Both of us stopped and looked at the locked door.

“Why is she in here?” Taehyun asked in whispered.

“I don’t know either. Quick, hide,” I answered and we both stood up. “Under the bed and just stay in there for a while, I’ll figure it out later,” I instructed and he did.

I make sure to hide all of his things in my cabinet. “Babe? Are you sleeping? Open the door please!” I heard her shouted while knocking my door.

“Damn it,” I cursed.

I saw Taehyun hiding under my bed and I checked him. “Stay here, okay? I’m sorry,” I apologized and he just nods and smiled at me.

“Go,” he replied.

I calm myself before opening the door and then Aera quickly hugged me. “Oh, babe! I d-didn’t know you’ll come here, w-wow,” I welcomed and hugged her back.

“Hahaha! Yes, I texted eommoni that I’ll come here,” she replied and seats on the bed.

“D-did she tell you s-something?” I asked nervously because she might told her about Taehyun being with me.

“Nothing? She just said you’re here. Why?”

“Oh, none! HAHAH! Well, maybe she degraded me again a little on your chats HAHAH!” I joked.

“HAHAH! No babe! Your mom’s not like that,” she disagreed. “Why are you standing there, come here,” she invited me to sit beside her.

“Oh right! Yeah,” I panicked and sits beside her but I can’t focus at all.

“Are you okay?” she asked and held my hand.

“Yeah, why? I am,” and I let out a awkward smile and looked away.

I’m nervous, what the hell.

“Are you staying here for tonight?” I asked her.

“Yep! Let’s go back to Seoul together,” she answered.

“S-sure.”

“Babe you seem tensed, are you really okay?” she noticed.

“Yes! Of course, t-tensed? No, I’m not,” I denied and tried to keep my cool.

“I miss you.”

“Uhm, we just saw each other the other day?”

She smiled and tightens her hands on mine. “I don’t know. I just miss you even if we’re together.”

The look of her eyes seems agony. They are lonely and I don’t know why. I’m always there for her but why?

“Beomgyu, can we do it today?”

I was taken aback. I don’t know what I should answer her. She rarely initiates to make love because it’s always me and whenever she does I feel so excited.

But not today. Not now. Not when Taehyun’s literally under the bed, listening to us.

“B-babe, I’m sorry but I’m tired right now,” I rejected.

She smiles, “Please?”

It’s not just about Taehyun why I said no to her. It’s also because I don’t think she’s in the right state to do this as well. She’s not in her full condition but why is she trying to?

I don’t want to do it to her when I know we’re both not going to enjoy it anyways.

But she’s my girl.

I kissed her, held her waist and gently laid her to the bed. My hands roam inside her shirt while I’m still kissing her passionately. I’ve been doing this to her countless times but it just suddenly feels weird.

It suddenly feels wrong.

She dozed off after we did it and sure as hell I forced myself to explode just to end it. Something’s wrong but I don’t know what.

I picked up my clothes and wear it then looked for Taehyun. I grabbed his hand and pulled him out under the bed. “I’m sorry,” I muttered and give him a hug.

I paused when I felt that he’s shaking. “Hey, are you okay? I’m sorry,” I apologized and kissed the top of his head.

“Y-yeah, I-I I d-don’t know— please don’t do it again,” he whispered shakingly and gripped my shirt. “N-not when I’m around.”

“Alright, I’m really sorry. Please, I’m so sorry Kang,” I apologized once again.

He shook his head and looked at me. “It’s okay but you didn’t need to force yourself to do it,” he whispered.

“How d-did you know?”

“I know how you moans, hyung and it wasn’t like that.”

I made a gap between us and smiled. “You should get out in here. Come on, while she’s sleeping,” I just answered and then dragged him out of my room.

We head on to my car and I started driving. “I’m sorry I can’t take you back to Seoul,” I apologized.

“It’s fine, I already book a cab,” he replied.

“Thank you and I’m really sorry for today,” I apologized again.

“How many times should you apologize? Hahaha! I already told you, it’s fine,” he looked down. “J-just don’t do it again while I’m in there,” he lowered his voice.

“I won’t.”

We reached the waiting shed and he was surprised when I get off from my car too. “You should head back now, hyung.”

“No, I’ll wait till you go,” I refused and stood beside him.

“Aera might wake up and you aren’t there,” he replied.

“Don’t worry, I can make an excuse,” I stated that made him chuckles. “You have your money, right?” I asked him.

“Yes, of course when did I— fuck! My wallet!”

“Huh!?”

He started looking for it inside his leather jacket but there’s none aside from his phone. “I can still use money with my phone but my wallet contains different IDs, did you keep it?” he asked, worriedly.

“Yes I did hide it and I don’t think Aera will really look for it,” I replied that made him calm for a moment.

“My goodness! That’s good to hear— here’s the cab. I’m going to go now, hyung,” he bid his good bye and get on the passenger’s seat.

I looked at the driver, “Please take him home safely, thank you so much,” I said.

“Yes sir.”

“See you around hyung, thank you again,” Taehyun acknowledged.

“I’ll meet you again when I came back to Seoul. Stay safe. Good bye!” I smiled and waved my hands at him then the taxi left.

I went back to our house and mom’s still not here. I open the door and saw Aera that’s still sleeping under the blanket. I open the closet and looked for Taehyun’s wallet but it wasn’t there anymore.

“Shit,” I cursed and started looking for it because I’m fucking sure I put it in here.

“Looking for this, babe?”

I paused from moving when I heard Aera’s voice. Slowly, I looked back and saw her seating. Her eyes are already about to burst and my eyes looked at her hand where she’s holding the thing I’ve been looking.

“B-babe—“

“W-why? Why is this in here?”

“B-babe, i-it’s because he,” I paused because I couldn’t think right. I’m suddenly out of words. “H-he—“

“He what!? Damn it Choi Beomgyu! Why is this thing in here? Can’t you even think of a proper reason to cover up this? Please! Please! Just one reason and I will believe it no matter how absurd it is!” she bawled.

I gasped as I see her tears running through her cheeks. She’s shaking in madness and I suddenly feel like I don’t have the right to comfort her.

“He left it inside the car the last time we met and I don’t have the time to send it back to him,” I made up.

“First of all why was he in your car? Didn’t I told you to stay away from him?”

“Yes but—“

“No! You agreed! You agreed to stay away from him but behind my back you’re still seeing him and don’t you dare tell me that it’s because you two are just friends because I don’t think friends will share the same smell— the smell of something suspicious.”

“I don’t understand what you are talking about but it’s not like that.  I’m telling the truth in here,” I convinced her.

“At least make it believable! At least make me believe it’s true because it’s so dumb! Please!” she cried so hard.

I run to her and hug her. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry it won’t happen again,” I apologized.

“W-why are you doing this to me? W-why?”

“I’m so sorry.”

“I j-just want you to be honest, Gyu. Please, what’s with you two?” she asked.

“None, w-we’re nothing,” I denied.

“Please don’t make me hate you because I love you so much.”

I didn’t replied anymore and just hug her tight. That night, she didn’t talk to me at all until I send her home. She totally ignored me and I let her because she also needs that.

“Didn’t I tell you not to call me, huh?”

“Hyung, stop my head’s spinning already,” I objected and drink my coffee.

“Is it really hard to tell her the truth? Because if it’s then I’ll do it myself,” he replied.

“Argh! I don’t know!” I yelled and banged my head on my office desk. “Mom’s also rushing me for marriage,” I added.

“Don’t you dare propose to her, Choi Beomgyu. I’m going to kill you—“

“But I need to!”

“Then leave Taehyun! Asshole, why do you love him so much? What did you actually see in him?” he asked and rolled his eyes.

“I don’t know, I just love being with him.”

“It’s because it’s still new. Do you even know him that much?”

“I don’t but I’m willing to. Hyung, I don’t have any specific reasons why I want to be with him, being with him alone is already enough,” I stated.

“Argh! You’re such an asshole, Choi Beomgyu! I really want to kill you and feed you to piranhas! If you really love him then break up with Aera!” he scolded me.

“I can’t hyung…”

“Why? Are you thinking about those times you two spent together? The memories? Stop thinking about those, idiot. If you really treasure those moments then continue creating memories with her not with someone else. You started with her, don’t end it with someone else.”

I keep quiet, not knowing what I should reply.

“Weigh things, Beomgyu. Who was with you during the hard times? Who was with you during the happy times? Who made you feel love? Who was there when you needed someone the most?” he asked.

“It’s Aera.”

“Who do you want to be in the future? Who do you want to spend more time with? Who’s making you happy? Who do you love the most?”

“It’s Taehyun.”

“Fuck you! You know what? I give up! That’s your fucking problem anymore and I swear I’m getting crazy already because of you! Figure it out on your own! Goddamnit! I still have class. Bye!”

“Hyung! Soobin hyung!”

“Fuck you!” he yelled and raised his middle finger at me. “I hope you get crushed by a truck and realized what the heck you are doing right now. Good bye!”

I just sighed as he banged the door of my office and I started throwing tantrums like a kid while pulling my hair in frustration.

I need to decide things now. I really need to choose between them. I’m willing to take the risk no matter how huge I’m going to lose.