(Chapter- 09 a conversation)

Warnings;
• Angst
• Tears
• Triggering subjects
• talk of Abuse(?)
• soft Baku
And others

VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED
~

Midoriya closed the door and took a deep breath

"You saw?"

"Y-yes... he looked so pale and fragile.. what happened to him?"

"He was always like that, everything you see is all a facade- a wall he puts up to keep himself from breaking, what you probably saw isn't even the half of it"

"I saw.. h-his back it wa-was-"

"I know I helped him clean it up, those bruises are from training, he rarely harms himself on his back anymore... it's usually his arms or his-"

"-thighs?"

"Yeah... he's getting better at talking and taking his meds though so I agreed not to tell anyone as long as he keeps it up"

"What did you mean by not the real Bakugo?"

"He uses anger and violence to create 'bakugo' his mask... I've met 'katsuki' and I'm one of the very few who have., he may seem strong but he's broken kiri.... he really is a-and I'm scared"

By now Midoriya was crying into kirishimas shirt while his anxiety fills his head with dark thoughts and scenarios

"What did you mean by meds?"

"I go with kacchan every Friday to re fill my sleeping and anxiety meds and while I'm there we usually re fill kacchans pills for depression and PTSD"

"PTSD?"

"Sorry that's one thing he'll have to tell you himself..."

"Wait.. I didn't know you had trouble sleeping Midoriya"

"O-oh yeah.. heh... I can't really give an example as to why it just kinda happens... I'll try and go to sleep but the second I put down whatever I'm doing and try to my mind counts reasons to stay awake., almost as if it's listing things I forgot to do giving me an excuse to stay awake... my brain never shuts up and because of this I developed anxiety at a young age"

"Oh.. does anybody else have issues I don't know about heheh.." he said in a joking tone

"Just Hitoshi But it's pretty obvious he has insomnia.."

"Is he Aizawas secret love child or something?"

"Oh god kirishima not you to"

"What?"

"Todoroki won't shut up about that and he's actually convincing me now"

"Hah! Smart dude"

"Anyways please don't confront kacchan tonight unless absolutely necessary"

"I'll wait until tomorrow.. it'll give him time to destress"

"Alright night kiri"

"Cya 'Doriya"

-

When kirishima got back he had planned to quickly slip on his pjs and go to sleep but fate had other plans

He opened the door and peered in to make sure Bakugo was asleep

Except he wasn't

He was sitting on the floor with his back resting on his bed crying...

He was shaking and his breathing was sharp and fast

Another thing he noticed was that his arms weren't bandaged anymore and blood was dripping onto the floor

He quickly and quietly stepped in and closed the door

The red head rushed to his side realizing Bakugo was having a panic attack

When kirishima sat beside him the blonde whimpered and breathed out a plea
"N-no more.. p-p-please-"

"Hey Bakugo it's okay your safe nobody can hurt you I'm here, follow my breathing like this" he put bakugos hand onto his chest to feel his breathing

"In and out keep a rhythm focus on breathing"

After a few minutes that felt like hours

Bakugo came back to his senses and stiffened when he noticed kirishimas presence

Without saying anything he stood up and grabbed a first aid kit from his bag and sat back down beside Bakugo

He gently picked up his arm and wiped it with a tissue

"This might sting" he said
slowly bringing the disinfectant soaked cotton ball into his arms

When the cotton ball came in contact with his skin Bakugo hissed in pain but made no move of protest

After tossing it into the garbage kirishima got back to work, wrapping bakugos wounds expertly

When he was finished he looked at Bakugo with a serious expression

"Take your shirt off"

Bakugo hesitantly nodded and slipped off his T-shirt

Then kirishima got back to work wrapping and cleaning his back despite the scars being old they still needed a bit more time to heal

After Bakugo slipped his shirt back on kirishima repeated the cleaning and bandaging to his thighs

"K-kiri I'm sorry.."

Kirishima brought the trembling Bakugo into a hug and whispered

"You have nothing to be sorry for Bakugo"

He then picked him up and laid him onto the bed

He was about to walk away when Bakugo reached out and grabbed his arm

"N-no stay" he said sleepily

Kirishima chuckled to himself and slipped into bed beside the blonde

"Night Katsuki.."

"Goodnight Ei"

(811 words)