Saaya Yamabuki X Self-Hated Male Reader
I forgot to add who requested this. This was requested by: Quint_lover. It might be a little bit, based on my mental problems

Saaya POV

Saaya: Shh Shh. I'm here for you. Don't you worry Y/n, I'll give you a place where you will be loved

I said while hugging my boyfriend, Y/n L/n. He nearly killed himself with the noose he prepared. I hate it when he thinks that, he lives to make mistakes. I'll tell you how it happened

A month ago Y/n POV

This hurts so much, why do I always mess things up? I kept banging my head on the wall. It hurts so much, but I didn't care about the pain. It's my punishment after all, for messing things up. Why do I even exist in this world? All I do is mess everything up. My parents left on their separate ways, not know that they left me behind. My girlfriend, Saaya didn't know about my problems that time, I don't wanna worry her. Which it'll bring my hatred for myself even stronger. I got used to this feeling, when you knew your worst enemy is yourself

One day later

I went to Yamabuki Bakery to visit my girlfriend while holding my left elbow that, I broke. It hurts, but I have to endure it whenever I like it or not. Once I entered, I was greeted by Saaya

Saaya: Hi Y/n. Care to eat something?

Y/n: I'll take the usual

I don't wanna keep on lying to her, but I have to do this so that, she won't be worried about me. I sat down on a table. Then Saaya came to my table with my order, and I ate it with my right arm, which it's the only arm that didn't get a broken bone

Saaya POV

I look at my boyfriend to see he's eating the food with his right hand. That's strange, he's a southpaw cause I know about him since, childhood. It's really suspicious that, he eats with a right hand. I have to know about it, even if it means to go deeper

Few days later

This is getting weirder and weirder. He's always smiling, and he welcomes strangers with open arms. Why he doesn't welcome them with open arms? I went to him and I tapped his shoulder to grab his attention

Saaya: This is scaring me Y/n. What's going on with you?

Y/n: N-Nothing

Saaya: Please! This is scaring me. Tell me what's going on

Y/n: Please, Saaya. I cannot tell you the truth

Saaya: Fine then. I'll know the truth myself

I walk away with a worried face written in me

After a month passes

I'm on a band practice. But I couldn't focus due to Y/n's problems, I had a hunch that he's really scared of himself. I scratched that since, he's not a guy that gives up easily. Is he? My thoughts were interrupted when Kasumi called me

Saaya: Yes?

Kasumi: What's wrong? You're full in thoughts. Care to share us?

I told them everything that Y/n concerns me like, holding his left elbow all the time, using his right hand to do most of the stuff, skipping classes and other stuff. I don't know what causes all of this

All (Except Saaya): Ohh. I see

Saaya: Any thoughts?

Rimi: I-I guess, you aren't paying any attention to him several days ago

Saaya: How come?

Arisa: She's right about that. You payed attention to this band, over him. I guess if you want to know the truth, follow him home. It might be stalking, but if you want to take the risk, not my problem

I thought about Arisa's help. I guess I should follow him on his way home, tomorrow

Present Y/n POV

I went back inside and I bought a noose to end this pathetic life. I went to get the stepladder, then I tied it up until it's tightly shut. As I was going to hang myself, I heard a voice that left me in shock

???: Y/n?

I look at my entrance to see, Saaya in shock since I'm going to kill myself. I was also in shock that Saaya saw what I don't want her to see

Y/n: Why? Why are you here?

Saaya: What are you doing? Why are you doing this?

Y/n: I make mistakes that I couldn't learn from them. I hated myself for so long, that I wanted to kill myself. I hate myself for so long, I don't want you to see me suffer. I want you to live a happy life

Saaya: HOW AM I GOING TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE WITHOUT YOU!?

I was even more in shock since, Saaya's outburst

Saaya: Can't you see? I love you so much that you couldn't think of my love for you. get down here, and give me a hug please

I did what she said. When I hugged her, I started to cry

Y/n: I'm sorry, Saaya

Saaya POV

I hugged my boyfriend back

Saaya: Shh Shh. I'm here for you. Don't you worry Y/n, I'll give you a place where you will be loved

Few years later

And so. I kept that promise for so long, that It got me wearing a wedding dress. He started to live under the Yamabuki residence, which is my home. I had a lot of fun with Y/n around, even when he couldn't smile. I tried to give him happiness, and slowly, he's starting to love himself again. I am happy about his slow development, but I'm not impressed enough yet

Saaya: Hey dear. Can you come here

I saw Y/n, still bending down due to his nervousness around me. I hugged him to forget his nervousness around me

Y/n: What do you need Saaya?

Saaya: Nothing. Just hug me like, you mean it

He hugged me back after that. I wanted to show her about it, but she's not yet in this world, so we have to wait for her to come. I love you more than anything else, Y/n