You guys think I'm perfectly fine, dont you?

Because I always sound happy in my book updates, in my roleplay.

But everyone can just fake it. I can fake it.

Its not like I have depression or anything (sorry to those who do. Talk to someone about it)

I've been trying too hard. I'm starting to get tired of pretending everything is alright all the time, when I know it isn't.

And, when I pretend I'm happy, that's just me trying to be happy with myself, trying to push aside my feelings, because compared to others, do they really matter?

By being happy, I try to cheer myself up.

I'm a messed up human, and I'm sorry.

Sorry I can't help those in need.

Sorry I'm probably too cheerful for you, because you aren't

Sorry that I probably don't get anything that real people with anxiety and depression feel, because I don't.

But, I feel like in order to make your day better, I have to suck out the sadness and give it to myself, because that would be selfish to give it to someone else.

Sorry for ruining your day.

Just ignore this. I'm fine.