he was spacing out the whole time they were having practice for the grand ball. a song has already been selected and it was an english one which chenle needs to practice but during the time given, he did nothing but stare out of no where. when the teacher assigned to them asked for him to sing to check where he had come so far, it didn't go well. let's just say, chenle stood there silent and frozen after singing the first line.

he wanted to leave already but he still has minutes more before they are dismissed. and those minute just have to be the worst minutes of his life.

❝you sure you can sing in front of us?❞ one student approached him and began teasing him. ❝you won't puke?❞

then more and more came to make fun of him. just because they had received the video him vomiting infront of the audience, they now have the reason to make fun of him.

❝i must say, you have a nice voice.❞ a girl nudged chenle, earning a smile from chenle. but that smile turned into a frown when the girl laughed like crazy. ❝but your breath smells bad, did you just puke a while ago?❞

a boy joined the conversation and gasped in realization. ❝he did excuse himself minutes ago to the restroom.❞

❝so this is why the restroom smells weird!❞ they all laughed in chorus as they watched chenle who's looking away from them.

those hell minutes of waiting felt like an hour. but fortunately, it's already over and chenle can finally go out of here. it was the second day of dealing and it's worst than the first day. more and more started to make fun of him and tease him about the video and he couldn't do anything about it. he wanted to talk to xiaojun, just like what yangyang pleaded him to do, but he hasn't seen him since yesterday. it has been so hard for chenle but he can't turn to anyone as of the moment. renjun is still there with him but he has gotten busier, he finally saw jeno and the older would also help him with the bullies, jaemin was not seen inside the campus since yesterday, and both mark and donghyuck would threaten the people who would mess with chenle. but that doesn't seem to be effective.

funny how he was a bully back then and now he is the one being bullied.

and jisung..

jisung?

jisung is no where to be seen. he has been absent for two days, no one knows his whereabouts, but chenle heard from the teachers that jisung is sick. chenle knows that it's something more than that.

it's so upsetting. chenle didn't want to think about him but here he is, having jisung inside a big part of his mind.

❝renjun ge is staying for korean classes, jeno hyung has basketball practice, mark hyung and donghyuck hyung are having a date later,❞ chenle frowned as he placed his last book inside his locker. ❝and jaemin hyung is still not here.❞

he wondered where jaemin is. is he possibly taking care of jisung? chenle hoped he's taking care of jisung.

❝stop it.❞ chenle closed his locker and hit his head on it, again and again. ❝stop thinking of him.❞

is jisung fine?

❝fucking stop.❞ chenle hit his head again on the metal surface.

is he doing well without chenle?

❝stop thinking about him.❞ chenle hit his head again and could now feel how much it hurt. not only was his heart hurting but also his forehead. ❝you should hate him. he's a horrible person, just like what renjun ge said.❞

❝how about you stop hitting your head on your locker?❞ a voice said that made chenle stand up straight. ❝you don't want it to bleed, do you?❞

turning to the side, chenle froze when he saw someone so familiar. if he looks closely, he really does look like fat de jun. those eyebrows will forever be the highlight. ❝xiaojun ge?❞

xiaojun didn't look well. he was pale and getting skinnier than the last time he last met him. instead of getting mad at him for spreading the video, chenle was worried at how he looked. the older male rolled his eyes and pushed himself off from the lockers and started to walk away.

chenle wasn't going to let him go.

❝we need to talk.❞

xiaojun groaned and pushed chenle's hands away from his arm. ❝i know, you found out that i was the one who spread the video and you're mad at me right now. go ahead, shout at me. punch me, i know you want to.❞

chenle paused for a moment as he saw xiaojun suddenly breaking down in front of him. it reminded him of back then when he used to bully the life out of him. ❝i just wanted to talk.❞

❝hurt me, please. i deserve it.❞ xiaojun sniffed as he wipe his tears using his sleeves. ❝if it can bring yangyang back to me then please do it.❞

❝what?❞

❝don't be an angel and just hurt me already!❞ xiaojun closed his eyes as he didn't have the guts to look at chenle after everything he had done. ❝i'm sorry.❞

❝actually, i should the one apologizing to you.❞ chenle took the older's hand and held it tight as he watched his tears fall down. ❝right, dejun ge?❞

yeah, chenle is now having a hard time with all the bullying but this wouldn't have happen if he wasn't such a jerk back when he was still a kid. he hurt xiaojun so much, chenle mayhaps deserve this treatment.

xiaojun's eyes shot open upon hearing that name coming from chenle. ❝what did you say?❞

❝yangyang told me everything. like, everything.❞ chenle brought his hand up and wiped the tears from xiaojun's cheeks using his thumb. ❝you're lucky to have a boyfriend like him.❞

boyfriend. that word was all it took for xiaojun to break down like a child. he was crying loudly that shocked chenle. lucky for them, there weren't many students hanging out at the hallways since classes are over already.

❝why are you crying? ge, is there anything wrong with what i just said?❞ chenle gasped. ❝yangyang told me that you are his boyfriend so—❞

❝that's what's wrong.❞ xiaojun embraced the younger male and buried his head down to chenle's shoulder. ❝he's not mine anymore.❞

that's weird, yangyang didn't say anything about them already separating. he could even remember that smile on the male's face when he talked about his relationship with xiaojun and also mentioned someone that goes by the name of hendery. hearing his story reminded chenle of renjun, jaemin, and jeno's relationship.

❝we just broke up.❞ xiaojun mumbled, hugging chenle very tight as tears kept on falling down with no plans of stopping. ❝and it's all my fault.❞

❝hey, you two can always fix it.❞

making chenle wonder, can he also fix his relationship with jisung?

shaking his head, chenle went back to comforting xiaojun. there he goes again, thinking of jisung. for once, chenle wants to forget about him for a while. he still couldn't forgive him for what he has done even though he was so gentle that night.

and what relationship? they aren't even together.

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jisung groaned as he felt himself burning because of the sun. opening his eyes, he then saw the sun shining down on him first thing. the last thing he could remember was eating lunch with jaemin and the next thing that happened was a blur.

is he in heaven?

❝no idiot.❞ jaemin sat down the bed and nudged jisung by the side. ❝you slept for a day and a half.❞

❝you know, you just ruined my morning.❞ jisung rolled his eyes as he turned to face jaemin who's sitting next to him and staring at his phone. ❝i was so happy thinking that i woke up in heaven.❞

❝first, it's already four in the afternoon.❞ jaemin said as he showed the younger his phone for proof of the time, making jisung squint his eyes to adjust to the light. ❝and second, bold of you to think that you'll end up in heaven.❞

after everything he has done? don't think he'll end up in god's good list.

jisung sighed, ❝i was asleep for that long?❞

❝i even thought you died.❞ jaemin said so casually, not thinking of what he was saying.

the younger male then let out a bitter chuckle. ❝wish i really did.❞

and jaemin too secretly wished for that. jisung didn't just hurt chenle but he too hurt jaemin. the person who just gave him a long ass beautiful speech of him being wonderful and being a great person is also the person who called him useless. how does that work? but to jaemin's disappointment, he let his heart take over and not his mind. jisung is his cousin and he should also understand that he was heartbroken at that time so he wasn't thinking when he said that.

jaemin raised a brow as he faced to his side and saw jisung sitting down and both his hands reached out for him. ❝what are you doing?❞

❝since i'm awake, you can take me now.❞ jisung said. ❝take the handcuffs that's under my bed.❞

❝what?❞

❝hurry hyung.❞ jisung didn't want to prolong his sufferings. he knew jaemin, and possibly even chenle, wanted him in jail. actually, if everyone of his friends get to know this, especially donghyuck and renjun, they'd want him dead. ❝please take me already. i want to sleep inside my cell, i'm so tired.❞

❝but you just slept a day and a half.❞

jisung shrugged, ❝still tired.❞

jaemin frowned and pushed the younger's hands down. ❝i skipped classes to take care of you and not to hand you to the police. that's chenle's job. after all, he is your victim.❞

❝then i'll call chenle.❞

as if chenle is going to answer the call.

jaemin groaned and turned to look at jisung with those burning eyes of his. ❝are you really serious!?❞

❝jaemin—❞

❝if chenle wanted you to be in jail then you would have been there since yesterday.❞ jaemin leaned his back to the headboard and held himself back from throwing his phone at jisung. ❝can't you just be thankful and accept this faith?❞

❝why should i be thankful?❞ jisung took a deep breath before flopping his body down to his mattress. ❝i suffer with guilt every second.❞

❝jisung, seriously?❞

❝what?❞

❝did you hit your head? you're getting stupid.❞ jaemin then widened his mouth and sent jisung a smile. ❝oh wait, you're already stupid.❞

❝thanks for the obvious pops.❞ jisung turned his back towards jaemin and closed his eyes.

the moment he opens it, he wants to meet hell. since that's where he belongs then he wants to be there and just disappear out of chenle's life.

❝you know i eavesdropped them, right?❞

❝nah, i know you're being possesive and thought that chenle is stealing renjun hyung.❞ jisung mumbled, eyes still closed as he was shouting for sleep to take over him.

but sleep had to be deaf and ignore him just like that.

the older male rubbed his temples as he tried to control himself from throwing jisung to the police station. ❝i heard their conversation and i could hear renjun being so against you. he probably wants you dead.❞

❝expected.❞

❝but surprisingly, chenle was on your side.❞ jaemin frowned as he played with his phone. he could then feel jisung tense up upon hearing him say that. ❝he even blamed himself because he broke your heart and it's the reason why you're like this.❞

❝he's the stupid one.❞ why is chenle being like this? doesn't he hate jisung for everything he had done to him? ❝he could have just reported me. why does he have to act like an angel?❞

because chenle is an angel.

and jisung is a devil.

❝if i were on chenle's shoe then i'd probably do that but ji,❞ the older smiled as he brought his hand to play with jisung's soft locks. ❝do you know why he's not doing anything to you?❞

❝because he wants to see me suffer.❞

pausing for a few moments, jaemin hummed his agreement. ❝possibly it but i doubt it is.❞

❝he wants to see me killing myself out of guilt?❞ jisung raised a brow.

❝no, what!?❞ jaemin then closed his eyes and composed himself with deep breaths. ❝it's because of love. he's giving you another chance.❞

love, jisung scoffed. love makes us stupid. love is stupid.

❝don't you fucking waste it or i'll gladly do the honors of throwing you to jail.❞ jaemin threatened, eyeing the younger that's still having his back facing him.

chenle is giving him a chance? chenle is giving a monster like him a chance? it must be a joke. ❝i really appreciate your effort in comforting me.❞

❝ji fucking sung shitty park!❞ jaemin forced jisung's body to face him and pointed a finger at him. ❝he is giving you a chance! do everything and don't waste it. you apologize until he gets tired of you, you make him feel your love until he falls for you just like before, and don't make him regret giving you this chance or i'll choke you to death.❞

jisung blinked as he listened to jaemin.

❝do you understand!?❞

nodding violently, jisung didn't wait any second and answered. ❝y-yes!❞

❝that's better.❞ jaemin moved away and went back to playing with his phone. ❝i'm serious ji, don't waste this chance. be sincere in all of your apologies, and make chenle feel like that night when you two did it was the best night because you're his first. don't make him regret doing that with you.❞ and next, jaemin gave jisung a smile. ❝after all, you're still in love with your chenliet. right jimeo?❞

burying his head under the covers, jisung nodded his head slowly. ❝i never stopped loving my chenliet.❞

jaemin didn't know why he's helping jisung. this cousin of him just did something wrong, that isn't even something small. yet here he is, helping him. jaemin just hopes he won't regret helping him.

❝by the way,❞ jaemin suddenly became curious. ❝you two did it with protection, right?❞

jaemin waited for jisung's reply but minutes came and the younger stayed silent. he wasn't sleeping for sure, and jaemin knew the answer to that silence. he then slapped his own forehead but shrugged it off for now. this can be talked next time. for now, he should focus in helping jisung on getting back chenle's everything. his love, his trust, and he himself.

❝you skipped dinner yesterday, and both breakfast and lunch today.❞ jaemin stood up and got himself ready to make food for the both of them tonight. ❝i'm not letting you starve tonight. you're going to eat dinner whether you like it or not.❞

❝hey.❞

❝what else do you want jisung park?❞

jisung removed the covers and peeked his head up to look at jaemin who's standing there with both his hands inside his pocket. ❝i didn't mean it when i insulted you. you are the best person in the whole wide world, next to chenle of course, but still. i am so lucky to have a cousin like you. despite of being crazy and making me have the urge to throw you at a mental hospital, you are so loving and caring. anyone would feel lucky to have you. even meeting you is enough to make us feel happy.❞ jisung gave him a smile that he had a hard time making since it's been days since he last smiled. ❝you, na jaemin, are a wonderful human being. i love you so much hyung.❞

❝jisung..❞ jaemin placed a hand on his chest and the next moment he rolled his eyes at the younger. ❝that's disgusting.❞

the younger only chuckled and gave the older a finger heart.

jaemin didn't want to admit it but it did make his heart flutter. he looked away and also gsve his cousin a finger heart before turning around and making way out of the room. ❝now, get your ass off the bed or i'm selling that lazy ass to a police station!❞

hearing that made jisung quickly stand up, catching up to jaemin in a blink of an eye.

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