“She doesn’t want to see you for a while. I’ll just lend this to her.”

“Thanks, Soobin hyung. S-she’s fine, right?” I asked hesitantly.

“You expect your girlfriend to be ‘fine’ after ditching her on your fifth anniversary celebration? And you can't do this— giving foods and shits whenever you feel apologetic to her.”

“I’m sorry,” I felt bad and looked down. “I was out for emergency—“

“If you’re just going to lie, just shut up. Yeonjun hyung already told me where you were last night. Is he feeling alright now?” he asked referring to Taehyun.

“I don’t have any updates yet and hyung, did Yeonjun told you anything about him? Like about the past?”

“None since I don’t really care,” he replied bluntly and sips on his coffee. “I’m going now, she’s probably waiting for me,” he stated and stood up as she picks up the food I bought for Aera.

“Thanks for your understanding, hyung,” I expressed and smiled a little.

He sighs and almost even rolled his eyes at me. “Look, I’m not doing this because I feel pity or what, it’s because you are my friend and Aera’s my cousin. I want you two to fix this. I told you to fix things, Beomgyu but you’re still seeing him. Just break up already—“

“I was about to, hyung,” I cut him off and meet his gaze in serious. “Don’t worry, I will end this shit. I will break up with your cousin so, I hope you’ll treat me like the old ways again,” I stated.

“Do it first, I don’t trust you anymore.”

He left Spring just like that and I frustratedly pulled my hair. It feels like one by one they are going gone. The only way to end this is to break up with Aera.

_daniel:
He’s resting here in the hospital while
waiting for the results
Ill update you again if what

choigyu:
thanks
I’ll come there if the results are out
I’m still busy in here

_daniel:
Yeah sure

I sighed again and shoved my phone back to my pocket and continue working. I need to get busy or what that Kai said will really make me crazy. I need Yeonjun to tell me about this.

I can’t keep going without knowing what really happened. I need to know about should I really trust Taehyun before I decided to break up with Aera.

Night came and I decided to close the café. Yeonjun message me that I can come in the hospital now that’s why I’m heading in there. I’m a bit anxious actually.

I reached the VVIP room where he is staying and when I open the door, I saw Taehyun eating tangerine and Yeonjun’s watching some movie in the TV.

“Oh, you’re here,” Yeonjun saw me first.

“Yeah, how are you Kang?” I walk towards him, smiling.

“I’m good! The results turns out fine and I can go home tomorrow,” he informed.

“That’s good to know. Don’t stress yourself, okay? You have so big to manage,” I replied.

“Yes, hyung! I’m sorry I made you worried a lot,” he apologized.

I held his hand. “I just want you safe all the time.”

“Wow, that’s so corny,” Yeonjun reacted in disgust.

“Shut up,” I snapped.

“Hahaha! But thank you so much for staying with me,” Taehyun said again.

“I told you, I’m not going to leave you. So you should too. Don’t leave me too, Taehyun.”

He pursed his lips first and then tightens his grip on my hands. “We have our deal, hyung,” he stated.

Bullshit.

I wasn’t able to reply when we heard a knocked and then hospital staff comes in with a tray. They injected something to him that I don’t know that made him sleepy.

“You should take a rest now,” I said and brushed his hair.

He yawns. “Yes hyung, stay here for tonight, okay?”

“Hmm, sure. Good night.”

Yeonjun and I went out after Taehyun fell asleep. We’re both standing on the quiet corridors while looking outside the glass windows, seeing the city lights.

“Maybe he’s also stressed from working,” I stated.

“He’s not currently working for a week now,” Yeonjun replied.

“Huh? What do you mean?”

“He gave his position to his hyung for the meantime. He probably feels like he’s going to get attacked again so, he immediately let go of all his work. He doesn’t want personal problem to interfere his work,” he explained.

I gasped. “He’s always prepared for everything,” I commented.

“That’s what life taught him. To be always prepared at everything or life will surprise you with fuck ups.”

I bit my lip and looked away. How fucked up his life is? He’s too young for such things.

“Do you want to ask something?” he asked.

“I meet Kai,” I stated.

“You did? How? Wait? How?” he asked in panic.

“It just happened but he told me something,” I answered.

“Don’t tell me you actually believed it? He’s an asshole and everything he spits is pure trash,” he insulted.

“That’s why I’m here to know that truth,” I said and looked at him. “Was it really Taehyun’s fault why they broke up?”

“Taehyun has a fault and Kai as well. Taehyun wasn’t all to blame,” he answered.

“Then did Taehyun really stayed with him even if he knows he has a girlfriend? Did Taehyun really do a lot of shit just to make Kai stay with him despite of Kai having a girlfriend?”

“That asshole,” he scoffs. “Yeah, those are real. Those are fucking real because that scumbag didn’t tell Taehyun he has a girlfriend. He fucking lied to him!”

“Then why did he stay with him knowing that fact?”

“He loves him. He loves him so much, Gyu. I swear I saw it with my own two eyes. He’s fucking in love with him and when it happened, he became really stupid,” he reasoned.

I looked away and control myself.

“He said he had at least five guys before me, what did he do to them? What exactly is he doing with those guys?” I asked, looking back at him with such rage in eyes. “And you even asked me if I have a partner that time, why?”

He sighs and took off his eyes from me. He became silent. He doesn’t want me to know about.

“Goddamnit Yeonjun! Please tell me why! Is he really going with in relationship guy and breaking them apart? And that’s what he’s going to do with me? To break up with Aera!?”

“I don’t know about that—“

“No! Please tell me! I’m fucking confused! You told me he like me! That’s why I’m hoping. I can risk breaking up with Aera just for him. I can stay with him all day, all night only if he’s going to stay with me too! But I think it’s just me. He’s going to leave me too.”

A long silence envelops.

“I can fucking risk it all for him, that’s how much I love him but I need assurance. I need assurance that he’s going to be with me too. I want to help him, I want to be with him but I don’t want to be stupid enough to stay with him and choose him if he’s just going to leave me like I never did any good in his life.”

“I’m going to tell you something, Choi Beomgyu,” he started and looked at me seriously. “I don’t want you to choose him over anyone.”

“What?”

“He’s just going to hurt you. I know you both love each other but I don’t want you to be with him. I don’t want to see another man getting crazy after choosing him.”

“So, I’m right. He’s really breaking relationships apart. Goddamnit!”

I let of a sigh of frustration and massaged my temple. I don’t know anymore. I don’t know if I should fucking trust Kang Taehyun after hearing this. I don’t know what to believe after hearing this.

“Do you really want me to be with him or not?” I asked him.

“I really do because I never seen him smile the way he do to you after so long. I want to see more of those, Gyu but I’m thinking more of what are the possibilities if you two will end up together. That’s why I’ll say no. I don’t want to. Not in his current condition. He has still the fear and trauma from Hueningkai. If you’ll insist to be with him, you’ll both hurt each other.”

“I get your point, it’s crystal clear but,” I paused and looked down. “But I still want to be with him. I want to be with him during his healing process,” I continued.

I love Kang Taehyun so much. I love him that I’m confident enough that I can win him against everything.

Days passed, I’ve been spending more time with Taehyun. Aera and I talked about what happened and after that, she changed a bit but I don't really care.

There are so many dates we planned but I couldn’t go because of Taehyun and I’ll just end up apologizing to her then Soobin hyung will get mad and the cycle repeats.

“Here's a cup of coffee,” I offered Taehyun who’s looking outside my room’s window.

“Snow will fall soon, hyung,” he stated.

“Right, time flies so fast. Feels like summer was just yesterday,” I agreed and sit beside him on my bed.

“Who thought we’re going to be together this long?”

“They say time runs fast if you’re with someone you love. Maybe it’s like that, that’s why we didn’t even notice it,” I replied.

He chuckles. “Love,” he repeated. “Four letters, hundreds of emotion.”

I held his hand and smiled at him. At this point, I don’t fucking care about his past. He’s with me means he likes me too. I trust Taehyun that he won’t leave me. I believe in him that he’ll choose me too.

I take the cup from his hand and put it on the table. Then I kissed him and then he moves and sits on me while we’re kissing each other, passionately. His hands wrapped around my shoulders and neck while mine are on his back to deepen it.

“We’re doomed.”

“What—“

I looked at him when he whispered that and my eyes noticed something— no, someone on the door. She’s standing in there looking at us with rage and pain.

“YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!”