(𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑤
𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑘 𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑡)

◦•●◉✿ 𝐵𝑜𝑛𝑗𝑜𝑢𝑟 ✿◉●•◦

“What's love?” A question that have an infinity answer and Jeongguk’s answer would be… Love is something that makes a clear way which leads to two path… one where it's completely a pain and endless sorrow ending and the second one it's a happy ending were the tear in eyes are only due to happiness and nothing else… 

 Jeongguk stands in the first category and this makes him laugh and sad at the same time. Love took his breath away, took his will to feel happy and it wasn't even horrible it was just pure… .. Whatever it is now… 

“Jeongguk,you should try hang out with us sometimes”, Jimin,with hope, tries to encourage the man. 

“Later”, he simply replied hurriedly, his face back in the thick book. 

“I have heard that since three months already! You can't just study! Go fight in that ring! Let your opponent ruin your body because you want to end the pain! It's not working because it's inside you! Fuck Gguk get over it-him! He's not coming back! He is maybe already married and happy! “, Jimin had enough. 

Jeongguk had gone insanely quietly, more than he was before and it scares him. The younger spend his days with his head hurried in books, or staring at the stars or picking up any fighting opportunity he gets without any hesitation and his hyungs weren't blind to see that he was harming himself like that. 

Taehyung had disappeared and Jeongguk's answer to it was ‘ He's getting married to Bulyan’.The younger was gone for days. Jimin was completely shock and expecting to find Jeongguk getting drunk or something but the man came back after 3 days looking sober and since then just getting busy in books. 

“ Maybe “, Jeongguk shrugs, getting up from the couch and grabbing his jacket. 

“God! Express yourself Jeongguk stop keeping it inside”, Jimin was bursting and Jeongguk just stare at him.

“ It's useless to express your feelings… you will only get your heart broken and… I am trying to live, Hyung and I will. Don't worry I am not suiciidal”, with that Jeongguk turn away and left the house. 

Running his hand through his hair he poked his inner  cheek and tried to keep himself together. Was he living after Taehyung? Yes? Was he surviving? Barely. 

Entering the apartment he has started to hate made him feel nauseous. He was finally able to leave the place and move to another one. Every time he looks at his bed all he sees is Taehyung… the first time Taehyung dared to step in. 

Jeongguk felt empty at this point of his life…… it hurts so much he was numb by now. Taehyung was constantly on his mind and heart that he forgot he was a real person and not fictional… .. All he can do is imagine him but never see or touch him. 

“The door was opened so I came inside, sorry for interrupting “, A little startled Jeongguk turns around to find Mrs Kim standing there obviously uncomfortable. 

“Good morning”, Jeongguk replied back looking away. 

“ Can you- can you tell me where Tae is? Please “, Jeongguk looks at the woman confuse . 

“What? ”.

“ I want to know if my son is alright…alive. Please if you know where he's just tell me or! Or! Here. This is his brother's wedding invitation, please let him know that his little brother is finally getting married and his mother misses him a lot”, Tears fill her eyes and Jeongguk swallows. 

“I will do my best to deliver this to him”, Jeongguk added not able to deny her. 

When he tried to find Taehyung at the school he learned that the man quit since months and he stand there with a frown. 

Did he already leave the country with Bulyan?

He finds himself upstairs and he takes a deep breath and walks to the reception. He expected Bulyan had resigned already too and fear creep through his veins at the idea of Taehyung had already left the country. 

“ You have an appointment with her? “, the receptionist question and Jeongguk frown unable to form a words until he clear his throat. 

“ Just tell her Jeongguk is here and it's really urgent “, Jeongguk felt a little relax at the idea of her still being in the country, meaning Taehyung is here too. 

Within a few minutes Jeongguk was in complete confusion and terror. 

" What do you mean you don't know where Taehyung is?? He left me a letter that he is leaving with you! He-He married you, right?", Jeongguk frown deepened and just looking at Bulyan's guilty face enraged him for some reason. 

" I did visit him months ago to apologize and after that he went his way and I went mine. We didn't get married… . ", she looks away and Jeongguk's eyes widened. 

" I saw… you two were together-I", Jeongguk's eyes shook. Where would Taehyung be if he wasn't with her? Why did he say he was leaving with her then? 

" It was just a goodbye hug and he- hey Jeongguk! ", Bulyan watch the man snatching the wedding invitation from her hand and ran towards the elevator. 

Taehyung was alone? His Taehyung was out there all alone ! That fcks with Jeongguk’s head immediately. He left, but why? What happened when he left like that? Was Taehyung trying to get away from him? 

Jeongguk breath heavily, feet stopping and his heart tightened by the thoughts. He looks down at the wedding invitation and with a determined look he pull out his phone . 

If Taehyung doesn't want him anymore that's fine… .. But he will surely deliver this wedding invitation to the teacher and then path ways. 

" Hello, Seokjin Hyung… . I need your help".

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Jeongguk couldn't believe Taehyung left the whole country. The moment he landed, the first thing he did was rent a car with GPS. He drove to the place he hoped he would find Taehyung. Seokjin did his best to track the man's location but nobody was sure Taehyung would be there. 

The destination stopped him by a beach with wildness around it. Tall trees making it look scary and he wonder if the man was really there. But he follows the path, with heart beating faster at each step. 

Jeongguk was never someone who ever chased after someone but there was something about Taehyung. He needed to make sure the man was fine and safe. He needed to calm his heart and even if he gets rejected again, it doesn't matter and at least this time Taehyung would do so in person. 

Pushing through the bushes he was in awed by the view after a dark path. He finally reach the beach with a beautiful sunset and more beautiful clear blue ocean. The birds were flying away to reach their home before night and Jeongguk was walking to find his home. 

The wave of relief washes over him and he felt his legs weak. He looks at the sky and smile thanking the god he started to believe in… . 

There Taehyung sat beautifully on the sand, the light breeze hitting his face, his eyes close as he looks so peaceful and lonely. 

Jeongguk walks towards him each step lighter and heart finding peace again after months of pain. 

" Mauritius's beach is beautiful ", Jeongguk sat next to him and Taehyung's eyes widened in disbelief looking beside him. 

" i want to yell at you for leaving out of nowhere but i also want to hug you ", Jeongguk look all over his face and god the fighter really missed his favorite person. 

" W-What are you doing here? ", Taehyung mumbles out still not believing it and Jeongguk notices the bags under his eyes the tiredness  behind his round glasses. 

" Isn't it obvious? I came for you", Jeongguk's eyes were soft and heavy with so much emotions that wanted to flood out. 

Taehyung's eyebrows twitch, eyes getting teary but he immediately stands up and grabs his book. Jeongguk frown and followed him. 

" Stop following me! Go home! ", Taehyung yell. 

" That's what I am doing! ", Taehyung's bite his lips trying hard to not stop . 

" Leave!! ".

" Why did you left!? Without meeting me!", Jeongguk question. 

" Because! Because we were just having fun and I realized I am not into men and I hated it and left! You were just a - a- a one night stands or many! I don't knowWWWW! ", Taehyung yelp when the grip on his hand pull him back and turn him making him slammed against Jeongguk's buff chest and he was caged in there. 

" I feel whatever you are saying is bullshiit ", Jeongguk search through those beautiful eyes filled with tears. 

" and i feel that these eyes are betraying what your mouth is saying… . . . We didn't had a one night stand or many, Taehyung. I felt you deep to the bone and you felt me too ", Taehyung's eyes softened melting in his arms.  subconsciously gripped on Jeongguk's shirt. 

" Leave please ", And Jeongguk's heart breaks not because of being rejected but by seeing the pain in Taehyung's eyes. 

" Why? ", he whisper out their lips so close and it was hard to not just kiss the other. 

Taehyung pushes him away and Jeongguk allows it. 

" Because I don't like you and I don't want your pity! I know you feel the need to pity me and I don't need it  ! I am not someone you have to look after! I know you are too good to let a poor broken heart guy like me go  and that's why I am letting you go! Stop showing pity! I am not gay! I don't want anything to do with you! I am not like you! and -and", Taehyung breath out and cover his face sitting down. 

How much it hurt to say these words when he used to defend Jeongguk when people used these words for him. 

The few seconds of silence was broken when Jeongguk stepped  closer. 

"I never pity you….. I did what my heart told me to and that was to protect you and make you happy. Never once i saw you as someone I need to feel pity or sympathy for. I always and still see you as someone strong and a fighter. I admire you and feel deeply for you…… and thats why I will not persist if you don't want me….. I am happy to see you safe and that's enough for me…", Jeongguk kneels in front of him and Taehyung looks over his fingers. 

" I thought you were with Bulyan but she told me you two weren't together. I needed to make sure you are okay and I just came to give you this…not to impose my feelings on you… .. Bye Tae", Jeongguk doesn't looks at him and left from where he came. 

Taehyung grab the wedding invitation and then look back from where Jeongguk left. He sobbed covering his face again. Jeongguk came all this way to make sure he was fine. How can someone be so selfless and good. How did Taehyung find this man? God, how did he managed to make this man feel for him. 

The sun was down already and Taehyung stand up. He can't let Jeongguk go like that, what's the use of letting the man go if he breaks him? Jeongguk will never believe in love again… he will never believe in someone again and Taehyung doesn't want that… . Jeongguk have to continue to live and be alone. 

Taehyung stand up and putting all his strength he run towards where Jeongguk left. He run through the woods looking for the man and his heart breaks more slowly when he does not finds him. It's been over half an hour and there is no way Jeongguk was still there. 

His right sandal was no longer on his feet and he didn't care about the bruises. He ran and ran sobbing and hoping to find Jeongguk on the road but once he reached there he shakily breathed and looked at both side, breaking more inside and he lost it… He lost Jeongguk.. … 

Taehyung hiccups, not giving up and running  on his right towards the corner and heck! Heck this can't be real. 

" Jeongguk! ", Taehyung stop breathing heavily but smiles beaming,looking at the man who was leaning again the black car but now with worried expression plaster on his face was running towards him. 

" Tae!? ", and Taehyung cry in happiness running to him with the strength he was left. He will follows through deep sea no matter when, no matter where and he knows Jeongguk will do the same for him too. 

Once they were close Taehyung jump to hug him with his arms wrapped around Jeongguk's neck and he felt at paradise when Jeongguk secure those arms around his waist. 

" Tae! Fck baby your feet! ", Jeongguk was worried , lifting Taehyung up to prevent the older man from placing his feet down. 

" You are h-here, you are here, thank god! Gguk i am sorry i -i ", Taehyung was hiccuping face buried into Jeongguk's neck. 

" shhh! Shhh stop talking. It’s okay, i noticed it was a place far away from the city and didn't want to leave you alone . I stay to give you a lift and then-then i will leave-", Taehyung pull his face away and Jeongguk's eyes widened. 

"Please don't leave! P-please stay with me, Ggukie-please", Taehyung was getting dizzy and eyes closing but he was fighting it. 

" Your nose! You are bleeding-hey Tae! Tae wake up! God, god no! Tae", Jeongguk panicked when Taehyung's body completely gave up and his eyes close. 

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" Meningioma… Tumors and he's close to his terminal point. We are trying our best but it doesn't seem like Mr Taehyung will survive….", Upon hearing that Jeongguk stares at the doctor for a few seconds . 

He stood there unable to differentiate between a nightmare and reality until it hit him and he felt like he wasn't breathing. 

He breathed heavily from his mouth, palm resting against the wall for support and the doctor felt sad . 

" Did it happen- happened suddenly or? I need details please ", Jeongguk swallow thickly , red eyes trying to focus on the doctor. 

" No…it grows slowly, there are many symptoms like bad eye sight, frequent fever , having problems talking and I must say he probably showed many symptoms before but never got checked otherwise he wouldn't have learned about it at last stage. There would have be more chance he would have survive the surgery before but now it's very complicated to give an answer…. He doesn't have only one in his brain but multiple and all of them pressing on nearby tissue… and the one on his leg is pressing against main veins that even with surgery we can't save his leg", The doctor tried to be brief. 

"His leg? Fuck! ", Jeongguk clenches his jaw, tear filling his eyes and the way his heart pain was unbearable. 

Jeongguk felt guilt wash over him, he should have been more persistent about the check up whenever Taehyung was sick or having leg pain. If only he had tried hard… . If only… hell Taehyung had been alone for 3 months in pain and without any help. 

" what's Tae decision? ", Jeongguk question . 

" He doesn't want surgery but only medicinal treatment. He accepts his condition ", Jeongguk can feel the pain around his whole body burn and drag him across sharp glass. 

" So you're telling me to sit and watch him diee!? ", Jeongguk's eyes widened in disbelief. 

" That's what the patient wants ,we tried our best to convince him but he refused", The doctor gave a sorry look. 

Jeongguk stood outside Taehyung's hospital room for a few minutes trying to gather himself. He wants to understand Taehyung's decision but he will surely try his best to make him change his decision. He doesn't have much time and he can't lose Taehyung… again… . Not again. 

Once he entered the room seeing Taehyung lying there pierced his heart. He hates the sight of Taehyung hooked to so many machines and in a hospital gown. His Tae's beautiful face is so pale and tired and his eyes shift on Taehyung's glasses beside the bed. It angers him thinking about Mr Kim. If only he had took Taehyung for a check up everytime he was sick or not telling it was useless to go to the hospital today Taehyung's tumors wouldn't have been so life threatening. 

"Gguk", a simple word, soft, tired voice of his soul calls out for him and Jeongguk's anger melt and feet taking him closer naturally. 

" Tae", he breath out looking all over his beautiful face with a worried expression. 

" You look stupid, stop making this face… i am not dying ", Taehyung chuckle softly and Jeongguk groans sitting near him on the bed. 

" I swear if you make jokes like this i will….. I will not make you your f-favourite food! I will! I will-", Jeongguk's nose was red and tear was already spilling as he trembled. 

"Oh Ggukie i am sorry, please don't cry! I am a fool! I promise I will not joke about it. Baby please ", Taehyung frown lifting his hands up to wipe away those diamonds like tears. 

"Why did you run away Tae, why. We could have tried saving you! Please-", Jeongguk was sobbing. 

" It was of no use, Ggukie. When i found about my condition i was already on last stage that's why i left… .. I couldn't let you be by my side", Taehyung seem guilty, own eyes teary while he cups the soft face of his soul keeper. 

"And why fucking not Tae? Why not! ", Jeongguk sniffles holding Taehyung's wrists. 

" Because of this…. I can't see you sad… . I can't see you cry, it hurts my heart and i didn't want to break you with my death ", Jeongguk frown. 

" Death or alive…… if you are away from me, it will only break me. I have asked you in all my prayers Taehyung… . You leaving me is like a curse… its like my breath was been taken away from me…… my soul taken away from my body…… ", Taehyung felt it all with the intensity Jeongguk pour it out of his eyes and mouth. 

" Please… . Please, I am begging you Taehyung… Try to survive for me… for us", Jeongguk whispers, begging and Taehyung look away. 

"I-I don't think i can even try, Jeongguk. I don't see the use of it. Even with my 10% chances if i survive i will still lose my leg and i can't-".

" I can try to imagine a life without it Taehyung but i know many people who are living without a leg. They are happy and going on with their life and i know you will be fine… . Because i am here and will stay with you until the end carrying you into my arms", Taehyung's eyes widened looking into Jeongguk's pleading one… 

Jeongguk had never forced him or beg him for something he was always understanding and seeing him like that makes Taehyung feel how a fool he was himself. 

"I am being selfish but i need you, Tae…please, please let's fight it together. I am tired of us being heartbroken, I am tired of losing you… I want you, I need you and I want us to try, please", Taehyung pull his face closer against his chest and Jeongguk needing physical contact, hugs a laying Taehyung like its his source to stay alive. 

Jeongguk closes his eyes, face squished against Taehyung's chest. The heartbeats makes him feel at home and he cries softly at peace feeling Taehyung's heaven touch, caressing his head. 

" You had a haircut… . Short hair suits you, Ggukie. You look extremely adorable", Taehyung's tone was light and soft. 

" Got it done 3 months ago", Jeongguk sniffs, inhaling Taehyung's familiar scent. 

" Because of summer? ".

" Because of you… Because my hair was stopping you from giving me nape kisses", Jeongguk smile slightly hearing how Taehyung's heart races. 

" I…I am willing to try. I want to fight it….. I want to be with you", Jeongguk's doe eyes lift up to look into Taehyung's almond soft determines one. 

"Together until the end", Jeongguk smiled. 

" Together until the end", Taehyung places a kiss on Jeongguk's temple, making the younger man close his eyes and drown himself in the comfort of his home…Taehyung's arms. 

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" I kinda liked it back In Mauritius", Taehyung smile once they walk out of the airport with Jeongguk right beside him. 

He wanted to get a wheelchair but Taehyung was stubborn about that and wanted to walk. He spent three days in the hospital doing nothing while Jeongguk was right by his side, refusing to leave unless it's important. 

" We can go back there after you are healed " , Jeongguk simply said, keeping Taehyung's bags in the taxi. 

Taehyung looks towards the man who sounds sure of it and it makes Taehyung smile softly. 

" Yeah, I liked how the staff didn't judge when they saw us holding hands or cuddling. They are somehow more open minded there", Taehyung followed Jeongguk when the man took his hands and guided him in the car. 

" I would have loved for us to stay there but the doctor mentioned how they lack things to treat you and here we have it and I am not taking any risk… . I promise we will be back there ", Jeongguk finally gives him a smile which is extremely reassuring and Taehyung stares. 

" Yes, I will show you my favorite place… the cherry blossom trees ", Taehyung smiles and Jeongguk's heart flutters. 

" I would love it ", Jeongguk replied, hoping they can see it together… soon. 

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Jeongguk ruffles his still wet hair as he made his way towards Taehyung's apartment . He carries a small smile looking over at the paper bag he was holding which contain Taehyung's favorite strawberry eclair. 

The chilling night made him sneeze and the bruises on his jaw aches. Taehyung wouldn't be happy about this but he still got to work. He hope Taehyung took his night medicines already like he promised a few hours ago that he would. 

Jeongguk spend his days and nights by Taehyung's side unless he had to go work or do other necessary things. By now he had moved in with Taehyung without them  talking about it. 

It was crazy how the excitement to see Taehyung never dies. As he knocks on his door he feels his heart fill with happiness of being able to see Taehyung. 

And god! He love how endearing it is when Taehyung open the door with the sweetest smile on his lips. 

" I missed you, Ggukie", Jeongguk melted, groaning as he entered to slip his arms under Taehyung's armpit and lift him up close into a hug. 

"Sorry bear boy, i tried my best to finish work quickly", Jeongguk loves and cherishes how Taehyung hugs him back warmly and homely. 

" Let me patch you up", Taehyung sound worried as he pull Jeongguk by his hand after closing the door. 

Jeongguk stare at his face and smiled The man was looking so soft in a fluffy teal colored sweater and sweatpants. His round glasses sit beautifully on his nose and a sweet kissable pout on his lips. 

" I got you an eclair " , Jeongguk clear his throat once he sat down and Taehyung eyes the bag. 

"Strawberry? ", He loves how Taehyung's tired eyes sparkle by such simple thing . 

Jeongguk nods and Taehyung let out a squeal like giggles and takes the bag to take a look inside. 

" Thank you so much! Let's eat after i take care of you", Taehyung grab the cream to apply on Jeongguk's wounds. 

Jeongguk watched him walk and his heart ached, he wasn't walking properly and there was a limp at each step . 

Jeongguk smiled when Taehyung sat by his side. Jeongguk lets him work on his magic hands which seem to heal him every time. 

Taehyung looked more tired day by day, the shadow under his eyes was an indication of how much pain doesn't lets him sleep at night. Jeongguk,night after night, made sure to cuddle and take care of him. Sometimes,Taehyung would wake up whimpering and crying due to heavy cramps in his leg or headaches. During the day it was much calmer but at night,it was a nightmare. 

It was a nightmare to see Taehyung cry in pain while he was unable to make it  go away. He hid his own tears holding Taehyung and comforting him day after day. His surgery date was approaching and in a few weeks  Jeongguk had to prepare himself for everything. 

" Why don't you change your job, I mean Jin hyung helped me with that online job. So why can't you do that too?"Taehyung looks sad, softly rubbing the cream on the nasty bruise near Jeongguk's right eye. 

"Because fighting underground gets me more money. I can't wait for a monthly or weekly pay. What I earn in a day is equal to three months worth of the salary of an office worker", Taehyung frown slightly. 

" Is it better to hurt yourself than working like a regular man? ", Jeongguk looks into his eyes, deciding on what to answer … 

" No, it's not  better but i don't have time Tae and i need money ", he was calm and soft but Taehyung eyes him with doubt. 

" We don't have time….I need to take care of you and after your surgery i need to make everything good and comfortable for you. I don't want us to worry about money-" , Jeongguk tried to explain. 

" It's not your responsibility to think about Jeongguk. I already told you I don't want you to worry about me! I don't need you to worry about me! ' After your surgery ' ??  There are more chances that i will die and you are spending your time gathering money than actually living it! With me! I hate seeing these bruises on you! It hurts me!! ", Taehyung gets tears in his eyes and Jeongguk doesn't mind his outburst . 

The older walked into his room and closed the door and Jeongguk exhale looking down at his bruised knuckles. 

He knew Taehyung would feel guilty , taking the blame on himself and Jeongguk doesn't want that. He wants to be honest but honesty was only making Taehyung sad. He knows Taehyung feels like he was a burden that's why he ran away the first time but Jeongguk wanted to be honest and wanted to make Taehyung understand that everything that he was doing was by his own will simply because he was so deeply and madly in love. 

Jeongguk got up walking close to the door and presses his palm against it and he swallows keeping his feelings at bay. 

" Tae…. I am sorry if I make you feel like the way you are feeling right now. I…. I love you. I always love you…. And i believe and will keep believing you are my responsibility and you can't take this right away from me. You are my person, my soulmate and even if i have to go at the end of the world for you… i will ", Jeongguk doesn't hear anything but he felt Taehyung was close to the door. 

" I have been taking online courses… I want to be a lawyer like I have always dreamed of since I was a kid. I had let go of the dream but you made me believe I can try and do it. You are my aim Tae…. My everything and if i don't take care of my everything then i am worthless…. Useless…. It will take me time to achieve my dream and i need to survive too… I don't hate boxing…. I enjoy it… . But I am sorry if it hurts you…. I am sorry, maybe I am the problem ", Jeongguk sneeze resting his head against the door. 

There was some shuffling behind the close door and Jeongguk stepped away, defeated. The door was open and hope fills the ring fighter's eyes. 

" You aren't the problem.. I am just worried about you. I am sorry too…. I shouldn't stop you from doing something you enjoy. ", Taehyung stand there with a towel and hair dryer. 

" Come here, why are you walking around with wet hair on a cold night! ", Jeongguk a little dumbfounded, watches Taehyung glare at him and drag him towards the kitchen chair. 

" I  … i just wanted to bring you eclair ", Jeongguk closed his eyes when Taehyung's fingers goes through his hair and the warm blow on his hair made him feel goosebumps. 

Few minutes of Taehyung massaging his head made him feel good and sleepy. 

Once his hair was dry , Taehyung wrap the towel around Jeongguk's neck to warm his neck and the younger smile. 

"Since when have you started your courses? ", Taehyung look down at him with a precaution tone. 

" Few months ago and it's going fine. I have a few exams to pass and then i can go to the university and persuade my dream ", Jeongguk smile noticing the reassuring gaze of Taehyung and the sweet smile on his lips. 

" I am so happy for you…", Taehyung whisper and Jeongguk grab his hand pulling him on his lap and the older let himself be pulled. 

"Me too, I never thought I could…. But you made me believe i can, Tae", so soft and pure  admiration in his eyes made Taehyung press his forehead against Jeongguk who hold him by his waist closer and enjoy the moment….Live into it and appreciating it.. 

" I wish i can see you succeeds, Jeon Jeongguk…. I really wish i can", Taehyung's lips wobbles and Jeongguk shook his head with a frown kissing Taehyung's on the side of his lips. 

"You will… you will be there to see me succeed…… you will have to be there because you will be the first one I need to hear that I made it…. You will always be the only one to make me realize I did it… i need you ", Jeongguk nuzzles his nose against his cheek  . 

" I will be in your arms to tell you so… to tell you how proud i am of you. I am proud of you now and i will be proud of you then too", tears slide down their burning cheeks as they share a soft kiss. 

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Taehyung groan trying to walk to the kitchen in the middle of the night. He needed to take his medicine because of the unbearable pain but didn't want to disturb Jeongguk who was sleeping peacefully next to him after his brain frying online class. 

The aching was getting worse day by day and Taehyung was more sad as day goes by. The only fear wasn't he will die or have one leg…. . .It was Jeongguk….. He doesn't want to see Jeongguk suffer. 

He wasn't an idiot to not see how deep the younger had fallen for him  It still surprises him that Jeon Jeongguk is in love with him. It's like a dream, when Taehyung started realizing he had a crush on Jeongguk was the day he saw him feeding the stray dogs . The day Taehyung realized that he was in love was when he stare at Jeongguk cleaning his new house's ceiling. 

It hit him on that spot that he had fallen for a man and that pushed him more to hurry himself to marry a woman. His last chance to get accepted by his father…. 

But loving someone felt so pure…. So magical that he couldn't stop himself once he was embraced by Jeongguk with so much passion, care and love. 

"Ah! ", Taehyung yelp in pain his leg giving up and he quickly hold on the wall with heavy  breathing. 

He was stunned when buff arms were under his back and knees within seconds. The worried tired dark eyes lay on him and Taehyung pout feeling like he got catch stealing . He was strictly told to not move around without Jeongguk by his side. 

" Excuse? ", Jeongguk give a small glare. 

" You look so cute sleeping that i didn't want to disturb you. My body is aching and i need water to take  my pills. Also sleep isn't finding my door tonight", Taehyung keep his tone low and sweet while snuggling his face into the crook of Jeongguk's neck. 

Jeongguk sigh and Taehyung smiles knowing he won. God, it was just so beautiful how his man was completely whipped for him….. It sounds good to call Jeongguk his man. 

" Stay here and i will get it for you", Jeongguk places him on the couch with a sweet peck on his forehead. 

Taehyung sweet smile doesn't leave at all even when Jeongguk return with his water and pills and also a blanket. He takes his pills and watches Jeongguk settle behind him on the couch comfortably. He wrap the blanket around them and pull Taehyung's back against his chest. Taehyung hum resting his head against the muscular chest. Taehyung appreciate how Jeongguk massages his head so delicately. 

"You don't have to", Taehyung whispers. 

" I want to", Jeongguk whisper back. 

"I wasn't going to marry Bulyan", Taehyung said out of nowhere after a few minutes. 

" You already told me, Tae", Jeongguk inhale not wanting to think about that woman. 

" No… i mean the first time…. The court marriage wasn't going to happen ", Taehyung let himself feel lighter by saying that and the peaceful hands stop working. 

Taehyung pull away and turn around to find Jeongguk frozen staring at Taehyung as if he was in complete shock trying to process. 

" what? You cried….She left….  I don't understand you were so angry when she didn't show up? ", Jeongguk swallow thickly , looking all over Taehyung's face. 

"I went there to talk to her privately about my decision. I didn't want her to feel humiliated standing there waiting for me to show up……. I was angry because she humiliated me…. She left me there feeling like a fool. When i realized she really didn't show up it hit me that i was rejected once again….. Rejection made me lose my mind and you saw what happened…. I wasn't angry and scared because i loved her….. ", Taehyung chuckled sadly before looking into a Jeongguk's surprised one. 

" It was because i was rejected…. It was because i thought you will reject me too…. That's why i begged for you to touch me….", Taehyung's eyes were glassy behind his glasses as his fist tighten on Jeongguk's shirt. 

" Why did you want to reject her? ", Jeongguk didn't want to blink as his heart beat faster. 

" Because I realized back then that i have fallen  for  a man…. I couldn't betray myself…. . I was no longer myself…. He got my soul and I couldn't  betray him anymore…. ", Taehyung's gaze oozing his feelings and Jeongguk felt like he was getting dizzy. 

" Who got your soul? ", Jeongguk whispered, holding his tears. 

" Jeon Jeongguk ",Taehyung smile softly and the younger closes his eyes, eyebrows frowning and nose turning red quickly. 

" You cleaning my ceiling made me fell in love…. Who would have thought? Not me, ahahaha…crazy-", Taehyung was really embarrassed. 

"Marry me", Taehyung's eyes widened looking into Jeongguk's teary sincere eyes. 

" You don't mean it", Taehyung tried to breath . He couldn't believe his ears that Jeongguk proposed to him. 

" With a clear mind and  heart i mean it Taehyung, please marry me", Jeongguk's eyes shakes in sadness when Taehyung lean away from him. 

" Shut up ", Taehyung whispers , tear already sliding down his eyes. 

" I can't, i am being selfish right now…. I need to belong to you. I want to be your husband…. Just a glimpse of your face make me at ease. At the mentions of your name my heart flutters, you keep me happy. I love you like a hopeless lover and i am proud of it. All my pain are washed away by just a touch of yours…. Marry me Taehyung ", Taehyung's lips quiver as he sniffles staring at Jeongguk whose eyes tears up but there was a gentle smile on his lips. 

" Stop talking Jeongguk ", Taehyung begs. 

" Marry me", Jeongguk smile sadly leaning his forehead against Taehyung's while closing his eyes. 

"Stop", Taehyung whimper lowly. 

" Why? Please marry-", Taehyung covers his mouth with his hand. 

" I can't let you do that, i can't let you suffer and i don't want to talk about it, please ", Taehyung closes his eyes letting himself embrace the closeness. 

"And  If you keep asking I will end up saying yes", Jeongguk inhale pulling Taehyung in a warm full of affectionate hug. 

Both let their feelings flow through their eyes holding each other that night….