MOST TRAGIC LOVE written Ct
BTS ONE-SHOT COMPILATION
[A Kim Seokjin One-shot]
[BROKEN HEART SERIES]
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Fanfiction/ Teen Fiction

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Finished: January 18, 2017
Published: January 22, 2018

My! I'm sorry, Seokjinie! Swear, I didn't mean to! Forgive my gorgeous—ehem, soul!

-Ct ♥

The fourth installment of Broken Heart Series.

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We promised to stay together until our vows, unfortunately, fate broke us. And now… we have broken vows.

Having him on his bended knees in front of me and asking for my hand has been the most happiest event in my life. Kailan lang noong huli siyang lumuhod sa harap ko para hingin ang matamis ko raw na 'oo' sa panliligaw niya.

Having our parents and other relatives here as witnesses of his genuine proposal moves me more. Parang kailan lang din noong takot na takot pa siyang magpakilala sa Daddy ko bilang boyfriend ko. He had been so conscious of himself since then. He wanted to be perfect for my parents. He wanted them to see that he's worth of me.

And he really is! He's even beyond what I deserve!

Having to hear his pledges and future goals that I've been in, touches the deepest of my heart. Parang kailan lang noong sabay kaming nangangarap ng kinabukasan namin.

And now, he is finally opening to me every dream we talked, every plans we had and every goals we set.

"I can't picture my life without you, Soft. Hindi ko sinasabing hindi ako mabubuhay kapag nawala ka dahil nagawa kong maka-survive noon noong hindi pa kita nakikilala pero alam mo bang, hindi ko gugustuhing harapin ang bukas nang hindi ikaw ang kasama ko? My life would be meaningless and colorless if it's not with you," he genuinely told me while holding my hands and lovingly staring up at me.

His mesmerizing small almond eyes are now filled with unshed tears. At kaakibat ng mga luhang iyon ay ang katapatan niya.

"We made a promise back then that we'll be exchanging vows in front of everyone, in front of our parents and above all, in front of God. And now, I want to give life to that promise. Sophie Atkins, let's give life to that promise," madamdaming pahayag niya sabay dukot ng kung ano sa bulsa ng suot niyang ripped jeans.

Inasahan ko na ang bagay na iyon pero hindi ko pa rin mapigilang magulat nang makita ko sa kamay niya ang isang itim na kahon na may kulay rosas na laso. It looks precious in his hand.

"Soft, I want to wake up everyday with you. I want to start everyday with you. I want to live with you… so, accept my surname, heart and all of me. Marry me…" He opened the box before a stunning ring showed.

This may not be the sweetest proposal ever, this may be just the simplest and the commonest, I don't care. As long as I love him, this is the sweetest.

Nanginig ang labi ko habang tinititigan ang piraso ng singing sa loob ng box. Masyadong masaya ang nararamdaman ko na gusto ko na lamang itong iiyak.

Just what did I do in my past life to deserve this man? Just what did I give in my past life to have this man?

"J-just who I am to refuse?" I answered him before I let my tears fall. Lumandas sa pisngi ko ang mga luhang dulot ng sobrang kasiyahan.

He immediately stood up and hugged me tight.

"Oh, you have every right, baby! Every freaking right!" Mahigpit niya akong niyakap pero kasabay rin noon ay naramdaman ko ang pagdulas papasok ng isang bagay sa palasingsingan ng kaliwang kamay ko.

I know right there and then… that I'm locked up with him, forever. I don't even want to be bailed. And to seal everything, just as our parents clapped, we kissed.

Everyone became busy as the last three months before the wedding came. Ang mommy ko at mommy ni Seokjin ang bahala sa mga guests and invitations. I wanted it to be just simple with one-hundred guests but they don't just agree with me so I let them handle it.

Ang reception at event's place ay naka-set na rin with our chosen date. We even hired an event's planner to make everything perfect. Syempre, Seokjin and I both shared our opinions and likes at bahala na ang planners sa gagawin nila. We just need the final plan first week before the wedding.

The maid of honor's, bride's maids', flower girls' and the bridal's gowns are all touched by a famous designer. Maging ang mga suits na isusuot ng groom, best man, groom's men at ng mga ring bearer.

Sina mommy ay hindi raw makikisali sa color coding dahil may sarili silang isusuot ni Tita Angela. Ewan. Feeling ata nila wedding nila ang magaganap. Anyway, everything is planned and set now. Cake tasting na lang ang kulang at pagpili ng ilang mga cuisines for the reception.

"Don't worry, baby. Reliable naman itong catering restaurant na ni-refer ni Mommy," ani Seokjin habang inilalapit sa bibig ko ang isang kutsarita ng swiss strawberry cake.

"Natikman ko na iyan, Jin. I like the cheese flavor more," I answered him as I shook my head. "And well, I just don't want anything to go wrong. Jin, this fairytale can't go wrong," dagdag ko habang umiiling.

"Of course, Soft, everything will be perfect and I'm making sure of that," nakangiting sabi niya habang hinahaplos ang braso ko.

Nakaupo kami sa sofang nasa receiving area ng famous Hannani's. Dito sa hotel na ito gaganapin ang reception. Of course, just like Seokjin said, it will be catered by reliable names.

Inilapag ko sa mesa ang menu for specialties at humarap sa kaniya. Ikinulong ko sa mga palad ko ang mukha niya at buong panggigigil na pinisil.

"I just want everything to go as planned. I don't need perfection, 'cause you, yourself is my perfection," sabi ko sa kaniya habang matamis na nakangiti.

I can give all my life for him.

Seokjin Kim is my perfection.

Ngumuso siya sa sinabi ko. This man isn't used hearing cheesy words but he is always showering me romantic moves. And how can I forget his pledges during his proposal?

Walang babae ang makakatanggi lalo na at mukhang pumapak ang lalaking ito ng sobrang daming asukal kung kaya't napakatamis ng mga sinasabi. The good thing is, he's just like that to me. Kasi ako lang yung nag-iisang babae sa buhay niya ngayon bukod sa mommy at ate niya.

["Miss Atkins, we are very sorry to inform you that we will need to refund your payment because of a sudden inconvinience and please allow us to recommend you to one of our trustful partners."]

Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na buntong hininga. Ilang araw na lang ay kasal na namin ni Seokjin at ngayon pa talaga nangyari ito.

"What about the layout? Hindi ba't planado na ang lahat?" I asked, stressed.

["We can still follow the plan, iyan nga lang po, magbabago na po ang place. We can still assure you that everything will be just the same. Kami na po ang bahala sa manpower,"] aniya.

Tumawag ang head ng aming wedding planner. May pagbabago sa lugar ng reception. It made it more stressful dahil wala na kaming oras. Three days from now will be the wedding day.

"Okay. Just make sure to fix everything before the wedding. You don't need to refund our payment…" I decided.

Seokjin is in a sudden meeting with his friends, na siya ring mga ka-business partners niya. He's on leave for heaven's sake and yet, he is working really hard.

Everyone is getting excited for the upcoming event. The happiest day to us is getting nearer. Natural lamang na makaramdam ako ng kaba dahil sa antisipasyon. The pressure is not leaving my heart and jitter is not calming my mind. Ito siguro yung sinasabi nilang wedding jitters.

Crap! Bukas na ang kasal! Who would still have a peaceful sleep just waiting for the dawn!? Ayaw ko mang maging zombie bukas sa kasal ko pero ayaw akong patahimikin ng kaba ko. I am finally changing my father's surname into the love of my life's.

Kinabukasan, just like a smooth flow of a river, everything went so smooth just as planned. Dumating na sa puntong kailangan ko ng sumakay sa bridal car na maghahatid sa akin sa hotel na paggaganapan ng kasal.

Sina mommy at daddy ay nasa hotel na rin, maging ang parents ni Seokjin. I haven't heard about him yet. Siguro ay nasa hotel na siya. Maybe he's planning again an another surprise for me and I am getting excited just assuming it.

Hindi na mawala sa mga labi ko ang masayang ngiti kahit nang maisara na ang pinto ng sasakyan at magtungo na sa hotel.

"You are beautiful… but this is your beautifulness." Mula sa pagmamasid sa daan ay nabaling ang tingin ko sa driver nang magsalita ito.

Kumunot ang noo ko as I attempted to look on the rear view mirror. There is just no way that manong Relismi would speak English. There is also no way that he will blandly talk to me. Above all… there is no way that manong Relismi would have the same voice with the man of my life.

Lumakas ang tibok ng puso ko nang masilayan ko sa salamin ang magagagandang matang iyon. Those smiling almond eyes that never failed to send millions of butterflies feasting in my stomach. His eyebrows that sculpted perfectly. Iyong matangos niyang ilong pababa sa mapupula at maninipis na labi. His brown hair perfectly brushed up and his diamond earrings sparkling the corner of my eyes.

"JIN!?" I asked, stunned.

He laughed. "Hi, there Mrs. Kim. Seatbelt please," he greeted me playfully.

He is wearing his groom suit and is calmly manipulating the wheel. Alam kaya ng mga magulang namin na nawawala sa hotel ang groom? Shouldn't they call me now—

"I think, someone's phone is ringing," aniya at mula sa salamin ay kinindatan niya ako.

Ikinabit ko ang seatbelt ko. Sinulyapan ko ang phone na nasa dashboard pagkatapos. I was one hundred percent sure that it isn't my phone nor his…

"It was manong Relismi's," sagot ko sabay nguso sa kaniya ng phone.

Nagkibit-balikat siya at nagconcentrate na sa pagda-drive. Umayos ako ng upo at sinubukang dungawin ang nag-iingay pa ring phone. I sighed as I saw the caller ID.

Madame Angela. Seokjin's mom.

"They must be crazy looking for you and now… they will inform me about the missing groom," saad ko.

"Ang tagal tagal mo naman kasing mag-ayos. It only took me hour to prepare and you were taking a decade. Isa pa, I want to make sure you get there safe so I took the work." Muli niya akong kinindatan mula sa salamin.

Natatawang umirap ako. This man surely got his own guts to even take a turn to his own wedding. He is really an extra ordinary man. Hindi siya yung tipo ng lalaking mananatili na lamang sa isang tabi, he will surely intervene.

Sinong matinong groom ang magiging missing in action sa sarili niyang kasal para lamang sunduin ang bride? Any ordinary man would wait patiently.

"Ang OA mo. Natural na matagal. I need to be extra-beautiful to match this perfect day and your perfection, hmp." Sumandal ako sa backrest at humalukipkip. Hindi naman kalayuan ang hotel pero pakiramdam ko ay napakalayo nito dahil sa sobrang bagal niyang magmaneho.

He stopped smoothly when the stoplight turned red. He tilted his head to sighlty turn to me for a second and go back to focus his attention to the road.

"Who said you need to be extra-beautiful? You made this day perfect!" he said convincingly. His smile never wavered through the thick glass of the rear view mirror.

Kaunti na lamang ay iisipin ko ng ako ang pinakamagandang babae sa balat ng lupa.

I may not be… but I feel like one.

Inilahad niya ang kamay niya sa akin. Muli kong sinulyapan ang traffic countdown bago ko nilapag sa nakalahad niyang kamay ang kamay ko. He drew my hand near his lips and planted a small quick kiss.

"I love you," he told me.

"And I love you," I answered.

Ibinalik na niya ang kaniyang atensyon sa daan. He hit the accelerator the moment the stoplight went green. Nakatitig lamang ako sa malapad niyang likod…

That was the last time I saw him conscious.

Punong-puno ako ng dugo, ang suot kong wedding gown ay namantsahan na rin ng malapot na pula. I could still feel pain all over my body but I could only care less 'cause the man of my life is now fighting for his life.

Doctors are busy everywhere and some nurses are tending him.

"Nurse Chin, do the intubation now," the doctor tasked one of the nurses.

Pinapanood ko lamang mula rito sa gilid kung paano siya pagkaguluhan ng mga nurses at doctors sa loob ng hybrid room dito sa emergency room.

Wala akong pakialam kung puno man ang suot ko ng dugo. Wala akong pakialam kung balot man ng dugo ang mga kamay ko. All that matters now is the life of my husband.

"Miss, kailangan niyo rin pong magamot. May sugat po kayo sa ulo." Hindi ko pinansin ang nurse na kanina pa nakikiusap sa akin na magpagamot. "Miss, baka may internal bleeding ka or worst, hemorrhage. Please mis—"

"No!" Umiling ako habang hindi pa rin nilulubayan ng tingin si Seokjin na walang malay sa kamang iyon at pinagtutulungan ng mga eksperto. I let tears from my eyes flow down my cheeks.

Ang makita ang lalaking mahal ko na nakahiga sa hospital bed, almost lifeless ay sobrang sakit that I can ignore my wounds and scratches. And what made it hurt the most is this happened on our wedding day. This was supposed to be a perfect day.

He hit the gas… just when we were crossing to the other road, a very fast truck running on our left, is going rapidly to us. Hindi ko na namalayan ang sumunod na mga pangyayari. I just felt a very strong impact and then nagising na lamang akong nasa loob na ng ambulansya.

It made me panic more when I didn't see Seokjin. Kaya pala… kasi mas critical ang lagay niya sa akin.

He was sent first before me.

Umiling-iling ako nang lumikha ng nakakarinding ingay ang life machine monitor na nasa tabi ng kama niya. It stood as his life support. I am not a nurse but I can understand basic rules of medicine.

"Doc, his blood pressure is dropping!" sigaw ng isa sa mga nurse. Sinulyapan ng doctor ang machine. He immediately do a CPR as I panicked even more.

Natatakot na ako.

What if something bad happens to Seokjin? What if—

"Status?" the doctor asked. Mayroon na ring parang balloon na nakadugtong sa bibig ni Seokjin. It has air pressure na kapag pinipisil ay naglalabas ng hangin. Pinipisil iyon ng nurse habang nagsi-CPR ang doctor.

Naitakip ko ang duguan kong kamay sa bibig ko nang makitang mas lalo pang bumaba ang mga numerong nasa monitor ng machine.

"Bring me the defibrillator!" the doctor shouted. Agad na sumunod ang mga nurse at dinala ang inutos ng doctor.

"Seokjin!" I was about to get to him when the nurse beside me held my arm.

"Miss, hindi po kayo pwedeng lumapit. Doc. Sanday is doing his best to save him," she told me.

Napahikbi na ako ng tuluyan nang maging diretso ang lifeline sa monitor at maging zero ang mga numero.

No, no Seokjin. You can't leave me like this. Darating pa tayo sa hotel. We would still be exchanging vows. We would still become parents. Seokjin, please.

"Charge it to two hundred joules. Now!" sigaw ng doctor.

"Charged," wika ng isang nurse.

"Clear!" The doctor revived him through those apparatuses.

Sinulyapan kong muli ang monitor. No changed.

"No development."

"Give me three hundred joules."

"Three hundred joules charged."

"Clear!"

"Doc… no changed."

And then they stopped. Just like that. They stopped, they gave up.

Tumayo ng diretso ang doctor at kung gaano niya lamang kadaling nasabi ang mga salitang nagpaguho ng mundo ko ay siya namang hirap para sa akin na tanggapin iyon.

"Time of death, three-fifty six pm."

It ripped my heart to watch them, to just watch them took those machines away from Seokjin, those apparatuses. How they switched off the life support machine.

Naramdaman ko nang bitiwan ako ng nurse. The moment she freed me, kahit na nanghihina ang mga tuhod ko ay tinawid ko ang pagitan namin ni Seokjin.

No! Seeing him lifeless in this bed is so surreal. Hindi ito totoo! This isn't him. My Seokjin wouldn't just give up like this. My Seokjin wouldn't just leave like this. My Seokjin would never ever hurt me like this. He would never.

Nanginginig kong hinawakan ko ang isa niyang kamay. He doesn't feel cold at all but he felt stiffed.

"Jin, this isn't funny anymore," I said in between my sobs.

From his eyes closed, I can see the peacefulness. How can I believe that he is now gone when I was just holding his hand awhile ago? When I was just talking with him? When we just exchanged 'I love yous'.

I can still clearly remember how he kneeled in front of me asking me to marry him. I can still clearly remember the happiness in his eyes when I said yes. Everything is so real for this to happen so suddenly.

"Jin, gumising ka. Hindi ka dapat nandito. Nasa hotel dapat tayo ngayon. Please, Jin. You need to wake up. There a-are lots of people waiting for u-us…" I cried.

Just how did this happen to us? We were supposed to be celebrating now. We were supposed to be the happiest now. We were supposed to be one now.

Just what exactly we did wrong to deserve this!?

Bakit kami pa? Bakit sa amin pa? Why does this have to happen to us!? Why not anyone else but us!?

His death is just more than to take. Matatanggap ko pang hindi matuloy ang kasal, yes fvck, I can afford! Matatanggap ko pang iwan niya ako sa altar, yes damn, I can afford! But this? Fvcking this!?

How can I still live in this world where there is no Seokjin Kim anymore!?

I'd rather die too! Ano pang silbi ng buhay ko kung wala na si Seokjin? He's my life, my everything. And losing him is just like losing myself.

I'd rather die.

The End.

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