GAYS GAYS! 26 chapters in and I realize I've never actually said that Remus is autistic! He is, just like me! That's why he's stimming all the time and all that!
Tw: Very minor ED things, panic attack

Virgil leaned his head onto where the now rolled down window used to be. The wind blew in his hair and the sunbeams warmed his skin. They were driving by a sunflower field so the air smelled of flowers. He closed his eyes and smiled.

Roman quietly went between humming and singing to himself while he drove "Wasteland, baby I'm in love I'm in love with you"

They were on a roadtrip towards San Fransisco (which is totally just around 8 hours away from Florida). They were going to stay over for 3 days. First day would be museum day, the second would be Chinatown and even more art museum day (Roman liked his art okay) and on the third they would chill in some park before buying flowers and driving home again. They were 100% not going to alcatraz since that would definitely make Virgil anxious as hell.

"Hey wanna stop at that resturant? It's like 16 miles ahead" Virgil said after noticing a sign.

"You said we would eat at the blue whale diner" Roman replied.

"Well it'll be like 2 hours before we get there and then another hour till we get to the hotel. Isn't it just easier if we eat here? What difference does it make?"

His grip on the steering wheel turned so hard that his knuckles turned white "You said we would eat at the blue whale diner"

"Plans change sometimes y'know"

"You said-"

Virgil noticed how Roman's breathing had started to go faster and decided to interrupt "Okay princey maybe you should turn in and stop the car because if you continue to drive while you're panicking I'm going to start panicking about getting into a car crash and then we'll both be panicking"

He nodded before turning in on the parking lot of a gas station. He leaned his forhead against the steering wheel while trying to take deep breaths. Virgil moved closer and patted his back.

"Sorry, I just..I have a hard time changing food plans once they've been decided since it kinda takes a while for me to hype myself up enough to eat without wanting to not be healthy" Roman mumbled.

"Hey at least you're able eat at all. We can eat at the blue whale it's okay. I honestly just wanted to eat cause all this driving is making me anxious about sudden car crashes"

"Thanks hun. There should be some energy bars in the backseat somewhere if you're actually hungry. No binging"

"No binging!" Virgil exclaimed while leaning back to fumble around in the bags.

"The view is really nice from here" Roman said while eyeing the part of Virgil that was still left in the front seat.

When the emo sat back with his newly acquired snacks he frowned "You disgsuting harlot!" He smacked Ro with the energy bars.

"What? I'm just an innocent ace admiring your assets" he held up his hands to look extra innocent.

"Was that a fucking pun? Oh you're getting it now! Feel my rage!!"

He attacked Roman with tickles until he was squriming and laughing while trying to get his hands away. Virgil did an evil laugh while wrapping his arms around his boyfriend's waist and pulling him over so Ro was sitting on his lap with their faces facing each other.

"You are truly one vicious witch my good bitch" Roman said.

"Thank you, I've been working to perfect my evilness for years" He waved his hands around "Look, right now I'm putting you under a kissing spell that's how evil I am"

"Oh nooo!" Roman dramatically cried out "My princely mind is nothing against an evil spell!" With a smile he leaned forward and kissed him. 

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When Roman began to wake up his first instict was to cuddle closer to whatever he was hugging because it was incredible warm and soft. When he slowly opened his eyes he realized he was laying on top of Virgil with his arms protectivly wrapped around him. It was both snuggly and the best way to make sure whatever evil knight sneaking into their room killed him before they hurt his precious stormcloud.

What shocked him was when he looked at Virgil and was meet with the biggest most adorable puppy eyes he'd ever seen along with his boyfriend's cheeks being red from intense blushing.

"Good morning mi querido" Roman murmured before pressing a kiss to his nose. He moved so he was laying close to Virgil, his hand still lazily going up and down his thigh, instead of laying on top of him "You good? Because you are looking like a very cute christmas tree"

"Oh I just I um I...I'm not- I'm still getting used to eh like having a boyfriend and like waking up with you and stuff....yeah" Virgil stammered out while his blushing worsened.

Roman clasped his hands and let out a exaggerated "AWWWW!" In return he got a pillow thrown in his face.

Virgil got up to get ready but before he'd even been able to take a step away from the bed Roman wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled him back.

"No kissies for missies me?" The prince asked while pouting.

"You're insuffereable" Virgil muttered before leaning down and kissing his boyfriend until he was giggling from happiness.

They got ready. The emo put on his dark makeup and a loose band t-shirt. Roman put on a tank top and long baggy pants because he'd rather not look down and see his actual legs.

The hotel's breakfast room was filled with people as they walked into it. Both of their eyes were drawn to the buffee. Virgil's hand shook slightly, Roman took his hand and intertwined their fingers to calm him down.

"Hey princey can we go eat somewhere else? Don't wanna like lose control andbingebecauseofastupidbuffee"

Roman let out a sigh of relief "PLEase!" The true solidarity of all eating disorders: hating buffees.

They went to the nearest 7/11 and it took Roman less than 10 minutes before he found something he could eat without getting anxious! They ate while walking through a park towards the museum.

There were so many birds and squirrels around Virgil had to stop his lovey dovey disney fanatic boyfriend from pulling him into a dance through the trees. He did allow Roman to sit among the birds for a while and whisper sing disney songs to them though. The sun was shining down on him as he sung making his skin glitter. He was so beautiful Virgil wanted to stay sitting next to him and listen to him all day.

"You're kinda blushing a lot hot topic" Roman commented with a smile. A bird had sat down on his shoulder.

"Projecting much!?" Virgil threw out while trying to push his bangs forward to hide his blushing.

"Aww you're so cute when you....exists" He let the bird fly away before standing up and stretching his legs. He reached out a hand to help Virgil up even though he wasn't anywhere strong enough to.

15 minutes later they stood in the entrance hall of an art museum. There was a huge painting depicting nature. Virgil kept pointing out the cute killer bear while they waited in line to get in.

"Are mooses always that big or is that an ultra moose?" Virgil asked while eyeing the painting.

"Pretty sure all mooses look like that" Roman replied. They were holding hands so he stood right next to him.

"Remind me to never meet a moose because that's a big bitch"

"So your reaction to a giant bear is too think it's cute but you can't take a moose?"

"Bears are adorable in every possible form. Even in their gay human forms. Mooses have faces not even a mother could love"

Roman pouted "HOOONNEeeyyy don't mention gay bears!! You're reminding me of Patton not answering any of my texts or calls! Now I'm saaaaad"

The emo dragged his boyfriend (while he continued to loudly complain about hating when he was ignored) with him into the first main hall of art. The complaining very abruptly stopped when his eyes caught on some very beautiful women in a very beautiful painting and he began to gush about that instead. Which turned into him gushing about pretty painting guys and scenery and horses and landscapes and...everything!

Virgil was just following with him. He had a smirk on his lips from seeing his love be so happy. He was ranting about the difference between statues in the archaic period and the classic period of ancient greek. (Young Roman had spent a lot of time looking at greek statues of men while wondering why he thought they were That pretty)

"Oh god look how disgusting that is" Roman said while pointing at a realistic painting of wolves feisting on a dead deer. He took out his phone and took a photo of it.

"If you think it's disgusting why would you ever take a photo of it??"

"It's for dukey, I'm sure he'd like it"

Virgil leaned close and half mocked "Aww you wike your liwwle bwother so much"

"Shut up you only child! You have no rights!!"

The emo looked at him smugly and was about to reply with something sarcastic when his boyfriend let out a gasp and quickly dragged him with him into the next room. This one had stark white walls and was filled with people. Modern art lined the walls but in the middle was 5 statues. Each statue had made one part of animation process into 3D. The first statue was of the sketching state etc.

Roman's eyes were wide and he kept looking between his love and the statue as if simply looking excited would make Virgil as excited as him. Instead the only thing Virgil could focus on was the sheer amount of people surronding him.

A stranger bumped into him and he nearly jumped from fright. His heart beat faster as he glanced around. His eyes met with another person's and he immediatly stared down onto his feet. It felt like his breathing was caught in his throat.

All his thoughts became an incoherent mess. It was a mix of counting up every bad thing that could happen, everything wrong about him and the loudest voice screaming BINGE!BINGE!BINGE!BINGE!BINGE! over and over.

Virgil looked up and realized Roman's lips were moving and that he was looking at him with a happy expression but he couldn't hear a single word. His boyfriend's expression changed from happy to worried as he said something he couldn't hear. He gently held onto his wrist and led Virgil out of the room.

He felt numb as they walked out. He still couldn't breathe. He was pretty sure he was crying. He wished Patton could hug him right now. He realized he hadn't heard from Patton in months nor did he know what he was doing. He realized Logan could die while they were away and they wouldn't know for several days unless someone cared to tell them. Now he was sure he was crying.

Roman sat him down on a bench in a room with much less people. Virgil stared out into air while hyperventilating. He barely noticed when his boyfriend held his bottle of pills in front of him. He helped him open the bottle and take out a pill. He held up 10 fingers while saying something he still couldn't hear.

He took Virgil's shaking hand and held it for the next 10 minutes. Until the pill started to kick in and his breathing had gone back to normal.

"Sorry" His voice was raspy from crying.

"It's okay. I'm used to this. Dukey has had 10 times worse meltdowns and gone non verbal for much longer"

Virgil bit his fingernails out of anxiety while looking away "Ugh I...I just feel like I'm too complicated to have as a boyfriend"

Roman leaned against Virgil's side. He looked at him with a warm smile and scoffed out "Shut your stupid mouth"

"You have a stupid mouth!" He muttered in return "Stupid ugly kissable mouth"

It was quiet for a few minutes. Roman looked at the painting on the other side of the room. It was a still life portrait of a snake, grapes and wine. He tried to imagine the snake with tiny gloves and a hat on.

"Weird how the meds can take away like most of my urge to binge" Virgil said suddenly while picking at his skin.

"That's what they're for. Do they help enough for us to continue into the museum or do you wanna do something else?"

Virgil sputtered out some unintelgeable nonsense before stammering out "I-I you but you were enjoying the art and my stupid brain can't destroy all that for you! We can't just do something else! Then I ruin everything!"

"Honey every time there was a taxidermy exhibition near us Remus convinced me to go with him there and every time it ended with him walking back and forth while hitting his hands against his thighs, crying and humming 'cause there was too much sensory stuff and I would have to take him out of there. I've had to drive to a stranger's place at like 3 am several times 'cause the guy Remy was going to fuck did 1 thing that reminded them of their dad and now they're having a panic attack in his bathroom 'cause they think they will be beaten. I've never seen that as them ruining my evening or anything. I just want you to have as good of a time as you can with the kind of brain you have, kay?"

Virgil nodded "Okay. I still wanna try. I mean I have the meds and stuff so"

"Okay" Roman picked up a pair of earplugs from his pocket and handed them over "To help in case all the sounds make you anxious" He explained "I always have them in case the sounds are too much for dukey. It's a such a reflex to take them I did even though he's not here"

"Wat a gud liwwle bwother mwua mwua mwua" Virgil mocked once again.

Roman leaned their forheads together and whispered "I will cut your my chem hoodie in two" in a playful tone.

"Then I shall cut off all your disney dolls' hair"

"You wouldn't dare"

"Oh yes I would you cheap direct to dvd prince!" Virgil cupped his cheeks and kissed him "Love you"

"Love you too Gay Toro" Roman got up and took his hand "Ready to hear me ramble about art history for 3 hours?"

Virgil squeezed his hand and leaned his head on his shoulder as they walked "Wouldn't want to spend my day doing anything else"

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"Come on Para-bore! You can go faster!" Roman said while running up the last way to where they were going to have their picnic.

"I'm sorry not all of us exercises like a maniac" Virgil huffed while forcing himself up the last bit. He collapsed onto the ground while breathing heavily "I'm dead! Blerghgghhhhh so dead"

Roman grimaced. He didn't like when his boyfriend joked about death but he didn't want to sound oversensitive so he played along "Ehh I'm gonna play Helena by mcr on your funeral like you deserve"

"You better"

The prince took out a red blanket before taking out the 4 tortilla wraps they'd made and the diet cokes they'd taken with them. He made himself comfortable before sighing a sigh of contentment as he looked out at the beautiful view. The sun was hanging low on the lilac colored sky, it made the red bridge glisten and shine and the water went in hues of dark blue and purple.

Virgil stopped pretending to be dead and instead moved over so he sat leaned against Roman while he ate one of the wraps. Ro grimaced a little bit while eating his but he was able to get it all down.

After half an hour of talking and relaxing the emo had finished both of his tortillas and stolen one of his boyfriend's.

"-So anyway that's the story of how I had my first gay kiss at my cousin's christian themed party and accidentally set a bible on fire" Virgil concluded. Roman clapped.

Virgil stretched before laying down on his back. Roman dramatically patted at his boyfriend's tummy as if he was a cat before laying down with his head on it. It was soft and chubby so it was the ultimate form of pillow.

"You're perfect y'know" Roman said as his hand trailed from Virgil's chest down to his thigh.

"I know. I don't have body issues like one mr. Príncipe stupido. I know I am as wonderful as Sally's fashion sense in the nightmare before christmas"

"Hah! You fool! That doesn't stop me from opening my heart and letting my mighty flood of affection flood out!"

He shifted his position so he was sitting on Virgil's thigh. His left hand was still holding onto his boyfriend's thigh while his other went up to caress his cheek. He pressed quick kisses up his neck. When he heard his love giggle from happiness he moved the kisses up to his lips and made them more passionate.

Virgil wouldn't say it but it felt just a tiny bit heavy to have Roman sit on his leg like that. When they'd met he would have probably felt like nothing. The happiness he felt from that tiny change was too much to be described.

The kiss ended as they broke apart to let out gasping breaths for air. Their eyes meet. Roman had a playful smile on his lips. Virgil bit his lower lip for a moment before moving his arms around his love's waist to pull him close and kiss him once more.

It turned into sloppy kisses to Roman's jawline and him murmuring out "God I am so glad I met you"

Virgil's hair had tangled between his fingers as the kisses suddenly stopped. There was a tug of a smile on his lips as he held Roman as close as possible.

"Do you want to move in with me?"