RANDOM SHOT: Vlive

Published: August 2, 2019

- 3221 words
- F L U F F (depends on how you see it, but for me, it is kasi i got flutterings in my heart while writing 💓. anddddd, i was watching a Jikook analysis when this random idea popped out of my mind 🤭. im jimin's wife but i won't mind jungkook being his 'mistress' 🤭🤭🤭)
- obviously, with 3k words, this is far from being a drabble tho i really tried so hard to make it just 1-2k kaso di talaga kaya. my fingers tapped nonstop until it reached 3k 😪. didn't put a female mc's name kasi i couldn't come up with a new name.

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"He's at room 901. Please don't do anything stupid, their fans' eyes are sharper than the owls at night."

Giggling as I remembered what manager Sejin told me before he sent me to go to my boyfriend's room, I happily skipped out of the elevator, making it a quick mission to find room 901 in the series of doors placed on the floor. Hawak ko sa isang kamay ko ang binili kong sweet bagels mula sa pinakamalapit na bake shop na nakita ko kanina habang papunta ako rito sa hotel.

Hindi kami puwedeng magsabay patungo rito sa hotel dahil may sariling sasakyan ang Bangtan. Also, it would raise suspicion if he would ride other car when all the Bangtan members were in one car. He didn't want it so their manager somehow convinced him by promising him that he would let us sleep in one room.

That was why manager Sejin had done nothing when I asked him about my boyfriend's room.

The place was clearly exclusive, something only privileged or rich people could only afford. Hindi na nakakagulat iyon dahil sa tuwing nasa isang bansa sila para sa kanilang world tour ay palagi silang nasa magandang accomodation. Like Bighit wouldn't just let their beloved and precious artists stay in a place where their safety and privacy could be compromised.

Nagpapasalamat ako roon. Nowadays, sasaengs were scary. Nitong huli lang ay may kumalat na mga pictures ng BTS habang nasa isang sikat na hotel sila, at galing ang mga pictures na iyon sa mga sasaengs. For sure those fans were crazily rich, they could afford to pay an entry in such a high class place but it wasn't such a good thing for the boys.

Paano kung magkasama kami ng boyfriend ko sa iisang kuwarto at nagkataong iyon ang nakunan ng mga sasaengs na iyon? Then Bangtan's career could have been over now. Or let alone, my boyfriend's career. And we didn't want that. I was trying to stay hidden in plain sight, I was trying so hard to let our relationship stay in hidden sight just so I could protect his career.

It wasn't easy but manageable because we were together.

"920… 918… 916… 914…" As I strode along the long corridor, I found out that the rooms in the left part of the hallway were the even numbers. Nilingon ko ang kanang mga pinto saka ko nakita ang room 915. Mula roon ay sinundan ko na ng tingin ang mga sumunod pang mga pinto. "913… 911… hm, 905…"

Smiling widely as my feet pulled in a halt, seeing the numbers '901' engraved on a rectangular golden plate, chocolate brown door in front of me, my heart was quick to pound, excitement filling up my system. Nakakatawa dahil ilang oras pa lang naman simula noong huli ko siyang makita.

It was still clear to my memory how he was flying above a purple ocean of ARMY bombs earlier while beautifully singing his solo, Euphoria. How his lips were on mine before he fled up the stage to show their fans what they prepared for weeks for this tour, and how he had me wrapped inside his arms while being scolded by manager Sejin because he arrived at the arena with me and not with his members.

Sanay na kaming pareho na palaging pinapagalitan kaya iyong mga maliliit na bagay tulad noon ay hinahayaan na lang naming sumuot sa kanang tainga namin at lumabas naman sa kaliwa. Hindi naman ganoon kabigat ang nagiging parusa namin sa tuwing nakakagawa kami ng hindi maganda. Iyong pinakamalala ay iyong hindi ako pinayagan ni manager Sejin na makalapit sa boyfriend ko ng halos isang buwan.

God knew how much I scraped my pair of knees kneeling down in front of the scary manager just so he would let me talk to my boyfriend. Kahit ang ibang BTS members ay walang nagawa hanggang sa matapos ang panahon ng parusa namin. It wasn't such a good memory, though a funny one.

Kahit na ganoon kasi, alam namin pareho kung gaano kalaki ang parte ng manager ng Bangtan sa relasyon namin. Manager Sejin would always help us every time we were getting in trouble, and we did a lot of trouble.

I inhaled a deep breath as if getting ready for something as I planted myself on the ground in front of the door with numbers '901'. For sure, he was hungry and tired from the concert. Naisip kong puwedeng nasa shower siya kaya kung kakatok ako ay hindi niya maririnig. Naisip ko ring posibleng pagod siya kaya baka natutulog na siya kaya hindi niya rin maririnig. So before going here, I already asked manager Sejin for a spare key card for his room.

"Tell that brat not to post something on their twitter, the last time he did, hints about the two of you were thrown. I seriously don't know what to do to the both of you…"

Giggling at the wrinkles on manager Sejin's forehead, I excitedly nodded my head like a good girl. "Yes! Give me the spare key card now! Kook's waiting!"

Wala rin naman siyang nagawa dahil nangako siya.

After tapping the key card, the door rang as it pushed open, lower temperature of the room instantly slapping my skin as faint noise from the inside reached my ears. Mukhang mali ako sa iniisip kong baka natutulog siya o naliligo. I could hear the murmurs of his voice as I walked into the room, the room clearly having around the strong aroma of his intoxicating baby scent.

Baka binisita siya ng isa sa mga Kuya niya kaya nagsasalita siya.

"It must be one of my hyungs, probably Jimin hyung since the guy loves attention so much. Or Seokjin hyung with his meal since he can't go by without having his dinner for the day—"

So maybe I was wrong again. He was talking, but he was alone. He wasn't with any of his hyungs, instead, he was sitting on a large single couch in front of a table where his camera was placed in a tripod, his big round bunny eyes quickly snapped at me. Clearly, he didn't expect my appearance at all.

Ngumuso ako pero dahil natatawa ako sa hitsura niya ay mabilis kong tinakpan ang bibig ko gamit ang kamay kong hawak ang key card para pigilan ang magpakawala ng tawa. I couldn't let out any noise if I still wanted his career to go on well. From the gadget on the table in front of him, I knew a lot of people were watching him. A lot were waiting for what he would do next.

The brat was still wearing his black love yourself shirt, the one they were wearing during their last song. His black fringes were already pointing at different directions, clearly being mistreated by his hands, and his eyes seemed tired despite the shock lacing through them.

Obviously, he wasn't expecting me at all because if he was, he wouldn't go live in risk of having us hinted by their fans. Mukhang ang magpakita sa mga fans nila ang pinaka-una niyang ginawa pagdating dito. Great.

Carefully leaning on the wall, my eyes scanning his room before they came back to his very form who still had his wide eyes on me, I exasperatedly sighed before raising my hand to signal him about his vlive stream. "Your fans…" I mouthed him, still trying hard not to laugh.

Snapping back to his senses, his eyes were quick to leave mine as he managed to give away a wide bunny smile to his viewers. Mas lalo akong magpigil ng tawa nang hindi nakalagpas sa mga mata ko ang mabilis na panlilisik ng mga mata niya sa akin. Maybe for anyone, it seemed like he just rolled his eyes but I knew better…

It was obvious to me how he started shifting uncomfortably in his seat, his eyes switching tensely from the screen to my form still leaned on the wall. This wasn't a new sight to me anymore. For all the times I spent being with him as we dated, he never really dared shut his emotions and thoughts off right in front of me. He had always been an open book, he was like a clear water, all expected and decipherable.

Kaya alam kong bukod sa hindi siya natutuwa sa biglaan kong presensiya, sa loob-loob niya, natataranta na siya.

"Ah, it was Jimin hyung! He left right after he noticed I'm doing a vlive!" He was quick to conduct a fair enough reason to feed their fans so no suspicion would be made. Magagaling pa man ding gumawa ng theories ang karamihan sa mga ARMYs, a lot of them were even near what was actual happening! "For sure, he'll take after I end this. I know you all want to see the other members but you'll have to talk to me first." And he giggled as if wanting to kill the tension when in fact, it was only him who was tensing.

He was seriously fun to watch.

Nang makita kong unti-unti na siyang kumakalma sa harap ng mga fans niya ay dahan-dahang akong tumayo ng maayos, nag-iingat na hindi makagawa ng kahit na anong ingay na puwedeng umabot sa mga manonood niya. On the opposite sight of the table in front of him was another large single couch where three small people could possibly fit.

"Tori Kelly, I love her songs. You can recommend some to me…" His voice slowed down as he intently watched me make my way to the single couch as silent as possible. Nang magawa kong maka-upo roon ay binigyan ko siya ng malapad na ngiti habang marahang inilalapag naman ang box na dala ko sa tabi ng tripod niya.

He was glaring at me so I had to pout so he wouldn't get mad at me! Malay ko bang nagla-live pala siya!

"I miss you…" I mouthed, my lips opening so wide so he would understand.

Mabilis niyang ibinalik sa screen ang tingin niya, pinid ang mga labi pero may multo na ng pigil na ngiti ang mga iyon. He made my heart clench happily with that. He really didn't need to hold me or say something diabetic to me because his simplest ways were still the best.

He didn't really need to tell me that his solo song Euphoria was written for me, because even before he had every lyric of that song rolled off his tongue, he had already made me feel euphoric. That in my life, he was my euphoria.

He just continued talking to their fans, he even spared one request asking if he could make a sample of one Tori Kelly song. I had always known how he admired the female singer, to the point that he had some of her songs memorized and sometimes sang them for me. The one I loved the most, the one we both loved the most was Paper Hearts.

Tilting my head, with my heart soaring nonstop in the euphoria he was making me feel, I softly clutched my chest with both of my hands as I lovingly watched him sing a short part of the song, though his eyes were on the screen, my heart knew he meant me with every word. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa dinami-rami ng tao sa mundo, hindi ko alam kung bakit ako iyong masuwerteng minamahal niya ngayon.

I was reminded of the wide purple ocean of the ARMY bombs at their concert earlier, thinking that almost all of those people were yearning for him, were dreaming for him, that right here in front of me was most people's dream, right here in front of me was a lot of people's 'to die for' and I was his 'to die for'.

Masyado yata akong nalunod sa mga iniisip ko kaya halos mapasinghap ako sa kinauupuan ko nang maramdaman ko ang bahagyang pagsipa sa paa ko sa ilalim ng mesa. When I brought my eyes back to Jungkook, I saw him shifting his eyes from the screen and to something on the table, on my fingers to be specific. Faint noise of tapping resounding around the room…

"Maybe I should do a vlive with Jimin hyung next time, seeing that a lot of you are asking for it. He's in his room so…" He again shot me a warning glare.

I tightly closed my fist upon realising what my fingers had been doing. Madalas kapag nagi-space out ako ay kusang gumagalaw ang mga daliri ko at nagta-tap sa kung anong bagay na mapatungan nito. It was my way of showing people I was no where drifting off the reality. And now, I knew, we were again in our doom.

ARMYs were the cleverest and sharpest human beings that ever walked the earth, no joke. Aside from they knew how to guess right what was happening, they knew also knew how to take in even the slightest things. Kahit nga mga simpleng dates lang ng posts ng Bangtan sa Twitter ay binibigyan nila ng ibig sabihin. They could even form an actual ship just out of a simple selca of the two BTS members. It was fun until they went creepily weird and over the board…

Malalagot na naman kami nito kay manager Sejin. Jungkook didn't post anything on twitter, but I gladly gave the fans something they would be investigating about. Sino naman kayang BTS member ang madadamay ngayon?

"So I guess I'll have to end this here. It's late, you all should be sleeping already. I've answered some of your questions so let me rest now, okay?"

And yes, it was my time to make my escape. Kaya kong ignorahin ang mga panenermon ni manager Sejin pero hindi ang nagbabadyang galit ng boyfriend ko. I knew I was at fault right now. I could have left the moment I saw him doing live but my stubborn ass chose to stay so now, I needed to leave to save my scared ass.

Quick but still silent and careful, I stood up and slowly walked toward the door. I could hear him saying his goodbyes and I love yous to their fans as my feet started striding a little bit faster, not wanting him to catch me but as soon as I had my hand on the knob of the door, a pair of strong arms wrapped around my waist as a loud scream escaped my throat.

"JUNGKOOK!" I screamed, feeling myself being lifted up to a wide hard shoulders and retrieved back into the room. I always admired him when he was out to gym for his constant workout but I wasn't liking the result of it now. How could he be so strong, having the strength to manhandle me, making me incapable of fighting him off?

It was pointless because he was strong!

"JUNGKOOK, PUT ME DOWN! I promise, I will behave now!"

"Really? You could've been a good girl a while ago, but you have to mess me up, right?" His voice was firm and threatening. He was like a bunny a while ago so how could he be this scary now?!

"But I was behave!" Sinubukan kong kumawala pero napasigaw lang akong muli nang maramdaman ko ang malambot na kama sa likod ko matapos niya akong marahas na ibinaba. I didn't have the time to guess what he was about to do, let alone suck a deep breath to retrieve air back to my lungs when he was already hovering over me, his soft lips were harsh on mine, his strong hands were firm on my hips, and his heart was corresponding with mine.

It didn't take my hands long enough to reach for his soft black hair, my fingers instantly brushing through his locks as my lips tried so hard to cope up with how his lips were moving. I couldn't believe I had missed him so much though it had only been hours since we last had our lips on each other like this, and I couldn't believe I was still missing him though he was already too close to me, literally, sucking the inner life out of me.

"K-Kook…" I uttered in between the kiss, almost out of breath because he wasn't letting our lips part from each other even for a second. He was kissing me as if he lost me for years and he wouldn't have another chance to kiss me again.

Kung hindi ko lang siya kilala, ganoon ang iisipin ko pero hindi. He was always like a deprived man every time he was kissing me.

"Did you lock the d-door?" He asked through the kiss, his lips sticking softly to mine, leaving loving peppers.

"It's automatic, I s-supposed…" I answered, closing my fingers on the chest part of his black shirt as I pulled him closer as if the closeness of our bodies wasn't enough.

"Good…"

People who knew about our relationship thought we had the most innocent relationship, what they didn't know that behind closed doors, we weren't really the most angelic couple, we were actually both the descendants of hell.

"YAH JUNGKOOK-AH! YOU BRAT, WHAT DID YOU DO AGAIN?! WHY IS JIKOOK TRENDING AGAIN—oh, I think I know w-why…"

Freezing on top of me, Jungkook's lips lingered on mine as our breaths raced with each other, both of our hearts knew how we were both messed up. That was what this secret relationship tended to be every time, like always. Nang hindi pa rin siya gumalaw para umalis sa ibabaw ko gayong malinaw na hindi na lang kami ang tao rito sa kuwarto niya ay mahina ko siyang tinulak.

"It's Jimin oppa…" I whispered him, instantly hugging his side when he fell down to lie beside me, his arm slowly slipping below my neck as his other arm tightly wrapping around me. Isinubsob ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya, amoy na amoy ko ang bango niya.

I was never the shy one, I was actually the bold one, the one who would shamelessly hug Jungkook or even kiss him in front of all the Bangtan members or their staffs. Kaya kahit na nasa kuwarto si Jimin oppa at nakatitig sa amin, hindi ako nagpatinag, imbis ay pinatakan ko pang muli ng halik ang mga labi ni Jungkook bago muling isinubsob ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya.

"Jimin hyung, I'm sorry, ARMYs might have theorised everything wrong again. It'll pass by like the other ones, I'm sure…" Jungkook told his hyung, scooting my body closer to his even closer.

"Tsk, right, right. Why would I even secretly be inside JK's room while he was doing a vlive? Of course, you're here…" I heard Jimin oppa's tired voice in between deep sighs, he was obviously pertaining to me. "No any funny business while sleeping, you kids. I'll do a vlive to somehow clear things up, but I won't be downright denying anything, okay? Seriously, you both should give manager hyung a break."

Hindi ko na pinansin pa nang marinig ko ang mga yapak ni Jimin oppa na paniguradong lumabas na ng kuwarto. I snuggled closer to Jungkook's body just as he lifted me up using his one warm so I was already laying down on top of him. Marahan kong ipinatong sa malapad niyang dibdib ang pisngi ko, ang mga mata ko ay nahuhulog na sa paraan ng paghaplos niya sa likod ko.

Bukas na ako mag-so-sorry kay Jimin oppa dahil nadamay na naman siya. Every time Jungkook would do live and I would be in the background, doing suspicious things to throw to their fans, it would be all down to the most famous ship, Jikook.

Giggling mentally because Jikook was my ultimate ship.

"I love you, good night." I heard him softly mutter right behind my ear.

"I love you, sweet dreams," I answered, already drifting off to sleep, completely forgetting about the mess me both created in his vlive.

I was sure, Jimin oppa or manage Sejin would do something about it.