He Cheated Drabbles: Taehyung Cheated

Published: March 20, 2019

- 1,300 words
- ⚠️ hints about post sexual activity
- A N G S T (this is really what I came for on Tumblr 💕, I really like stories that can make my eyes swollen from crying 🤭)

Sixth installment of He Cheated Drabbles.

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My heart is stupid, deaf and blind all for you.

How could I process all those shocking information he was feeding me when my heart was being too stubborn, it didn’t want to accept all that my ears had heard, it failed to acknowledge all the painful truths his sinful tongue and insincere intention just spread out for my mind to generate?

How could my eyes stay unaffected when my heart was seriously going through so much worst situation just because he was now being honest with me, filling up my confusion over why he was too aloof and too cold to me the past few days?

I never questioned him why all of a sudden, he just went cold to me, all of a sudden, there were no sweet smiles anymore, and all of a sudden, he was always irritated with me and felt like he always wanted me gone. Why it felt like he couldn’t take into seeing me in one place. I gave him that, I gave him space because it was only I could afford, I could settle for a short distance between us instead of completely losing him.

It was me who was afraid to lose him… baka kasi sa aming dalawa, ako iyong mas nagmamahal. Baka ako na lang iyong nagmamahal…

“It… it o-only happened once, baby. I… I didn’t know what I w-was doing. We were all happy and then I j-just found myself… in that very situation—“

“Say it…” Halos hindi ko na marinig ang sarili kong boses dahil binibingi pa rin ako ng malalim niyang boses habang nagpapakatotoo siya sa akin. Alam kong sira na kami pareho, pero hindi ko pa rin mapigilang isipin kung gaano siya katapang para umamin ng ganito sa akin.

Hardly biting his lower lip to suppress them from quivering, his brows deeply furrowing, he stared brokenly at me, his tear-filled eyes were mirroring my watering ones. We were ruined, and it both broken us. Nakakatawa lang kasi perpekto ang tingin ng mga tao sa relasyon namin, pero heto kami, sirang-sira na. Dahil lang sa isang pagkakamali niya.

We both knew what he ruined, we both knew how painful it was, and we both knew it couldn’t be repaired anymore.

As I was watching his friends’ relationship with their girlfriends unfold right in front of me, I hardly promised myself that I wouldn’t let my relationship with Taehyung be like those. Ibibigay ko ang lahat sa kaniya para hindi na niya makuha pang gayahin ang ginawa ng mga kaibigan niya, I tried so hard to be the perfect girlfriend everyone wanted to be because I didn’t want to lose him, I didn’t want to stain our relationship.

I didn’t… it was him who did.

We were perfect, people admired our relationship because we didn't fight often, we always went out happy and very perfect to them. We were perfect, only until he had done what he did.

“J-Jecky…”

“Say it, Tae, say it…” I urged him to openly say it to me, to bluntly admit what he did because I needed something to salt the wound in my heart so it would finally accept that he hurt me, that it was hurting because of him. I needed it to come bluntly from his mouth just so I would have the reason to push myself to let go.

I needed to let go or the pain would eat me alive, it would bring me to my downfall.

Wala siyang ka-ide-ideya na bukod sa nasasaktan ako dahil sa ginawa niya, dahil sa mga inamin niya ay mas nasasaktan ako dahil sa sakit at paghihirap na pumupuno sa mga mata niya. Alam kong hindi lang naman ako ang nasasaktan dito pero puwede bang ako naman? I already gave too much to this relationship, I even went too far, losing myself in the process only to be hurt like this?

Shaking my head vigorously when I saw the fear and hesitation through his eyes, I let hard and loud sobs come out from my throat as I let my weakening hands reach for the collar of his coat. Mahina ko siyang inalog para ilabas mula sa kaniya ang gusto kong marinig. He managed to hold my waist and attempted to lift me towards his lap but I just shook my head even more, my hands clenching into fists.

“Say it! You have the decency to a-admit your mistake, why not clearly admit to m-me what you c-clearly did! I said say it!” Pinagsusuntok ko ang dibdib niya habang abala naman ang mga kamay niya para ipirmi ako. Pinupuno na ng mga iyak namin ang dance studio nila rito sa Big Hit building, ang mga nakaka-awa naming repleksiyon ay nasa salamin.

“I had sex with someone! I did! I did, baby!”

Sobbing hard, my hands weakened as new set of tears wet my face. I was wrong, kahit na mula mismo sa bibig niya manggaling iyon, kahit na bulgar man niyang sabihin iyon, mas masakit pa rin para sa akin ang ideyang mawawala na siya sa akin.

He cheated on me, yeah that hurt, but my heart was clearly hurting for the reason that his mistake might take him away from me.

Kaya ko bang magpatuloy pa kasama siya pagkatapos ng ginawa niya? It sure hurt, it sure broke me, it sure ruined what we had, but it would devastate me more to lose him.

Now in understood why those girls had easily forgiven their boyfriend after being cheated on, because they just followed their heart.

“I love him, his one mistake doesn’t define him as a person. I know it’s stupid to still accept him after what my eyes had caught he did, but I chose to give him a chance because I love him. I love him, to the point that I can probably go through it again and I would still forgive and accept him…” I could still remember how we dissed Hannan for stupidly forgiving Jimin after what he did to her.

“Don’t look at me like that. Namjoon is my life, I saw him reflect and repent for what he did. What matter’s that he promised me he’d never do it again and I believe him…”

“He didn’t cheat on me. He was just used to gain attention since that Hara girl was about to launch her newest drama. I knew it, my baby’s too perfect for those kind of news, they should be thankful it went higher than they expected.”

“My embarrassment isn’t still lie-lowing. Guilty pa rin ako dahil pumasok sa isip kong magagawang mag-cheat ni Yoongi sa akin. I didn’t trust him enough and I was blinded with what was only served for my eyes. Tapos ginatungan pa ng reaksiyon nina Soft at Jin Oppa…”

Yes, people commit mistakes. Nobody’s perfect. Minsan kahit na sobrang mahal mo iyong isang tao, kahit na handa kang ibigay ang lahat sa kaniya, hindi naman natin kontrolado ang mga puwedeng mangyari. Just like how Tae promised not to never hurt me, and yet here we were, almost breaking apart. Also, I must be really stupid for providing reasons for Taehyung, that maybe, it was a valid reason that he just got swayed, that he was just too happy as he said or he just didn’t really know what he was doing.

Maybe, he just wasn’t perfect and he could also commit mistakes.

Hannan was right, she loved Jimin that was why she forgave him. Namjoon was also forgiven because he knew what he did, he reflected and he repented, and everyone deserves a second chance. Soft and Sheena were both a victim of wrong assumption, they were loving so they were both fragile, heart is the most fragile when in love.

It could be stupid, deaf and blind all just for love.

“I’m so s-sorry, baby. Please, please, I couldn’t take into the g-guilt anymore. It always haunts me every day thinking I c-could hurt you. I love you so much…”

And of course, my heart wasn’t different from any other hearts. My heart was also stupid, deaf and blind just for love, just for Taehyung. He committed mistake, but he was human, he was not perfect, and he deserved a second chance.

Hi JeckyPerez!!!! 🤭 Ito talaga iyong dahilan kung bakit kita kinukulit sa chat kanina 🤭 chatted you to inform you bout this but I changed my mind midway, naisip ko surprise na lang kita hahahaha. Ikaw pa rin papartner ko kay Taehyung sa entry niya sa Love Yourself na Singularity yieeee. Sana umiyak ka rito 🤭🤭🤭.

*cross fingers* iiyak ka.

Thanks for reading my stories 💋💕

- Hannan ♥