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I promise it gets better, trust the process 🙏

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"ah well, I'm basically unlovable at this point. None of the girls want to love a girl, and the boys will love me LIKE a girl. And all of my efforts will lead to nothing, because I'll be killed in the street before I even get to change my name."

Ominis' eyes well up in tears at Sebastian's words.

Sebastian had recently admitted that he feels like a man, changing his old name to Sebastian. Luckily Ominis doesn't even remember it, with what both of them have endured, they rely on each others short and long term memory loss.

Last week Sebastian cut his hair and got a row from his uncle, screaming and shouting about losing his niece before turning it back around, saying "ack, don't need her anyway, I liked the other one better anyway. And you're dead if you think you're my nephew-" and then whatever Sebastian's name was.

The 2 boys were clinging to each other in the undercroft, well, Sebastian clung to himself, nauseous due to his dysphoria, his arms wrapped around his chest, trying to flatten it, but it never worked. No matter what he tried to bind his chest with, it never worked. What a stupid looking girl. Short hair, mud on her knees, boys trousers on that didn't fit her. All Sebastian was, was a stupid girl running around hogwarts with her uneven, shitty haircut, trying to fit in.

But she couldn't.

He'd try to talk to the boys in his year, his voice much softer and high. Legs too thin, waist too slim.

He'd try to talk to the girls in his year, his voice much flat and strained. Hair too short, too much acne on his face and mud on his clothes.

What a waste.

He felt comforted with Ominis' arms around him. Ominis sounded feminine himself, and kept to himself. Sebastian was jealous he fitted in but glad he didn't go out with the popular crowd.

"You're not going to die, Sebastian."
"... I will..."

Ominis stayed quiet. There was a horrifyingly high chance of that. A statistic Ominis didn't want to think about. He flinches as Sebastian slams his fists on the ground. He's sobbing. He hates his voice when he cries, recently teaching himself to cry silently.

"I'm gonna die probably by my own hands, let's face it. I'll cast imperio on a random person and have them slit my throat. My body on the ground, some lunatics cutting off my limbs for fun because I was already 'mutilated' in the first place..."

Sebastian cries into his hands as Ominis shushes him, before he regrettably gives Sebastian the bottle of moonshine. He drinks half in one go. Ominis has to pull it off of him. He takes a few gulps himself.

After a few minutes, Sebastian reaches up and cries into Ominis' chest. Ominis picks him up and moves them to the sofa, laying down as he just wants Sebastian to fall asleep, and deal with him in the morning. And surely, after 5 minutes, Sebastian falls asleep, face drenched in his own tears.

What a mess...