*Chasity's P.O.V.*

I don't know how I was able to stay like this for months and addition to that, I've been living with Matthew the whole time. I thought that sooner or later, I'd be losing my mind, but it's been five months already but I'm still sane and I really have no idea if that is a good thing or not. But in all honesty, this is a lot worse than physical torture.

No matter how hard I try to get my attention out of Patrick and the boys, I always find myself in front of the computer, stalking them again like a crazy fangirl. I'm happy that they are able to reestablish the band once again and I know that Patrick is happy because of C, I always see hin tweeting this sweet things and I only find myself thinkig that it was for me...well, technically it really is for me, but his thinking begs to differ.

"Why am I still doing this?" I asked myself as I saw a picture of him and C on instagram.

I'm happy that C was able to accept this life and that she's happy and of course, Patrick too. And I think that Matthew is right, Patrick and the other never really mentioned that C is Chasity, well, of course, that would clear out so many complicated things and maybe its because like Matthew said, they wanted a fresh start.

I found myself still staring ar the picture then suddenly the screen went black.

"You're really good at torturing yourself." I heard Matthew aaid after he unplugged the computer.

I noticed that I was at the brink of crying again, but I just brushed of the tears this time.

"How long are you going to keep this up?" He asked me.

Matthew changed, somehow. He's been taking care of me as much as possible. I can still the pride in him, but whenever he comforts me, I think I'm seeing his past side, the kind and the innocent one. I know everything he tells me is the truth and that he meant it all. He really regrets the fact that he fucked my whole life up.

"Till I die?" I answered him sadly and he sighed.

"You're really stressing me out." He answered with a low laugh. "Get up. I'll show you something." He added and I just followed him.

Matthew led me in one if the rooms inside the house and the momebt he opened the door to that room, I felt like my eyes sparkled. There was a drumset in there, my heart leaped a bit because I haven't touch this instrument for months.

"Maybe that will help you chill out. Play aggressively." He said with a small smile while handing me a pair of drumsticks. "Let your feelings out, love."

I took the drumsticks from him and walked inside the room and sat in front of the drums. My blood is excitedly flowing in my veins as I stare at it...I swear I never felt this excited for a long time.

I held the drumsticks properly and right on cue, I heard a song being played and in a long time...I played the drums again. The song was Coffee's for Closers and I swear I've never played this aggresive before. As the song continue, I hit the drums harder and harder and I think I'm really going to destroy it.

I was hearing Patrick's voice singing and the words 'i will never believe in anything again' gets me the most. I feel like my emotions and the music was flowing inside of me and they took over. I feel like the music is not making my hands involuntarily move, but its beat of my heart. I'm letting all my emotions out right now through playing and before I can realize it, I'm already crying there.

"Oh change will come! OH CHANGE WILL COME...I WILL MEVER BELIEVE IN ANYTHING AGAIN!!!!" I bellowed as I finished playing the song and I lost it....I lost it all. "HAAAAA!" I shouted and threw the drumsticks away and started kicking the drumset.

I became too frustrated! It's too unfair, I know I gave out thus life already but it still kills every piece of me. I just want to end this!

Matthew quickly entered the room and hugged me from behind to stop me from moving. I have been crying loudly as I lost my shit in there. I struggled from his hug but he was too strong.

"Let go of meeee!!" I shouted while crying.

"Chasity! Stop! Look at yourself! Please, stop this already..." He told me sincerely.

"I can't do this anymore! I can't!" I said in much defeat as I slide down to the floor while crying.

I've been shaking my head no and helplessly crying there. matthew was still holding me and I looked at him. He's right, how long am I going to be like this? I'll never be able to move on from this for all I know. I'll just end up crying like this every now and then and that is not how I want to live.

"Fine! Take it all, take everything and never leave any single piece of it from me. I'm so done, Matthew. Help me...I need to forget all of it, please, I accept it, just promise me that I'll never remember any of this." I said to him and he nodded at me. I saw pity in his eyes and I know he would do anything just to help me...and I think this is the last help I will ne needing. "Erase my memories and don't leave any single bit of it" I added.

*C's P.O.V.*

'I'm honestly happy that you're happy, C. You're a wonderful girl and I know what you and Patrick have will surpass what we had. :)
As for me, I think I found a way how to cope up with this. This will be the last time you'll hear from me. Please, keep holding on to the favor I asked okay? Keep being happy, C!' -Chas

I found a note just outside my apartment and that's what's inside of it. My hands were shaking, I'm panicking because I want to know what Chasity will do...I mean what was she talking about?!

I had to sit down for a while because I was losing my energy now. I need to tell, Patrick! I can only think of one way that Chasity will be able to cope up with this and I think it will be killing herself. Of course, I can't let that happen, not today not ever! I had to convince Patrick now and we have to find her.

I immediately took my phone out and called Patrick.

"Hey, princess. Good timing, I want to meet yoy today. I have something to ask you." Patrick said and he sound excited and I think that's not a good thing now.

"Good, I need to tell you something too. Now. Wait for me in your studio." I hurriedly said and hung up.

I moved as fast as I can to get to him and my hands are already sweating. I still honestly have no idea on how to tell him, but I'm sure that I will! I shouldn't be wasting time thinking about it, or else, Chasity might have already done something to herself that she'll forever regret.

I got to the studio in no time and it's suspiciously empty. I emetered the vicinity and I can't believe what I was already seeing...

"Oh come fucking on, this can't be happening right now." I said to myself. I'm near to cry, I swear. This situation had been so complicated because of this.

Petals of roses, balloons, and other decorations are in the pathway, leading towards Patrick's studio. There's also this signage indicating that its for 'Chasity' and just keep on walking. Patrick is not like this when nothing is going around, I'm sure he'll be doing something that he'll regret too. And I have to stop it while I can.

I kept on walking to the end and the moment I entered the room, it got a lot worse.

Patrick and the others are there and they began to play a song for me. Patrick looka at me happily anf innocently and I swear, I would have just forgotten Chasity and get all this, but I know its wrong! And I'll be bringing the guilt that I'll have if I didn't tell and convince them.

I looked at Patrick helplessly, but they kept on playing. It was too sweet and my heart is falling for it. I love Patrick, yes, and this is what I want...but not the life I need. They were playing Immortals and Patrick's already walking towards me.

"Please, stop." I murmured and finally, Patrick heard me.

They stopped playing and he hurried towards me as some tears escaped my eyes.

"Princess. I know this is all too sudden and I hope I didn't shock you. But please, I can't let go of you now, not ever. I want you to be mine, officially. We've encountered so many challenges and now were here again...having a fresh start. I love you so much and please......will you marry me?" Patrick said sincerely and he suddenly kneeled in front of me.

I whimpered in front of him, maybe he thought it was out of happiness, but it's not. It was from the helplessness feeling, but I need to do the right thing here. I can't just take this opportunity for granted.

"Patrick, God knows how I wanted to take that ring and say Yes to you. I love you, but...but this is wrong! You don't need a fresh start...you don't need a new Chasity. You need her, the old her! That's what made you love her, don't throw off your past. Please, please, open your eyes! YOU'RE PROPOSING TO THE WRONG GIRL! I've been telling you that its not me, I'm not her, but you kept on brushing me off. Why? Because you wanted to have a fresh start?! You're fucked up, Patrick! Chasity needs you, needs us! Please. I can't keep up with this anymore." I said while crying. "She needs you right now. Just trust me, please." I pleaded.

Patrick looked at me in shock and the others too. I was pleading and calling out for help like a distressed person there. The keep on looking at me in disbelief and I have no idea if they are going to believe me or not, but I'm going to try my best to make them, even if I look like a mad person in front of them.

{Thankd for reading guys! So i was thinking to give this series two endings and so I want to know what you think about that idea. Comment your thoughts! Thanks again :)}