"B..ut ..th…iss…wa…s ….ntt y..ou"i tried to speak with him holding my cheeks roughly showing all the hate he had for me .

"Yes this wasn't me”he agreed

“the monster i am right now is created by you …now enjoy"he  added with a smirk, removing the grip and standing straight he buttoned up his coat.

"Now mon amour i am going for some work, the lawyer will come with divorce documents sign it and be ready today is our wedding"his words fell like a bomb on me, i stared at him shock , no words coming out of my mouth, only tears rolling down! I want to cry at him, shout at him, deny him, beg him, to not do this, not to ruin my life. But nothing is coming out of my mouth, my parted lips are sealed from inside.

And i am shivering under terror and anxiety, tears sparkling in my eyes. And i was nothing but a dead body, who is on  the peak of her destruction. 

I never knew, the guy whom I once i dated will be the reason for my destruction.

Seeing me in this vulnerable condition a smirk played on his lips more wide, more evil and full of fun. he stepped towards me and leaned towards my face his nose brushing mine and our lips inches apart

"My love didn’t have the strength to stop you, but my hatred definitely has the power to destroy you”he whispered and placed his lips on mine.

My head spun as his soft lips me mine and pressed against it, the only thing that ran through me was disgust and hatred, the same amount of hatred he has for me i hate him, i hate him i hate him and i don’t want him close to me, i don’t want him to touch me, i want hi to stay away from me, i i closed my eyes and my hand formed into a fist. With all my might I pushed him making him stumble back, and i pushed myself up standing up on my feet, not waiting for him to intimidate me again.

"This tigress part of you which has the guts to   push me will soon be dead ..baby!!!!!"he chuckled.

"Enjoy your day"he said backpedaling without taking his eyes off me , and with a psychotic grin on his face, he winked at me before turning.And he walked out.

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I didn't misread it.

I am not dreaming of anything!

This is all true, everything is real, i am ruined.

I could feel the burning sensation on my skin,it is all real and trust me it's heart wrenching,as i stared out of my car window at the couple in the park, i felt even more broken.

Where should i go? Where should i just go to escape this pain that is killing me internally and externally, my head hurts my chest hurts there is noise all over my mind. And silence in my heart, i tried to escape this silence and noise.

I did! I tried to prove myself wrong, I rushed to my house! to check for her,but she wasn't there.

She left me.

Am sorry Kunal, it was never you!!!

I loved Manik from the start. I am sorry ,but my parents fixed my marriage with you!!but now as my love is back in my life I am going to marry him, and leave you forever. My lawyer will contact you!!!

Am sorry

My fingers curled tightly around the phone as i read the message once again!

If right now you will ask me to walk on the path of burning charcoal, or to slit my wrist, or to peel off my skin. I would feel no pain! Because the pain I am having right now, is more than anything the most hurting, unbearable pain is heart break!!!

Leaning against the window, and rolling down the glass of the car door I stared at the grey  and darkened sky, just like my life right now, dark and ready to be destroyed, as the rain will fall there, here my life will fall apart, never ever even in my dream i thought i will be at this point one day.  But things happen that you expect the least. 

I closed my eyes, allowing the cold breeze to touch my already swollen cheeks due to crying and a tear that escaped my eyes, at my helplessness. I just signed my divorce papers, one hour ago and there is no escape now. I am doomed, destroyed, and ruined. Most of the part in me has accepted the defeat, lost all the hops and is ready to accept life coming forward. But a minute part still wants to try. I want to try, but how?

Another tear escaped my eyes along with a whimper as I traced my fingers on the red marks of my wrist, and more teas brimmed in my eyes, as I recalled how hard, tight and rough the grip- he had on me.

FLASHBACK:

I stared at the divorce papers kept in front of me with a pen with my hand. That he handed me, “Sign the”"he commanded, as tears brimmed in my eyes. I really don't want this to happen.I don't want to sign the papers or to divorce Kunal.I don't want to call it an attachment towards him, but I don't want to leave him and marry a monster, who just wants to make my life hell.

No girl wants it right?

"What are you doing mon-amour"i looked at my side to see the monster in the flesh, my worst nightmare a murderer who took a seat beside me, the couch sinked under him as he sat beside me and so did my heart he snaked his arm around my shoulder. I watched him, with tearful eyes begging him to stop,he raised his brows and chuckled in amusement.

"Sign it!"he grinned with excitement in his tone as is eyes sparkled with cruelty.

"Please don't do this"I insisted gritting my teeth, his brows shot up in amusement, and he removed  his hand from behind me. he removed his hand and stared at me with amusement.

"Please don't do this"he mimicked me, and chuckled in disbelief.

"You think that i will listen to you?"he uttered in disbelief, and bit his lip resisting himself from laughing. While I watch him with my mouth partly open, the way he is teasing me, as if this is just a game for him, the tears in my eyes sparkling and I scoffed looking away.

His hand came under my chin and he gripped it roughly, making me look at him.

“Tell me something mon amour” he demanded, letting go of his grip on my chin.

“6 years back, when you were leaving me, what did I say he awakened, gritting the last part, his jaw clenched at my silence as I stared at his amused face, with rage building in it. I didn’t listen to him, when he begged and he is avenging that. 

"I said the same thing that you are saying right now….'Please don't do this!!' but did you stop?"he continued with his jaw clenched tightly.

"YOU DIDN'T CARE FOR MY TEARS …FOR MY EMOTIONS!!!"He bellowed accusingly, I gulped in fear looking away not because I am guilty for what I did, 6 years back. But the psychotic ness that gleamed in his eyes.

"SO WHY SHOULD I CARE NOW?"he boasted, leaning closer to me, bringing his face inches closer to mie, his warm breath fanned on my face and his eyes shined with tears , pain and rage. A smirk curled his lips, while his jaw remained clenched. 

Collecting all my strength, I pushed him back making him stumble back on the couch, no! no! no! he is a psychotic beast, he can kill me. He will definitely, his eyes scream the hatred, the urge to kill me and how much he would enjoy me bleeding or choking to death. I should run, run from here, run from him, to Kunal, the only person left in this city, whom I can call mine. He killed Rohan already.

But he can’t kill Kunal, I won’t let him win. I tried to get on my feet to run but his hand curled around my wrist and he pulled me back, I collided with him with a gasp.

"Come On baby ..don’t spoil it, sign it, we have to go shopping for our wedding dress"he asserted gripping my wrist tightly, and pressed the pen in my hand more, against my skin making me wince in pain.

"Please no-" he let me go off my right hand making me face the paper, sitting on his lap.

"Sigh mon-amour "he said rolling his eyes, his grip on my hand tightening every second. I winced, and sobbed. He raised his brows demanding what he wants, accepting the defeat I closed my eyes letting a tear flow down my eyes, directly on the paper next to where I sign.

“Good girl”he stroked my hair, as I signed my death certificate in the form of divorce paper.

And stared at my signature as Nandini Kunal Kapoor which is soon to be Nandini Manik Malhotra, I am ruined, destroyed, not completely yet, but that doesn’t mean it won’t happen he will definitely do it. And second by second the leftover hope, is getting into ashes, ending everything. Maybe my life too, if not the finished hope, but him, Manik Malhotra is definitely the death of me and he will kill me one day. 

My thoughts came to a halt as the monster pulled me, making me stumble on my feet. I frowned, wiping the tears flowing down my cheeks, and watched him.

"Now let's go for some shopping"he exclaimed and dragged me out

END OF FLASHBACK

"Good Evening sir…how may i help you?” the salesgirl asked as we walked into the showroom , full with wedding attire.

"Show us some wedding gowns for my fiance"he said, snaking his arm around me.

"Sure sir follow me.",she said, should i ask her for any help, like to call the police ,yes i should.

"Don't think mon -amour that she can save you….you know no one can!!!"he whispered in my ear making me look at him in shock how he knew what i was thinking!

"Don't stare at me like that mon-amour…ik you more than anyone"he winked at me.

I need to find a way out.

As the salesgirl shows us the gown, i sat there restlessly thinking a way out.

"How is it mon-amour?"manik asked showing me the gown in his hand.

I said nothing and looked around at the gowns.

Standing up i marched towards the hanging pole trolley and picked up a gown.

"This one"i said coldly.

"But ma'am this is too simple and cheap" said the sales girl.

I looked at Manik and showed him the gown.

"I would like to try this one 0"i said after taking a deep breath.

"Sure mon-amour"he approved, pulling out of his phone which was buzzing.

"Try it i will be back" he said and left outside.

"This way ma'am "said the sales girl pointing behind the curtain.

I nodded and stepped in.

I wore the dress and stared at my reflection in the mirror, and soon my emotionless cold face changed into helpless brokenness, i palmed my forehead thinking about a way out,when eyes fell on the glass  door.

I am so lucky!!!!!

Perfect i sighed and opened the knob of the black glass which opened, thanking God i directly went towards the main road and took a cab.