Sua woke to whispers around her.

"Hyung, shouldn't she have woken up by now? Its been too long" Taehyung whispered. "Should we try to wake her?"

"She didn't wake even when I set up the IV." Jin answered. "I don't think she would just wake up if you try to shake her"

"You think she's slipped back into a coma?" Taehyung asked worriedly.

"No, I haven't" Sua croaked.

Taehyung squeaked, backing away from her for a moment and then fell on top of her hugging her close.
"You're awake!" he cried.

Jin pulled him away. "You're going to squish her"

When Taehyung moved away, wiping his eyes, Jin took his place, hugging her. "I've missed you Jag eun sae"

"Yah!" Taehyung yelled at him.

Jin let go of her "I'll go let the others know. Everyone has been eagerly waiting for you to wake up"

She nodded and Jin rushed out of the room, yelling for the rest of them to come.

"How long have I been out of it?" She asked Taehyung hoarsely, trying to sit up.

"Five days" he answered solemnly. "Everyone's been worried. You barely made through the door before you passed out. Jungkook-ah carried you upstairs" Tae explained.

"Oh" she said, trying to remember but everything was a blur.

She heard a scurry of footsteps outside and soon the room was flooded with all of her brothers. They were extremely happy to see her awake. They were all talking and hugging her at the same time. She could barely understand, her mind was still a little hazy. So she simply smiled widely at all of them and hugged them back.

Jungkook hurried behind his brothers. She was awake. Finally. He had been extremely scared the past few days. He had explained her fainting as exhaustion initially but when she still hadn't woken up on the third day, his heart had started to hurt with fear.

He hesitated at the door and watched as Jimin hugged her close. She clung to him, squeezing him to herself and closing her eyes with a sigh "I missed you" she said.

Jungkook stumbled back out of the room. She hadn't seen him. Would she even want to? he wondered. He had promised himself he would let Jimin be with her, that he wouldn't come between them anymore. Sua is good, she is perfect and she deserves the best. Jimin would give it to her. Jungkook was flawed but Jimin was an angel. Isn't that what she called him? Her angel? He would back off, he nodded to himself patting his chest lightly. She was better now, healthy. That was enough for him.

He slumped against the wall just outside her room. He could hear his brothers shooting questions at her at the speed of light. She answered everyone calmly.

"Yah! Hadn't we already established that even if you are a part of 'Bangtan' you aren't really bulletproof?" Yoongi yelled at her.

"I'm sorry Yoongi Oppa. I didn't think.... it was pure instinct." She said softly.

"That's what you said last time" he mumbled.

"If you ever do this to me again, I will kill you myself" Hobi said and Sua chuckled.

"It's not funny" Jin said. "We died a little bit everyday, not knowing what was happening. And Jungkook....." his voice trailed away.

"I'm sorry for what I put you through, what I put you all through" She said.

Jungkook's heart squeezed a little at how small her voice sounded. He wanted to go in there and pull her to himself and never let her out of his sight again. But he couldn't, he wouldn't do that. He owed it to her. He owed her his life.

"Where is Jungkookie anyway?" Taehyung asked. "Didn't you tell him, Jin hyung?"

"I did" Jin said

"He was right behind me" Namjoon remarked.

That was his cue to leave, Jungkook thought bitterly, as he stepped away from the wall. He couldn't face her right away. At least not until he could get his emotions under control.

He turned away and walked back down the stairs to his room. He lay down on his bed and stared at the ceiling. He needed some time to come to terms with letting her go. Before he knew it, the strain and exhaustion of the last few months finally caught up to him and his eyes closed, pushing him into a dreamless sleep.

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Sua stood in the kitchen, with her back against the counter as Taehyung and Hobi cleaned the dishes. They had just finished dinner. Sua had insisted on joining them in the dining room and had refused to stay cooped up in her room any longer. Her legs still felt like jello but she was determined to get back on her feet.

The real reason behind her determination to come downstairs for dinner was that she had been hoping to see Jungkook. He hadn't come to see her with the others in the morning. She had hoped he would come later because he'd want to speak to her alone. But he hadn't shown up. He hadn't come for dinner either. Namjoon had checked on him earlier and informed them that he was sleeping in his room.

"Should we try to wake him? He must be hungry." Sua mused, looking over her shoulder at Tae.

He gave her a knowing smile before turning back to the dishes. "He's barely had any sleep for the last few months, Yeobo. Let him sleep. We will leave food for him in the fridge."

Sua wanted to argue but held back.

"He hasn't been sleeping well?" She asked instead.

Tae gave up on the dishes and turned around to face her. "No he hasn't. He stayed outside the hospital the whole time you were there. He practically lived on that park bench, through the rain and the cold. He never left."

"He was there?" She asked, her voice barely over a whisper.

"The whole time" Hobi answered.

"Even when you guys came back, when you fainted, he carried you upstairs and stayed by your side. He kept telling us that you were exhausted from the ride home but when you hadn't woken up on third day he started to panic. Namjoon hyung had to kick him out of the room. Jin hyung banned him from entering. So he sat on the floor outside for two whole days. Jin hyung had just sent him down for breakfast, when you woke this morning." Tae informed her.

He had stayed, she thought. He hadn't left her side, the whole time. Her heart soared. Would it be too much to hope that he cared for her? He probably didn't love her like she loved him but if what Tae had told her was true, he must care for her. No one would do something like this for someone they hated.

She pushed off of the counter. "I'm going to wake him" she said moving slowly towards the stairs.

Hobi chuckled behind her "You might as well"

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Jungkook was dreaming of butterflies. Gorgeous blue butterflies. One tiny butterfly sat on his nose and fluttered its wings, he lightly swatted it away. Another brushed lightly on his cheek before landing on his lips. It sent jitters down his spine. He tried to brush it off again but his hand fell on to something big but just as soft. He slowly opened his eyes and looked into the clear, deep blue ocean. His heart sighed. He could spend an eternity staring into these depths. His fingers caressed her cheek. So soft, his little butterfly, he thought lovingly.

He felt the butterflies again but this time they were  inside his stomach. He swallowed. Sua pulled away from him and smiled. "Get up sleepyhead or Jimin's going to finish all the desert" She rebuked, chuckling.

And just like that the dream broke. The smile that had started to form on his lips, died in his eyes. He lunged out of bed and stumbled a little.

"Woah there tiger" she said, trying to steady him but he flinched out of her grasp.

"You shouldn't be here" he said.

"I shouldn't?" She asked confused.

"No. No, you shouldn't. You should be in bed, resting" he answered.

"I've rested enough to last me a lifetime, don't you think?"

"But you're still not fully well." He said looking away from her. Looking at her beautiful face was weakening his resolve.

She waved a hand through the air, brushing his arm lightly. "Why didn't you come to see me, Jungkook-ah?" She asked quietly, trying to look into his eyes but he averted his gaze.

"You were awake. I knew you were safe. There was nothing more to say." He said still not meeting her eyes.

"Nothing?" She asked softly as she stepped closer to him, almost touching, but not quite.

His pulse spiked and his breath hitched. He could smell her intoxicating scent. Strawberries and cream, he breathed. Involuntarily, he looked into her eyes and was immediately lost again in their bottomless depths.

He wrenched his gaze away and stepped back using every last ounce of strength he possessed. "You should leave." He said rudely. "I have lots to do" he turned away from her and walked to the desk in the corner of the room and plopped down on the chair.

Sua stood frozen to the spot, staring at him, for a few minutes before she shook herself out of it.

"I'm extremely sorry to disturb you Jungkookssi. I will leave your dinner in the fridge and I will not bother you again." She bowed low in front of him.

His heart gave a painful squeeze at that and he watched her walk to the door.

"Tell Jimin he can have the desert he wants. He can have all of it. I wouldn't fight him again." He said and she nodded, stepping out of the room and pulling the door closed behind her. "Ever" he whispered.

Once she had left, he laid his head on the desk and drifted back to sleep.

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He woke hours later, his stomach growling with hunger. He hadn't felt hungry in months. The hunger felt foreign to him now. He got off the desk chair and stretched, his muscles squeaked in protest.

He walked down to the kitchen, guided by the ravenous hunger he felt. His mind was surprisingly blank. He hadn't felt this peaceful in a very long time.

He opened the fridge and peered inside, finding a big container labelled with his name. He pulled it out. The note triggered a long forgotten memory of when Sua would leave him food inspite of the horrible way he had treated her. He put the container in the microwave and heated it. It hurt to remember how he had behaved. He had been a complete monster.

The microwave dinged. He pulled the container out and opened the lid. The most delicious aroma filled his nostrils. Kimchi fried rice, he breathed, grabbing a spoon and eating straight from the container, not bothering to find a plate.

"Mashita" he whispered. Sua was a better cook than both Jin hyung and Yoongi hyung put together.

He gobbled another mouthful and sighed. It was delicious.

His mind drifted to how he had woken up with her face so close to his. Almost kissing, all he'd had to do was breathe and their lips would have touched. He remembered feeling deliriously happy for a moment before reality had come crashing down on him, hard.

Tears prickled his eyes.

The realisation that he would probably never experience the feeling of her lips on his ever again, crushed him.

She was never his to begin with. He had stolen her, from his brother, no less. He didn't deserve to be in their presence. But his heart clenched, rejecting the idea of her being with anyone else.

The pain was overwhelming.

He dropped the spoon in the container and lay his head on the kitchen counter. Silent sobs cracked through his chest. He didn't want to do it, staying away from her, it would kill him. He took a long shuddering breath but it did nothing to heal his broken, bleeding heart.

"Jungkook-ah?"

His head jerked up to see Sua standing in the doorway.  She looked soft and delectable. He wanted nothing more to bury himself in her and ask her to take this pain away.

"Are you alright?" She asked with concern, moving into the kitchen.

He quickly rubbed his face with his hands, wiping away the tears.

"I'm fine" his voice was hoarse. "You shouldn't be here"

"So you keep telling me" she sighed. "Where do think I should be?"

"With Jimin" he answered without thinking it through.

"Jimin?" She asked "Why would I be with Jimin?"

"Because he loves you. Because he's right for you. Because he would keep you happy. Because he would never hurt you. Because..... he's better than me" his breath hitched and his voice broke as he averted his gaze.

"And what about what I want?" She asked softly.

"You wanted him" he replied.

"I did" she answered.

He looked at her, his eyes wide. Her answer had shocked him. It was one thing for him to believe it and completely another to have her confirm it.

It tore his heart to shreds and he recoiled from the pain.

"I did want him. I enjoyed the attention he showered on me. The way he made me smile, the way he hugged me and took all of my pain away. Yes, I wanted him. I wanted everything he offered, the love, the security, everything." She said, walking closer to him.

Cutting him with every word.

"But then one day, you stormed into my life. I was finally finding my place in this world, building something new and worthwhile. You blew everything to pieces, leaving only destruction in your wake." She walked towards him.

A single lone tear rolled down his cheek. Could a broken heart break more? His did.

"You destroyed everything." She whispered. "With everything that happened, with what Tae told me earlier, how you stayed by my side all these months, I hoped you would want to rebuild with me."

She was standing very close now and he couldn't breathe anymore.

She stared deep into his eyes. "But I was wrong. I guess it was just your guilt that made you stay by my side, wasn't it?" She asked, looking up at him, her eyes brimming with tears.

Jungkook couldn't answer. It wasn't guilt, he wanted to say, though he did feel very guilty. It was his fault after all. But no, he hadn't stayed out of guilt. He had stayed because he couldn't leave, he had stayed because the thought of being away from her was unbearable to him, because he didn't want to spend a single day without looking into her eyes. He wanted to tell her everything but he couldn't find the words.

He had stayed silent for too long.

"I was stupid to have fallen in love with you." She hung her head in defeat.

Wait! What?! His shock rooted him to the spot. He was going crazy. Had he heard it right? She was in love with him? Him? After everything he had put her through? Had she really said it or had he imagined the whole thing?

"Maybe you are right" pain laced her words.

"Right?" Right about what? He was never right about anything. She loved him? He thought again, his heart felt like it would burst.

"I should be with Jimin" she nodded, moving away from him. "I'll go to him now"

No! He wanted to scream it but his throat constricted and nothing came out.

By the time he took control of his mind and willed himself to move, Sua was already gone.

He raced up, taking the stairs two at a time, his heart thudding wildly in his chest. When he reached the second floor he saw Sua hesitating outside Jimin's door.

She lifted her wrist to knock on his door. Jungkook grabbed her arm and yanked her into his room next door. He closed the door and pushed her against it. Chest heaving, he placed his forehead on hers trying to catch his breath.

He bent his head, lowering his lips close to hers. She whimpered in response. For a moment, he worried he had pushed her too hard but as he looked into her eyes, he saw her pupils dilate, clouded with desire.

He wanted nothing more than to claim her lips with his own but there were things he needed to know first.

"Will you disappear on me again?" He asked softly.

She shook her head but he needed to hear the words.

"I don't think I'd survive it" he whispered. "A part of me died when you left. I don't know what to think anymore"

Sua raised her hand and lightly traced her fingers along his jaw. "I will never do that to you again Jungkook-ah. I promise"

He nuzzled his face into her hand, relishing the feel of her delicate fingers on his cheek.

"Are you sure you want me Sua?" He asked almost desperately. "Coz once you are mine, I will never let you go" he promised.

"I want you Kookie. I have never wanted anything more" She said breathlessly, looking deep into his eyes.

"That's all I ask" he said lowering his head and crushing her lips with his own.

His world that had been spinning uncontrollably for the past few months, titled and righted itself on its axis. He was home, he sighed as he drowned in the glorious feel of her.

Everything about her was intoxicating him. The kiss turned from sweet to ferocious in seconds. His hands roamed around her body in wild abandon. Struggling to pull her closer into himself. He had missed her beyond words and now he strived to show her that with his actions.

Sua could feel his desperation behind every touch. He trailed kisses down her jaw and on to her neck. When his mouth couldn't find more skin below her collarbone, he lifted her tshirt over her head.

When he finally saw more of her, he groaned and she moaned loudly as he attacked her with his mouth. He roughly pulled at her bra and it ripped. He let it slide to the floor without another thought.

He quickly parted with his own clothes and kicked them aside to join hers.

His lips captured hers again as his hands kneaded her aching mounds. One hand trailed down her body, pushing at her shorts which restricted his access.

He tore his mouth away from hers and used both his hands to yank her shorts down and she kicked the remainder of her clothes away. He bent to capture a throbbing bud in his mouth as his hands found her core. She threw her head back and moaned.

He lifted his head and looked at her as his fingers circled her clit. She moaned again.

"So sexy" he breathed and kissed her again, licking her lower lip with his tongue.

His fingers slid into her her and she gasped into his mouth. He used it to deepen the kiss, plundering her mouth with his tongue.

He curled his fingers inside her, finding the sweet spot and she shuddered violently.

"Please Jungkook-ah" she begged.

He answered her plea by bending down and hooking his arms behind her knees. He straightened, lifting her off the ground, her back pressed hard into the door.

Her hand wound against the back of his neck and tangled in his hair while his mouth wildly attacked hers.

He slowly pushed himself into her. She gasped and grabbed his biceps and squeezed. It only made him push further deeper.

"Hot" he mumbled against her neck.

He pulled out and slammed back in. The burn was deliciously painful and she bit down on his shoulder making him groan. He was slowly building pace but Sua was impatient, scraping her nails into his back, trying to pull him closer. He hissed as she drew blood.

His hands squeezed her ass as he surged into her. Giving her what she craved. He groaned again pulling a nipple into his mouth and biting it lightly making her moan.

Sua could feel her climax building as he rammed into her without reservation.

He lifted his head and looked at her again. "Open your eyes" He growled. "I want to see you come for me."

The desperation they felt for each other was reflected in their eyes as they stared.

He continued to take her higher with long powerful strokes and she broke over him, clenching around him. He rode her orgasm out thrusting at an unnatural speed, chasing his own release. She threw her head back and closed her eyes.

"Sua" he called, making her look back at him. He thrust a few more times and groaned as he shot his release into her.

He slowly lowered her back to the ground. Her legs shook and she stumbled. He chuckled, picking her back up in his arms. He carried her to the bed and laid her down, getting in beside her.

He sighed as she wound her arms around him and snuggled into his chest. He brushed a stray hair from her face and she placed a soft kiss on his chest

His heart sighed. He needed to tell her, he had waited long enough, he thought.

He turned to her, lifting her chin to stare into her eyes again. She looked at him with such emotion that he felt a lump rise in his throat.

"Saranghae Sua" he whispered.

Her eyes teared up "Jinjja?" She asked.

He nodded "Jinjja Jinjja.. Mani Saranghae"

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A/n: We are almost at the end. Thank you so much for all the love and support you have shown.

Translations:
Jag eun sae: Little bird
Yeobo: Honey
Mashita: Delicious
Saranghae: I love you
Jinjja (Chincha): Really
Jinjja Jinjja Mani Saranghae: I really really love you a lot.

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23/04/2023