I woke up and looked beside me. I smiled as I saw him sleeping peacefully. I brushed some of the strand of his hair that’s a mess on his forehead and on his eyes.

He sounds low moans and slowly opens his eyes. He smiles as soon as he sees me and squeezed himself in me. I hugged him tight and kissed his forehead.

“Are you okay? Are you hurt somewhere?” I asked him.

“My body aches, hyung. You were so rough,” he complaints. “Or maybe I can’t really just get used to it?” he then chuckles and looked up to me.

I tap his nose with my finger. “I just missed you so much,” I replied. “But did you f-fucked someone aside—“

“No,” he immediately cut me off. “I was so busy as fuck you know? And I told you I might stop being a dick after you,” he countered.

I smiled even wider and I lean towards him, brushing our nose together. “That’s good to hear.”

We went out to buy new clothes and have a coffee breakfast together. We spent our entire day having fun. We watched movie too and then went inside this arcade.

I bought bubble tea for us while we’re inside the arcade then I saw him talking to someone. I walked faster towards them and before I could see who that man he’s talking to, he already left.

“Who was that?” I asked. “Here’s your drink,” I lend him and we take a seat.

“Just a friend I happened to see here. Why? Are you jealous?” he asked and sips on his drink.

“Yeah? How many guys should I punch for you?” I asked him and he laughs.

“They keep on coming to me because of what I did to them. Am I cursed?”

“No you aren’t. I don’t know what to tell you because it was really wrong but you don’t deserve to be hurt. Okay?” I consoled him.

He nods like a kid. “Yes hyung!” he enthusiastically respond and then he open his phone. “Oh look, it’s expected to snow tonight! I want to catch some,” he exclaimed.

“Then let’s wait for it tonight,” I replied.

“Yehey! I’m really excited every first fall of snow. I don’t know why,” he said and then a caller ID appeared in his screen.

He immediately swiped the end call after knowing who it is. It says “Hyuka” by the way. I don’t know who that shit is.

“Why’d you didn’t answer?” I asked him and sip on my drink.

He slid his phone on his padded jacket. “I don’t want any disturbances right now,” he replied and smiles.

“Okay! What should we do now?”

“We should eat dinner! Should we have samgyupsal?”

“Sounds good! Let’s go!”

We head inside his pub and we started eating together. I cut the meat to pieces and put the cooked one in his plate. “Eat a lot,” I said.

“You too, hyung! Oh, Yeonjun hyung is calling,” he replied and answers his phone. “Why?” he asked facing his phone, video call.

(Are you really eating right now? Where are you? You’re not hooking up or something right?)

I extended my arm to feed Taehyun and he munched it. “No, I’m just eating,” he replied.

(Whose hand was that!? Kang Taehyun who are you with right now!?)

Taehyun moved the camera so both of us will fit in the screen. “Hello,” I greeted and waved my hand at Yeonjun who’s in his bed lying.

(Hey! Choi Beomgyu— Dumbass! Why didn’t you went home last night!?)

“Soobin hyung, hello,” I greeted him to and smiled a little.

(Argh! You two will both kill us!) Soobin hyung growl and went out of the frame.

Taehyun faced the camera himself. “We’re eating bye!”

(Hey! Hey! Is this even the right time to eat—)

Taehyun ended the call. “Soobin hyung is with him then who’s with Aera right now?” I muttered and feed myself.

“How is she by the way?” he asked in his casual tone. “Hyung said you tried breaking up with her,” he continued.

I just sigh. “Let’s not talk about her,” I bluntly replied.

“You should still at least take care of her… even if as a friend,” he implored.

“I don’t know Kang. I want her to leave me so she won’t at least feel that hurt. I know she’ll be really in pain if I force myself to leave,” I explained.

“You have the point but I hope she’ll really realize her worth.”

After eating we decided to be in a building’s rooftop. He has the pass and all that’s why we’re able to be in here. There’s really nothing in here, so we’re just standing. Waiting for this snow.

I see him blowing air and feeling cold so I wrapped around his neck the scarf that I have and he smiled at me. “You should keep yourself warm at this season,” I said.

“Thank you! You can just hug me tho?” he suggested and laughs.

But I still did it. I hug him from behind and he held both of my hands. We stayed silent while we’re at that position. Then after some time white floating thing started falling from the sky.

Taehyun extended his hand and open his palm to gladly catch snow. He’s smiling like a kid and is really happy about what he’s seeing right now.

“Hyung! Look! It’s so cute!” he exclaimed.

I just smiled at him. Happiness really suits him the best. I want to see more of it. I want to be with him in every little thing that can make him happy. I want to witness everything that can make him happy.

I step back a little and pulled something from pocket. “Taehyun,” I called him and he looked at me.

“Yes hyung?”

I present to him a simple ring. There’s nothing to see on the outside but it has his name carved inside of it.

“A-are you proposing?” he asked me.

I chuckles. “Am I?”

“You are?”

I laugh and then pulled again something from my pocket. It’s a necklace without a pendant. I put the ring through the necklace and showed it to him.

“I’m not proposing yet.”

I moved closer to him and wear the necklace on him. I smiled as I see how it looks good on him. He touched it and smiles. “Thank you,” he expressed and smiled.

I hugged him and he hugs me back. “Whenever you need me, just call me, okay? I will be there for you,” I stated trying my voice not to crack.

“Y-yeah. I will do that. I’m sorry if we can’t be together for now. There’s so much happening. I still have a lot to do. I need to fix myself first. We can’t grow together if we stayed with each other knowing we have this kind of situation.”

I nod. “I u-understand it. Don’t worry. I’ll just be here waiting for you. Know that I will never get tired of waiting for you, Taehyun. Hyung will be here for you,” I assured him.

“Thank you, Beomgyu hyung. Meeting you was the best. I never knew I’m going to be that happy again. I feel so safe when I’m with me and I want to feel it again. I want to be with you too but not now. Let’s fix ourselves first,” he stated.

I looked at him and he’s crying that made my tears escaped too. “I thought I’m going to regret meeting you. I cursed you so much for coming into my life without a warning but that was the best meeting I ever experienced. So please, make sure to wait for me too, okay?”

He nods and a low sobs escaped. “I w-will. I will. Let me handle myself first and I will fully commit to you. I promise that,” he promised me.

I caress his face and kissed him then hugged him. I hugged him so tight like it’s going to be the last. I held his hand like I don’t want to let go of it anymore.

I want him to stay but letting him go for now is the best.

I thought I was prepared. I already know he’s going to leave me. I don’t even want to sleep tonight. I’m afraid that if I open my eyes, he’s not with me anymore. He’s not with me and the worst is I am not allowed to look for him.

And it happened.

As my eyes opened, a tear escaped. A sudden feeling of longing envelops me when the bed supposed to have two people waking up, I’m the only one left alone.

Taehyun’s not with me anymore.