Fun fact: No one was ever planned to not make it out of this fic alive and recovering. I honestly made this fic just for myself bc I needed this kind of story to assure me recovery was possible. I didn't think like anyone else would read it. This Christmas was the first one in 4 years where I focused more on being with my family then on counting calories and this is now my fav fic I've written. Not bc it's much better then my others. Just bc of everyone's lovely comments <3 Recovery is worth it, I promise.

Virgil stopped the car as the gravel road ended. He turned off the disney music that was playing which got him an offended gasp from Roman. They'd driven to a part deep in the woods of a national forest. The trees had cleared up slightly to reveal a perfect place to set up a fire with some logs to sit on around it. Grass and moss surronded it.

"So which disney villain would you most willingly date?" Roman asked while stepping out of the car.

"You've already asked me that 3 times today" He grumbled back.

"Well Mr. Jack Smellington I won't stop until you tell me!"

He took opening the trunk of the car as an excuse to look away as he mumbled out "Scar if he was a human"

Roman tried to hold back a laugh "Hah! Don't tell my brother. He'll call you an animal fucker"

Virgil opened his mouth to defend himself but closed it again. After a few seconds he quietly sighed "Okay fair" He took out a net of wood logs from the back of the car "Time for you to feel shame! Who would you date?"

"Gaston! Though I would make him respect women beforehand" He replied while following his boyfriend to the fireplace where he dropped off the wood.

"You just like him because he can carry you around"

"I can not argue wit that!"

After anothed round of carrying the wood Virgil was sweating and breathing like a dying whale. There was a last stack in the car. He dreaded it but moved to take it when Roman chimed in

"Y'know I can try to carry that"

He looked him up and down "Honey no offense but I doubt you can" Roman was a healthy weight but he still had barely any muscle at all.

Roman let out an offended gasp "DUkey hasn't been taking me to the gym 3 entire times for me to hear this slander!! I am getting super strong exscuse you!!! 3 times!!"

Virgil got a smug look on his face as he stepped aside and let his boyfriend try. With a strained huff Roman managed to pick up the wood. He was able to take a single step before falling over on the ground. He stayed with his head in the dirt as Viv took it and carried it to the fireplace.

"I'm strong!" Roman repeated.

"I know" Virgil hunched down and patted him on the back.

"Maybe if Dukey actually helped me exercise instead of just talking to his new girlfriend or whatever I would have been super muscly by now!" He still wasn't allowed to do any cardio in case it triggered a relapse into overexercising, but weight lifting was allowed. It was mostly an exscuse to spend time with his brother anyway.

"Is the girlfriend cute?" The clueless gay asked.

"I guess. Not my type" The flamboyant bi replied.

Virgil snorted "You have a type?"

"Yep. Snarky, kind of a bitch, darkly clad, raccoon make up. Preferably named Virgil"

Roman moved into a kiss but his boyfriend pushed his face away while chuckling. Viv helped him up from the ground. He began building the wood into a nice fire ground while Ro got his guitar from the car, just to pass the time.

He lightly strummed his guitar while sitting on one of the bigger logs surronding the fireplace. Tehcnically it was Rhys' guitar. He'd inherited it from him when he died. But he knew it belonged to him now. He accepted that.

"Any requests?" Ro asked.

"How about something original"

"Cool. This peice I've been working on is called 'friends'" Roman took a deep breath and played a chord "JANUS IS A STUPID BITCH! REMY IS A STUPID BITCH! Virgil is lovely. REMUS IS A SUPREME STUPID BITCH! PATTON IS A STUPID BITCH BUt i cant say that because he's my daaaddd. LOGAN IS-"

He never got to finish his wonderful magnum opus because a car drove into the creek. A very excited Patton jumped out and dragged Logan out from the passenger seat. He took his hand and continued to drag him up to the fireplace at such a fast pace Lo nearly dropped his crutches.

"HE SAID YES!!!!" Patton exclaimed while shaking Logan's shoulders back and forth. On their hands were matching rings.

Roman nearly threw his guitar "AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

Virgil let out a sentence of barely human noises that sounded both happy and surprised.

"I did indeed" Logan said "Patton is now my fiance. Future husband. It shall be a summer wedding"

While Patton and Roman continued to squeal and ramble on about cakes, music and all that lovey dovey stuff Logan helped Virgil start the fire. The emo looked between the joyful expression on the dad's face and the usual emotionless one on the nerd's face.

Viv moved slightly closer and nudged his arm into the other man's ribs "So you excited about the whole ehhh thing?"

"Of course" Logan looked at him. There was a small smile on his lips "I feel so....happy" He glanced over at Patton and his smile got bigger when he saw how excited his lover was "I never thought I could feel this happy. Not after all those years of hurting myself....Some of my thoughts try to tell me all of those years were wasted on pain but I know they weren't wasted. I got to be with Patton during them so they can not have been wasted"

"Ugh that's disgustingly cute"

"Indeed it is. I can not wait until I am fully recovered so I can enjoy living completely, especially living with him. Being alive is just so- so wonderful! I haven't been alive in a long time. It will be so amazing to be able to have dinner with him without worrying about relapsing. I honestly feel a bit stupid for once foolishly beliving I was unable to ever even being recovering"

Virgil leaned against his side "Nah dude. I thought I was gonna binge myself to death before I turned 24 until I met y'all, got therapy and got on xanax. It aint stupid. It's normal. Besides you got a necktie. You can't be stupid"

Logan nodded along "True! 0 falsehood in that! I can probably find studies linking neckties and braincells!" He got a slightly smug look on his face as he continued "I can also probably start a study about the high likelyhood of Roman proposing within the next 5 years"

"Shut up. Let me think about that when we get to it" There was a slight blush on his cheeks as he rolled his eyes "He would only do it as an exscuse to buy a ridiculously expensive dress anyway"

"He would. He will probably"

"That's my idiot for you" Virgil chuckeld.

"WE Must buy DOVES!!!" Patton exclaimed from the other side of the fire.

"And that's mine" Logan said.

Loud repeated honking could be heard as the third and final car drove into the creek. The triple threat of chaos got out. They were late because they'd stopped to get starbucks.

"Suuuppp gals! I'm here and I looOve you!" Remy greeted while walking up to them. Remus had his arm wrapped around their shoulders. Janus followed behind while carrying a box.

"We got the ingredients for dinner like we discussed" He said while dropping the box on Roman's feet because he was too classy to take care of that. "Why is everyone looking so ugh happy?....Gossip???"

"Me and my sweet dumpling have officially made plans to be legally weddinized...as the youngsters say"

"I can't wait to look better then everyone else at the wedding" Remy commented.

"I can't wait to poison the cake" Janus added on.

"I can't wait to seduce Lo's dad while he's busy getting married!" Remus concluded.

"DON'T YOU DARE YOU INFECTED RAT SPECIMEN!" Logan yelled back in return.

The duke pouted while sitting down next to him. He moved his arms around Lo's waist and pressed a kiss to his cheek "I'll just have to take you instead you dork"

Remy sat down on his other side. They held their hand on their forehead dramatically "Oh yes! Soon you'll like be a forbidden man! The terror! The grief! The melodrama of it all!" The two of them continued to loudly lament while clinging onto Logan and shaking him around.

Janus looked at Patton and said "Please take no offense that they're not loudly announcing the sadness of not potentionally getting to date and or copulate with you. It's just that joking about that would be weird since you're ehhh Dad!"

"Oh I don't mind" Pat replied with a smile.

"Good. On that note" He draped himself across Logan's lap and joined the dramatic fake cries coming from his 2 dumbasses.

Virgil sat with a content smile and looked around. Roman and Patton was making dinner. It would be chicken stew (without potatoes), bordering on soup. Perfect for a calm night under the stars. While the throuple was trying to up end each other on how dramatic they could make their fake wedding objections. Until the nerd made a comment about the moon being visible and all three froze mid sentence to listen to him ramble about space facts.

The emo leaned his head on his boyfriend's shoulder. He felt calm, so calm. He felt that more and more nowadays. The blood pumping constant anxiety that made him want to binge just to get away from it for a second wasn't there as much anymore. He'd even been able to go to the pharmacy to refill his meds last week alone. Without Roman's help!

"Dukey! knife time!" Roman said while holding out the knife.

"KNIFE!!!" Remus proceeded to stab the vegetables and chicken while laughing manically.

Roman leaned closer to Virgil and murmured "If he's doing that then I have time to-"

Without warning he shoved his hands up under his boyfriend's hoodie and tickled him. The emo tried to hold back laughter and blushing while playfully fighting back. Until he unleashed his ultra mega special move: turning around and kissing Roman.

It immediately made him stop the tickles and melt into the kiss. When Virgil leaned out of the kiss Ro still had a big dorky smile on his lips "Hehe you luv me. Your shield of stormclouds is nothing against my princely charm!"

"Yeah I'm sadly aware of that dude"

Roman pulled him into a hug "Ahhh you didn't object for once!"

"You've won me over you motherfucking bitch" He muttered while moving closer to him.

While their cuddling turned even cuddlier and kissier Patton and Janus discussed wedding plans. Specifically how to make it all more classy and how to easily eliminate anyone who would try to object. Remus shot in ideas about releasing murder wasps into the audience or putting edible lube in the cake but he mostly focused on the knife.

Logan was trying to give Remy ideas for jobs they could have once they'd recovered more. The enby kept saying If they recovered but Lo corrected it to When until they agreed.

After half an hour of chatter and the stew puttering Patton announced "DINNER TIME!"

He poured it up into bowls and handed it out to his kiddos and fiance. Logan stopped for a moment before taking the bowl. He took a deep breathe and reminded himself of the things he'd been told in therapy before taking it.

Remy held back the urge to tell Patton to give them less food. They grimaced when they took the bowl. Janus noticed and caressed their cheek to get their attention before patting his lap. Their grimace changed into a smile as they sat down on his lap. He snaked his arms around their waist and pressed a kiss to their cheek.

They lowered their sunglasses slightly to look into his eyes "You're tots the most gorgeous guy on earth you know that right?"

"Of course I know that mx. Snake charmer. It's an obvious fact" Jan replied before kissing them again.

Remus put some moss and dirt in his stew before cuddling up against Jan's side. He looked at him while pouting in the the most exaggerated way "I'm not the wost worweous wuy on wearth?"

"Babe no you're both like tied!" Remy gave themself a pat on the back for their genius "Me on the other hand is like the most gorgeous perfect human in the universe!"

The boyfriends looked at each other before nodding "I can not argue with that" Jan said.

They cuddled closer until the three of them was one blob of kisses, giggles and desperate attempts at not spilling any of the stew.

Patton sat down next to his fiance after giving everyone stew. The nerd was too busy looking at the stars beginning to be visible to notice him until Pat boped his nose.

Lo put the bowl aside to squish his chubby cheeks together before pressing a kiss to his mouth which made Pat grin and blush "Hello dumpling"

"Hehe soon we'll be mr and mr dumpling! And then in the future we can have mini dumplings running around at home. Then we'll be daddy dumplings!"

"Honey you already are"

Patton's grin turned even wider "You didn't say no" He teased while poking his shoulder.

"Indeed I did not. Good observation skills on me not articulating an objection against your suggestion of future so called mini dumplings...In a future where we're both fully recovered so there's no chance of negativivly effecting them of course" There was a small smile on his lips "It sounds very adorable though"

Patton let out a happy squeal while taking his hand and squeezing it "I know right!!!"

After that it quieted down for a while as they began to eat while looking at the wonderful star filled sky. They glimmered far above the dark tree tops. The stars and the moon was the only source of light aside from the fire.

"It would be fun if some aliens came and abducted me into their freaky mars sex club" Remus joked to break the silence.

"I love you kiddos" Patton sighed out in a gentle tone.

Remy held back a laugh "You thought of that 'cause of Rem wanting some like alien action?"

"No. I just" He looked around at them all "I just got so happy because we're all together"

"Aww padre we'll always stay together even if we're not physically together" Roman assured.

"Indeed. I see no reason we would break contact from each other anywhere in the near future" Logan added on "We have already gotten through a lot of relationship breaking things together. It's more then likely that we will be able to contine on"

"The only way you're getting away from us is if you set up som elaborate trap" Janus said with an amused smile.

"Oh but Janny you forget I would use some mutated piranha plants and an army of polar bear std zombies to make us all stay together again 'cause I love y'all too much to not wanna stick together!" Remus exclaimed.

"I tots double the I love you part" Remy flicked in "Maybe the rest. Not like sure yet"

"Of course we'll stay together dad" Virgil reached out and placed his hand on Patton's shoulder. He sent a smile to the rest of the group "We're family"

The dinner continued. Everyone was too busy hearing Patton's new dad joke to think about calories. Or too busy listening to Roman dramatically burst out into a disney song with Virgl shyly joining in to wonder whether this would turn into a binge. Or too busy paying attention to the heated but playful debate between Janus, Logan and Remus to be afraid of a relapse.

Everyone was too happy to even worry about food. It wouldn't always be like that of course. Recovery would still go up and down. But one day....One day probably sooner then any of them could believe food would just be food, not a problem.

The end

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