*＊✿❀ 𝐵𝑜𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟 ❀✿＊*

Their dream world- Jeongguk's dream world came crashing once they had to leave the cabin.

They ended up cuddling and sleeping throughout the whole day and half the night. Jeongguk ended up sleeping more than necessary, he wasn't usually a heavy sleeper and it was something he couldn't allow himself to have anyway, living half of his youth in jail.

Jeongguk was always almost sleeping with one eye open and the habit didn't change after he got out of jail. He didn't even try to change it; He would go on with the routine and would exercise most of the time at night when he could.

But these two days were something new to him.... He slept and he slept well and comfortably. The ex prisoner felt safe and warm in a man's arms.

Now what had Jeongguk's heart accumulating a fear was that Taehyung was distant since the morning. Jeongguk woke up to him already showered and packing a few things.

Taehyung had said a quick good morning with a tight smile and then walked away to clean the mess they made on the terrace .

Jeongguk didn't think much and took a shower too and got ready wearing pants that Taehyung handed him, it wasn't a surprise when it was a little tight around Jeongguk's thighs. Having gorgeous biceps made Jeongguk end up wearing only his jacket without any shirt. Taehyung silently took his dirty clothes and put them in his bag.

When Jeongguk tried to touch him Taehyung would move away, he tried to be subtle but Jeongguk was a good observer and now-a-days he feels a lot.... Maybe a little too much when it concerns Taehyung.

Jeongguk didn't voice his fear out and avoided making the atmosphere any more more awkward. They left and the ride to Taehyung's apartment was completely quiet in the taxi.

Jeongguk didn't want to believe this but maybe it's true that what happened in that cabin between them was going to stay there. Maybe Taehyung realized they both went crazy in the moment and now they were back to reality.

" So, umm...Jimin hyung called earlier and i told him you are fine and home now. Maybe he will drop by later," Jeongguk played with the fake apple kept on Taehyung's living room table.

Jeongguk swallows anxiously,glancing at Taehyung who was in the open kitchen. His back facing Jeongguk, doing something.

"Okay, thanks", it was small and Jeongguk's heart clenched.

" I am... I am leaving, bye," Jeongguk eyebrows twitch, keeping the fake apple down and turning away, not wanting to wait for an answer that might hurt him.

"Okay", Jeongguk's eyes twitched, not wanting to have tears in his eyes. Taehyung was really going to act like they had nothing then....

And that..... That really pierces his heart...

" You will be back soon, right? ", Jeongguk stops,his hand on the doorknob before he turns around with wide eyes.

Taehyung was already coming closer,scared doe eyes staring at Jeongguk. It's like Taehyung was worried Jeongguk would leave him.

" I m-mean, you are just going to change your clothes and all, right? You will be here to have lunch with me right? I will make - I will make homemade chicken pizza", Taehyung swallow nervously.

" Don't you want to be alone and think about what's going on and-", Jeongguk helds his heart in his palm.

"I don't want to think, I thought enough this morning, Ggukie... I want to live in the moment ", Taehyung gave him a small smile.

" Can I still touch you? ", Jeongguk seems to have some difficulties to even say these words suddenly, his ears turning red with embarrassment.

" Nothing changed since yesterday ", Taehyung smiles shyly and Jeongguk breath out feeling relieved.

" I must admit I am a little scared to kiss you without getting punched ", Jeongguk tries to joke with an awkward expression. Taehyung could see right through him.

" Oh, I will surely punch you back.... With my lips, bunny ", Taehyung smiles brightly and Jeongguk believe the sun in his life has just risen.

" You can't be real ", Jeongguk was completely mesmerized and Taehyung stared back a little surprise.

" If you exist.... I exist, Jeonggukie", Taehyung smiles affectionately cupping the man's face to kiss him sweetly.

Jeongguk unexpectedly pulled him closer by his waist a little too needily, it made Taehyung smile into the kiss. Jeongguk kisses him back like he was the most precious one ever and it always makes Taehyung feel so special and loved.

"Get going", Taehyung catches his breath while zipping the leather jacket, Jeongguk is wearing to hide his bruised chest.

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After that day , Taehyung finds himself expecting Jeongguk's visit more eagerly. They didn't engage in a lo much physical touch , even the kissing part was very less and it was something both didn't mind for the moment.

It has been only almost a week where both were back to their daily routine after an angry Jimin bounced on them but Taehyung apologized and got a hugging koala Jimin..... And of course Jeongguk was the most irritated by the closeness.

After that Jeongguk was a little busy having to keep up with his 'work' and Taehyung understood him perfectly despite finding himself disliking the distance.....

Jeongguk used to be a part of his day or week before but now Jeongguk became his every minute of the day. Taehyung finds himself hesitantly while calling him when Jeongguk wouldn't be coming and every time Jeongguk answers him.

To say Taehyung's life rotated to 360° completely wouldn't be a lie. He couldn't believe the amount of care, affection and excitement he was feeling for another man. He never felt that before, even for a woman he might have had a crush on or liked before.

Taehyung sighs loudly carrying his heavy Tote Bag with many copybooks toward the exit of the school. He was exhausted at the end of the weekdays and also because the last time he talked to Jeongguk was two days ago when the ring fighter told him he would be fighting that night.

Taehyung wasn't really a fan of Jeongguk's work- yeah the man looks really hot while fighting but not when he gets hurt and Taehyung's heart aches. The teacher ended the call while informing that he was going to be busy with exams for the week.

Now while Taehyung pouts with a frown fixing his dark orange cardigan that shows his beautiful collarbone and the nice pendant around his neck, He makes his way toward the bus stop only to nudge his glass and squint his eyes toward the figure.

" Jeonggukie ? ", Taehyung mumble and as if the another's heart heard him. Jeongguk turns his head toward Taehyung and break into a charming smile.

Taehyung finds his own smile growing. Jeongguk was wearing dark green pants, heavy boots, a biker jacket and his long hair was tied into a bun.

A strange nice energy that settled into Taehyung's tired body upon seeing the younger. His pretty clean converse clings around his feet perfectly as he walks faster towards the man.

" You look prettier than last time ", and that's the first thing Jeongguk adorably charmingly said once Taehyung stood in front him.

" oh my god! Ggukie you can't say that so suddenly!! ", Taehyung whines, hiding his face which turns completely red.

" sorry, i didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable ", Jeongguk apologized genuinely, holding Taehyung's hand pushing them down.

"No, no I liked the compliment but it was too sudden so i got shy", Taehyung grins brightly, showing his beautiful boxy smile which makes Jeongguk's heart fly freely.

The younger one nodded with a small awkward shy smile while looking at the bag Taehyung was carrying and then he grabbed it. Taehyung let him take the bag and Jeongguk raised an eyebrow at how heavy it was.

" You want to break your shoulder with this? ", Jeongguk's gaze on him make the older swallow and shrug.

" I am not that weak, big bun ", Taehyung stared into his eyes with something challenging.

"You got bruises...too much this time", Taehyung give a look of dismay and Jeongguk seem guilty.

" It was worth it", Jeongguk smirks moving on the side and Taehyung's mouth drops looking at the darkest green bike parked there.

"You got a bike!?? In my favorite color too!!! Woww!! ", Taehyung stared at it in disbelief.

" I know", Jeongguk watches Taehyung touch the bike with a proud smile.

Taehyung doesn't pay attention to what Jeongguk said , too busy admiring the cool bike. The younger, observant-like he was; he soon picked up on Taehyung's favorite color on the second day of knowing him.

Jeongguk threw the bag over his shoulder and stand closer to Taehyung who was touching the shining keychain of a little chibi tiger with a soft smile.

"C'mon now get on, I will drop you home", Taehyung gasp,excitement and fear equally evident in his eyes.

" You mean me? riding a bike?! Like without a safety belt!? ", Taehyung was suddenly turning pale and Jeongguk frowned but he soon caught up on it.

" I am your safety belt, Tae. I will make sure you don't fall off the bike and keep your precious head safe", Jeongguk grabs the dark helmet making a surprised Taehyung wear it.

"You will? If you don't , my ghost will haunt you! ", Taehyung nervously bite his lower lips.

Jeongguk wears his own helmet and sat on the bike which Taehyung finds hot out of nowhere. The fighter look at Taehyung, keeping his reassuring small smile .

" How about I wait for you to get on the bus and then i follow behind with the bike? Let me help you take it off ", Jeongguk moved his hands toward the helmet.

Taehyung stares intently into his eyes and Jeongguk seems to notice . The ring fighter ,stopped his movement thinking he might have offended Taehyung and he started to panic internally.

" What? ", Jeongguk look all over his face.

" Why don't you force me? ", Taehyung replied and Jeongguk was left confused.

" Force you? ".

" Yes, you never pressurize me..... You listen to me and let me do my thing, never let me feel guilty about something and help me without being selfish....you could have forced me to get on it and tell me to stop being such a scaredy cat like others would......but You take care of me - like -like right now carrying my heavy bag because i am tired.. - and - and", Taehyung's eyes were tearing up and the younger lift his glasses up.

"And I am Jeongguk...... and Jeongguk can never hurt Taehyung ..... I love taking care of you... you are the strongest and most intelligent person I know and I know you are capable of taking your own decisions and if you are scared to ride a bike... . That is completely fine, I know you will try it when you are ready...... i will always wait for you, Tae", Jeongguk's soft voice and soft thumb wiping his tear away makes Taehyung melt.

" You are allowed to feel every emotion a human can feel and you should never be ashamed of it or be shamed for it...... feel it ,live it and be proud of being human ", Taehyung's heart was really not his anymore.

His heart stopped belonging to him and today he acknowledges it, he allows himself to feel and god it feels good.

" I trust you...", Taehyung whisper.

" Thank you, lets go you will miss the bus-", Jeongguk look over at the bus stop.

But Taehyung's hand was over his shoulder and he was taking a seat behind Jeongguk. Jeongguk's eyes widened with heart fluttering when Taehyung's arms wrap around his waist and cage him.

"I trust you", Taehyung whisper lifting his helmet and leaving a peck on Jeongguk's nape.

Everyone seemed to be busy around to care what two men were doing.

" Can you take me to the Riverside Temple, please? ", Taehyung request.

" Whatever you ask for", Jeongguk's bike was already on the road earning many eyes due to the noise the engine made.

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" I will be quick! I know you don't believe in God but thank you so much for coming! ", Taehyung smiles happily running inside the temple and Jeongguk just watches him from the parking lot.

Jeongguk's eyes roam around on the temple and his heart tightened remembering his pass self... . . How he used to believe in God.

' God will help you! He knows the truth! '

' I stopped believing in God! They don't exist! I am suffering here ! Do I deserve this all , hyung!? '

' Sinner like you will be punished by God himself! You deserve to dieE! '

Jeongguk closed his eyes being an innocent teenager and hearing all this had destroyed his little heart. His family was a god believer and that made him believe in them too. But what happened to him later on made him lose faith in God...

He was always so good to God then why did they let him suffer for so long and still made him suffer...

Taehyung...... Taehyung smiling at him cut through his heated thoughts like fresh water and he find himself calming down as he opens his eyes.

He looks toward the temple with a deep frown... . .

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Taehyung bow his head and join his hands apologizing to the deity in front him for not coming since so long. Internally he started telling what has been going on in his life.

He was sad but when he started talking about Jeongguk ,he had a smile while still praying to keep the younger one safe .

" Please, just protect Ggukie's smile and heart. Thank you", Taehyung mumbles lastly.

Once Taehyung open his eyes he smile and bow to the deity and turn around only to yelp by the man standing next to him.

Taehyung stare at Jeongguk in surprise and the younger stare at him with so much deeply rooted affection.

"You should be asking for you", Jeongguk painfully whisper.

" I am ", Taehyung whispers back in shock and Jeongguk looks more in pain.

"Gguk are you okay? Was i taking too long, i am sorry you had to come inside-Gguk! ", Jeongguk dropped on his knees in front of Taehyung.

They were alone and it was utterly beautiful how they were in their own world.

Jeongguk stared at him like he was his whole universe and it was actually true. He look at the god behind and a realization hit him again, the same one that made him step inside the temple and he bow his head towards the god.

Taehyung not knowing what to do at first end up kneeling beside Jeongguk and bowing to god .

After all this suffering.... After all of this hate....Taehyung was his peace from God.... Taehyung was what he earn for suffering for so long...... God pushed him through so much for him to understand the value of having Taehyung in his life... . And he does......

Taehyung is his everything... if it's not him then it's nobody else.

" Jeongguk i am worried, are you okay? ", Taehyung was beside him, looking so scared for him .

" Why are you crying?! Oh my god i asked for his smile! Did you just rejected it!? ", Taehyung was bewildered, looking at the statue and back at Jeongguk .

" I am okay now, i am perfectly okay... . My smile is safe as long as you are next to me", Jeongguk smiles lovingly and Taehyung calm down smiling at him softly.

Kneeling in front of the God, beside each other, hearts expressing themselves loudly ... . They were blessed that day..