Why I Cheat

How can I love only thee? 

When maddening moods ever move me 

And in love's lank bitter brood 

My confidence is somehow swiftly shooed. 

Then you go a day, without looking my way, 

So I see a future, of you walking away. 

 Then meeting a girl who looks in my eyes 

And feels the same delicious demise 

As when I saw you and painfully knew: 

That my heart could now, be ripped in two. 

I knew not, what else to do, 

But serve my soul its piecemeal parts, 

A puncture board for cupids three darts...

 If you want to blame, and utter "shame" 

That I might change and loyally remain 

Don't give it a thought, no change can be wrought 

Not from scorn, or a fake mindset adorned. 

Her pretty white arms, rang genetic alarms, 

And looking for love, I was confident of. 

I bathed in my guilt, and felt her, soft. 

 Yet still it gets worse; my nature's curse, 

All that's needed to see my love ceded 

Is a glance from your eyes, and her little lies.

 Hire my conscience a hearse, and I'll bid it disperse, 

But until it leaves, my guilt will stay, trapped in love, 

Surrounded in a flock, with no chosen dove. 

Repair my soul! And love, come to me whole.