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#R01

requested by: baestaethics

plot: "When V confessed to Jisoo and invited her many times for a date, Irene felt hopeless until one day she changed for the better. The nerd girl who was getting bullied turned into a very attractive lady, and that was how the other guys started drooling over her, including V..."

tags: school au, bullying, harsh words, jealously, *angst*

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Story:

"Kim Jisoo, do you want to hang out later this afternoon?"

"Fuck off, Taehyung. I'm busy this afternoon."

"What about tomorrow?"

"I'm busy today, tomorrow, forever! Now leave me alone."

I looked up from the security of my book at the situation. I watched as Jisoo left the classroom with Taehyung following close behind. I sighed quietly to myself before continuing my book. Who am I thinking of having a crush on someone like Taehyung? He's the school's most popular student and everyone wants to be with him. Me? I'm just like those typical nerdy girls you find in any cliche book. Except this nerdy girl does not even attract any guys or even her own crush.

"How long has it been anyways? 2 weeks?" I heard Hoseok ask in between all the other commotion int he class.

"Nah, I think it was at least 1 month already. He just doesn't know how to give up." Jimin replied him almost quickly.

"But it's Kim Jisoo! Who wouldn't want her as your girlfriend?" I heard Seokjin fought back.

I can't help but deny that fact either. Jisoo... She's just too beautiful. Ethereal for her own good. Her existence in this world is just a blessing itself. It's no surprise that Taehyung keeps prompting her all the time. I mean they're the perfect visual couple. The campus sweethearts. The 'Kim' Couple. Everyone had already even bet how long it'd take till Jisoo decides to date him too.

Am I jealous? Of course I am. But what can I do? I barely exist in their perfect universe. I doubt either one of them notice my existence anyways. I bit my lips as I flipped the page before the next lesson starts.

"By the way, Bae Joohyun. Did you finish all the homework Ms Kang gave yesterday?"

I turned around and saw the class staring at me back. Nonchalantly, I nodded my head as they all sighed. I gave a blank face as they all returned back to their own little circles.

"she's such a teacher's pet."

"not to forget a nerd. No wonder no one likes her."

I bit my lips even deeper as those remarks got even clearer. I closed my eyes and turned back to my book. You can't cry Bae Joohyun. It'd just make everything worser than it already is.

"Yah! Bae Joohyun. Lend me your homework. I want to copy the answers." Jinyoung suddenly shouted from across the room.

"OH ME TOO!" The voices of all the rest of the class combined together in one.

"YAH Park Jinyoung! Sharing is caring! We should we all just copy." I heard Jackson added.

I sighed before turning my head towards the class. All of their eyes were pierced onto me. All for the wrong reasons of my paper. I just shrugged it off and passed them my paper. Well it's the closest I'd ever get to ever interacting with them anyways.

"KIM TAEHYUNG! YOU ARE SUCH A CREEP. OH MY GOD!"

I looked up from my book once again and saw Jisoo entering enraged with a clueless Taehyung trailing behind. I retained my smile after seeing his messy hair and clueless expression. The same kind of expression which made me fall for him in the first place. It seems like it wasn't just me but the entire class was putting their utmost attention towards the two.

"Taehyung. Didn't we told you that we would report you to Ms Kang if you continue to harrass Jisoo like that?" Jennie calmly threatened while keeping her "bitch" face.

"I WASN'T HARRASSING HER!"

The entire class suddenly went haywire with people siding with different parties. I just ignored the whole drama behind me and continued my book. If anything, I do not want any part of this. I took out my ear plugs and placed them before continuing my silence reading. All of a sudden, I saw things being thrown towards the front of the classroom.

Frantically, I dropped my book and saw the entire class literally quarrelling with one another. What the hell is happening? I was all ready to grab my books and sit outside and continue reading until something hard hit my face.

"OH FUCK."

"Wow. What a dick move there, Taehyung."

I barely heard the rest of the conversation as I felt blood dripping from my nose. I mean having a nose bleed for me is natural. But apparently the class seems like as if they have never experienced a nose bleed before and started to freak out.

"She's bleeding! What if she dies due to loss blood? We are all going to jail!"

"Calm down, Jackson. No one is going to jail!"

"But is no one going to help her? I mean it looks serious..."

"Wendy, aren't you in St. Johns?"

"I QUIT BECAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE BLOOD. DON'T LOOK AT ME!"

I rolled my eyes at how pathetic they all were. Immediately, I took out my tissue paper and ran out to the toilet. I'm not even going to rethink about everything that has happened thus far.

I was cleaning off the excess blood from my nose as I heard the toilet door open. I turned around and saw Jisoo peeking through and entering slowly. Judging from her facial expression, she seems genuinely worried.

"Oh my god. You're bleeding a lot. Should I bring you to the nurse's office?"

I laughed before shaking my head. These commoners. Have no idea on how to handle a nose bleed. This is nothing to me. I continued cleaning off the blood and sticking up the tissues on my nostrils. That is until I realised that Jisoo was still there.

"Uhmm.. you could leave if you want to. I can handle it myself."

"Go back to that crazy class? I think I'd pass. Oh? Your glasses seems broken. Let me see."

I flinched as she took off the glasses from my face. I've rarely taken off my glasses. Especially in school. My kind of visual is not up to par with all those in my class or even in the school. I'd just be bullied even further.

"Ah...that's fine. I have a spare in my bag anyways." I laughed before snatching it back from her grasp.

I wore my glasses as I turned to back towards Jisoo who was just staring at me. Well seeing her up close like this is awkward. I mean not in a homosexual way of course. I bit my lips before turning my head back towards the sink and washing off the excess blood in case.

"Ah. I guess you don't need my help here anymore then. I'll see you back in class?"

I nodded to her through the mirror. I watched as she smiled softly before leaving me alone. What is this feeling? How can I ever beat her in terms of looks? How can I even grasp Taehyung's attention when she exists in the same universe as us. But what shocked me was that the class actually genuinely cared for me for once. They noticed my presence. Especially Taehyung. I grinned cheekily to myself before heading back to class.

"Are you guys in elementary or high school? Why were you even throwing books around?!"

I slowly entered the class as Ms Kang was at her table. Clearly she's furious with the state of our classroom. I stood at my table as she comtinued her nagging and reprimands. Why am I getting the scolding as well when I was the victim here anyways?

-

After the entire classtime being used up for her to scold us. The class ended as we all finally sat down on our seats. I can't believe she made us all stand for an entire hour as she scolded each one of us for whatever reasons possible. I grabbed my things before heading out of the class towards my locker. As soon as I reached my locker, I heard someone calling out my name.

"Yah! How could you walk so fast and totally disregard me calling out to you?"

I stood there dumbfounded as Taehyung approached me all tired from chasing after me. I watched as he tried to catch his breath and rested his hands on the lockers next to mine. Fuck. Why am I getting so turned on by this? Why must he be so damn good looking no matter what?

"Anyways, I wanted to ask whether you were okay? I mean it was technically my fault you got injured."

I nodded my head instinctively as I saw his smile up close. He looks even more ethereal and better looking up close. Like a manga character coming to life. I bit on my tongue to prevent myself from getting either turned on or smiling.

"That's good. Anyways bye, Hyunjoo."

I smiled softly as he waved goodbye and ran off. Even though he got my name wrong, at least we both exist in the same universe now. He knows my existence. I bit my lips as I turned back to my locker.

"Yah. Bae Joohyun. What do you think you're doing with our Taehyung oppa?"

My body froze as I heard those voices. I dared not to turn around and face them. I've suffered enough injuries and pain from them already. I do not want to experience it all over again.

"Yah. Are you deaf now? How dare you not answer us when we are talking directly to you?!"

Before I could even react, I heard the smack of a ruler towards the lockers. We both turned towards the source of the sound as I saw Mr Park smiling deviously towards the girls. Immediately, they left me alone. Not before I saw Soyeon eyeing me with those devillish eyes of hers.

"Joohyun-ah. I told you already to transfer schools didn't I?"

I nodded before speaking up.

"But Mr Park.... I like it here." I smiled softly as I said that thinking about Taehyung.

"You're getting constantly bullied here. Even your parents and teachers are worried for you Joohyun. Try to think over it again won't you?"

I just sighed for the hundreth time today. Why is today such a bad day? Why is my life like this even? I don't even know how I am going to survive later on the day with Soyeon and her gang keeping their eyes onto me.

-

I dreaded as the last bell rang. Everyone excitedly packed their things and some even started to leave before we thanked the teacher. I overheard a few talking about their plans after school and such.

"Jisoo-ah! Should we go to the mall today?" Wendy asked excitedly as she ran around he fromt of the classroom.

"Sure. I have nothing to do anyways."

"What even? You said you were busy today, tomorrow and forever!"

"Yeah. Busy to avoid you. Adios~ Girls, let's go."

I grinned faintly as they left the classroom. I overheard Taehyung cursing as he packed his stuffs. At this time now, it should just be me and him in the class. What a perfect moment.

"Oh? Hyunjoo-ah! You aren't going back yet?"

I jumped at that voice. I turned to him as he looked at me filled with curiousity.

"Oh. Yeah, not yet. I always go back when everyone left already. You know... to avoid the traffic." I lied as I packed my stuffs.

Clearly I am purposely trying to huy time and avoid Soyeon and her gang as much as possible. I can only hope she forgot about it or even left already.

"Oh. Then we can head back together. You live around Garosugil right?"

I nodded. As if I didn't knew we both lived in the same neighbourhood. But the fact that he remembered that. Wow. I was going to agree with him until I remembered Soyeon and her gang.

"Ah... actually I don't think so. Maybe you can head back first!" I offered as we headed out of class.

"For what? Since we both are heading the same direction, might as well head back together. It's nothing much anyways. You can act as if we don't know each other."

Oh... I don't even have to act for that. We were about to head towards the entrance as I saw the faint figures of Soyeon and her gang near the gates. Immediately, I tried to find another way to let him head first and not get me killed me even further.

"Weren't you going to follow Jisoo again?" I questioned as we stopped a few steps away from the doors.

"Not today. I have to babysit my little siblings suddenly. Why?"

"Oh. Nothing. Oh...wait! I think I accidentally left my book under my table. I'll go take it myself. You can leave first."

Before he could say anything, I headed back to the other way and into the hallways. I peeked behind a wall as I saw Taehyung shrugged and leaving the school. As soon as I was sure he left, I came out of my hiding spot and headed back home as fast as possible.

"Well...well...well... isn't it 'Little Miss Flirt'?"

I froze as I turned around and saw Soyeon and her gang coming out from an alleyway. I slowly walked backwards as they approached me even closer than expected. Without any words, they pulled me from my hair and bag as I was pulled into a building forcefully. The building was most likely Soyeon's aunt's building again. It had to be conveniently next to the school.

I was being dragged and pulled towards the same recognisable room. Every aspect of this room is familiar. I clearly remember every torture moment I had. And now... it's as if deja vu is happening again. I flinched as Soljin raised her hands and hit my head. As soon it began. The torture. The pain. The entire moment reoccurring to me once again. I winced in pain as they kicked and cursed at me. All for something which wasn't my fault. This time... it lasted even longer than it normally did. By the time I left the building in tatters, it was night time. I swore I left the school when it was in the afternoons.

-

I slowly made my way back home in silence. I ignored every looks I got. Every stare and questionable remarks. How can I even bother to think about that when I am being tortured enough? I sat down at a bench near my house as I tried my best to hide the injuries from today. The blood and blood stains would be hard to lie to but I can pull it through. It's as if my parents truly cared anyways. I pushed open the doors of my house to my parents in the living room not paying attention to me. What a surprise there...

I entered the house quietly with no emotions or words as I entered my room immediately. As soon as I closed my doors, I dropped to my bedroom floor and cried. I kept on crying nonstop. The tears won't mask all my pain I suffered. All of this. How could I hide it? I tried to pull myself together and grabbed the first aid kit. Skillfully, I cleaned out my injuries and dressed them all appropriately. Maybe I should have went to a hospital instead... i counted all my injuries before heading to bed. 30. I guess that's lesser than usual. I grabbed my notebook from my table and wrote down the number before heading to bed.

-

"Oh? Joohyun? What happened to you?"

"Huh? Oh.. I..uh... fell down and injured myself while trying to help my sister save her cat." I bluntly lied as I stared at Jisoo shockingly.

"Oh... well you should be more careful next time."

I smiled plainly at Jisoo as she returned to her seat. I stared at my book nonchalantly. It's weird having someone care for me. When all the while, I was left alone with no one to care anyways. Class passed by quickly as school ended. Once again, the same routine occurs as I sat back waiting for people to leave.

"You sure you don't want to join us? It's chicken!"

"I'm fine, Rosé. You girls go first. I'll head home by myself later."

"Alright then. Stay safe. AND TAEHYUNG. DON'T YOU BLOODY DARE TOUCH OUR GIRL."

I grinned a bit as I heard Jennie and Lisa said that. They soon left as I slowly started to pack my bag.

"Joohyun-ah. Are you busy after school today?"

I looked up and saw Jisoo standing in front of me smiling. That's weird. I looked all around me and saw no one asides from Taehyung who is probably waiting for Jisoo.

"Uh... not exactly. Why?"

"Great! Let's go! I'll bring you to shopping." She cheered happily.

"Ah... I don't know about that..."

"I can accompany you, Jisoo, if you want."

"Fuck off, Taehyung. It's fine! Come on. It'll be fun!"

I stared at her curiously as if she was talking in another language. She kept standing there waiting for my answer. It just seems like yes was the most appropriate answer for then. I agreed as Jisoo cheered and dragged me out with her. I guess today's usual routine would change a bit then.

-

"Oh. My. God. You look perfect!"

I blushed as I heard her say that. After countless of walking and shopping, it turns out Jisoo was just finding clothes for the two of us. I shyly looked down at the dress she made me try on and even twirling around.

"You look like a princess."

"Yeah... a dead one." I joked as we both laughed.

"Well, dead or zombie. You shouldn't be having all those injuries all over you. Are you sure you are fine?"

I nodded once again as I stared at myself in the mirror. This is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen myself worn.

"You should try out contacts, you know. I know for sure that you'd be someone who could be on par as me on beauty standards."

I just laughed it off and continued staring at myself. Should I really try it out? I mean I've never ever worn contacts before in my life.

"I'm not so sure yet about that though."

"Don't be. I'm not forcing you to exactly change yourself anyways. You're beautiful just as you are. Anyways, do you want that dress? I could buy it for you as a form of compensation after what Taehyung did to you."

"Oh.. uhm that's fine."

I went ahead to change out of that dress. I remembered the price I saw. It was at least my entire week worth of allowance. And that's the most my parents would ever give in an entire week as well. I headed out of the dressing room and saw Jisoo still waiting for me. That's weird. We both ended up heading back home together.

"Aren't you going to ask me?" She suddenly add, catching me offguard.

"Ask you about what?"

"Why I am always rejecting Taehyung? All that stuffs. Everyone I go out with always ask me that."

"Nah. That's your private life and problem. I don't want any part of it. Anyways, I'll go back first. Bye."

I sped up my pace as I turned the corner before falling down on the floor. Oh god. Did I just sounded rude towards Jisoo? Would she hate me now? Oh I can barely imagine how the entire school or even the class reaction towards her hanging out with a loser like me. I stood up and saw an optometrist nearby.

-

"Who's she? Has she always been schooling here?"

"I don't know. But oh my god. She's so pretty."

"I bet she and Jisoo could battle it out for the most beautiful person in our school."

I walked past the entire crowd of people as I headed towards my class and seat. As expected, there was barely anyone there this early. Which is good because I don't want to walk in with everyone staring at me like a monster.

"Did you hear? There's a total beauty in our class."

"Isn't Kim Jisoo a known fact already? I mean quite old but we all know that."

"No. Not her. It's someone else. I heard people say it was-"

"BAE JOOHYUN?"

I froze as I heard my name being called. They could recognise me that easily? That was until I realised that I was at my seat so obviously. My eyes followed them as they headed to their seats still looking at me. This kind of attention... It's weird. Soon the entire class came in. And needless to say, everyone was shocked till their ends. Even the very Kim Taehyung. All of their eyes were pierced onto me. But this time, for a better reason.

-

"Joohyun! I can't believe you took my word of advice!"

I stared blankly at Jisoo as she slammed her locker shut. We both soon headed towards the cafeteria together as a trail of people followed us behind.

"I- I just wanted to try it out and see first. I didn't know it would be like this. Sorry."

"For what? Being a total beauty? Don't be! God. You are such a package. You got both the looks and smarts. I got to say... I'm actually jealous."

She soon started to laugh as a group of others as well. Unknowingly, I laughed as well as we entered the cafeteria. As expected, everyone turned their attention towards the both of us. But I'm pretty sure it's more of Jisoo.

"Come and join my friends and me at our table."

I trailed behind her shyly as she strided past everyone towards a table. On the table, there was obviously the well known popular clique of Jisoo's.

Lisa, Rose, Wendy and Jennie. The transferred beauties.

The Eunbi twins, Seulgi, Nayeon and Sowon. The next few group of beauties.

Yerim, Sooyoung, Tzuyu and Yerin. The next generation of beauties.

And for some reason. I feel like I don't belong in their group at all. It just seems like I am out of place. But they all acknowledge me and welcomed me ever so warmly. It just seems like I was their long lost sister. Everyone was just so nice to me.

And that wasn't the end. As the week passed by, I got even more used with the girls. I got a lot of proposals as well as presents for me. Not to forget, I was not even bullied once after my change. As if they couldn't recognise me or they were afraid. I felt mighty and proud of myself for once. Instead of coming back home with pain and many injuries, I came back with presents and a more positive attitude. I had everything I'd ever want and more. This was the life. Everything except for Taehyung of course. I mean with all that I have now. Not having Taehyung should just the least of my worries.

-

"So... when exactly do you plan on finally accepting his proposals? What if he suddenly changed his crush?" Sowon started off the morning as we all sat around the table.

"Who's proposal? Taehyung?" I questioned back while finishing off my drink.

"Yeah. Jisoo said she was going to finally accept it after 2 months to see how really determined he is. Seeing how it's nearing the 2nd month. It should be soon." Yerin commented back while eyeing Jisoo.

"Oh please, guys. If he found someone else, I'm totally fine with it. Heck, I'm super glad he did. But if he persists, possibly this week?"

The rest of them cooed at what she said as I just smiled awkwardly. I mean I lowkey don't want them to date. But that'd just be real selfish of me to think so. I watched as I saw Taehyung approaching our table.

"Yah, Kim Jisoo."

"Oh? You're starting earlier than expected? Let's go somewhere else. I need to tell you something in private."

I watched from afar as they both walked away. I turned to the other girls who just smiled as if they were sending off their daughters away.

"I'm heading to the bathroom."

I stood up and walked the opposite direction. Away from the two couple and the rest of the class and school. I headed over to my usual old study spot and sat there. What is this feeling? I'm jealous of Jisoo getting Taehyung. But... I'm also fine with it as well. I sighed as I started to make my way back to class.

"Yah.... isn't this our old little victim?"

I froze at my spot as Soyeon and her gang came up in front of me. It's been nearly a month already. Why is she harrassing me now? When my life is finally slowly being pieced back together?

"Why the scared face princess?"

I pushed her hand away from my face as I stared at her, afraid. I saw her eyes. It was as if she was going harrass me once again. Unknowingly, I winced before she could raise her hands at me and hit me.

"Park Soyeon! What are you doing here with Joohyun?"

My eyelids slowly opened as I saw Taehyung standing near the entrance. Firstly, how did he know where I was. Secondly, why was he even here for? Me? Thirdly, he finally got my name right after so long. I watched in anxiety as Soyeon went nearer to me and brushed off an eyelash. She then turned to face Taehyung and put on the most fake voice ever.

"Me? Nothing! The two of us are just really great buddies, oppa."

I watched in disgust and she snaked her way out. Soon they left, leaving me and Taehyung alone. Not before I caught Soyeon deathstaring at me once again.

"Are you okay?"

I just nodded along with his question while still thinking about Soyeon. Is she going to harrass me again? Wait for me outside school? Outside my house? Suddenly, I felt a warm pair of hands reached out and cupped my face. Instinctively, my face followed the motion as he turned my face to face him.

"Yah. I don't want you to get injured. I care about my girlfriend's friends as much as she does."

I smiled unknowingly when he said the girlfriend. Until I realised it once again.

"Girl-girlfriend?"

He then started to remove his hands from my cheeks and smiled proudly. I watched as he walked around restlessly smiling from ear to ear.

"Oh yeah! You weren't at the cafeteria!"

"Jisoo finally accepted my proposal to her! We are both officially a couple! Sweethearts! Isn't that great? I've been pursuing her since 2 months ago."

My heart fell as I heard what he said. Wow... I never expected Jisoo to accept that fast.

"Oh yeah... Congrats! It must have been suffocating for her to not accept your proposals at all amongst the others she received before."

"Yeah. But I knew she would eventually know what is the best choice. I'm seriously happy to be even with her now."

"That's great then! Do you mind heading down first? I need sometime to clear my mind. Alone."

Taehyung nodded and left me alone. I just stared at his cold back which seemed colder than ever. Without knowing, I felt droplets of water on ny cheeks. Why do I feel so heartbroken? It's not as if he knew all along that I liked him. It was just a plain old crush. A crush since elementary school. Why is life like this? Treating me like this.

-

The entire day I wasn't in the mood for anything much. When either Yerim or Sooyoung were joking around, I never geniunely laughed. I barely talked to either one of them. Could it be because I am jealous over Taehyung and Jisoo? Can't be. It was never meant for me anyways. As the day brought to an end, I got ready to leave last as usual.

"Joohyun! We're going out to eat and you know..." Jennie offered as the all got ready to leave

"Ah. It's fine. I have something I need to check at the library later. You guys go ahead without me."

"What is this... our visual is going on a date with her boyfriend and another one is having a date with her books."

"Yerim! We'll go first then! See you tomorrow!" Lisa shut her off as they left.

I waved goodbye to the girls as they left while laughing loudly as per normal. As soon as they left, I grabbed my books and bag and started to make my way back home. Maybe I would feel better tomorrow after some rest. As I approached the gates, I saw a glimpse of Soyeon and her gang nearby. Instantly, I hid behind a tree at least a few metres away from them.

"Oh? That bitch isn't with them? So what? She's alone now?"

I continued hiding behind the tree as they continued talking. As I kept my mouth shut, I looked up and saw Taehyung and Jisoo heading out of the school main building. Without realising, I turned my back to them and faced the tree.

"Oh? Taehyung oppa is with Jisoo?"

"I guess that bitch was just delusional in thinking that our oppa would ever like her. We should teach her a lesson."

I continued hiding as both Taehyung and Jisoo and Soyeon and her gang left the school compound. I came out of the tree with an emotionless face. It was as if my soul was sucked out of my body. Biting my lips again, I left the school while holding back my tears.

"Oh? There's that girl."

This time I froze and turned around as I heard that voice once again. I stared directly at Soyeon and her gang while still biting my lips. Normally, I'd ignore them or even attempt to run away. But today, I just felt like getting hit and bullied by them would just be better.

"What the? Why aren't you running as usual?"

"Soyeon... just hit me if you want. Torture me all you want. It's as if you haven't done so before anyways."

"Fine by me bitch."

Immediately, she pulled my hair dragging me along with her. As usual we headed to her usual bullying spot. Where it's both far and close to the school. And no one would bother or think of finding me even. I just winced and let the punches and kicks hit me. Hah... they must have felt so annoyed for not being able to bully anyone for nearly a month or so. Suddenly they stopped and pulled me up to face them. With my bloodied and possibly broken or fractured face and limbs, I faced them barely.

"Listen up you hoe. We'll put it in simple terms because you're damn smart and could get the gist of it anyways."

"Shut it YoonJi. Anyways, stop with your delusional thinking bitch. No one ever liked you. You think those girls actually truly liked you? Haha... they just using you as a replacement since Jisoo is with our Taehyung oppa now. And also stop fucking flirting with our Taehyung oppa. He would NEVER like you EVER. You guys are on totally different levels. He doesn't deserve a piece of trash like yourself. So do us all a favour and just leave this school. Unless you want us to continue fucking up your entire life until you leave."

"NO ONE WANTS YOU HERE AND NO ONE LIKES YOU HERE EITHER. So stop living in your stupid delusional world and leave already."

They let go of their grasp from me before leaving me alone in the room. Usually, I would leave once I was sure they left. But now, I just wanted to be left alone in this confinement. I pulled my soulless body up and headed towards the lift lobby. While staring at my reflection, I rubbed off all the blood as much as possible. While limping back home, I ignored everyone as per usual.

Once I reached home, even my parents didn't bat an eye at me. I headed straight to my room and fell behind the door. What they said was true... No one actually liked me. No one truly did anyways. Especially my parents. If they actually did, they would come back home and care for me instead of sending in  a replacement form of themselves to me. If anyone did, they would have forced me to the hospital even if I refused. If anyone did, they would have seen through me and knew I was broken deeply and not just externally.

I dragged my body towards the mirror as I stared at this pathetic self of me. The fake me. I took out the contacts from my eyes and destroyed them. I continued staring at myself and started to cry unknowingly. Maybe Soyeon is right. Maybe I am living in a delusional world where everyone liked me. Maybe... I should just leave this world for the better good of everyone. I heard a notification as I checked my phone.

Jisoo ♡

Yah~ I have a question for you.

Confused. I replied back to her as I continued laying back on the floor. Trying to get my life back together, I heard another notification.

unknown

*sent a photo*

I froze when I saw the photo. Who... who took that photo of me and Taehyung. When we were at my study spot. I was sure we were both alone. And oh my god. Judging from the angle it looks like he was going to kiss me or something. Frantic, I tried to reply immediately to the person until I got another notification from Jisoo.

Jisoo ♡

Do you like Taehyung?

You can be honest with me because I just really need a confirmation about something.

I mean if you do, I'll back away for you. I've not exactly truly liked him yet.

Plus he seems to like talking about you for some reason

It was then that I had a dilemma. If I were to come clean with Jisoo, I could have Taehyung. I could prove to Soyeon and her entire gang wrong. But at the same time, how true are her words that she doesn't like him? From what I see, she clearly has some feelings for Taehyung. And I don't want to be someone who would ruin that for her. Even if I was the one who liked him longer.

Oh. I used to. Not now.

You don't have to back away by the way. I've gotten over my crush on him.

It was just a one time thing. Anyways, I never exactly congratulated you guys together so Congrats! ^^

As I sent the last message, I awaited for her reply. It's the best and right thing to do. Jisoo... she deserves Taehyung. She deserves everything that I don't. Because she is just Jisoo.

Jisoo ♡

Oh... alright then! I was going to ask you about this one photo I saw about you and Taehyung.

But I knew it probably might have been the angle or something.

Also! Thank You so much my twin! Love you~ 😚

I stared at her last message. "Twin" It didn't occurred to me that people could have seen me as copying her. On purpose. I got another notification which was from Instagram. I opened it and saw a picture of Jisoo and Taehyung in her account.

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kimyerm: YAH! WHAT IS THIS?
yourmonalisa_: she doesn't even post pictures of us
nanayeoniee: ^ FACT ATTACK
jen_ster: @/taeve_kim IF YOU BREAK HER HEART, I WILL BREAK YOU.
nam_ster: @/jen_ster fam chill
kang_sluggie: as expected~ our visual couple 😍😍
chimmy_changa: TAEHYUNG AHHHH HOW COULD YOU BERTRAY US LIKE THIS?
taeve_kim: @/jen_ster FIGHT ME // @/chimmy_changa WE WERE NEVER A THING
taeve_kim: love you too bae 😚
ji-kachu: @/taeve_kim bitch i never said i loved you
kingjack_ass_son: ^ cute.

I smiled faintly as I clicked the heart button. I continued scrolling until I saw a notification from Jisoo again. I clicked on it and realised that she sent a photo. Nonchalantly, I clicked the photo to see a picture of them two together. Possibly from that time Jisoo dyed her hair.

Jisoo♡

  Yah! You better post this old picture of us too before I haunt you down.

I

didn't bother correcting her because I assumed that she knew already. I threw my phone on the side table before laying down on my bed. Maybe if I were to fall asleep, this would all pass by as nothing.

-

"Joohyun-ah! Are you not going to school today again?"

I shook my head as I pulled the covers over myself and pushed my face to the pillows. I heard the door closing slowly as I sat up. I turned to my phone and checked the time. 7.30 am. Normally by now, I would be in class reading my book. But today, yesterday, a few days back. I had no strength to pull myself to attend school anymore. Is it the embarrassment of not being the beauty they all liked me for? Is it because I didn't want to see Jisoo and Taehyung interacting in my face? The possibilities were endless but regardless I stayed in bed for nearly a week. Typically, the girls messaged me non-stop to ask if I was okay. They even wanted to visit but I refused. What's the use if they were faking it in the end? I didn't want to face the harsh truth and instead lived in the white lie.

As I left my room, I noticed that my parents were gone already. Well they were not supposed to be here the entire day anyways. Only to be here when I'm home so I could feel "loved" and "cared" by them. I washed up and headed out to get some lunch. After not eating dinner and breakfast, at least I should eat some lunch. It was then, that I unknowingly found myself walking the pathway to school.

I found myself standing nearby the entrance as the final bell rung. Heading to the side, I waited for no exact reason. I waited and waited until I saw Jisoo and the rest coming out of the main building. I don't know if they saw me or not, but I heard Jisoo call out for me.

"Joohyun!"

Instinctively, I ran away. I don't even know why. But I did. I kept running to the one place I never expected to find myself at. The building where all my tortures and traumas came from. I headed to the rooftop as I walked around for a while to get myself to calm down. I peeked over the banister and saw Jisoo and the rest walking past the building. I heaved a sigh of relief before some crazy ideas came over me.

-

"OH? Who's that girl? W-what is she doing?"

"Oh my god. Is she crazy? What the hell?"

I turned around along with the rest and saw a group of our schoolmates gathering in front of a building. Naturally, we all walked towards the crowd to see the commotion. Our eyes trailed the rest towards the rooftop of the building. That was when I saw a faint figure of someone. Of Joohyun.

Immediately, I ran up the staircases on the way to the building with the rest of the girls probably close behind me. I ran as fast as I could until I reached the rooftop.

"BAE JOOHYUN? ARE YOU CRAZY?"

She turned around and looked at me with tear-filled eyes. There's something terribly wrong with her. I slowly advanced towards her as I heard the rest reaching the same floor.

"Jisoo-ah! Be careful."

I ignored Taehyung's words as I faced Joohyun and Joohyun only. We both made eye contact for a while until she broke it and turned away. Instantly, I examined her body and saw no recent injuries. So no one must have bullied her recently either. So why is she doing this suddenly? After being goen from school for a week and she comes back like that?

"Bae Joohyun. What are you doing? Get down from there!" I heard the girls and guys add

"No. Just stop acting like you all care for me. When you don't. You only started to notice me after I had a makeover. You had never liked me from the beginning to start with."

I watched in silence as she nearly broke down in tears.

"well.... that's kinda true..."

"NAMJOON!"

"sorry... it sounded better in my head."

I kept keeping an eye on Joohyun in case she accidentally trip on something and regret her life.

-

I noticed that they were all silent. Everyone was just standing there not knowing what to do. I wiped away my tears as I saw Jisoo slowly making her way towards me.

"DON'T COME CLOSER!" I screamed at her with no exavt reason.

"Why not? Joohyun. We could help you. All of us. Don't underestimate us all. We all care for you!"

I laughed as wiped off the last bits of tears. Haha.... care for me? Like I said before. They all would have helped me from the start if they truly care. I took one last long at all of them as I thought to myself deeply. I hate everyone and my life. But at the same time, these people made my life even brighter than normal. When I had rainy days, they provided me the shelter I needed. They were all my strength and hopes. It would be a shame to just end my life like that. Wouldn't it?

-

Was I ever in love with him? Did I honestly think that he would want me when he has someone like Jisoo? I'm just fooling myself. He'll never see me as anything but.... a loner.

"I let you go. Not because I hate you. But because I love you and want to see you happy." - Beauty & The Beast

-the end-

y'all dont @ me for the ending. I did mention that it was going to be angst. #sorrynotsorry (feel free to let anyone else read it and go through what you went through 😉)

👀 no hating on vsoo or any blackpink X bts ships in this fanfic.