When I reach into the gaping wounds
You left inside my aching soul
I find the knife I helped you bury
In my chest the day you left

I hated me much more
Than you ever did
When I decided
I must not be worth anything
If you didn't love me

So I ran into the darkest reaches
Where evil laughs at broken pride
And all we ever get done doing
Is find more and more ways to hide

And drifting on the waves
Of a sea that never ends
I found that I became
Someone else instead

I buried me in laughter
I dried up all my tears
I let myself move on
When I've been stuck here
All these years

Honestly my honesty
Was feigned and only
Open for everyone else
But not me

I hid my heart from the truth
I pretended I didn't still love you
And I let the fairytale wrap my mind
To pass the time
And help me be something new

Yet that new me could never be
At the heart of my destiny
Because he could not survive
The future I tried to run from

But it's here and you are gone
And I need to grow out of this place
So I can move on
So I can look myself in the face