GUMMY BEARS written by hannanusman
BTS ONE-SHOT COMPILATION
[A Kim Taehyung One-shot]
[Littlespace Series]
© 2018 CT All Rights Reserved
Fan Fiction/ Romance

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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Finished: July 8, 2018

Published: July 27, 2018

For my oh-so-ever cutie cousin who never stops asking me to write a one-shot for her, oh malikaandres, sa'yo na si Taetae ♥. Nahirapan akong isulat 'to kasi kasagsagan ng writer's block ko pero kasiii gusto ko na magsulaaat 😭. Don't even know what this story has become since I don't understand a lot of what I wrote here! Ayun lang! Lol, labyuuuu cutie 💕.

- Hannan ♥

The sixth installment of Littlespace Series.

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You'll always come first in my heart and in my life.

Caregiver and little, we were not anything more than just that.

Ang relasyon namin ay hindi na lalampas pa sa ganoon at kahit na gustuhin ko mang mag-level up kami, kahit na para sa akin ay hindi lang siya basta isang 'little' na kailangan kong alagaan dahil iyon ang trabaho ko ay alam kong hinding-hindi kami magiging sobra pa roon. 'Cause for him, I was nothing but his caregiver.

I was hired to take good care of him, I was being paid to babysit him and loving him as a man wasn't included in my job description… but I still did. 'Cause he wasn't hard to love.

Minahal ko siya kung sino siya at tinanggap ko ang lahat ng flaws niya dahil mas gugustuhin kong makasama siya sa kung ano siya kaysa ang makilala siya sa kung anong pinipilit ng ibang taong makita siya.

"Mommy, I done. I gotted no accidents!"

Mula sa pagkakasandal sa dingding sa labas ng male restroom ay napatuwid ako ng tayo nang marinig ko ang matinis na tinig na iyon, malayong-malayo sa malalim niyang tinig kapag nasa bigspace siya. A sweet smile immediately stretched into my lips when I saw his happy and proud form standing tall in front of me, skipping in his feet as if excited from something.

I really had to raise my eyes since he was inches taller than me. The same proud smile on his lips also crept through my lips when I saw how he properly fixed his clothes.

That was my baby Taetae.

Kung nasa bahay lang kami ay sinamahan ko sana siya sa loob ng banyo para tulungan siya sa kung anumang gagawin niya ngunit dahil nasa mall kami at hindi ako puwedeng pumasok sa loob ng male restroom ay napilit ko naman siyang big boy na siya at kaya na niyang asikasuhin ang sarili niya.

He liked it when I told him that he was a big boy. And big boys handle themselves very well.

Sinadya ko talagang tanging short pants lang ang ipasuot sa kaniya sa ibaba para kung sakali mang maihi siya ay hindi kami pareho mahirapan since he would just have to pull it down and back up. Sa itaas naman ay itim na t-shirt ang ipinasuot ko sa kaniya na may SpongeBob SquarePants print at pares ng sandals sa mga paa.

"See? You're my big boy!" I proudly told him. "And because of that, you can buy anything you want when we shop later!"

His pair of small and deep hooded eyes immediately twinkled at the reward I just offered him. He deserved it since he had been a good boy all the while we were out of home when usually, he was really a handful.

Sobrang kulit niya sa totoo lang at hindi mapakali sa isang tabi. Akala mo ay palaging inaasinan ang puwet dahil sa sobrang gaslaw. He even often got himself hurt because of it.

Sa bahay ay madalas naririnig ko siyang umiiyak tapos mahahanap ko siya sa gilid ng island counter habang naka-upo sa floor at hawak ang daliri ng mga paa niya, turned out, he got his smallest toe hit the counter's edge. Madalas din akong magpalit ng mga vases sa bahay dahil palagi niyang nababasag, so in the end, kahit na mahilig ako sa mga bulaklak ay pinagtatanggal ko na ang mga vases sa sala. Though it was all fine with me, I could afford his naughtiness 'cause kids are naturally like that plus, I would settle for him always.

"Hm, I wants gummy bears, Mommy! Lots and lots of it!" he happily said in his high-pitched voice with cute hand gestures, showing how he wanted many of it.

Pinigilan ko ang mapangiwi dahil sa sinabi niya. Dapat ay inasahan ko nang iisang bagay lang naman ang hihingin niya sa akin kung may pagkakataon lang siya. And now that I had given him the chance, of course, he would really ask for his favorite.

Gummy bears, treats I didn't want him eating 'cause it was making him super extra hyper. And a hyper Taehyung Kim in littlespace was a nightmare for me.

"You know I don't let you eat sweets, right? Just go with stuffie—" Natigilan ako nang makita ko ang unti-unting paglalalukot ng mukha niya at ang unti-unting panunulis ng mga nguso niya.

He was so damn cute only if he was not getting upset.

Nakikita ko na kung paano akong mahihirapan na pilitin siyang hindi siya puwedeng kumain ng gummy bears lalo dahil hapon na at paniguradong magdamagan siyang gising mamayang gabi.

Bumuntong-hininga ako dahil hindi ko rin naman gustong nalulungkot siya. It would cause me a heavy heart. Now, I was torn. I just wanted to reward him for being a good boy and why was it so hard?

"Tae, I'll buy you lots of stuffies so—"

"No! I wants gummy bears! I wants gummy bears!"

The last thing I wanted to happen right now was to handle a Taetae in tantrum. He could be really mean and he might even result to be a crying mess that would probably break my heart into pieces. He was just too precious and adorable, I didn't want him upset or even mad so albeit the effect those treats would entail, I couldn't do anything but to give in.

Handa naman akong ibigay sa kaniya ang lahat, hindi dahil kasama iyon sa trabaho ko bilang caregiver niya pero dahil gusto kong gawin iyon para sa kaniya.

For him, there was nothing I couldn't give and do. He would really come first before anything or anyone else in this world 'cause he was my only baby boy.

Mahal ko siya. Kainis, mahal ko siya.

Sa hindi ko na mabilang nagpagkakataon ay nagpakawala na naman ng ako ng buntong-hininga pero mas malalim. Gummy bears and Taetae were not a very good combination, it was trouble but then, I could handle more trouble for his happiness.

"Gummy bears for my Taetae, then."

And I just saw his beautiful rectangular smile that I so loved so much.

It was worth it anyway.

We went out for groceries. Usually, ako lang naman ang lumalabas para mamili pero dahil nasa headspace siya kanina ay halos maglupasay siya sa sahig ng kusina ng bahay para lang isama ko. Kailan ko ba siya natanggihan? Kahit na nasa bigspace siya ay nasusunod pa rin ang lahat ng luho niya.

Hindi ko naman puwedeng hintayin na mag-slip muna siya to bigspace bago mag-grocery dahil baka naghihingalo na kami sa gutom bago pa mangyari iyon, naubusan na kami ng weekly supply dahil ilang araw nasa bigspace si Taetae at isa siyang food monster sa totoo lang.

I was actually surprised the weekly supply even reached the whole week with his always hungry appetite.

"Gummy bears! Here I comes!"

Agad na nawala sa tabi ko si Taetae nang makatawid kami sa entrada ng supermarket. I even saw how the guard chased him a weird look before turning confusedly to me. Natawa na lang ako sa hitsura ng guard saka sinundan na si Taetae dahil hindi siya puwedeng mawala sa paningin ko sa malaki at mataong lugar na ito.

There were judgemental people around and it wouldn't be very nice for him. Plus, masyado siyang makulit at magaslaw, anong malay ko kung saan siya mapadpad dito. I wouldn't want to go to the broadcasting station only to page a missing twenty-three years old guy who was currently in a three-year old mindset now. Not all people have a broad understanding and soft heart for precious people like Taetae.

I followed him who was happily and excitedly skipping towards the section of treats and candies. Humila na rin ako ng pushcart bago tuluyang humabol sa kaniya. I again chuckled when I saw him already taking bags of gummy bears from a certain divider and hugging them all safe in his arms.

Well, I would trade anything for that smile.

"Mommy! I taken lots!" His high-pitched voice that used to be very deep and raspy when he wws in bigspace resounded around the hallway, subtly taking other shopper's attention. Masayang nilingon niya ako habang bahagyang tumatalon-talon at maingat na yakap ang mga treats na nakuha niya.

That was a lot, to be honest. Nakikita ko na kung paanong isang gabi lang niya iyong kakaining lahat, knowing him.

"Okay, Taetae, you take everything you like and we'll buy them," nakangiti kong sabi saka hinayaan siyang ihulog sa cart ang mga pinagkukuha niya.

"Thank you, Mommy!"

At hindi pa pala sapat ang dami ng mga iyon dahil dinagdagan pa niya.

Well again, everything for my baby Taetae.

"Look at that guy, para siyang tanga."

"Kaya nga e. I've been watching him."

"May sayad yata sa ulo."

Instantly, upon hearing those unpleasant things, my head swung to the direction of the disgusting voices. Tanging mga taong walang puso at may saradong utak lang ang may kakayahang sabihin ang mga salitang iyon. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa holder ng pushcart nang makita ko ang dalawang babaeng kunot-noong nakatitig kay Taetae na muling patakbong bumalik sa parte ng mga gummy bears para humakot pang muli.

Bahagya pa akong napangiti nang makita ko siyang pinagkukumpara ang dalawang magkaibang bags ng gummy bears, the one in a small plastic gallon and one with a plastic pack.

"Sayang, he looks so handsome pa naman. Look at those beautiful lips…"

Kumunot ang noo ko nang makita kung paanong napakat-labi ang babaeng may mahaba at itim na itim na buhok habang itinuturo si Taetae at hindi pa nakatulong nang makita kong unti-unti silang lumalapit sa kinaroroonan ng baby ko na ilang metro lang ang layo sa akin.

Nagngitngit ang kalooban ko at pakiramdam ko ay gusto kong manabunot.

No one talks to my Taetae that way.

"Hi," the ebony-haired girl happily greeted Taetae who immediately turned around. He blinked his deep hooded eyes at the two unfamiliar girls in front of him before he tilted his head to look past the girls and meeting my eyes. Instantly, he pouted at me like asking for help.

In his arms, he safely hugged those beloved treats of him.

Agad kong itinulak ang pushcart ko palapit sa kaniya. Sobrang pagpipigil ko na huwag maninghal dahil sa mga narinig ko sa mga babae kanina, instead, I gave them a small smile.

"You done, Taetae?" I softly asked the poor baby who was still looking helplessly at me, probably didn't know what to do with those girls in front of him.

"Mommy, I can't chooses. I likes them both!" Nakangusong ipinakita niya sa akin ang magkaibang packaging ng gummy bears.

Uh-kay, I thought he was having a trouble about the two girls in front of him. Of course, why would my baby get troubled with these girls? Why would he even care? It was not more likely him.

Bago sumagot sa kaniya ay nasulyapan ko pa ang pagkakalaglag ng panga ng babaeng bumati kay Taetae samantalang isang malakas na singhap naman ang pinakawalan ng isa pa. They both looked horrified.

"We'll take both, hm." I sweet-smiled at him.

"Really, Mommy! I takes both then!" At nilagpasan niya ang dalawang babae para ipasok sa cart ang mga iyon bago siya tumabi sa akin at mahigpit na niyakap ang braso ko. "I done," aniya.

"What the hell was that?!" the ebony-haired girl shrieked in disbelief as she hastily turned around and stared horrifyingly at us.

Tamad akong tumitig pabalik sa kaniya dahil wala akong panahon para sa mga taong katulad nila. Wala pa man ay nakikita ko na ang panlalait sa hitsura nila, and no, I wouldn't let them judge my Taetae. He didn't deserve it, he didn't deserve what these people thought about him.

"Is he some kind of a retard or an autistic?" the other girl asked in a same disbelief tone.

Nilingon ko si Taetae para alamin kung nakikinig ba siya pero mabuti na lang at abala ang atensyon niya sa mga pagkaing nasa cart. He was even skipping at his ground, showing how excited he was for his gummy bears.

I really didn't understand why there were people with a close mind. Ikinasaya ba nila ang panghuhusga?

My Taetae wasn't some kind of a retard or autistic just like how she defined it but what was wrong with being a retard? With being an autistic? It was not like retarded people cause bad things to other people. They're humans too. They maybe have a weird thing in their minds but they're humans, they have emotions and senses.

Nothing's wrong with retarded people and autistic, but there was seriously wrong with these people.

My Taetae might be different but his case was of an adorable and special condition. Siguro nga ay mahirap intindihin ang case niya para sa mga taong may saradong utak pero ganoon talaga kasi hindi nila sinusubukang umintindi.

It took just a soft heart to accept littlespace lifestyle. Hindi kailangang pilitin na intindihin at magustuhan sila dahil madali lang naman talaga silang mahalin.

Imbis na pansinin pa ang dalawang babaeng nanatiling gulat na nakatitig sa amin ay nagsimula na lang akong maglakad para magtungo na sa ibang section para sa iba pa naming bibilhin. I didn't want both my time and my baby Taetae's time to be wasted for those people.

They were not worth our precious time.

"Let's buy cereals, Taetae. We've ran out of it already."

"Okay, Mommy."

I thought it would be just like that. I should have known that close-minded people also tended to be very annoying.

We both halted when the two girls appeared in front of our pushcart. Sa paraan ng pagharang nila ay para bang wala silang balak na padaanin kami ni Taetae.

Now, Malika, seems like these girls are looking for a fight.

Hindi naman ako war-freak, maybe a little sadist but I still could stop myself from turning on full war-freak mode when triggered. At ngayon, kung mananatili pa sila sa harap ko at tititigan ang baby ko na para bang may malaking kasalanan si Taetae sa kanila, aba, maghahalo talaga ang laman sa tinalupan.

It would always be my Taetae over everything.

Binitiwan ko ang holder ng pushcart at mabilis na hinaplos ang likod ni Taetae nang maramdaman ko ang mahigpit niyang pagkapit sa braso ko habang isinusubsob ang mukha sa leeg ko. I could also feel him lightly shaking, proof that he was getting scared.

My heart felt like bleeding because of that. He must have heard what these people had said. Kahit na nasa three-year old mindset siya ay nakaka-intindi pa rin naman siya. He was still very aware with his surrounding. At kapag nag-slip siya out of his headspace, maalala niya pa rin ang lahat ng ito.

"It's fine, it's fine, baby." My soft voice somehow calmed him a bit but he was still holding on me tightly.

"What's with him? Is he a retard, Miss?"

I hardly gritted my teeth upon hearing the bluntness being spoken in front of my baby. It was so hard to hold back to be honest, but Taetae would only get even more scared if I snapped here to this people so I tried so hard to stay calm.

For my baby Taetae.

"M-Mommy, I-I scared," Taetae whispered to me through shaking voice, his hot breath fanning my skin.

"What the actual fvck? Are you age-playing?" the other girl spat at me in a chuckle, obvious that she was mocking us.

I silently gasped at that. "Oh no, no, no, I don't tolerate bad mouths in front of my baby…" Hinaplos ko muna ang buhok ni Taetae at mas idiniin sa leeg ko bago ako magpatuloy, "Mga Miss, I get that you two don't have anything good to do in your disgusting lives but I'm sorry to inform you both that we have better things to do than mind you. Sorry."

Holding Taetae safely in my arm and my other hand pushing the cart, I walked past the two close-minded people to both save them and the situation from my upcoming rage. Ayaw kong dito manggulo pero kung hindi pa nila kami tatantanan, I would seriously fvcking raise hell just to defend my Taetae.

Retard? At least retarded people were nicer than them! And age-play? Oh, I would love to do age-play with Taehyung 'cause damn it, bukod sa crush ko na siya noong unang beses siyang ipakilala sa akin ay talaga namang he was worth a heart.

Hindi siya mahirap mahalin. Both in big and littlespace!

Naramdaman ko ang pagdausdos ng mga kamay ni Taetae mula sa braso ko palibot sa baywang ko habang naglalakad kami patungo sa flakes and biscuits section. My heart drummed loudly because of that as I felt him finally calm down. He was no longer shaking. Mukhang nakabawi na siya sa mga narinig niya kanina.

"Tae, you know those people just don't have anything good to do and say, they're just a bunch of disgusting people who love to mind other people's lives. So don't mind them, hm," mabini kong sabi sa kaniya dahil ayaw kong kimkimin niya ang sinabi ng mga babaeng iyon. He didn't deserve all those bad treatments from those people.

"Maybe, Malika doesn't suit you, it should be Tamaka, 'cause you're always right," he whispered at me, not in his usual high-pitched tone but in his natural deep and raspy baritone. It brought chills within my spine, a kind of chill that tingled my insides everytime I heard his natural voice.

Yeah, he sometimes called me Tamaka in his bigspace to tease me since it was the opposite of my name, Malika.

Pinigilan ko ang mapangisi dahil sa biglaan niyang pagi-slip into bigspace from headspace. It didn't surprise me anymore when he was slipping back and forth 'cause I got used to it already. May mga pagkakataon ding nagsasabi siya sa aking mag-i-slip siya at hihintayin niya kung papayag ako.

I just chuckled as I lightly pushed him off me.

"My Mommy's so cool!" He beamed with his rectangular smile, white teeth showing, obvious that he was just really teasing me.

Well, 'cause big Taehyung loved to tease me.

"Of course! No one can treat my baby boy that way!" sagot ko saka ginulo ang buhok niya at dahil hindi na siya nakayuko sa akin ay kinailangan ko talagang tumingkayad para lang maabot siya.

"Hm, can I get more gummy bears then? Hm, Mommy?"

At ginamit na naman niya sa akin ang infamous puppy eyes niya na madalas niyang gamitin sa akin sa tuwing nasa bigspace siya at unconsciously nagagamit sa littlespace na palaging tumatalab sa akin.

Hays, of course, there was no way I could resist him.

"Fine, but only one gallon—Taehyung!" I screamed when he suddenly lifted me up and twirled me around.

"Thanks, Malika! You're the best!" Pagbaba niya sa akin ay tumakbo na siya pabalik sa kabilang section.

Seriously, why was he so cute?

There was really no way I would let him go ever when he was all that mattered for me.

He would always come first after everything.

The End.
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