on. Bear's words toppled what was left of the wall like he was a wrecking ball. He destroyed my structure like he was a demolish man. He entered my world like it was an open invitation and with that he's enter my heart and made a home in it. And that's when I knew I could hold be the feelings I felt for so long. I shown up here when Mac was almost five months old. Here she is at 11 months. 6.5 months later and he's already bulldozed through every barrier I had in place.

"Go! Talk! We'll hold the kids down for a bit. Take a walk and talk." Lilith offers breaking me out of my thoughts. With that, he grabs my hand and tugs me towards the door. We walk to the big oak tree in the back of the yard. Underneath the tree branches is a gazebo with a beautiful bench Mac made for Lilith. You can see the stars shining above us like little diamonds from afar.

"Not how I thought we'd have this talk at. I figured I would have had time to taken you to eat to speak my feelings." Bear starts to say.

"Bear." I interrupted.

"I know what you're probably thinking Sunflower but hear me out first than voice your comments and opinions after I lay myself and heart bare and open." He softens his voice to show me I'm not a club member. He isn't ordering me and his voice isn't harsh. It's welcoming yet pleading for me to hear him out so I nod my head. I can't let him have a heart attack and die on me yet.

"I know what happened with him." He pauses for a second to think of the right words. Or how to not come off strong. Or how to process his wording. "But, I want to show you; not all VP's are like him. If I could have my way; he would be in a canyon... Undiscovered." He pauses again after his threat and takes a deep breath to reel in his anger. "The way he treated you isn't right. You're worth more than you know. I want to take down each barrier you place up until you see I'm nothing like that piece of shit. I hadn't had feelings in so long. I feel like I'm about to fuck up and say the wrong shit. Or my words will come out wrong." He stops speaking as he looks over at me.

"Speak your heart or mind. I can take whatever you dish." I softly say as I squeeze his hand to continue.

Here it is.

The arrow to my heart.

He's about to rip the bandage off and shatter my entire being.

"From the moment I saw you, you caught my eye. The moment you spoke, pulled something in me. I watched for you almost seven months. I've watched you with our children. The moment I knew I was falling without any parachute was the night we went to the diner. The night your singing filled the cab of my truck. The moment my world spun into a different direction. Tilting me on my axle. I wanted to be that friend who would protect you and our children at all costs. But when the feelings came on stronger than I ever expected. I knew I was in a world of trouble. Because..... Besides our daughter, you're the only other woman that could turn my world upside down. What I'm saying is one day I'd love to make you my ol' lady. One day I want to watch you walk down the aisle towards me. But for now, I would settle for moving past the friend-zone and the unknown charted territory for me. If you wished to stay friends, I can keep my feelings in check Kate. I would never push you into something you're unsure of. Something you don't want. I'm not that kind of man. If you need more time or any time to think what I'm saying over. Id give you the time and the space. If it's forever the friend zone just know I'll always be in your corner to lift you up as a friend should be. But I've never loved a woman like I am loving you." He's stopped in his rambling confession with my lips on his.

"Does that mean yes to being my girlfriend?" He asks. I nod my head up and down with tears in my eyes.

"It means yes to everything you've said. Girlfriend, ol' lady, wife one day. A million times again, yes Bryant yes." I choke out.

"Well in that case, I guess I'll have to ask Onyx and Jolene to get your property jacket made here soon Sunflower." He says in a smooth yet deep voice. With that, his phone binged and he lets out a laugh that would cause you to laugh.

"It looks like there was a bet and Jolene already has gotten your jacket made. It's on its way here right now." He laughs out. Just as the words finish a rumble of a motorcycle is heard and out steps Onyx with a box in his hand.

"About damned time you dumbass!" Onyx laughs out as he hands me the box. "The honor is all mine to deliver this box Sunflower." He says with a smile on his face. I open the box and in front of me is the logo of the MC. Sunshine is on the front. As I turn it over I see a Bear in a Sunflower field. Not your usual property jacket. But than again, what do I know. Property of Bear is written above the Bear and Sunflower. Under the picture is Bear's My Property.
And with that, tears fell from my eyes. Property of Bear means I'm claimed. I'm off limits and lets everyone know who exactly I am. Bear's My Property means I own him. I own his heart. His soul. His body. I own all of him. I have the power to love or crush him with my hand. I had Bear at the palm of my hand.

And with that I had the power to bring him to his knees. Which I don't tend to do in a bad way. He's heart, soul, and body is safe with me.

He's going to be on his knees a lot but not in the way people would think.