LET ME KNOW written by Ct
BTS ONE-SHOT COMPILATION
[A Jung Hoseok One-shot]
[BROKEN HEART SERIES]
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Fan fiction/ Teen Fiction

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Finished: February 4, 2017
Published: February 22, 2018

Warning! R-18
Smut level: Medium (I think so…)

I didn't intend to write it this way but it's inevitable since the plot called for it. I needed to write it though I was really trying so hard to make it stay as fluffy as possible but really!

- Ct ♥

The seventh installment of Broken Heart Series

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Letting me know could have saved my heart and a life—that was both a part of us.

The perfect daughter. Someone everyone likes and adores so much.

Surely, it's stressing and pressuring. It's hard to shoulder the image they all want me to play. I didn't sign up for this. Sila ang nagdesisyon na maging ganito ako. It's hard to make them all believe that I'm flawless when in fact, I'm just a human too.

And humans aren't perfect.

I make mistakes, which they all can't accept as mistakes. They say, my mistakes were just the bad side of me, since perfection has bad sides too. They expect too much from me that I'm afraid they'll disown me if I ever do something disgraceful.

"Heto na ba ang unica hija mo, Nelson? Dalagang-dalaga na!"

A lady in her mid-thirties appeared in our crowd and happily talked with my father referring to me. Naagaw niya ang atensyon ng mga tao sa mesa namin na puro relatives. The shining beads on her black body con dress sparkled on my eyes as I stared up at her. Maayos na naka-bun sa likod niya ang buhok niya. And to keep herself warm in this cold freezing hall, a white fur shawl is draped around her shoulder.

Her small eyes seem familiar…

My father stood up seeing the lady as someone who needs his attention—only spared to high and expensive people. Nilingon niya ako at sinenyasang tumayo. I silently obliged 'cause I know more than humiliating my father or my family in this kind of event.

"Mrs. Jung, it's nice to see you here yourself. And yes, this is Hianesha…" my father formally told the beautiful lady.

And I know exactly what to do at times like this. This isn't the very first time my family got invited in a social event like this. I often meet important and big people in different industries since my family is also known in a certain industry.

I gave my best smile to the lady. Though, I couldn't deprive my genuine smile to people. Kahit pa nangingilo akong manatili sa mga ganitong pagtitipon, totoo ang mga ngiting iginagawad ko sa mga taong nakikilala ko. I couldn't just fake a smile.

That's not so me.

"Call me Hia po, nice to meet you…" I politely said as I lent my hand.

"And what a sweet lady! Call me tita Liane, hija…" Malugod niyang tinanggap ang kamay ko. "I would want you to meet my son but you see, he's really stubborn. Nasa table namin siya. Do you mind if I invite you to our table?"

Hindi ko na kailangan pang lingunin si daddy dahil alam ko na ang gagawin. In this life, taking down favors isn't included in my description. It will always be a yes… kahit na ayaw ko.

Kaya kahit na mabigat sa loob ko ang hinihingi ng ginang ay sumama ako. Meeting new guys isn't a new thing. Parating ganito ang nangyayari sa tuwing dumadalo kami sa mga events. People want me to meet their son… they all want me to date—though they don't ask it, I know—their son.

'Cause again, my family built an image of me and made everyone believe that I'm a perfect daughter. And who doesn't want a perfect girl for their son?

Though… things could always get tangled anytime. It always has all the chances to shake our sanity and make us all believe that coincidence is a common thing in this small world.

Yeah, small world.

Dahil ang pinakabatang nasa mesang pinuntahan namin ay walang iba kung hindi ang lalaking matagal ko ng itinatago sa pamilya ko. The guy I've bravely let in my life though I know he'll stain my perfect image. But then, he's the only thing in this sucked up life that made me more than just perfect…

Jung Hoseok, in his silver tuxedo, is looking playfully at me, as if mocking the other side of me. Ang ngayo'y kulay pula niyang buhok ay nakaparte at nakikita ang makinis niyang noo. His small eyes—that explained the familiar eyes of his mother—is looking sleepily at me. He's biting his lower lip that it now looks swollen and crimson.

And I could only imagine those girls invited in this party too, drooling at how gorgeous he is. At naiisip ko na rin ang mga inggit nila dahil ako ang maswerteng babaeng maipapakilala sa kaniya.

Really, he really has the tendency to make every place his own personal stage… and everyone's looking up at him and admiring him. It's like, he's taking half of the attention I should have been getting.

Wow, I'll get introduced to my secret boyfriend. How great… and tricky.

Malakas kong itinulak ang dibdib niya nang tangkain niyang putulin ang natitira pang distansya sa pagitan namin. He can't really just smile there after what he made me through at the party last night! Pinagmukha niya akong tanga.

It was my very first time to get tongue tie in front of everybody.

Maging si Daddy ay nagtaka sa inasal ko dahil lang sa gulat ko sa pagkikita namin! I was shook. Nahirapan akong ibalik ang planado kong disposisyon. Hindi madali iyon lalo na at may mga matang nakatitig sa akin at pinapanood ako.

"Don't touch me, Hoseok! Hindi mo sinabing dadaluhan mo ang party kagabi! You made a fool of me!" sigaw ko sa kaniya dahil mukhang sayang-saya siya sa galit ko.

He blinked at me still catering that playful smile as if my anger is just a funny thing for him. He stretched his arms so he managed to reach for me.

Agad na nagtindigan ang mga balahibo ko sa katawan nang maramdaman ang hawak niya sa magkabilang baywang ko. He slowly pulled me closer as if trying me.

Mariin akong pumikit at huminga ng malalim dahil hindi na niya kailangan pang subukan. Ang mga haplos niya ay kayang anurin ang galit ko palayo. I let him pull me until he could jail me inside his arms.

"You're just too paranoid to appreciate a surprise, babe. Hindi ko iyon ginawa para ipahiya ka…" he whispered right behind my ear.

I flinched when I felt his lips touched the skin above my ear. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang bilis ng tibok ng puso niya sa dibdib niya dahil sa magkadikit naming mga katawan.

His one hand slowly trailed up to my nape from my back. Hinahaplos-haplos niya ang batok ko na mas nagpatindig pang lalo ng mga balahibo ko. I know when he's being like this… I'm very aware of what he's trying to make me feel now.

Masyado akong liyo sa haplos na ginagawa niya sa batok ko kasabay nang mumunting halik na sinimulan na niyang ibigay sa pisngi ko pabalik sa punong-tainga ko kaya hindi ko na namalayan ang pagpasok ng kamay niya sa loob ng skirt ko.

My eyes fell open when I felt his fingers lightly caressing me down there with my panty on as my thighs stiffened at the contact. He's too busy making me feel great with his touches and kisses but I know I can't let him do this to me here and without… protection.

Kaya hinawakan ko ang braso niyang nasa loob ng skirt ko at sinalubong ang mga mata niya. Those pair of circles staring at me pooled with undeniable lust and desire. Those eyes he always shows me whenever he needed a release…

And no, we can't, not here and not now. We're at an abandoned room in school! This is just too inappropriate. Alam kong sa panlabas lang ako perpekto… or maybe, sa mga mata lamang ng ibang tao. Yes, I have flaws but that doesn't mean I could do this with Hoseok… one mistake and I'm doomed. I still need to be careful.

We both need to be careful.

"Hoseok… hindi puwede rito…" I told him in a breathless suffering. Kahit na nadadala na ako ng sobra sa mga mata niyang malamlam na nakatitig sa akin habang pinapatakan pa rin ako ng mga mumunting halik ay pinilit kong mapangunahan ng tamang pag-iisip.

"But I want you now, babe," he huskily whispered. Muli niyang iginalaw ang mga daliri niyang nasa loob ng skirt ko na nakapagpahiyaw sa akin. He chuckled at what I did… he sounded so proud of himself.

Jerk!

Isinara ko ang mga hita ko para mahinto siya sa ginagawa niya ngunit marami siyang paraan. I should have known that Jung Hoseok always gets what he wants. Dahil nang tuluyan nang sakupin ng mga labi niya ang mga labi ko ay alam ko na sa sarili kong panalo na naman siya at talo na ako.

I just found myself bending over the table and getting myself ready for him. I just found myself stretching for his length and screaming his name while he's thrusting in me… raw and hot. I just found myself spilling in the middle of his hard and powerful thrusts just as he follows.

For the first time I let him fill me without protection.

"What if I get pregnant?" kabado kong tanong sa kaniya nang matapos kami.

He stared up at me as he finished putting back his belt. I can't stop myself from admiring him again and again at the sight of the streams of sweat on his forehead because of what we've done… again.

Tapos na akong mag-ayos ng sarili ko. And now, I'm all down back to my concerns. Mahirap mag-isip ng kung anong bagay habang pinaparamdam niya sa akin ang lahat ng kamunduhang sa kaniya ko lamang mararanasan but I can't also just ignore this… we never did that without protection!

Oo't gusto ko iyon. Oo, kasi siya ang kasama ko at mahal ko siya. Wala akong hindi gagawin para sa kaniya pero hindi ako mapapatawad ng mga magulang ko oras na magbunga man ang ginawa naming ito ni Hoseok… no, not my perfect image.

I can't lose it yet…

"I'll just buy you a pill. Make sure to drink it when you get home," aniya na para bang hindi man lang niya iniisip ang kahihinatnan ng ginawa namin. Naglakad ako palapit sa kaniya at dinukot sa bulsa ng suot kong skirt ang panyo ko.

I wiped his sweat off his forehead as I stared at his eyes. I want him to see the fear in my eyes. Hindi naman ako natatakot na mabuntis ako lalo na at sa kaniya pero ang kinakatakot ko ay ang disgrace na maihahatid ko sa pamilya.

Ano na lamang ang iisipin ng mga magulang ko na ang anak na inalaagan at pinalaki nilang perpekto—sa mga mata nila—ay makakagawa ng isang pagkakamaling kailanman ay hindi nila inaasahan? How would they take it if I give them one biggest disappointment?

They will surely disown me… and it will ruin the perfect and respected family in the society.

But then again… things will, will always find ways to destroy all that we treasure so much. Time will always find the perfect timing to reveal things. And luck will always find its getaway to leave us all behind during those challenges.

Dahil sabay-sabay nitong inatake ang dati ay tahimik at perpekto kong buhay.

Kasabay nang pagtama ng palad ni Daddy sa pisngi ko ay ang paglandas ng masasaganang luha mula sa mga mata ko. Kaakibat ng sampal na iginawad niya sa akin ay ang galit niya dahil ramdam na ramdam ko iyon, sobrang sakit ng sampal ni Daddy.

At gustuhin ko mang umalma dahil hindi kailanman ako pinagbuhatan ng kamay ni Daddy ay alam kong dapat lang sa akin ang sampal na iyon. I deserved it.

I deserved it.

"Bawiin mo ang sinabi mo, Hia! Hindi puwedeng mangyari iyon! Iningatan kita! Bawiin mo, Hianesha!" malakas na sigaw ni Daddy sa akin na halata ang galit dahil sa mga ugat na lumalabas sa mga leeg niya. Si Mommy ay masama ang tingin sa akin habang pinipilit na pinapakalma si Daddy sa tabi niya.

Nasa tabi rin niya sina kuya. That left me with no one siding me. But it's fine, they can't side to the person who'll ruin this family… when it isn't still ruined with all the problems and issues attacking the company.

"D-daddy… I'm sorry. I'm so s-sorry…" humihikbing sabi ko habang paulit-ulit na humihingi ng tawad.

They were all stressed as it is because of the company's status now and here I am, adding up to all the stress.

Only if I could just bring back everything and prevent this all from happening just so I can't hurt my family this way anymore… I'll do it.

Pero nandito na ito. Ano pang magagawa ko?

My pathetic mind once said prior to this, I could just keep it from them but then, my rational mind can't afford that. I can't lie to my family… this isn't just a matter of keeping something… this is a matter of keeping a life from them.

"I'm sorry… I'm s-so sorry that I d-disappoint you but I won't deny my child… I'm pregnant, dad!" Mas napahikbi ako.

Hindi ko naman inaasahang matatanggap nilang agad ang rebelasyon kong ito dahil maging ako ay nahihirapan pa ring tanggapin hanggang ngayon pero hindi ko rin namang magagawa ang i-deny ito.

The life inside me is my child.

"Hia! Nababaliw ka na ba!? How could that be!? Wala kang boyfriend! Kaya paanong mangyayari iyan!?" My mother is infuriated too as just as much as my father is.

"And mom, she's just sixteen! This is a disgrace!"

Halos bumagsak ang lahat ng natitirang pag-asa ko nang marinig ko ang sinabi ni kuya Hio. I really felt so alone now. Walang kakampi at pinagkakaisahan, only if Hoseok is here. Pero kasi hindi niya sinasagot ang tawag ko. He must be doing something important.

"You said it kuya Hio, she's just sixteen. She needs our support…" mahinahong sabi ni kuya Hiro saka siya sumulyap sa akin gamit ang banayad na mga mata. Kaya kahit nasa panig siya nina Daddy ay naramdaman kong kahit papaano na naiintindihan niya ako.

Somehow, it moved the softness oft heart.

"Shut up, Hiro. That doesn't give her the right to make a mistake…" Kuya Harry's voice seemed so hard and painful.

Napayuko ako. Si kuya Hiro ang kasunod ko at siya ang pinakamalapit sa akin kaya malamang na may simpatya siya sa akin pero nagkamali pa rin ako. At sa pamilyang ito… hindi pinapahintulutan ang kahit na anong pagkakamali.

"Abort it." Ang pinakamasakit na desisyong narinig ko mula kay daddy.

It pained me how he easily broke it to us as if he was not asking for my opinion… as if, what's inside my stomach is just a thing he could just easily take away.

'Cause he just took from me the right to decide for my child.

Naibaba ko ang hawak kong telepono matapos kong marinig ng sobrang linaw ang sinabi ng kasambahay ng mga Jung na siyang nakasagot sa tawag ko. It was so clear in my ear that it keeps on playing again and again, wounding my heart even more.

Just what did I do to deserve all this? Nagmahal lang naman ako. Pagkakamali ba ang magmahal? Kinakarma na ba ako dahil sa pagsuway ko sa mga magulang ko? Pagkakamali nga siguro ang magmahal kasi hindi naman ako masasaktan ng ganito kung hindi iyon pagkakamali.

I lost the trust of my parents. Yes, it hurt me. It pained me. I lost the perfect image they all built in me. Yes again, it wrecked me. It ruined me as a person. Pero kinaya ko kasi umaasa akong iwan man ako ng lahat, nandyan si Hoseok para tanggapin pa rin ako.

But what should I do if things aren't that way already?

"Si Sir Hoseok po? Kaibigan po ba kayo ni sir? Hindi po ba niya nasabi na kaninang umaga pa po sila lumipad nina Señor at Señora patungong SoKor?"

I clutched my forehead when the maid's voice once again rang in my ear. Napapikit ako ng mariin habang iniinda ang biglaang pagkirot ng ulo ko. My tears, without permission, fell like waterfalls that immediately wet both of my cheeks. Nanghihinang napaupo ako sa gilid ng kama ko at tuluyan nang binitiwan ang telephone. It went hanging.

And now, how could I take it if Hoseok left me too? I lost the only guy that I thought I could run to after all this. He should have let me know that what we have isn't something he treasures… kasi kung pinapahalagahan niya ang kung anumang mayroon kami, then he shouldn't have left me without a notice.

Iniwan niya akong mag-isa sa ere. Mag-isa, yes, 'cause I don't know if I could save our child from my manipulative parents. I don't know if I could break my father's decision about the abortion of my child… I don't know if I could take it all.

He should have let me know that he's leaving. He should have let me know that he'll hurt me. He should have let me know that I wasn't his priority. He should have let me know that he doesn't love me like how I love him.

He should have let me know so that I've got myself prepared and so that I could save a life… our child's life.

He should have let me know.

The End.
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