pushing the door open towards the empty classroom, yangyang fumed as he walked towards his calm boyfriend that's looking outside of the window. ❝what the fuck is this?❞

xiaojun looked up and raised a brow at the video yangyang is showing to him. later on, a sly smile was shown on his face. ❝didn't know it was also sent to you.❞

❝xiao, this was already deleted!❞ yangyang ran a hand through his hair as he placed his phone down after pausing the video. ❝how on earth did you have it?❞

❝are you blaming me for spreading the video here?❞ xiaojun gasped as he placed a hand on his chest.

❝who then has it other than you?❞ honestly, yangyang was already fed up with his boyfriend's actions. he tried to stay composed knowing that xiaojun is just doing this to get back at chenle for bullying him back then but xiaojun was going to far.

the older shrugged as he leaned back from his seat. ❝i don't know, someone named park jisung?❞

yangyang had his jaw dropped after hearing that from xiaojun. he could remember some of the gossips talking about chenle and jisung's relationship and it's probably true. bumping that one time with the younger boy, yangyang could remember him looking so pissed.

❝xiao.❞

the older male leaned forward and rest his chin down to his palms as he stared at his angry boyfriend. ❝what is it baby?❞ but he knew it's going to be that easy to calm him down.

is it?

❝what did you do?❞

xiaojun tilted his head to the side with an innocent questionable look on. ❝i did what i have to do. destroy chenle's li—❞

he was then cut off with a hard slap on his face. he got surprised by it, he didn't expect for yangyang to snap at him like that. he had known yangyang for years and he knew him to be patient. ❝yang what are you—❞

❝you have changed.❞ yangyang bit his slower lip, looking down as he didn't have enough courage to look up at xiaojun. ❝you weren't like this back when chenle hasn't arrived here.❞

even though his mind was set in his revenge for chenle, he still had care for yangyang. after all, he was there to comfort him after everything had happen, yangyang was there for him in ever step he took, and yangyang is his boyfriend. ❝yang..❞

❝i know chenle had done so much and destroyed your life but everything is in the past. we are here in korea and not in china.❞ yangyang, now looking at xiaojun who surprisingly looked worried. he thought it's all chenle that's 9n his mind. ❝and even if we go back, i bet everyone won't remember it anymore. move on xiao!❞

❝you won't understand.❞ xiaojun stood up from his seat, pushing his chair harshly that it fell down and made yangyang flinch from his place. ❝it's not you that suffered!❞

yangyang moved back when xiaojun started to walk towards him. if he was so confident that he can go up to xiaojun a while ago well, right now he felt all his confidence thrown away in a trash bin.

❝it's not you that's being bullied. it's not your life that's being ruined. it's not you that's suffering everyday with those disgusted looks thrown at you.❞ xiaojun stopped coming closer as he noticed that yangyang is already hitting his leg on one of the desks. ❝but you were there, yet you didn't help me.❞

xiaojun was right. yangyang was there and witnessed how chenle destroyed every bit of xiaojun. yet he didn't help. which yangyang is now regretting why he didn't. if he did stood up for xiaojun, would he be like this? of course not. and chenle would be living well without any problems by now.

yangyang is blaming himself for this.

❝you're right.❞ yangyang flashed the older a small smile. ❝i won't ever understand you.❞

xiaojun then realized that he went to far when he saw that look on yangyang's face. guilt was now eating him up, he didn't mean to say those to his boyfriend. ❝yang i'm—❞

❝so what's the point of continuing this, right?❞ yangyang took his phone out and deleted the saved video. ❝let's break up then.❞

those were the words he didn't ever want to hear. even though yangyang wasn't there when he was being targeted by chenle, xiaojun still appreciated how yangyang approached him after meeting him here to start a new life. and honestly, he genuinely loves yangyang. ❝wait no, yang let's talk this out.❞

❝no, i won't understand you. i wasn't the one getting bullied, i wasn't the one chenle was targeting, and i wasn't the one receiving their disgusted looks.❞ yangyang pushed xiaojun out of his way, not too hard since he still cared for him. he didn't want to break up but he already had enough of him. ❝no matter how hard i try, i still won't understand you. right?❞

❝yang—❞ xiaojun tried to reach out for the male but his hand was only pushed away by the younger.

❝xiaojun, let's stop this.❞ the younger said without looking at him in the eye. he was afraid that if he does, he might break down and quickly ask for forgiveness and tell him that he didn't want to break up. ❝come to me when you had already fixed things.❞

xiaojun didn't get to speak anymore as yangyang had already left the room without even sparing a glance at him for the last time.

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❝what!?❞

chenle looked down as he finished explaining everything to renjun. he hesitated if he should open up that easily towards anyone but he has no one right now. jaemin is still not in his right mind, jeno is no where to be seen, mark and donghyuck have their own problems and chenle didn't want to add up. renjun is the first one to approach him thus making him break down in front of him.

he didn't know how renjun would react but he just hopes that he can comfort him.

he needs it right now.

❝jisung..❞ renjun ran a hand through his hair as he stared out of no where, trying to process everything that chenle had just said to him. luckily for them, they were at the back of the school building where no one hangs out at this time around. ❝jisung did that to you?❞

❝but i also hurt him ge.❞ chenle buried his face down to his palms as he remembered how broken jisung look when he saw him and xiaojun kissing. ❝i can't blame him for everything.❞

❝but what he did was too much!❞ renjun stood up from the bench they are sitting and went in front of chenle with his hands on his hips. ❝chenle, he raped you!❞

❝we made a deal.❞ chenle played with his fingers and not looking up at renjun who's looking like an angry bull. ❝it's my fault for agreeing with it.❞

❝are you seriously going to his side now!?❞ renjun was disappointed. jisung had done so much already to make chenle suffer. first was making him his bank account and using his money and now taking his first? he took chenle's first without even having chenle's consent. ❝well, i'm not.❞

chenle finally looked up and saw renjun taking out his phone. ❝what are you doing?❞

❝calling the police, what else?❞ just as renjun was about to unlock his phone, chenle had already snatched it from him and hid it behind his back. ❝chenle, give me back my phone.❞

despite of that threatening tone that renjun is using, chenle still shook his head and refused to give the older his phone. ❝he was drunk! he wasn't himself when—❞

❝he still did it to you!❞ renjun was this near to personally go to the police station and report jisung's mistake. ❝you should hate him for this chenle. not just because he stole your first without you agreeing, but also because of those times he made you suffer. he made you his bank account and treated you as one when you clearly are a human being that has feelings too.❞

renjun hated jisung's guts way back. he despised him for being so rude to everyone, may they be older or younger, boy or girl, but since he his jaemin's cousin then renjun tried to lessen his hate for the younger male. but now, it all came back. his hate for him grew more. especially after what he had just knew which is him almost hurting jaemin physically. oh, his blood boiled at that but he needed to stay composed so that he can still keep jeno sane before he goes wild towards jisung.

❝chenle, don't you hate him?❞

see, that's what chenle needed to do. he needed to hate jisung. ❝i..❞

seems like that wasn't enough to convince chenle. renjun took this chance and snatched his phone back from chenle's hold. not to call for that police but to show chenle the video that's now spreading all around the school campus. ❝you two made a deal right? you do it with him and he promised to delete that forbidden video of yours.❞

chenle widened his eyes as he saw the video of his past. this time, it wasn't on jisung's phone on renjun's.

❝guess he didn't keep the promise, huh?❞ renjun paused the video and kept it away from chenle before he snatched his phone again. ❝instead of deleting it, he sent it to everyone here.❞

what did he ever do to jisung? why is he doing this to him? chenle looked down with his eyes still widened in shock. was this what he deserved for ruining someone else's life? but that was years ago and he had already changed his ways.

❝jisung didn't do that.❞ he knows jisung. he trusts his words. sure, he did done a lot of things to him but chenle knows that jisung isn't like that.

but then again, who else has that video aside from jisung?

heaving out a sigh, renjun placed both his hands on chenle's shoulders and shook him lightly, ❝wake up, snap out of love chenle.❞

chenle looked up at the older and saw how tired he looked. probably tired of dealing with him already. but chenle wouldn't want to believe that it's jisung's doings. yeah, he did made him suffer but jisung won't go to that extent. then again, renjun is trying so hard to convince him that it's jisung who spread the video.

and chenle is slowly starting to believe that it's jisung.

renjun was about to speak again since chenle was quiet, meaning that he still couldn't fully believe, but renjun quickly shut his mouth tight upon seeing a familiar figure not far from them. raising a brow, renjun mentally questioned why that person is coming near them.

❝yangyang?❞ renjun called out, making chenle turn around.

the smiling boy waved his hand at renjun before having his attention to chenle who looked like he was about to cry. ❝was i disturbing something?❞

❝no.❞ renjun sighed. maybe chenle needs time to think about it. renjun didn't want for the younger to make a choice and regret it afterwards.

❝well then,❞ yangyang approached them and placed a hand on chenle's shoulder. ❝can i talk to chenle for a while?❞

with renjun agreeing and yangyang dragging chenle with him, renjun was left alone there as he tried to think of a way to protect chenle at all cost. the poor boy didn't deserve this. and while he's at it, he didn't notice someone hiding behind a tree and listened to them.

someone was eavesdropping and heard every bit of their conversation.

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jisung groaned as he just came out of his room after hours of thinking mostly about nothing. he wanted to think about what just happened but he was too tired to even let his mind work. he hasn't eaten breakfast yet and he was planing to skip lunch. going down to the living room, jisung's face fell at the mess he made.

he was that hurt that he drank a lot. by a lot, dozens of empty alcohol bottles were everywhere. some even were broken to glass pieces and are scattered everywhere.

❝fuck.❞ jisung cursed under his breath as he took a step down and felt a stinging pain on his foot. ❝oh god.❞

bending down, jisung breathed heavily as he took the glass out from his skin. it hurt a lot but what else can he do? it'll hurt more if he let it stay there. ignoring the empty bottles of alcohol, jisung first went to pick up the glass pieces before he steps on another one.

curses came out of his mouth countless of times as he would scratch himself from the pointy glass and bleed himself. sighing, jisung still continued to clean up his mess with his hand now covered with blood and threw the glass away. he just hope he didn't miss one.

❝it looks disgusting.❞ jisung scrunched his nose as he saw his hands covered in scratches but then again paused for a moment. ❝i'm disgusting.❞

entering the kitchen with his back slouched and his lips curved down, jisung made his way to the sink and was about to wash his hand covered in blood but then heard someone knocking on the door very loudly.

❝wait!❞ and seems like it's not planning to stop until he opens the door. groaning, jisung ignored the pain in his hand and went to open the front door only to have his eyes widened at who came to pay for a visit. ❝jaemin?❞

a comforting hug? jisung wasn't expecting that neither did he think that he deserved it. but right now, jisung really needed one. although, he knows no one will give it to him neither did he even deserve one.

and he was right. not even jaemin gave him a hug. why would he anyways when jisung hurt his feelings just because he was heartbroken.

❝hyung—❞

jaemin took a step forward and greeted jisung with a hard punch right on his face, which he deserves very much.

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