TW: assault, abuse, death, homophobia,

Note things that happen in this story and the views of the characters are not my own, there is nothing wrong with being LGBTQ+ you are who you are and you love who you love, It's nothing to be ashamed of.

If you aren't comfortable reading this please go to the bold letters stating that we are back in the main story

I will summarize this part of the story:
his dad found out about his boyfriend and got angry, his dad got hurt and didn't make it, it was an accident but nobody believed him.
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I was only a kid, sixteen or so, it was my first and last gay relationship if you could even call it that, It was with a boy named Alex, he told me he loved me down under the bleachers , I let him kiss me instead of running or laughing at him I was curious, he pulled me close I was surprised at first but I liked the feeling of his lips pressed against mine, his strong arms wrapped tightly around me, I knew this was wrong but it felt too good to want him to stop. He pushed me against a wall, I wrapped my legs around his waist, both of us were hard. eventually he started to kiss my neck, I trembled with delight, and I let out a small sound of pleasure and buried my head in his shoulder to muffle it until I could stop, he kissed the area slightly below my ear and an even more embarrassing noise escaped me, it was loud, It brought me back to reality. There was a chance someone could have heard us.

"Stop.." I said quietly, he pulled his head away

"What Is something wrong? Do you not like the kisses?" He asked pulling away

"What if someone sees us? We can't do this right now" I told him

"Alright well what if I come to your room tonight and we finish this" he said boldly and I laughed

"Only if you promise me you'll be a gentleman." I remarked. I was giddy all day.

That night he did come to my window and knocked softly, I let him in and he kissed me again this time he pulled off my clothes then pinned me to the bed grinding his hard cock against me elicting a moan.

"You like this? you want it?" he asks quietly. I whimper and nod. "I want to hear it from your lips" he says.

"I want you please" I beg. He smirks and puts his fingers in my mouth.

"Now suck." He commands. I do. His finger pushed in and out of my mouth imitating fucking, then he pulls them out slick with my saliva, he puts his hands down near my waist "spread your legs, I want to see you" he says I'm nervous but I do it, I feel his finger inter my hole sliding in and out

"Ahh~ i-it hurts" I yelp "shh.. relax it's okay baby boy, calm down, you've got to relax it" he tells me I try and eventually the pain turns to pleasure and I moan once more. He slides in another finger, then another. All three of his fingers are inside me. "There we go isn't that nice?" he asks I watch him remove his own pants with one hand and pulls his fingers out of me to finish pulling them down. I panic

"A-are you going to-" I don't finish my sentence, I don't want him to do it-

"I won't do anything you don't want" he says "I'm sorry if I went to far you don't have to-" Just then my door clicks. I see my step dad's face he is angry, I cover myself with my sheets and shout for Alex to leave and he does.
My father slaps my face.

"You fucking whore what the fuck is wrong with you-" he starts.

I cover my face knowing he is likely to hit me again, and I'm right he does it again and again

"I let you and your damn mom into my home and what do I have to show for it, a fucking faggot for a son while she struts around for men's attention! Your no better than her" he yells

"Stop- please" I beg he hits me again and again.

"I ought to fucking kill you" he says grabbing me by the neck. I claw at his hands trying to stop him, trying to pull it away and possibly escape him. Eventually I am able to get away, I rush to the living room and search for a gun in the cabinets I find it but he isn't far behind me, I hold the gun and point it at him fearfully, I don't want to kill him but if he comes closer I won't have a choice.

"You won't kill me, your a bitch just like your mother was" he says coming closer

"Not another s-step" I say hoping he will not so I don't have to shoot him of corse he doesn't stop. Eventually he tries to grab me so I shoot him then I call the officers who eventually kick me out of my base, the worst part was Alex didn't even say anything to save me, and I didn't ruin his reputation so I stay quiet about it, they do allow me to see him for a bit but he doesn't.

End of flashback
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Asher touches my face.

"Are you okay onyx? You went realy pale." he asks

"I'm fine just... fine" I say and hope that he believes it.
He makes a face I'm not sure but I think it's concern.

"You can talk to me if you want to" he says and do, I tell him the story, he doesn't judge me for what I did with Alex. In fact he seems more upset with my father for what he did. And with Alex for how he handled the situation.

"It was wrong for your step father to do what he did over something as simple as a relationship." He says "I'm sorry you had to go through that." It somehow makes me feel better to have someone tell me this. He wraps me in a hug and I return it. He holds me tightly to his chest. I breathe in his scent, it's somehow calming to me. It's strange feeling this vulnerable let alone allowing someone like him see me like this, but for the first time in so long I feel safe it's almost not real. I realize I'm crying and can't stop trembling in his arms.